Best Refreshed

Feel rejuvenated and refreshed, came back at my best, I took my sabbatical to process all I've been thru, in the desert there's not much to do, but to sit with urself, except enjoy the health wealth and help, my chosen family provides, sometimes friends can be the greatest loves of our lives, my mind and heart are still messed up, I'm having trouble with sex and wanting to phuck, mostly cuz I connect better, with older aged people who've managed to somehow weather, every storm dead end hurdle or curve ball thrown my way in life, especially the extreme grief pain plight and strife, which I've surprisingly survived, so now it seems I'm about to fly high/phoenixly rise!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/30/26

The Gays Always Shine & Thrive

Heading back to RI tomorrow, found some peace processing grief/sorrow, I wouldn't say I'm fully healed, but it helps poetically expressing how I feel, got a way with words, working thru all the hurt, art is like therapy, aiding in bettering me, then performing magic for the masses, get up off them asses, support local live music, my hip hop's rap mixed with r&b and some soul infused into it, inspirationally authentic, children and true fans can just simply sense it, a deeply feely frequency or vibe, that spiritually resides inside, a light so bright shadows can't hide, I genuinely believe my creativity gives me meaning even if being alive's to shine and thrive!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/26

Don't Back That Delirious Aquarius

The worst sign of the zodiac is Aquarius, not only are they stubborn they're delirious, I won't ever again respond, wish u would already be gone, I don't want u period, and I'm very serious, Gemini are like that, once u cross us we cut off and won't go back, ur love attention and apologies are empty, fuck Lucifer and the morning star I'm a chosen warrior angel God sent me, u bet I'm all light, existing is my fight, transmuted pain and grief into art, nobody can buy my soul or heart, never ever would I exploit harm or kill, winning life isn't a game of fortune nor fame but being humbly grateful present and fulfilled!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/26

Hey God...It’s Me JC

Please God let him finally be gone for good, some folks got me completely misunderstood, and I just simply don't care, no more masks shame guilt nor fear, I've got this, found clarity's bliss, along with peace, from such extreme concentrated grief, til u join my ranks in life's country club, ur not being snobbishly snubbed, u actually have the privilege not to know, I'll never be the old Joe, consider him metaphorically dead instead, it's the only way to heal and move on outta my head, surrender accept and embrace, being present is the gift of amazing grace, finding heaven here on Earth, I'll proudly represent my whole family's light love and worth, learned how to project so u get the best healthiest version of me, y'all should respect my decision from now forward to be only referred to as JC!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/27/26

Can’t Authoritarian The Youth's Truth

Who walks and reads, can talk and recall what they've just seen, that's some super human shit, I try to be altruistic, what's wrong with idealism, tough luck care disguised as realism, it's minimizing and diminishing, nobody esp authority is listening, elderly earned respect but it's not reciprocally given to the youth, they're much too worriedly overprotective of the truth, which makes us irrationally question if this is unconditional love, cuz I don't feel financially autonomous nor deserving/worthy enough, but now I've resiliently learned to give myself a break with grace, live unafraid to praise say thanks again for friends having hope and faith it'll all work out ok! 

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/24/26

Hold Like Gold Stories Told

Life is school, so living is learning fool, stop wasting time, seek to find, hypothesize and study, treat everybody like they're ur bestest buddy, don't yuck my yummy, I'm more than ok with a chubby tummy, big is beautiful, saying that wasn't dutiful, I mean and believe deeply what I say, deeds not word's my motto these days, Adam used to say that, he always had my back, a literal warrior soldier, u never realize how ur childhood molds ya til ur older, truthbomb isn’t it, cherish that classic shit, ull have those as memories to hold, like nuggets of glittering gold sprinkled throughout stories told!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/24/26

Misunderstand Land

If we don't want our ship sunk, perhaps y'all should listen to JC but u can call me Gunc, stop this toxic obnoxiousness, time to awaken consciousness, why do we seem pleased, being poisoned with cancerous dis-ease, our food we eat and the air we breathe deep perpetuating harm, fluoride got us comfortably ignoring warning signs/alarms, while wondering what happened, nobody's laughing, cuz it's a finite life, how about starving the parasite, that option's never before been communicated, systems change becoming outdated, just like the old boomer way, perhaps it's simply too late, ironically humans trump capital, yet the wealthy elite portray poor black trans immigrant women the problematic radicals, so we're still stuck in backwards upside down land, where we perpetually inevitably overcorrect at best and misunderstand!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/24/26

