Yum Fun & Then Some

Had a weekend of fun, solicialized with pot booze shrooms and then some, even got a lil wild and kinky, my sneaks be extra stinky, since I wear em sockless, I'm not heartless, I won't subject others to that, esp those who have my back, on the real, don't care how u feel, man smells excite me, sniff and suck but don't bite freely, I find meditational therapy in squirming, who's putting me in bondage hurting, gently rub my cock balls feet and nipples, better yet strap me down for no mercy tickles, I need to be desensitized and just laugh, success and happiness shouldn't involve math, be more grateful for what we have, the only thing to control is how u react, never yuck another's yum, pay no mind to bums nor dumb dumbs, cuz u never know, not everybody reaps from what they sow, usually those who've worked the hardest, aren't producers or labels but in fact the starving artists!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/19/24

Just Jaded With Hatred

Turning 42, and I'm scared shitless dude, mostly cuz of the fact, that's when dad had his major heart attack, but also the age my sister died, which really turned the tide, time to grow up, over trying to find luck, perhaps it's not meant to be, preparing now for mom to leave, so I'll be the last one standing, consumers are impatiently demanding, with super short attention spans, not all friends and family are fans, I'm not being negative, it's just imperative, managing boundaries and expectations, willpower vs temptations, who will win, homosexuality may be a sin, but so is being born, there's no deadline to achieve dreams or mourn, a loss is a loss, the real cost, is the grace we don't give ourself, there shouldn't be shame attached to help, tho I'm getting older, I don't wanna become numb and colder, bitter or jaded, it's so sad how where there was love all that's left is resentment and hatred!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/17/24

Fuck The Queens' Misandry

How can u say u have pride, yet hide behind a disguise, I have more respect for mimes and clowns, super sick of all the misandry I've experienced til now, queens hoarding the attention, queer live performers don't even get honorable mention, let alone paid opportunities real support and reciprocity of love, y'all need to grow the fuck up, elevate and transcend, eradicate toxicity and try to achieve enlightenment, cuz ur acting like bottom feeders, moochers whores and leeches, I've lost respect for ur lack of character and dignity, choosing coin over community is not only silly, it's hurtful and hypocritical, no wonder why so many are bitter and cynical, drag is for talentless self proclaimed royalty, who apparently have no honor or loyalty, hurt people perpetuating trauma, used to play nice but quite simply I don't wanna, y'all burned bridges expecting a rescue boat, enjoy ur castled tables protected by deadbolted doors barred windows and a moat, lay in ur delusional illusions, with what ur choosing u miss what ur losing, me, too bad hindsight is 20/20, we're way passed that, #facts, it's 2024, and I won't tolerate this bullshit anymore!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/3/24

Teaching Y'all To Truly See MCJC

Call me the original lyrical leather daddy king who can rap and sing live...showing another more enlightened inclusive side to Pride without a disguise...open ur eyes to realize and truly see...how fashionably fabulous MCJC can actually be visually...we gay men need masculinity visibility too...the way I've been treated has been disrespectfully rude and just abusively cruel...so watch as I move in silence quiet...help bring revolutionary activism back to our culture with a soulful poetic hip hop block party/riot...all in the name of unconditional truth consciousness and love...cuz no matter what anyone says or thinks I am both valuable and enough...no hate or shade but drag queens aren't my competition...I'm so done trying to justify my worth to those who can't understand or won't even listen!

Peace and 1,
MCJC
5/2/24

Just Wanna Give Up & Quit Today

Where did my love and hopeful optimism go, are all gay men just hoes, I need intimacy and romance, I hate this digital dance, we're pretty disconnected, none of these presidential candidates should be elected, they are simply too old, been around since the dollar was backed by gold, now it's bullshit, I wish I could quit, life has gotten so unenjoyable, I guess I'm unemployable, nobody seems to want me, even when I beg and plead, another forgotten promise, why be humble modest and honest, evil has take over, I can't carry any more weight on my shoulders, fuck karma and luck, it's one of those days I just wanna give up!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/30/24

