Lesson's I'm The Blessing

Felt I was due for a poem, altho I'm reminded alot I'm alone, I'm not lonely, nor am I phony, but I will say I want to be loved, losing my whole immediate family's been tough, like I've lost my super power, I wouldn't say I hide away or cower, but I don't put myself out there as much, I long for an affectionate touch and such, need more cuddles and snuggles, if I'm honest I'm rather befuddled, what's wrong with me, now that I'm finally free, why am I still here, does he return the level of care, or perhaps I'm minimal, maybe plain invisible, pretty toolish, feeling foolish, fated single forever, wishing we could be together, when the ultimate lesson, is self loving's my life long blessing!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/31/25

Bent Prophetic Transcendant Intelligent

I wanna be iconic, but isn't it ironic, the tonic called liquid luck doesn't exist, could any of us really resist if it did, misusing it of course, absolute rowdiness ensuing with mass discourse, only met with brute Marshall law force, while the virtuously riteous are supposed to be good subservient sports, bastardized like warts, I thought humans were fallen angels, the truth's moot/mangled, completely leveled disheveled, yet so many complicitly consistently insist to assist uncompelled this mentality just told to tell, ain't no don't ask in that equation, afterall aids in gays leaves an abrasion, welcome to the invasion of the complacent, or the adjacent frustration of illusionary imitation, lacking creativity with any substance, sick of interrupting instructions from a circumference of curmudgeon, no more drudging in the sludge and nudging for nothing, when they'll never wake up and pay attention, simply incapable of any form of resurrection insurrection or my brand of demanded transcendant ascension, mostly cuz my vocabulary is beyond their retention's comprehension, it's a blessing I only mention with intention when questioning if I'm bent or deeply prophetic intelligent!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/21/25

Rebegin & Win

Is art and creativity exhaustable, or simply transformable, takes on different shapes and contexts, it's pretty complex, definitely takes practice, ask me how long I've been at this, and I'll say what do u mean, writing performing hip hop or my poetry, I'm a madhatter/juggler, I'm not instinctually a battle rapper/attacking that jugular, a wordsmith and grammar nazi of some sorts, looking for those chosen one cohorts, who can sit with me and shoot the shit, have a conscious conversation with, mix information sarcasm and wit, listen to the messages when I speak or spit, cuz u never know what secrets lie within, perhaps certain versions of ourselves need to die for us to rebegin yet again but this time win!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/18/25

We're Tight...Aight

I'm a hairy fairy, used to be allergic to dairy, but now it's shellfish, but u can't tell bitch, that I'm gay, I guess I don't portray or act that way, except I love Mariah Carey, I don't think she could've had me, I guess I'm kinky, I'd just want her and Lauryn to make music with me, same with the fellas that are straight, besides my guy won't be afraid to ask me out on a date, fight for prince charming and who's king, I don't care about the size of ur thing, never assume, I'm bride he groom, tho won't be in a dress, y'all know u wanna be a guest, any partner of mine will be blessed too, life will test us dude, hold my hand tight, u no longer have to fright or fight flight cuz it'll all be alright...aight!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious

1/16/25

Taste The Fate

Wanna be an inspirer, instead of a crier be a trier, stay motivated, those who chose hatred, over empathy and compassion, will see their lasting actions, as climate change hastens, being a disrupter is blatant, is there any purpose tho, he may be a worthless ho, capitalistic by nature, hyprocrit/danger, how aren't we afraid, if the US received a grade, I'd say D+, cuz we've traded our soul and guts, for inflation and greed, fuck hope and faith they don't even believe, humanity's insanity, intangibly profanity, seems absurd but preferred, over the concurred, despite it's for the democratic better, who's to blame for the dramatic weather, like it's man made, damned if they cave, bite noses off to spite their face, such a disgrace with haste, leaving not only a bad taste, but almost passed the point of too late it's fate!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/16/25

Gemini Mindfulness

Pardon my Gemini mindfulness, in other words I'm like a bridge, between extremes, we see both sides it seems, I bet we'd make the best judges, many begrudge us, perhaps cuz we could go either way, artistically revolutionary or notoriously serial killery craycray, I'm the former, I'll always be a force for good in ur corner, as long as u shine ur love and light, stand up and fight for what's right, not to be teaching hatefully preaching, perhaps a lil overzealous motivationally speaking, helping sheeple to awaken again becoming conscious, eradicate and vanquish evil cuz it's reign's been frustratingly obnoxious, they say it's darkest and hardest before the dawn, it's a brand new year that I hope we hear fear has finally finished and gone cuz it's timely morn!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
1/13/25

