Revolutionary Activism

Hip hop is revolutionary activism, but most ya'll ain't living or listening, music is supposed to be transcendent and enlightening, there's a big difference between freestyle battling and songwriting, esp since I'm only authentic and genuine, I'm much more of a humble gentleman, but that don't make me a nice chump finishing last, I don't feel the need to put others on blast, I'd rather self deprecate than appropriate, definitely ain't trying to perpetuate hate, but since I'm gay and white, best believe I'm here queer and ready to ignite that fight, to help love win, when will fun rebegin, I haven't had any since I was a kid, death and grief make it impossible to forgive, what's the point, if existence is just a Shakespearean tragedy I'm pissed off/annoyed, fairness and justice are fairytale fables, I'm always ready willing and able, to throw a R.A.P show on the spot, giving my whole heart and soul with all that I've got, to entertain y'all, while I navigate life's trustfall, knowing none of u will even try to catch me, does anyone else think about legacy, I'm still determined to make mine epic, probably seem crazy and eccentric, to think a faggot cracker rapper can succeed in the mainstream, selling out stadiums and winning Grammys, I don't care if u equally agree or believe, cuz only I can achieve my own dreams I conceive!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
2/6/23

A Boss Breaking Cycles

Still trying to figure out how to break cycles that are toxic, this hamster wheel shit is tired and obnoxious, I'm pissed at god, why does life gotta be this unfair and hard, like it's simply torture we survive, seems like ain't a chance in hell on earth I'll ever thrive, even as a masculine gay white dude, thinking I can make it in the rap game am I a fool, I'm confident in myself, but nobody makes it without help, half my family is dead and gone, wondering when I no longer have to mourn, mom's health is declining, and every day I awake I'm finding, more stress pressure and responsibility, I'm only human without any super hero abilities, isn't that common sense, perhaps these are all reasons I justify staying bent, I don't drink much smoke cigs or do hard drugs, cuz I'm all about love and spreading hugs, never feel like I'm enough, no easy street all roads are tough, that's why I live to serve, u get what u give is what I've learned, instead y'all give what u get, hurt people hurt people bet, my community is broken, I've tried to be a revolutionary example being outspoken, but I'm repeatedly dismissed, equal opportunity and support are my biggest wish, am I standing on that ledge alone, my reputation and character should not be defined by who I bone, I wear my heart not my sexuality on my sleeve, I have unwavering hope and faith u best believe, I'm determined to be seen and heard, I'll use both hip hop and spoken word, whatever gets my point across, remember to never ever underestimate a boss!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
2/2/23

Either Or Times 4

I'm definitely not pitch perfect, but trust seeing my passion and soul performing live is worth it, I'll leave my heart on the stage, connect with straights and gays, cuz consciousnesses is universal, I practice my fat hairy italian ass off during rehearsal, I've got that wow factor dropping jaws, breaking down boundaries stereotypes and outdated laws/social norms, I'm not the problem nor the root cause, but a magnet for others who feel wallflowerish and lost, my hip hop music's transcendent rhythm and poetry, I want the whole globe whether I go by JC or JV to know it's me, I can't help it I'm a double Gemini, since it's both my sun and moon sign, and a lil sag, I readily admit and embrace the fact that I'm a weird kinky fag, change the n word to that, since I ain't black, when I'm doin memorized classic cover songs, behind the mic feels like I'm where I belong, almost my home, of course I'm stoned, in a happy safe space, wishing y'all could display more honor dignity and grace, we need love gratitude and kindness, I've learned light might mean mindfulness, being present for the gift that it is, fuck just Christmas!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
1/30/23

Reignite Love's Light For Life

U can't run or hide, but why'm I glorified only after I've died, seems like a wasted life, that ain't fair or right, is that the gay white plight, isn't black the absence of light, in hip hop I gotta bark and bite, add a dab of spice to my tiny slice, while both races still won't unite nor get tight, we all must fight together with might, for the future to really be bright, I hope my legacy is to always spark and reignite, since love's colorlessness gives lifts with angelic wings for flight, to new levels/existential heights, so even any ignorance gains insight, despite humanity's gripes slights or spite, we gonna rise as sure as another day turns to night!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
1/29/23

Too Much Not Enough

U ever feel like ur too much and not enough at the same time, it's not that I'm too lazy to grind, I'm simply tired of never getting closer to achieving my dreams, hard work doesn't pay like it seems, and I'm just plain tired, why everyone else who's hired, actually succeeds, what about me and my needs, I'm learning, perhaps I'm undeserving, too comfortable and spoiled, making dinner reheated or boiled, definitely not gourmet style, far from domesticated I'm a wild child, wanna sell out stadiums and win a Grammy, I don't think anyone could possibly understand me, I simply can't fake shit, absolutely worried I won't make it, and I'll be perceived a fool, a wasted life cuz I played too by the rules, that are imaginary and only an illusion, totally doomed to wrong choosing, I played the safe bet, took for granted my great net, my beautiful family provided, and now griefs divided, to equal just me and mom, waiting for that massive last bomb, when she's gone, how will I not live bitterly scorned, all alone, can I rediscover or recreate that feeling of home?

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
1/20/23

Had A Bad Day Ok

I'm allowed a bad day here and there, even tho society doesn't care for fear, it's apart of being human, I often think to myself what the hell am I doing, I get it wrong alot, despite being wicked smart, I get in my own way, still a lil ashamed being gay, but I'm no longer a brother, having trouble showing grace and gratitude towards my mother, we've sort of reversed roles, she doesn't understand my dreams and goals, gotta stop looking for her approval it'll never happen, do u ever find urself awkwardly laughing, when it's something serious or not the right time, should stop replying I'm fine, especially when I'm really not, fuck business minded I'm all heart, and also soul, gotta get up and go, staying stagnant hasn't been healthy, what will I do once I'm wealthy, I don't feel prepared, look at all the hardship I bared, I'm very proud, and reject that dark cloud shroud, I'm letting love's light in again, perhaps my life is some other beginning's end.

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
1/14/23

The Price I Pay Faking Ok

Had a bad day after a terrible night, why is my life a neverending torturous fight, I'm not good at faking ok, when every day seems I have to pay, cuz my existence is only about money, I suck so bad at succeeding it's becoming funny, so fucking cliche, I mean a hip hop artist who's white short bald chubby and openly gay, come on get real, people don't care to listen to music that's thought provoking deep and makes em feel, most rap fans hate a sensitive sally, I've lost my ability to confidently rally, like I have no more hope and faith, my spark of light got crushed by grief's wave, all I ever wanted was to make my mom proud, but look what I allowed, I'm just a shell, maybe that's why I'll wind up in hell, only to keep reliving this nightmare, I keep choosing to live life comfortably right in fear!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
1/10/23