Ladders Matter When Angst Is Ranked

Regaining the will to live, but being mindful how much I share and give, cuz I gave way to freely, never been super touchy feely, I do love intimacy and affection, don't need protection, except from myself, shouldn't be too prideful to ask and accept help, we only get one life, something about virtual reality and gaming just ain't right, yet another illusion of escape, most kids are filled with misplaced rage and hate, chalk it up to pubescent angst, does anybody like being ranked, in my own lane, and it's hard to stay sane, this industry is rough and tough, success is when preparedness meets opportunity and luck, which I simply haven't had, can't take shit personally or think I'm bad, money and popularity won't matter, ultimately my talent and skill will get me to the top of the hip hop/rap ladder!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/27/24

Endure Way More Sadisticness Galore

What to say today, isn't listen and obey, how about read and understand, wish peeps could be both friend and fan, instead y'all support strangers over who u know, I can tell alot about who's asking by calling me JC or Joe, my bubble is way bigger than my circle, the past 6 years have been a nonstop obstacle course of hurdles, defined mostly by my resilience to grief, no amount of selfless good deeds, could ever bring my happiness back, perhaps if I had my sister or dad, what I'm goin thru with mom, wouldn't cause so much harm, I'm suffocating and drowning, this experience has been harrowing, way more than any one man should endure, it's like sadisticness galore, does God get his jollies off, sits there on his cloudy perched porch and sarcastically scoffs, did u learn ur lesson yet, cuz in life this is as good as blessings get!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/25/24

The Plight & Strife Of Life

Today mom has chemo, as far as we know, her floor had an outbreak of covid, as if cancer wasn't hard enough to cope with, the woman can't catch a break, why is suffering humanity's fate, is the afterlife our reward, how long will we be mourned, does that define us, what's behind trust, is it hope or faith, I hate funerals and wakes, been to way too many, is there any sort of penalty, if like pets we get put down, why isn't death dignified like a crown, so much fear of the unknown, instead of having to listen to u bitch and bemoan, stop trying to escape, just run and hide away, ull perpetually be tested, God doesn't care how much uve invested, there's no toll, nor any reliable poll, that can properly judge, it's wasteful to envy and begrudge, own ur life, cuz there's nothing more character building than overcoming plight and strife!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/24/24

Sheesh...Good Grief

As I close this chapter I've come to believe, the overall theme that screams seems to be sheesh...good grief", use art as therapy, helping to create and make a better me, working on myself, understanding the power of wealth, which transcends money, a much higher frequency/vibration that's especially funny, super socially awkward and quirky, yet totally infectiously authentic and worthy, altho the future seems murky, I remain quite the flirty perky turkey, knowing that I have unwavering faith, I'll pave my own way, redefining what success means to me, as well as words like best or reasonably, what wisdom has exposed and shown, with the death of all my roots a whole new Joe's grown, rather truly beautifully indubitably, loving live hip hop performing's presumably rudly unruly and uncomputably cool beans b, shouldn't judge a book by its cover, I've survived the loss of my dad and sis but this is on another level losing my mother!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/22/24

Why's The Truth Aloof

Ain't gonna front, tho they gave a few months, the time is now, and I don't know how, to break the news, some are so confused, u have to spoon feed, even then they're delayed to believe, the ultimate inevitable truth, why is communicative understanding aloof, the divide is so wide, the only real place to hide, is somewhere amongst the grayish in-between, this nightmarish dream, it would seem keeps getting worse, won't dwell on the hurt, just shine my bright white light, writing poetry and more music helping to fight, for the greater good, why do I gotta be from the gutter or hood, to be a rapper taken seriously, I've been rocking mics and stages creatively for years fearlessly, sharpening my talent and skills, hopefully someday getting to a place where it'll pay all my bills!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/22/24

Sweet Sorrow Feelings' Meaning

It was like a collective acceptance with an answer, even though yes of course fuck cancer, now it's palliative care, it somehow softens the fear, let's just show up, with all the positivity musterable and love, like she gave us, I'll tell u the woman's got guts, and unbelievable strength, just when u thought she was spent, her smile radiated, we are just so ingratiated, whatever time's left, we should make it the best, enjoy each and every precious moment, I highly condone it, no regrets, add lots of hugs kisses and zest, life's a test and a hot mess for sure, but it isn't also perpetual guaranteed more, the end gives living meaning, that's that Shakespearean sweet sorrow feeling, it's just a natural part of it, so brace urselves for lots of impossibly hard shit!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/19/24

What A Big Beautiful Bright Light's Fight

Oh man, God damn, is all I can say, it had to be this way, I kind of understand, not a fan, I'd just do it differently, but then again life isn't simply, I won't make this long, maybe someday I'll write a song, this will be difficult, adding injury to insult, losing my last root, is like being kicked in the face with a stealtoed boot, ull be met with so much love, lots of familial kisses and hugs, she will finally be at peace, me too at least, it is still hard, what a hand dealt in cards, I hope she knows I'll be alright, she definitely put up a warrior style fight, thru all the pain plight and strife, she maintained being a magnificently inspiring big beautiful bright light!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
7/17/24