Nothing But Intuition Grit & Gut

I'm hungry to hustle, ready to flex my chops/muscle, splurge on this growth spirt, I can forgive and still be hurt, a likeable jerk, who loves to work, just in another way, wish there was a gay spray, I need a masculine acting homo bro like no joke, I'm not trying to hate discriminate or poke, but I'm constantly having that coming out bout, not trying to be loud about or shout, never intend it to be my identity, guess I hide behind sarcasm and jest intentionally, blend in, befriending, people pleasing, agreeing and fleeing, before get too deep in, yet craving substance, like size over circumference, they don't know the difference, my life changed in an instant, now what, nothing but intuition grit and gut!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/10/25

Experience Life's Interference

I'm making him my new year's resolution, he's just something so simply special of a human, totally orgasmic/outergalactic, fuck pragmatic, I wanna attack that bad ass bastard, not gonna even bother to ask her, I'm a father fucker, kinda undercover, homobro Joe 420, ain't that a shame/funny hunny, like Pink sings "keep ur drinks just give me the money", quickest way to my heart's thru my tummy, best side kick ever, y'all don't wanna compete with Trevor. I'm lucky af, miss both Adam & Jeff, those good Ole dayz in the cul-de-sac, our childhoods were ultra rad in fact I'm mad that, every single person can't share my experience, life's interference, strife and plight right, go fly a trite kite at midnight, who cares what u like tyke, still at 42 dude take a contrite fight hike to gain some better perspective and insight aight?!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/10/25

Legendary/Iconic Like Vodka & Tonic

How do I rise above, needing affection and love, sometimes the best medicine is a hug, if it weren't for bad I'd have no luck, my timing is horrendous, the level of resilience is tremendous, but I'm tired of being strong, why can't y'all accept accountability for being wrong, even if u think ur right, maybe u try not starting the fight, perhaps u disengage, especially when ur enraged, u know what would make a better me, if my family had to undergo therapy, I'm the sucker, waiting for my guy to pucker, awaken me from this magicless nightmare, with no happily ever after nor care bear stare, successful alone, about to sell my childhood home, never again looking back, whoever says hookering's whack, is probably ugly, wish I could be recognized publically, while y'all sip whatever vodka with tonic, I'll be busy winning Grammys and becoming legendary/iconic!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/9/25

Great Grief

I wrote "Great Grief", dedicated to my family, which I lost completely in 6 short years, so many manifested fears and tears, shed in and out of bed, wishing I was the one dead, on some real shit, can y'all even feel this, maybe on some distant level, u can empathize with disheveled, still I must persist and push thru, occasionally abrasively need a lil kick in the tush too boo, say I love u esp man to man, remember altho no one could truly understand, they want to, it's honestly true, let authenticity rule finally shining bright, spread more truth consciousness love & light, cuz like Grandpa Meth would say "keep it tight...aight", battle rapping ain't actually a fight, this definitely isn't goodnight or goodbye, let's all just shut the fuck up and get good hood high, feel free to listen or read along, wait and see til they maybe transform into song, hopefully use the arts, as a muse to help heal my own soul and broken heart!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
1/5/25

Club Med

Y'all must've thought I was dead

When in reality I was at Club Med

Having a spiritual breakthrough 

Realizing it's both what u say and do

Ain't no hotel/motel

Like my sexuality don't ask won't tell

None of ur business 

Can I get a witness

Feeling so much better

Whether whatever weather

Comes our way

Seems to me it's another beautiful day

This present moment's a gift

We should all try to smile and uplift

Cuz why not give it what we got

Nobody's perfect but everyone's worth it

Say hi and introduce urself

Never be ashamed asking for or receiving help

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

12/27/24

Demanding Empathy & Understanding

Totally get u can't mindread, but why don't I find guys who see thru me, I no longer can play the game when I'm not naive to it, shouldn't blindly abide by and agree to stranger's rules and shit, just cuz they say so, most y'all are projecting illusions u know, can't claim ur a Master as a slave urself, it's so frustrating how much I can give but never get help, empathy or understanding, must come across as crazy impatient too intense and demanding, nobody cares at all what I think or feel, god damn man this fucking Gemini struggle is real!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

12/6/24

The Seperate Effort

U can be 2 3 or more things at the same time, don't just reply ur fine, when ur really not, but then preaching it's ok not to be ok needs to stop, remember deeds not words, inaction complicity and neglect hurts worse, so much fakeness, being consumed by greed and hatefulness, we lost our way, don't call me a faggot cuz I'm gay, guess I'm not ur cup of tea, I'm pretty easy to read, I'll even give u the key to me for free, did y'all know the highest vibration is authenticity, perhaps I'll remain permanently single, since most don't give me butterflies chubbys or the tingle, getting tired of making all the effort, having to keep love and sex separate, I'm not looking to be owned, I just wanna create a family and a happy home!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

