A Side Kick To Spit It On Thick With

So lucky and blessed to know, that I have a soul bro, like we've known each other in multiple lives, fuck coincidences when there's too much that coincides, growing up and into who we are, no matter the different traveled paths we're never too far, that we can't find an intersection, catching up thru blunt confessions, maybe a few new beautiful introductions, cuz when life's just shit and sucking, ain't nothing better than a night out in the city, wiling wicked all loosy goosy intrusively trippy with me, I'm never too busy, it ain't easy getting rid of me silly, cuz "I'd find u", like that Wedding Crasher chick said to the dude, we Gemini peeps be legit crazy, just don't make me, there's always a reason, behind the people pleasing, lies a revolutionary reactionist, recreating this poetic musical magicness/bliss, leaving everybody in awe of it, wanting more of my shit, but with a ride or die, right by my side, we're powerful enough to make a real change, but y'all keep thinking we're simply land of the misfit toys strange, the pariah messiah and his philosophical side kick, both eloquently equipped with deep creative quick wit to spit on thick!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/29/24

New Low For Old Joe

Hope isn't all lost, imagine how much faith cost, yet churches don't pay taxes, the matter of fact is, I'm tired of never catching a break, this optimism seems forced and fake, give it to me straight, is there an end date, or does this linger perpetually, I can't process these emotions intellectually, and my heart's shattered numb, like I've gone dumb, no longer know how to react, it's too hard to smile or laugh, how do I deal, doesn't feel real, but yet this is the reality, we all eventually become a casualty, there's no exception exemption or protection, if we only get to ask God one question, why all the suffering, I get that it's toughening, I can't handle anymore tho, the past 6 years I'd like to forego, I've hit a new low, and I don't know if I'll ever again be like the old Joe!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/26/24

Remembering The Blessing Of Being Present With Intention

Lately occasionally I emotionally freak out, I don't normally speak on how much I really bout, with the amount of concentrated grief, once mom has deceased, I become a siblingless orphan, and won't know the length of mourning, it'll take to get back to my true self, not even an inheritance can help, I feel like I simply blinked, and everything changed including the way I think, it's hard to keep giving gratitude and grace, my feelings are written all over my face, I'm over life, with all its plight and strife, I need a knife to cut the tension, hope I'll at least get an honorable mention, for my incredible level of resiliency, I've gotten so used to living with a contingency, but now I'm going on offense with intention, remembering just being present is a gifted blessing, never ever give up, cuz next after authenticity the highest vibration is love!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/25/24

Can Man Understand God's Plan

As life goes on another day, I try to find my way, thru all the chaos and grief, I have this unwavering faith/belief, it's all going according to plan, maybe humans aren't meant to understand, u know the bigger picture, just when u think certain people are staples or fixtures, God calls upon them, causing shock and astonishment, even if ur prepared for the worst, there's no way to determine how ull feel when ur bubble's burst, and everything immediately changes, may seem weird but I connect better with strangers, they see me without the baggage, and I'm not judged for my bad habits, like I'm a brand new clean blank slate, still torn between free will or fate, am I the passenger or the driver, does true power come from within or someplace higher?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/24/24

Believe In The Resilency Of Humanity

Don't miss out on blessings, protecting a lesson, accountability is the answer, I wonder if neglect or internalizing causes cancer, show urself the love, ur so easily giving up, yes we all make choices, most won't listen to voices, even their own, u can usually get a hint of context by the tone, that's why communicating via text, is probably not the best, cut off contact to the toxicity, life is beautiful and full of possibilities, remain open, faithful always hoping, things will work out, even when we don't know how, just gotta believe, in the resiliency of humanity, right when they seem down for the count, something happens to turn shit right around, never achieving perfection, instead of diversity find and focus on intersection, we are more alike than not, should've learned from T2 not to trust AI and robots!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/23/24

Delving Deep Into The Overwhelming

Life's been delving, deep into the overwhelming, and I ain't helming the ship, sometimes all this pain and grief doesn't feel like a gift, losing the strength to uplift and give grace, especially to both my remaining old family and the gays, nobody's showing up for me, the way I want or need, but I'm desperately longing, to feel seen and belonging, I'm so unimportant I'm practically a ghost, mostly cuz I don't brag nor boast, but unlike a narcissist instead, I toast everyone's success, I'd rather collab than compete, competitive yet can graciously accept defeat, now I know tho it's pretty rigged, this elaborate illusion has got me pissed, my rose colored glasses are gone, and the twilight zone is the new norm, my grounding roots have died, I guess I'm supposed to be happy to finally fly, however no matter how hard I try, I can't lie I'm not actually glad to be alive!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/22/24

What The World Hurled

So much pain and sadness in the world, sometimes I'm dumbfounded by all the shit the universe hurled, it's kinda crazy, why do y'all think I stay hazy, life's easier to take, quite simply baked, like almost always, don't blend in well with the gays, but that's alright, like Tina sang "I Don't Wanna Fight", trying to use my magic and light to heal, teach others to use art to share how they feel, it's my literal saving grace, everything's pretty much preference and taste, shouldn't take that personal, u perform like in rehearsal, it took me at least 10000 hours, to explore learn and embrace my best potential/power, since good things take time, to be epic I'm refining rhymes since 2009, which is when I wrote my first rap song, now I'm about to take Audible by storm, plus podcasting and more live performing/touring, exploring nonconforming the boring mentality of mourning mornings, groundhog day style, it's so wild I just nod with a chucklish giggily smile for a lil while, try to be grateful, instead of bitter and hateful, move on by keep living, and remembering to make sure ur not taking more than giving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/19/24