Humaning Evolutioning

Evolutioning is humaning, which is simply being not doing, and if that's confusing, government's abusing using, herding's hurting we the sheeple, so shepherding's the epitome of evil, sounds like the boomers, perhaps they were just duped groomers, crafting corrupt revolutionary heroes and warriors, historians became dictatorish storiers, holding truth knowledge and wisdom captive, framing the "correct" capitalistically consumed narrative, that we're standing up for freedom justice and righteousness, but not actually even fighting for this, ignoring completely the real enemy, what matters most is how we exspend/expand our time money and energy, there should be no poor nor lack, "they" simply lie and hide that fact!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/23/26

Blind Mind's Eye

Don't wanna be ur daddy or u my bro, u should do better if or when u know, it's ur responsibility, even if u think what I'm saying is silly/willy nilly, life is so serious its a privilege, marriage is only a business, nothing to do with love, learn to be content not knowing u don't have enough, money doesn't define value, no piercings nor tattoo, yet I'm still bad ass, cuz I soul rap and I'm not black, also openly gay, why does that matter u say, if u never ask, how am I accountable for the blind mind reading y'all lack?!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/26

Culture Vultures

Humans can create imaginary entities, but there's so much commodifying identity, esp in gay culture, where we're sharks snakes pups pigs bears otters and vultures, animals by nature, with consciousness not to hate ya, but to embrace and accept all, think it's time for fascism to finally fall, money and time ain't real, governments don't care how we the people feel, they're just lining pockets, while designed checks and balances can't seem to stop it, how do we move forward from here with shared care, when the rulers in power only inundate us with scarcity tactics division and fear!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/26

Best Jest Subtext

Less drag more local art and live music, can have some infused into it, but this is getting ridiculous, RuPaul's plan wasn't insidious, the lgba community was already never a monolith, why can't y'all get the gist, we're all special and unique, playing a sexual game of hide and seek, mostly with ourselves, the victims in therapy don't need help, it's these narcissistic hypocrites, both so low eq whether from ignorance or they're illiterates, completely naively missing homoerotic subtext, isn't blatant sarcasm the best backhanded truth said in jest!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/26

Intentional Sexual

The way society's commodifying intimacy, is utterly and completely embittering me, I don't phuck friends, I'm not gonna say it again, come at me correct, my hole and seed I feel the need to protect, during sex u spiritually imprint, when giving love I can't be transactional casual or indifferent, call it demi or sapio sexual, my obliviousness isn't intentional, ur come ons should slap, do u want front or back, ur pits and feet stinky, at least a lil bit kinky, everything else is negotiable, oh I forgot to ask who's hosting tho?!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/36

Can U Pay Enough For Love

Be conscious of what ur saying, we've lost the art of conversation, way better face to face or at least video, I find social media and hookup apps silly yo, they're so disingenuous, too many men only seeking generous, they've become prostitutes, cuz they got lots of issues, being financially exploited for generations, the providers receive all the hating, like they're not doing enough, have to pay to phuck, doesn't seem to realistically be true gay love, perhaps aim more toward polyamory/polygamy, but what wins out every time is discrimination hate greed and bigotry!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/26

Wise Old Gold

Imagine humanity's a plant that be trying to grow, reaching for sunlight in all different directions tho, that's what happens with couples, and why thruples are trouble, not cuz it's wrong or bad, aging just does that, if u have the privilege, but on the other side having outlived my sis, it's like the proverbial mountain top kind of lonely, haven't met those people before to warn or who told me, what glitters isn't always this rich bliss/blessed gold, was I meant to have this much life wisdom at only almost 44 years old?!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/20/26

Answers Transferred

Soaking up the sun hot tub and pool, enjoying the serene mountain and palm tree view, helped rejuvenate my spirit/soul, patched up my heart's hole, scarred from all the grief, reaffirmed my hope faith and belief, I'll always be alright, even tho my whole family's out of sight, their light now resides in me, an unrooted bird finally flying free, looking for lily pads to land, please be soft and try to understand, it's a country club nobody wants to join, beloved energy roams our collective consciousness' void cuz it can never get destroyed, only transferred, in u is where their resurrection prayers are answered!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/20/26

Use Vs Empathy Energy

They're completely different energies, use vs empathy, we want to receive then give, that's a bad karma way to live, what others lack it's really us, most don't have the resilience strength nor guts, to ultimately choose u, and the worst thing a fool'd do, try to help someone else, robbing their ability to solve shit themselves, no good deed goes unpunished, a life should be measured in circumference, not just one mistake, ull never solve anything waiting on fate!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/19/26