Opinion's Ignorance Blissfulness Business

Almost at the end of April, I'm over here wondering if I'm datable, I've been out the game for a while, duped y'all with a smile, I'm still pretty depressed, between grief and regrets, but I believe in better, we just gotta do it together, humans are social creatures, wish ud dig deeper than superficial features, there's so much about me, y'all simply can't see, I don't even, I bet u wanna know what I'm fiending, it's pretty perverted and kinky, warmer weather means men getting stinky, especially pits and feet, wiggling toes makes me weak, but that's not something I speak about, many disgustingly look at me how, please don't yuck my yum, perhaps before u judge something at least try it once, folks like different strokes, be careful ur character doesn't become taboo or a hoax, my reputation is none of my business, when it comes to opinions ignorance is blissfulness!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/29/24

Causing Commotion Spewing Conscious Thoughts & Emotions

Never hating, I'm just saying, spewing conscious thoughts and emotions, not thinking about consequences or commotion, caused by me, so awkwardly, my boundary now's taking the blame, I'm done playing games, I must vibrate differently, how does one become acclaimed critically, haven't hit yet I guess, in many other ways some say too blessed, whatever that means, nobody and nothing is what they seem, who I be, sexuality isn't my identity, let alone seeing me rap on stage, I'm not a stereotype nor is this another phase, I'm like a fine wine getting better with age, love squirming but not in a cage, that's a mind fuck, a microcosm of feeling being stuck, dependant externally, success isn't always commercially, nor perfectly achieved, there's no deadlines to dreams, resilience is key, blaze ahead full steam, please keep going and growing, remembering tho absolutely no one's all knowing!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/26/24

Global Genohomisuicide

It's easy to die, but hard to stay alive, look into loved one's eyes, before u say goodbye, instead of leaving us wondering why, or what we could've done right, wish u would've let me help u fight, cuz the most difficult part is at night, yet somehow I remember moonlight still shines bright, even the blind have sight, tho it's only hind, wish it paid to be kind, friendship is the best choice and consequence we can ultimately find, with our powers combined, captain planet could become personified, but just like the internet TV lies, with the release of ai, our capitalistic soul's been both duped and bribed, is human gooning consuming by design, and now it seems original artistry has died, which I've defined as a glabal genohomisuicide, slowly happening over time, justice doesn't exist nor accountability for committing crimes, cuz nowadays u can do what Trump did raise and pay a trillion dimes, when I don't even make shit for my decades of consistent creative rhymes, making less than a cent per spin/listen on YouTube Pandora Apple and Spotify, while lip synching drag queens holograms and bots overclog spots for my chance to perform live, how do I finally wake up and realize, my own epically legendary legacy is the real prize, so simply surrender to the faith of fate and try to stay resilient enjoying the ride!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/23/24

It's 4/20 Hunny

Another 4/20 huny, in about an hour it'll finally be sunny, wish I had a show to perform at, this required need to conform's whack, America is not a corporation nor its military, policing the world isn't necessary, that's the UN's job, all this war is alot, covid did more damage than we thought, at the end of the day most people can be bought, I wasn't taught being raised right, everybody's going thru tons of struggles/fights, I try to remember, humans have the capacity to know do and be better, my poetry and songs are like my life letters, speaking my truth love and consciousness, lessening the insane level of lyrical obnoxiousness, especially in pop hip hop, I just can't and won't stop til I reach the top, take the lead, show y'all what raw live true talent has the capacity to be!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/20/24

Finding Fulfilled's Still Uphill

Leaning into surrender, becoming a better pretender, internalizing so much more, than I ever have before, trying to find gratitude and grace, it's even harder to keep faith, while all hope seems false, does God hear my cries and calls, or is he sarcastically laughing, watching me get so passionately mad and, throwing another hissy fit, super antagonistic, it's just my nature, I can disagree and not hate ya, got mad love to give, might not be ready to take control of how I live, may sound silly, but mom is my ultimate responsibility, along with 2 pups, who are totally the reason I haven't given up, plus I've got big big dreams to fulfill, I know now tho the road ahead is still uphill!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/18/24

