Who, What, When, Where & How

Bet u think this poem is about u, just another vain fool, most times I'm talking to myself, yes I know I need professional help, they say that's a sign of genius, why are men judged by their penis, can't start a fire without a spark, in order to love u need a heart, a majority of hot jocks and beautiful blondes aren't smart, online dating allows finding hook ups a la carte, no strings attached, relationships started from meeting at bars and clubs don't last, the internet has ruined social interaction, I personally know adults that lack dreams purpose and passion, just going thru the motions, like a robot lacking empathy or emotion, and forget about critical thinking, fun only involves drugs and drinking, our movies and music are all recycled garbage, our government is hell bent on spreading war and carnage, simply because it's more profitable, what happened to human kindness the greater good and being hospitable, discrimination and bigotry are running rampant, life seems to be one giant tangent, imaginary like the horizon line, receding and fleeting over time, which is another man-made construct, stop letting society control ur conduct, dictating who what when where and how, focus less on the past and future and live in the here and now, apply the golden rule, if everything happens for a reason use experience as a tool, learn the difference between knowledge and wisdom, this is not Trump's kingdom, we're still a democratic republic, everything Obama did he gutted it, reversing progress taking us backwards, reinvesting in coal and oil which are hazards, ruining our planet, I can't fucking stand it, wake up people, fight against the forces of evil, before it's too late, let's make the whole world sustainable socialistic and great, aren't there enough money and resources to go around, a change has gotta come and it needs to be profound!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/31/17

A Complicated Dance

Tired but pushing thru, trying not to overdo, tho fun is important, our hours allotted get shortened, between my day job music and working out, I've only got a little amount of energy to shout or bout, let alone squeeze in an occasional massage, send Mr. Sandman my regards, if sleep is the cousin of death, then so are coffins and beds, people always said I was an old soul, who can I blame for the youth time stole, with every tick-tock of the clock, destiny knocks, til ur reflection becomes unrecognizably aged, trapped and attached to a body ur consciousness enslaved, the temple's been neglected, poisoned and infected, by chaos along with the strife and plight of life, confused by truth and lies wrong or right, who ultimately decides, some imaginary guy in the sky, is it all just an illusion, can u become addicted to losing, finding comfort believing in bad luck, cuz I'm feeling cursed as fuck, like the devil's got a hold, I don't fit any normal mold, a freak of nature, ashamed of what ya mamma gave ya, shaking my ass isn't a money maker, imagine if there was a powerful eraser, that could delete all ur mistakes, allowing u to control and change fate, I wonder if anyone's been named God, I've heard Jesus a lot, but with a different pronunciation like hey Zeus, religion perpetuates abuse, think of all the wars fought, faith and magic can't be taught, we must find and walk our own path, can u please direct me to someone who can answer the questions I have to ask, I'm so lost, how much does enlightenment cost, is there some sort of cheat sheet, perhaps there's no meet and greet, just eternal black, keep moving forward stop looking back, there's simply one chance, think of existence as a complicated dance!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/30/17

Unconditional True Love's A Gift

Many days I awake still stumped, it's Wednesday so I'm trying to make it over the hump, I'm exhausted from worrying, everyone's in a hurry scurrying, instead of focusing on being in the moment, feels like I'm going against the tide rowing, so I'm getting nowhere, hoes don't care, it's just business to them, I don't want to get my heart broken again, having trouble even finding friends, my life's so different not always being bent, I can better manage my emotions, I'm not into promiscuousness makeup waxing plucking nor lathering lotions, cuz my beauty comes from the soul, healthiness is my ultimate goal, spiritual mental and physical, it's hard to distinguish between sarcastic and literal, guess I'm not all that easy to read, super nice and genuine is impossible for people to believe, ain't motivated by popularity or greed, please don't put ur past bad relationships on me, I am far from perfect, I've repeatedly sat by and watched u work it, right after u said uve changed, double standards are strange, it's tough to be a reflective mirror, being an empath I need to separate my shit clearer, getting too close makes things overwhelmingly confusing, happiness and success are simply illusions, manifestations of what we think others want to see, is this all but a dream, if so I want to wake up, wish I could at least make out if we can't make love, seems I don't meet ur standards, learn that asshole isn't synonymous with candor, why am I so sensitive and loyal, trying to suppress the point of boiled, a repressed ticking time bomb, keeping my over-analyzing mind calm, so I don't take my finger off the switch, become unstable and unhinged, gotta maintain equilibrium and balance, miss the days of idolizing chivalry and valiance, good got bastardized, the truth's disguised by lies, the world got shit twisted and is ass backwards, don't ignore and laugh at my words, my poetry is wise and profound, global warming is a fact Earth isn't flat it's round, ignorance isn't bliss, nothing not even fucking is more intimate than a kiss, said Julia Roberts in "Pretty Woman", stop presenting urselves if unavailable not cuz u can't but cuz u shouldn't, lust isn't a game, heartache can drive a person to kill or insane, love ain't nothing to fuck with, when unconditional and true it's a gift!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/29/17

Part Of That World

I don't need fame and fortune for validation, nor do I promote malice and hating, ghetto gangster thug just isn't in my nature, I prefer not to premeditate or cater, i'd rather be vague and more relatable, opinions unlike truth are debatable, but it's all perception, I love Italian food but also Chinese and Mexican, which makes me miss California like crazy, a lack of farmer's markets and better weather is phasing me, I never realized how much my emotions are tied to the environment, it's funny I don't dream of retirement, instead I hope and pray someday music becomes my career, hobnobbing with stars over a blunt and a beer, performing or recording every night, sweating my balls off being under the lights, going from cities and states to other countries, please don't belittle and make fun of me, I truly believe it is my destiny, I have faith some things are simply meant to be, but practice passion and perseverance helps, I serve the greater good not just myself, I wanna rise to lift the collective up, I endorse truth justice consciousness and love, which is unusual in hip hop today, plus I'm middle class college educated and masculine gay, definitely not a stereotype, I push and breakdown boundaries and limitations in life, anything is possible when u put ur mind heart and soul into it, u can't be rewarded for not doing shit, hard work eventually pays off, happiness and respect can't be bought, I wanna make my parents proud, have the name Vacca mean more than just cow, like Ariel sings "I don't know when...I don't know how", "but I know something's starting right now", "watch and ull see", "some day I'll be", rocking a victory speech at the Grammys, while all ya'll are jaw dropped at home on the couch in ur jammies!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/28/17

