The Kick Ass Task Of Grief

Grief is a beast, to say the least, my poetry's therapeutically deep and just such a tease, ain't aiming to please, especially anymore, found most performers are inherently whores, desperately seeking attention, with mostly capitalistic intention, people profit off my blood sweat tears and pain, y'all so vain, judgmental and self righteous, where are the other chosen ones here to enlighten us, perhaps God is water, don't be a hoarder, share the wealth, don't be afraid to give or receive both love and help, men should be more vulnerable and talk, instead of war smoke dope or go for a walk, calm the fuck down, stop acting like a clown, it's important to meet me where I'm at, build bridges and know Joe's always got ur back, simply speaks truth/#facts Jack, tongue twistedly transcribing my witty inspiring rhyming into ab fab rad rap tracks, that'll slap/smack/stab/attack with wicked mass sass and class, kick ass taking all those whack straight and black rappers to task!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

10/6/24

My Reality/Actuality Of Love & Happy

Oh what a night, it just felt so right, I knew at first sight, he had a certain light, like a higher vibe or frequency, and we seemed to connect seamlessly, was it meant to be, heaven sent him to me, to remind myself, there's always someone else, never ever give up, especially at love, as well as making all my dreams come true, poetry and music's something simply I have to do, fuck fortune and fame it's my purpose, also my passion and service, hoping I can help others, focusing on the mental health of my fellow brothers, breakdown barriers and stereotypes, show there's so much more depth and levels to our lives, we're onions personified, the rings within trees is where age's wisdom hides, along with manifestation and inception, illusion is perception's projection, tho it may be not what they see or believe, I'll create winning my Grammy a reality/actuality and finally be happy!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

10/6/24

Remember Us Together

Don't forget anger is a stage of grief, it doesn't care about belief, I'm allowed to be angry, even act completely strangely, please give me some grace, sorry if I convey hate, I don't mean to boo, and it ain't cool too, rather rude/misdirection projection, instead of sadness I'm supposed to be only grateful for the blessings I'm inheriting, minimizing my capableness, my life isn't stapled with priveleged bliss, it was never mine, I know in the future I'll be fine, but right in this moment now, I gotta own it and I don't know how, but like my mom said "u just do, keep pushing thru", when talking about my sister,  so I'll listen to her, and always remember, to cherish the beautiful time we all had together!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
10/5/24

Slave Away Or We All Fall

I do say what I mean and mean what I say, I'm only human tho so I probably had a bad day, I did love my mom alot, she's always in my mind soul and heart, but guess what she wasn't perfect, didn't do a good job of making me feel worth it, yet it's cool, I ain't no fool, I know my value, I keep doin art not cuz I have to, but it's my passion and purpose, I'm tired of the universe testing with what hurts us, I want positive reinforcement not negative, encouragement is crucial/imperative, I don't wanna be left insecure, considered an entitled bastard whore, cuz I refuse to be a slave, we weren't created or made to just work life away, only focused on making more money, boomers were hoardish selfish and greedy hunny, didn't pass the baton well at all, like the Roman empire it's time for their fall!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/30/24

All My Sacrificing & Suffering For Absolutely Nothing

Resilient brilliant driven and strong, but I wish my mom would've believed in me more, I hate her, so utterly and completely deeply hurt, I don't know how to live with this, y'all see privilege gifted bliss, and it isn't, insecurity is now intrinsic, I'll never get her approval, in fact I feel like a female poodle, u know a fucking bitch, who ain't rich, in fact I inherited absolutely nothing, after all the sacrificing and suffering, from dad to sister then mom, powerlessly imprisoning me with a trustee has caused irreparable harm, validating the opinion I'm financially incompetent, when I've proven extremely able patient graceful and tolerant, to a lot of negligent procrastination/bullshit, none of my uncles earned nor deserve that type of righteous pulpit, I'm smarter and wiser than all of them combined plus their current and ex wives, sorry not sorry I can't fake a lie my face will always say I'm just not fine!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/28/24

Was Enough Love

It isn't how u died but how u lived, if all u do is take and never did give, maybe they weren't the greatest or best, but I'm left in this empty nest, remembering just how lucky I was, having my family was enough love, wasn't desperate nor, looking for more, now they're my angels, and from any old angle, I'm truly grateful for being blessed, couldn't ever have guessed I past the test, only survived cuz they became a part of me, since quite honestly, there's simply no Joe without them, can't be born again until I reach my final's end!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/26/24

Fun Anyone

I don't want to be defined by grief and death, altho I am the only one left, I won't feel lonely or alone, all I want is like Tupac's rap "Happy Home", just not in the house I grew up in, sex shouldn't be in lieu of loving, I barely know people who can stand me, how will I ever find my new chosen family, is time running out, need to start upping my clout, perhaps once a source of joy's now a haunting ghost, it's not smart to be flaunting daunting braggadocious bravado, stay humble grateful and kind instead, I'm laying laid in my made bed, please don't judge me, punishingly/discouragingly, yucking my yum, but I'm done hun and then some, uve spun ur woven web, yet I ain't in debt, so I don't owe anyone, it's all about living life happy joyful and just having fun!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/25/24