Uplift With Ur Gift

I'm still ashamed, to be gay, not all the time, but I do find, no matter what I do, to try and prove I'm cool, I feel lesser than, automatically hateful towards effeminate homo bretheran, when that's further from the truth, I envy their perseverance and strength dude, finding one's authentic self is such a gift, but now u have a responsibility to communally uplift, remember ur ultimate goal/legacy, is to keep spreading truth love and consciousness thru poetic music being epically legendary!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/15/24

Honest To Con Artists

I thought I finally found peace, but after letting go's initial release, I opened up my eyes, only to realize, I'm still a hot mess, full of grief/depressed, as I long for a former life, with less responsibility and strife, not having a dad or sis, makes me unconditionally miss, what having a family was like, having to caretake for my mom doesn't feel right, but I refuse to abandon her, I don't demand fur, nor any type of label, just cuz I've got mental health issues doesn't mean I'm disabled, most my existence I've been bastardized, for being gay white into hip hop and getting blastedly high, this is just who I am, I'm waiting on the world to change if it even can, seems to be goin in the wrong direction, wish there were real spells for protection, unfortunately there aren't any, I've learned I'm plenty friendly, sometimes at my own detriment, my poetry isn't meant to have negative sentiment, I'm simply being honest, in a world filled with nothing but con artists!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/12/24

Rooting Birds Hurts

Why do we try to root birds, it spiritually hurts, just like hope, and that continuous nope, let me fly, at least get high, cuz I'm gonna go hang, with music and Mary Jane, that's my comfort zone, learning how to make on the mic my home, really truly let go, completely naked and vulnerable, bare my soul, be willing to publically grow, all those mistakes, creates self hate, a lack of confidence or security, safety is totally behind purity, which is why I'm blessed to be so lucky, I have a ton of family friends and fans who genuinely love me, even tho they may not show up and say it, resilience is the key for anybody to make it, live with gratitude faith and grace, in an overpopulated world we all are allowed to hold space, travel any lane with whatever mate we wish, always remember that just being present is literally such a gift!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/6/24

Assumption's Gumption

Let downs, lead to frowns, and bitter sadness, creating emotional madness, wow how shit happens, wonder what strangers are masking, silent struggles, bewitched or muggles, am I the only one, who doesn't own a gun, such a pacifist, not a masochist, I need more positive reinforcement, a sponsor or endorsement, from someone prominent or famous, this negligence is utterly heinous, seems so silly, but where's the reciprocity, one way streets, always on repeat, while I'm supposed to swallow politely, but I'd rather be bitchy complainy and gripey, my kindness usually wins, nobody remembers how the problem begins, so then I become labeled crazy, I know my potheaded mind can be at times hazy, I'm tired of assumptions, all this maga gumption, born in the wrong era for sure, I just don't need exponentially better or more, wanna instead strike balance, be recognized for my talent, valued appreciated and respected, staying mindful that success and popularity aren't elected!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/4/24

A Bright & Blinding Horizon

So much more on the horizon, it's almost mind blinding, I'm on the precipice of it being my time, finding my grind, focusing my shine, on my own divine deep inside, finally stopped running to try and hide, deny myself, which then spells I can't be helped, sad but so true, u both decide and define u, no one else, we create our own personal hells, instead of accepting and embracing the bright white light, that can only come after the fight, but there's still no winner just all around losing, who's choosing right or wrong, especially which style or genre of song's strong, we all belong, let's finally celebrate society's legalization of weed by collectively cheersing ripping ur blunts bowls and bongs!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
3/31/24

Transcendent Sentient Repetition

Not bad just not good enough, I know that's tough, to hear swallow digest or simply receive, there's a fine line between what we perceive or say we collectively believe, u won't ever speak for me, uve made that apparently b, I'm respectfully free to disagree, and yet not be anti anything, I just wanna write rap and sing, original content with substance and soul, instead of being boxed exploited and told to mold so much ur left wondering where did all the natural love and passion go tho, just another singing competition, I can't be conditioned, I found my power, fuck just 15 minutes I want 15 trillion billion million hours, only paying .0015 cents in taxes, so sick of March madness brackets, instead of economic fiscal responsibility, they play it off and say that's simply silly/willy nilly, don't trouble urself blindly trust thee, butt fuck me whorishly some more please baby, u can't rape the willing, kinky is much hotter and way more erotically thrilling, or perhaps interesting is the word, sexual repression is such a curse, it makes exploration hard, even if ur both socially and intellectually smart, wisdom only comes with experiences, there will be extreme fog white noise and sheer interferences, but I'll say it again stay strong, and as always u gotta keep holding on!!!!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
3/29/24

