Ride My Creation Vibration

U can call me JC the MC, he's all daddy/leathery, now releasing and unleashing my bearish Gemini side with pride, teach never to hide let ur authenticity aggressively ride, it's the highest vibration, especially if u have the power of artistic creation, in whatever form, u dictate what's norm, ain't that the trick, we manifest this shit, which is hard to swallow, how evil and greed's made life seem so soulless and hollow, just a bunch of  robotic sheep and zombie workaholic slaves, wasting time and energy away depraved to their early graves, give thanks to us real talented men women and gays, still fighting for true revolutionary love thru poetry and music to help save the day!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
2/27/25

Beyond Bearable My Hero

I'm worried about my friend, who's loved one could be near the end, it breaks my heart, being there for others can be hard, especially caretaking, winds up self sacrificing and draining, but it's the right thing to do, what if it was u, at the hospital alone, no wonder he doesn't answer the phone, really hope both are alright, and he lives to fight, for at least a lil while longer, adversity helps us grow stronger, but this level of suffering is beyond bearable, in my opinion my buddy is a real live hero!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/26/25

The Universe Is The Worst

Isn't bad timing just the worst, get so upset at the universe, let me jog the anxiety away, perhaps ejaculate, to take my mind off this desire, can't control how I'm simply wired, what should I do, mom would say push thru, but it's never-ending, becoming unbefriending, totally minimizing and downsizing, experiencing a profound enwisening, breaking generational toxic traits, no longer compartmentalizing lying and hiding for the sake of the straights, nor setting myself on fire to keep others warm, u can miss me when u don't know what u got and now it's gone, ghosted too much so tough luck, cuz now I'm all out of love!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/25/25

I'm Why

Is it time to move on, am I being conned, I don't think so, but u know Joe, u overthink and feel way too much, blindly give trust and love, like it's automatic, that's a wicked bad habit, sublimely kind and giving, use people pleasing to try and make a living, cuz being an artist's the father fucking hardest, esp naturally humble honest and modest, for many it's a miserable existence, life takes consistent persistence and resilience, just to barely stay alive, drinking nothing but tears cried, keep repeatedly questioning who's to blame and why, when the answer to the problem is me myself I!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/25/25

Why My Leather Love

Yes I'm into leather, sorry for never telling ya, didn't know how to bring it up, I want kinky love, as a beta it's hard, to have sex without involving ur heart, but the sub has all the power, having boundaries doesn't make me a coward, trust takes time, tell me ur fantasies and I'll share mine, I'm pretty open, love bonding over smoking and toking, I'm chill as fuck, rugged and tough, most have no luck, trying to size me up, never judge a book by its cover, I'm a pretty great friend and lover, in my 40s I'm finally adulting, so no need for u to hate or say something insulting, shouldn't yuck someone's yum, it's totally cool if u we don't have the same type of sexual fun hun!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/25/25

Kinky Piggy

When locked in chastity, I have this animalistic audacity, to pig tf out, I can't believe I'm saying this loud and proud, may as well pay homage, to my love for squirming in bondage, don't be afraid to taunt tease and tickle, my wicked hardwired nipples, have a huge foot fetish, clean but with a sweaty sock and sneak embellish, doms can call me Sniff, a master can be alpha yet not a narcissistic prick/dick, plus I give a great bomb ass massage, genuinely authentic not a fantasy nor mirage, I'm the real deal, a versatile submissive top who communicates how he feels, who also walks his talk, instead of passively hawk and gawk, extremely private and discrete, always safe and respectful when we meet, open to poppers and butt plugs, possibly even getting fucked, sorry tho cuz I'm not into vanilla hook ups, at this point in life I'd like to find myself kinky love!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
2/25/25

Doubly Privileged & Gifted

U can be friends but don't just expect it back, that might be an ability they lack, not a personal attack, that's facts, I'm lucky to know love friendship and family, many can't understand me, I'm doubly privileged, extremely smart and gifted, but genuinely authentic and humble, I hate when the sound's distorted and mumbled, my words matter, and put on a live performance rather spectacular, not to toot my own horn, I feel reborn, or like an unrooted bird, finally being acknowledged seen and heard for all my dedication perseverance and hard work!