A Few Tokens & Keys

The key to success is motivation and consistency, I try to imagine in utopia how much bliss there'd be, no right or wrong just ignorance, what do all ya'll sinners think, in death we'd move on to a better place, do u believe free will is a hoax or waste, is there a divine higher plan/a pre-slated plate or fate, I can't remember the last time I went out on an actual date, men aren't the best romantics or wooers, where's all the givers and doers, everyone's waiting for Prince Charming to come sweep them off their feet, nobody waits til marriage to do the deed, we treat mates like cars, checking under the hood and taking a test drive still scars, taints the purity, not smoking pot seems to have cured me, I'm less anxious all the time, not even uninspired to continue writing rhymes, in fact I'm more clearheaded and focused, lust is a locust, beautiful, but's got a deadly bite, I hate to fight, sometimes tho it's a necessity, can't let jealousy get the best of me, I must be patient, perhaps I've been too complacent, gotta socialize more, without being too much of a slutty whore, it's a fact, life and love are a balancing act, it's hard not to lose urself, especially since we all need help, at one point or another, wish my transitions were smooth like butter, cuz my ride is bumpy and windy, pain can make the blind see, if they're willing and open, forgiveness is both a lesson and a token, peace and happiness is a state of mind, seek and u may find, beware of expectation and judgment, artists are honorary ombudsmen, keeping authority in line, only the faith are conscious of signs, there's gotta be purpose, trust ur guts fears and nervousness, have hope in positivity, take risks to learn what ur limits and boundaries be, travel as often as u can, take it step by step day by day and remember ur just one man, brush-fires start with a simple small spark, and stars shine brightest when it's really dark, guard ur soul and heart, understanding we don't know anything makes u wise not smart, appreciate all that uve got, materialistically speaking we don't need a lot, what's important are family and friends, fuck money cuz u can't take it with u when it all ends!

Peace and 1,

JC

3/27/17

Price Versus Cost

Trying to learn how to have more fun in my life, being serious and too deep all the time makes me prude and uptight, gotta get out of this rut, stop thinking in RI I'm destined to stay stuck, it isn't better anywhere else, traveling a lot helps, broadening horizons and perspective, still can't get over the President the Electoral College elected, but politics and news exacerbates my stress levels, I mean who cares if the economy is disheveled, totally joshing/being facetious if u didn't know, ya'll can't take sarcasm or a joke, apparently I have a wicked sense of humor, not a fan of Anthony Jeslenik or Amy Schumer, they dated at one time, both don't just toe but go over and cross the line, I simply don't like mean funny, art isn't valued by money, I mean sure it has cost, but like the soul shouldn't be bought, unless there's connection and meaning, never give up on dreams or stop believing, everything happens for a reason, and changes like the seasons, often times cyclical, repetition perpetuates cynical, love needs to be reciprocal, if u can dish shit but can't take it that's hypocritical, overpopulation is making this world unlivable, billionaires make the game unwinnable, hoarding all the dough, imagine if that was illegal tho, there'd be better distribution of wealth, perhaps we'd have the right to both free education and health, the US is one of the richest nations, but it's been years since I could enjoy a vacation, temp agencies have become human resources, bonuses should go to the workers not just the bosses, banks shouldn't be profiting off the poor, and credit card companies outrageous interest rates rape us like whores, profit margins are out of control, use wind and solar energy instead of gas oil and coal, we keep heading down the wrong path, corrections need to be made and must happen fast, otherwise the future looks damned and bleak, why couldn't we have just let Bernie lead?!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/24/17

Just Laugh At & Pass Past Bads

A big flaw of mine is caring too much, oversharing/spilling my guts, it's hard to tell the difference between friendship love and lust, and don't forget petty jealousy and envy, perhaps I should stop trying to force what wasn't meant for me, can't decide if I'm stubborn or determined, am I born gay or was it learned, since many believe we're products of our environment, never assume what a habitual liar meant, misunderstanding is common in communication, did u expect me to forever stay patiently waiting, I'm simply not built that way, I don't fake feelings or censor what I say, just genuine and direct, over analyze and reflect in hindsight/retrospect, too serious and existential, extremely intense and perceived mental, a prude dude, with a snobbish attitude, but if u took the chance, to converse run game or do the flirtatious dance, u might be surprised, I'm actually humble modest and a lil shy guy, somewhat insecure, always looking for more, that's the Gemini in me, keep searching for my happy, it's not in someone else, we all need help, but true strength resides within, it's not about where u end up or begin, the journey is most important, I prefer foreplay dating and courting, than casual sex blow and goes, everyone reaps what they sow, so take responsibility for ur actions, find ur purpose and passion, cuz life is short and fleeting, never stop believing, anything is possible but uve got to have the desire to at least try, u don't know what u got til it's gone especially when a loved one dies, so appreciate and value this moment, remember forgiveness and atonement, treasure ur relationships, even burned bridges can be fixed, if there's a solid foundation, when u belly-flop face-plant or pound pavement, get up dust it off let shit pass and just laugh, cuz time flies by way to fast to stay stuck in past bads!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/23/17