Evolutionary Senses

Unless physically touched I feel with my brain like I see with empathy from my heart but with music we hear it from our soul...that's ultimately why video killed the radio star! After all sex sells and in capitalistic consumerism where it pays everybody but the artists...exploit or be exploited! Hence why the industry is so substancelessly empty and hollow! The only magical healing remedy I've found has been live performance...esp when watching raw authentic talent that can be truly divinely supernatural chilling and moving! It's cool to be just like that now...stepping into the best version of myself yet! Totally focused more on touring rather than content cuz I'm always creating anyway! Not only is nobody doing what I'm doing musically...but y'all ain't seen a hip hop artist perform like MCJC! The evolution of Joe Conscious from poetic conception to now is leaps and bounds incredible! Def done my 10k hours...but that's all just been my opening act! Stay tuned...

Go back and reread those first few lines 4 or 5 times lol

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
3/26/24

Y'all Seem To Be Just Anti Me

Can't please everyone that's for sure, life lately is such a bore, y'all busy working, and clearly don't care I'm hurting, it used to bother me deeply, now I give 0 fucks freely, single with no kids, gay and unafraid of the hiv since I'm not promiscuous, I get off mainly without penetration, I no longer react without hesitation, cuz I'm trying to be mindful, days are not rewindable, ain't that a shame, existence isn't a game, but it damn sure's a hustle, what's important brains or muscle, why are so many people anti pot, as well as hip hop, country bumpkins bumping red solo cup songs, like smoking cigs in their pickup trucks drunk as fuck isn't just as wrong, in fact much much worse, I swear I'm cursed, the whitest black sheep ever, wondering if this ignorant punishing suffering lasts forever!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
3/24/24

Live Life Bullish To The Fullest

Gotta love/hate, those manic Mondays, passion and drive don't automatically pay, once all the frustration fades, I remember if u want something done, do it ur damn self son, ain't nobody can help u, stop trying to change fools, let them be, they clearly can't see, ur ultimate potential, which is transcendent and exponential, gotta keep the hope and faith going, only believe what peeps actually be showing, no more 3rd and 4th chances, follow ur gut tho when giving 2nd glances, in case at 1st sight happens, instead of focusing on fear or tears I'm gonna start laughing, cuz life's just too short, and since we don't have the right to abort, treat each day bullish, always of course live it up to the fullest!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
3/18/24

Still Have & Hold Hope To Resiliently Cope

I've been really trying, to keep my soul from tiring, so drained, seems I can't be trained, to just absorb and swallow, already feeling empty and hollow, cuz the loves of my life have died, struggling to be included in Pride and can't understand why, it should be automatic, the lack of support is traumatic, many think I'm dramatic, but at almost 42 I must be tragic, holding onto these extreme big dreams, of touring stadiums and being nominated for Grammys, been unemployed since 2020, existence is wicked funny, do we live to work, why do my boundaries make me the jerk, am I spoiled and selfish, caretaking for my mom was hellish, but I'm still here, dealing with irrational fear, yet more confident in myself than ever, almost completely untethered, it's weird to have both deep roots and wings, have absolutely no interest in materialistic things, wish I could find my people, who believe hundred billionaires are evil, and boomers should finally pass the torch, instead I spend most hours of my days chillen doin music on the side porch, contemplating what I'm goin to do, especially like how I should move, altho I know and truly believe, I am exactly right where I need to be, debating fate vs free will, ain't no forward motion stuck in RI still, but I have and hold hope, as well as a ton more therapeutic tools to resiliently cope!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
3/15/24

Dreamer Of Peace (beat by atømics)

Hey it's me MCJC...classically sleek/blasphemously nasty sheek...talent be masterfully crafty...a casualty to thinking sexuality's identity...but being wicked idealistic bleeds breeds and breathes naive...where's there truth b in what we know see and read...will we even quit feeding this capitalistic beast's greed and let music lead...transcend queer gender money religion race or creed...pour poetic lyrical love over these soulfully dope beats and put em on repeat...yearn for y'all to learn patience and understanding realness are ingredients we need to be...