Peace and 1

Joe Conscious 

2/23/25

Flare For Dramatics & Sarcasticness

My head def has a flare for emotional dramatics, plus my super dry sarcasticness, is often way too intense for most, I feel like I vibe better with the west coast, but I'm not ready to make that move again, right now I needed the love of extended family and friends, life is hard wherever u go, having a support system is important tho, esp in the gay community, where there doesn't seem to be much unity, I'm not able to brave the forest quite yet, but I'd be willing to confidently take a bet, I'm on the path where I need to be, finding footing when I get to fly free, and gotta eventually land, somethings man just isn't meant to understand!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/23/25

Super Strong Too Stupid Long

That's it, our friendship's finished, it was a one way street, I gotta retreat and focus on me, surrender and let go, ur the bestest sexy besty I've ever met tho, so that seems impossibly hard, breaks my heart, that's life right, consistent existence of plight and strife, my resilience game's super strong, minutes hours and days without him feel stupid long, I crave his presence, enamored by his essence, addicted to his scent, said shit that wasn't meant, worry and fear took over, tired of having the world on my shoulders, I should put u down, which takes strength so profound, I truly believe I'm too weak, bad timing isn't failure nor defeat, perhaps there's someone else who's better, but I'll forever remember how special our moment was together!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/23/25

The Talent Of Balance Challenge

Perhaps I can't see the light cuz I am it, can't understand shit, only human I guess, hide truth behind jest, life's a test, u don't have to be the best, just show up and live, be willing to give grace and forgive, both others and urself, we all need hugs kisses cuddles and help, why is that so hard for me, way too guarded maybe, I know I'm lusted and wanted, if u got it flaunt it, but I find I'm giving off the wrong idea, I'm really wicked lost in insecurity and fear, no one dates, or even tries to spit game, unless they're online, which is another very illusionary waste of time, much better to meet in person, I think I wind up hurting, cuz our culture's alcohol and quick sex, where I'd rather stay home smoke weed and veg, can't seem to strike balance, being socially openly sexual is quite the challenge and I lack that talent!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/22/25

Gay Growing Pain

I suck at being gay, almost 43 and still experiencing growing pain, need love but they only want sex, everybody's looking for what's next, unappreciative of the one they have already, this level of unhappiness and unfulfillment is making me unsteady, can't find my footing/grounding, my fantasies keep on hounding, so my attention is misfocused, wish there was real hocus pocus, cuz I don't wanna hurt, feel so God damn cursed, I'm tired of alone and lonely, my radiant smile is actually phony, masking my sadness, caught up in this world of madness, worried about tomorrow, seems like life's just nothing but sorrow, cold dark empty and hollow, with no more guiding light to follow!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/22/25

An Honest Artist

If I'm being honest, the hardest life is being an artist, impossible to keep up with, having talent is a perceived gift, it's the fame that's a curse, believing illusions hurts, get to know the real me, let's get intimate and kinky, felt nice to crush, not usually susceptible to lust, but he's the exception, I thought friendship was my intention, until jealousy crept in, and now I'm worried about deception, am I allowed to change my mind, can't press rewind, and undo what's already been done, perhaps it's too late and should settle for sexy besty platonic fun!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/21/25

Crappy & Unhappy

I just want him so bad, it's driving me mad, thought we could be friends, but after thinking it over again, I like him more, my problem is I'm not a whore, I have to get to know someone, before I have sexual fun, I need connection, and also protection, this world is a dangerous place, the most fucked up people are the gays, they're so damaged and broken, can only be around them drinking and smoking, I'm so unhappy, gotta get used to life being lonely and crappy!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/20/25

Dead Head

I was his friend he wasn't mine, wish I could press rewind, and let him pass me by, instead of saying hi, developed a major crush, but got flushed, cuz he couldn't show up, liars don't know love, trust is key, I no longer believe, gay romance doesn't exist, lost the will to live, now that my family's all dead, I'm fucked in the heart and head, probably be alone forever, nobody wants to spend sexual time together, and it's my fault, kept my kinks locked in a vault, now that my walls came tumbling down, I wanna be bound, and given pleasure, wish someone would see me like treasure!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/20/25