An Incompatible Natural

Not trying to be a saint guru or polished poet, I’m a horny stubborn farting philosopher that didn't know it, pretty simply came natural, Tupac energy compatible, a sensitive thug but comfortably gay, I know he didn't play that way, the gist of what I'm saying is this, I want someone sexy smart creative with emotional intelligence, apparently that's too much to ask, most gay men only know use cuz truth's lacked, they don't even know themselves, incapable of accepting knowledgeable help, mistaking pride for ego, realizing love isn't business or legal, since marriage and kids absolutely ain't for me, won't settle for 3rd wheel nor dl str8s anymore I'll just wait patiently, til finally I find, my soulmate/partner in crime!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/15/26

Daddy Death Said

No status quo ho, u know what tho, kinda wish I was, my soul or dick controlled by normal lust, too bad u can't see, my wet dreams/fantasies, I need a pleasure not daddy dom, who won't dictate cause pain or harm, both open minded and hearted, laughs at my goofs and excuses when inappropriately farted, right in the middle of butt sex, I know I'm patience's test, I'll out stubborn it, like Trump doesn't govern shit, let's rereverse, cuz this world is cursed and it hurts, just like Tupac said, still relevant decades after he's been dead!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/15/26

Hollered Unbothered

I'm not complaining, yoyoing numbers from 3k to 800 daily gets draining, not cuz I'm worried, my art's never been hurried, success only comes when it does, can never again be what it was, but it can connect in other ways, made a family of platonic gays, who are my rock, helped my heart to unlock, more so letting love in again, perhaps my soulmates are friends, I'm totally ok with that, cuz they got my front and back, actually I'm rather unbothered, just super glad u hollered!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/15/26

Salty It's All Faulty

Don't y'all realize Capitalism's corrupt and faulty, art doesn't care if the truth is salty, I'm abrasive and raw, but I'll never crawl or claw, patiently and politely waiting in line, woo woo for that delusional divine sign, I'm not the chosen one, life wasn't serious just fun, well doesn't that make me silly, how foolish to vibrate authenticity, humans hate hanging with angels, learn our energetic souls are unified entangled, what's the difference between a mirage hologram and an illusion, if people are the problem government's the pollution solution, seems to me we've really lost sight, of the light fight to do what's greater good right!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/14/26

Pain Explained

People learn more from watching others embody growth over hearing it explained, perhaps that's why growth and evolution happens thru grief failure and pain, even wise insight can land badly if not ready to see it, can't disagree to agree on shit, unsolicited truth often instigates resistance, success takes delusional drive along with consistent persistence, we plan yet God trumps us, but still gotta stand firm in our own moral compass, let people be where they are, no matter how far apart, become discerning instead of cynical, realizing I can't help save fix or change him was pivotal, not because anybody's wrong or right, but because their journey isn’t mine to manage or fight, meet me where I live emotionally to stimulate, too many men take instead of reciprocate, craving stability over intensity, tough to find the better me when I've lost huge levels of love density, my loneliness this time isn't for protection, it's more like solitude with direction, no longer hoarding fomo nor financial depravity, now that my artistic calling's become a center of gravity, instead of just following chaotic hardheaded passion, hope to inspire y'all to manifest ur best life cuz creating it takes integrity in action!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/13/26

All Fascism Falls

Some paths must be chosen alone, do u put urself on a pedestal or throne, presidents aren't dictators nor royalty, righteousness isn't loyalty, false gods harm, when even celebrities are alarmed, panic ain't far behind, there's so much truth in my rhymes, it's not subjective, perspective shouldn't be elective, pick a side, instead of avoidingly hide, somewhere in the middle, life's an unsolvable riddle, is this for the greater good, why are we so misunderstood, I don't claim to be mr know it all, but it's only a matter of time before fascism falls!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/13/26

Shallow Shadows

Is our purpose or path accepting we all die, that can't be the grande why, what a level u left in ur wake, yes I was probably baked, u won't believe, how debilitating the grief, whole family in 6 years, who knew that was even a fear, I dream big, now it's a nightmare I live, happiness and joy, lost in not being sustainably employed, while my magic's gone, blocked from writing another song, light creates shadows, consciousness superficial shallow, and I can't seem to find love in u or he, so ultimately decided I must just choose me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/8/26

Legendary Legacy Energy

Friction creativity and my artist energy, it won't infringe on my legendary legacy, in fact it'll help, money hunny has nothing to do with wealth, fame isn't real, I just found a clever way to express how I feel, keep a diary journal of ur own, my family's in my heart so I'm always home, no more shadows I'm all light, with a revolutionary spirit to lyrically fight, truth and justice guide our way, holding hope and faith may actually save today, so stay with me, maybe baby we were born to be free!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/7/26

An Important Warning

Creation is a binary system in so many ways, when in reality humans live within the gray, there isn't one universal right or wrong, they say there's a finite amount of original songs, but is there, isn’t scarcity a mindset built thru fear, what did u hear, never gossip nor smear, reputation like character's important, for all other artists here's my warning, own ur masters so ur never controlled, fame money and success are definitely not worth ur soul!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/7/26