A dreamer of peace... 

Y'all best believe... 

I'm a dreamer of peace...

Feel free to repeat...

I'm a dreamer of peace...

I'm a dreamer of peace...

Yeah...yeah...yeah...I'm a...

Always be beautifully unique...enjoy life's sweet journey thru vast valleys and peaks...young one's fun shuns vulnerability as weak...why don't all humans strive to mindfully speak...hip hop has a whole totally global niche reach...masking rapper's acting not actually practicing what they preach...cuz boo the true u's who collectively we seek...know tho if u don't sow u won't reap...that first worst step's so steep seems an impossibly giant leap...nothing's more important than genuine authenticity silly so we simply shouldn't teach but bravely be...

A dreamer of peace... 

Y'all best believe... 

I'm a dreamer of peace...

Feel free to repeat...

I'm a dreamer of peace..

I'm a dreamer of peace...

Yeah...yeah...

Beneath sheets eagled freak meets artsy geek...bearded in jeans with either beater ts hoodies or on fleek piqued leather clad rapdaddy physique...that king hasn't captured mass viral intrigue...profits legally leaked seized or reaped...buttfuck digital industry cuz these labels just suck deez...can't car companies bring back playin tax free cds for us indies... consumers keep buying blindedly lying disguising kind sheep...unbelievably follow these overcrowding illuminati theories...prey on peace of peep's backs/exploited knees...bitch please everybody's got the ability to achieve and succeed not fantasy ull be...

A dreamer of peace... 

Y'all best believe... 

I'm a dreamer of peace...

Feel free to repeat...

I'm a dreamer of peace...

I'm a dreamer of peace...

Yeah

Therapeutic Tool/Music Muse Too

I may not be black, but I'm a gay guy that raps and adds a backslash, so no I don't say the "N" word I spit fag, turning a negative into a positive u fatherfucking fool, no homo bro I'm super chill/cool, my poetry and music's a therapeutic tool the whole globe can use as a muse to inspire higher consciousness too!

✌️👍💓
MCJC
3/12/24

✌️👍💜

Resiliently keep striving to show up with love for the culture elevating consciousness, obliterating discriminating and degrading toxic hip hop obnoxiousness, it used to be a beaconal voice for the voiceless, life's basically consequences and choices, there's no good bad right or wrong just what u do, we've lost sight of our morals ethics and what we value, cursed with purse hurt, who can afford a coffin or hearse, fucked up what's funny, it's all just money money money, I'm disgusted, broken and can't trust shit, wondering how to surround myself with help, screwed from abuse of such concentration of wealth, it's effected our collective mental and spirtual health, it's hard getting up outta bed in the morning, ignoring the boring daunting daily fatherfucking exhaustion, where are better go getter hustlers with substance who selflessly give to uplift a gift, of higher vibrational frequency and realness, in this vampire/zombie/sheep like apocalypse called existence, so soul draining it's plain brain dead, instead we accept it now costs $20 for a breakfast of bacon eggs and bread, forgive me for feeling being upset, plus politically pretty anxious of what to expect next, gotta redifine success as spreading smiles daps and the best hugs, finally sign off with the JC salute of peace and one love!

✌️👍💜
MCJC
3/10/24

Hypocriticism's Disposition

Went from umbilical chord to leash, in metaphorical speak, with sarcastic satire and gest, I don't proclaim to be the best, I may be abrasive, remember tho I'm a creative, isn't it just funny, what ultimately makes money, wouldn't say I have a sunny disposition, I'm sick of hypocriticism, that isn't a real word, but it works, cuz u got the gist, like saying cis if u read this, yet it's pronounced sigh, I usually smell like I'm high, that doesn't mean I am, most celebrities are scams, but billionaires are even worse, I'm starting to believe capitalism's a cancerous curse, not to be negative, it is however imperative, to use both hearts and heads, and lay all this stupid superficial superfluous shit to rest!

✌️👍💜
MCJC
3/2/24