Solo With Fomo

He broke my heart, ripped my soul apart, I hate gay men, only get sex with payment, how fucking sad am I, that's why I stay high, it's how I get thru this shitty life, stabbed in the back with a knife, then he twisted, I swear I'm gifted, at being alone, many claim but have never shown, perhaps I'm incapable of being loved, I'm just not good enough, I long for and ache, a partner or a mate, tired of solo, consumed by fomo, cuz all my friends are straight and married with kids, I'm lost more than ever and simply don't know how to live!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/20/25

Lonely For Homey

This one really hurt, can't say they're jerks, just let me down again, man I need reciprocal friends, perhaps it's not love that's the problem it's sex, gay men are always looking for better or next, but I'm used to roots, didn't have familial rejection or abuse, so I can't relate, I don't feel oppression or hate, but I'm wicked lonely, miss that feeling of homey, will I ever get that back, I guess I'm a bad fag, can't be promiscuous, everyone's anonymous/ambiguous, and I'm absolutely hating, only online dating, I'm giving up, don't think I'll ever have luck with love!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/20/25

Gotta Task To Ask

Moving downtown, is a change rather profound, a whole new chapter, bubbled from the rapture, engulfing humanity, the profanity of it all is insanity, please don't leave me, I guess when it comes to u I'm greedy, but not in a jealous way, for him I pray, he could see himself and the world thru my eyes, maybe he can't realize, how can anyone, when it's all said and done, we only know what we see and feel, what's rare is genuine authenticity and finding a guy who keeps shit real, I need a gay Christian Grey, unfortunately I'm afraid, that's an unrealistic ask, yet I remain hopefully open there's an alpha Dom daddy somewhere who's up for mastering that task!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
2/17/25

How To Get With This

Can't believe how much progress I've made, this next chapter of my life will be great, I just know it, tho I can't control shit, and there will be some bumps along the way, tomorrow is a brand new day, living downtown should be fun, once this move is done, I can begin again, thank God for extended family and friends, along with weed, music too and of course poetry, what would existence be without art, like trying to love but have no heart, even being single, I'm out and about ready to mingle, ull find me most likely at the eagle, definitely not dressed all regal, showing up as my authentic self, making these other Leatherman melt, radiating pure joy, but ain't no boy toy, I'm rather scruffy and built thick, u gotta be something special to get with this dick!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/14/25

Bubba/Boo Or A Few

Always dream big and lately they include u, but with each passing day I feel more like a fool, what must I do, to make u see me as cool, someone u could be attracted to, maybe even call me bubba/boo, cuz it takes 2 dude, it's so true, there's no one else who, is capable of a coup, please don't poo poo, or threaten to sue, even relationships have hue, if only he knew, my new home is equivalent to goo, perhaps we don't have 1 love but a few!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
2/5/25

No Close Hope

Can u see me, or am I ghostly, I'm hurting, why's he gotta be a cat person, this loneliness is deadly, thought we were bestys, but he's barely friendly, rejection is gonna be the end of me, out of sight and mind, I truly believe I'm a catch/find, but never the lover, I'm a big hugger, perhaps I'm too desperate, there's only been one Everett, no one else has come close, someone I'm interested in likes me back is the hope, keep dreaming I guess, fairytales are just jest, there's no gay prince charming, how we treat each other is alarming, taken so much for granted, I don't think I will ever understand it!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/5/25

Light Bright

Gonna start selling my art directly, to help protect me, from having too many hands in my pockets, looks like we can't stop it, ai nor exploitation, I swear y'all enjoy hating, especially on creatives, I'm sure ur elated, making something from nothing, all peaceful and loving, u wish u could shine bright, like my light, despite all the heartache and pain, I never became bitter or vain, my brilliance, is the consistency of my resilience, poetry and music are my heart and soul, but not being properly supported and valued is taking a serious toll, provide hope and faith, by sending some opportunity or fan mail my way!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/4/25

Can't Get Enough Of Love

Can u be too tired, to get inspired, just when I thought I was down and out, boy did I come back and bout, book of poetry and a new EP, this chapter is all about Joe Conscious/MCJC, 2 birds of a feather, like sides of a coin stuck together, can't have one without the other, so many angels including dad G and my mother, earth seems kinda lonely, I may be a sub but nobody will ever own me, I hope and pray to never give up on love, cuz in this materialistic world it's the only thing we can't get enough of!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/2/25