Flourish Nourished

Don't mean to scare u or be rude, use my experience as ur food, we flourish when nourished, its important to uplift and encourage, it's not about what I say it's what u do, keep assuming I'm just a fool, in the end neither choice matters, Americans are much fatter, fed poison kept ill, giving the illusion of free will, to burn it all down, then get something worsely profound, I know that's not a word jerk, how can letters put together hurt, unless u let them, perhaps we live lives again and again and again, til we yearn to learn, everybody should have their turn, in due time, listening to my rhymes finally falling in line!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/7/26

Divorce Discourse

Any type of jealousy/hating, is really a moral violation, especially when it comes from a cousin Aunt or Uncle, why would u worsen my struggle, as if losing my whole immediate family wasn't hard enough, all this responsibility and stuff was rough and tough, trying to find the gratitude, not let grief or bitterness consume my attitude, cuz I can change the energy in every room, do u wanna be cremated or entombed, most die in debt, and nobody thinks about what happens with excess left, u spend years having to wait, while lawyers litigate laughing their way to bank, much worse than a divorce, in hindsight realizing there wasn't need for such unnecessarily lengthy discourse!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/6/26

Is Truth Uncouth

Am I done writing, like inheritance fighting, haven't I been thru enough, done with tough love, I can't take anymore, integrity raped like many a whore, why cuz I'm gay, they won't get away, karma is inevitable, never been one to settle, so when pushed I go hard, the best at playing my dealt cards, I'm a champion at being stubborn, even after death she be mothering, and what's funny, it ain't about money, principal matters most, def not a braggart who boasts, I always spit authentic truth, which to people in power seems disrespectfully uncouth, aww that's too bad, go ahead and get mad, I don't care, cuz from now on I refuse to live in scarcity or feed fear!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/6/26

Resurrected JC

Coincidence or synchronicity, my rhymes a major time killer silly, with lyrical intellectualism sass depth breath and wit, come to think of it, it transcendantly helps connect thru feelings, giving empty lettered words personified meaning logic and reasoning, rather profoundly a heart and soul led philosopher in fact, with sophisticated street cred many other dl homo bros lack, if there's been anybody ever even really like me, with the death of JV anything left is what Mariah Lauryn and Pac's spirit all resurrected in JC!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/2/26

Ur Symmetry's Limiting Me

Just stop boxing labeling and limiting me, I'm all about renewable conscious energetic symmetry, I'm done being ashamed and embittered, or easily manipulated to be triggered, on the other side of that extreme concentrated grief trauma drama I'm not untouchable, but embracing the fact that I'm super duper lovable, and I'm probably corny, nobody ever warned me, the baby's usually the last one standing, the heartless darkness of death doesn't need any flames fanning, so no more proving tough enough, I've fallen deep down rabbit holes moles won't know how to go up, yet like when JC/Jean Grey dies, The Phoenix's resilient rise will religiously surprise!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/2/26

The Calm Bomb

Why do I still muddle and huddle in struggle, like I don't believe Lauryn singing "the whole of the world is a hustle", continue to do it too over and over, already hold my family's legacy on my shoulders, absorbed their light, so this ultimate battle I have to endure/fight, is bigger and badder than most, not to be a braggart who boasts, but my mom dad and sis were the bomb, u won't like when I'm disengaged calm, in fact that's when y'all should be worried, better flurry in a hurry, if on some bullshit wasting time, I'll return the same energy of everything's ok just cuz ur fine!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/2/26

See Me

Perhaps I'm afraid of getting it all, is that why I naturally play small, I figured it was cuz I'm a people pleaser, they say I'm such a sexy stud/teaser, but what I simply don't see, isn't that just me, high fiving the morning mirror, full moons don't make feelings clearer, don't forget I'm a double Gemini guy, shouldn't I stay high, the world will be thankful, while I try remaining humbly grateful, gotta keep belief hope and faith open to pray, always be patient kind and forgiving to live within this harmonious bliss of amazing grace!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/2/26

Our Power Of Love Community & Unity

Just wanna spread love light and smiles, every piece of art becomes more tiles, assembled corectly showing a greater mosaic, artistically vanquishing all this ignorant division discrimination and hatred, we need each other, I miss being a lil brother, my whole family actually if I'm being honest, I'm really just a minimalist kind humble hearted and modest, authentically cares to share how he deeply feels hoping to help people, inspiring others to stand up together to better combat these forces of evil, phuck both individual/sexuality hurd mentality let's create community, there's nothing more pheonixally resilient than the undefeated power of righteous sacred unity!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/1/26