12/5/24

A Gemini Goodbye

My effort has come to an end, u officially miss out on a gay best friend, letting opportunity pass by, simply out of pride, it's ur loss, not even a coin toss, I win either way, totally unafraid, in fact I'm excited for this next chapter, I'm creating my own happily ever after, filled with chosen family, if I can speak candidly, most don't deserve my light and love, when it comes to time there's never enough, life's all choice and consequence, I'm done with too intense, perhaps ur just insufficient, ur toxicity is malignant, good luck/journey, cuz now unfortunately there's no chance to earn me, that's the thing with us Gemini, really mean it when we say goodbye!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
11/29/24

Happy Moses Thanksgiving

Today I got to celebrate with the Moses family, and boy do they do a holiday grandly, so much love, helps get thru the tough stuff, I'm not only thankful, but tremendously grateful, thru the day to day, sometimes it's hard to find our way, that north star if u will, remember to just stand still, cherish these precious moments, never too late to make atonement, it's important to keep on living, hopefully have an amazing and happy Thanksgiving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/28/24

Not God's Plot Dead Ahead

I want to write something inspirational, this year I am extremely grateful, despite being overwhelmed with grief, I'm like a green leaf, burning slowly, can a gay guy be holy, if not, what's God's plot, do we exist in vain, these historical cycles are insane, like a hampster wheel, it ain't how u feel but deal, defined by our reactions, imagine actually faxing, a divine higher power, heard to talk to a flower, it'll help it grow, do u think food knows, it's about to be eaten, focus on sleeping, and ur teeth, the future shouldn't be bleak, the best is still ahead, stop saying ull rest when dead, it's just so toxic, workaholics gotta get conscious, are y'all existing or living, cuz time is consistent giving unforgiving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/27/24

In It Til We're Finished

Doin some shrooming, helped with my doom and glooming, it's totally understandable u know tho, from now on I only grow alone, trying not to be so stoned all the time, got to a place I'm able to say I'm fine, and truthfully mean it, keep fallen victim to Satan and his demons, yes I too am a fallible human I guess, perhaps y'all don't see the depressed and stressed hot mess, maybe u think I'm too blessed, hide behind sarcasm and jest, but I believe that's more ur truth, which unfortunately is both tragically sad and uncouth, pretty plain ugly, don't fucking hug me, frictioning negativity, they're sucking ur energy/spirit silly, gaming dude, is draining u, disengage and give space, separate and get away, cuz if we wallow within hate and stay stuck in it, we're ultimately just fucked finito or finished!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
11/25/24

Buck Up & Embrace Grace

Buck up for what, I've simply had enough, all this superficial uninterestingness is killing me, like literally, I'm way too deep for shallow, my light fights shadow, but in these overwhelmingly darker times, when I'm torn between hearts or minds, to try to connect with, this level of empathy and care doesn't feel like the best gift, in fact it's more of a curse, gay love hurts, and I wonder if it's even real, being a chameleon is ur shield, instead of wielding my sword, inheriting this life was something I never could afford, it is kind of upsetting, probably coming across as tho I'm rejecting/neglecting my blessings, need to surrender accept and embrace, stop giving away what I should hold onto...grace!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/23/24

Wise Lies Help Myself

Now that I'm back in RI, wish to be both out of sight and mind, I just can't handle this, lose hope for happiness joy and bliss, I miss my whole damn family, not many can understand me, what I've been thru in 6 short years, surprised I haven't drowned in tears, so very overwhelmed, feel as tho I ain't even at the helm, forging my own path ahead, curious about what happens next, having no control, is fucking with my soul, trying to stay grateful, when I'm angry and hateful, can't focus on only the positive, always been honest how I live, to my detriment, choice isn't an experiment, annoyed and disappointed, look who y'all anointed, the worst of the pickings, questioning basic existence, no one's listening to the wise, unable to differentiate truth from the barrage of illusion and lies, I'm completely defeatedly fed up, uve barely said it let alone shown love, I desperately need help, but it simply seems I'm on a team all by myself!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/22/24

Eternally R.I.P.

Today there are few words, that could encapsulate this hurt, but I will power thru, just like u taught me to, turning these tears to triumph, til I'm high enough, upon the mountain top, with u Gia and pop, ull be like omg, no silly it's me, simply wanted to say hi, I promise to try to stop asking why, it was all meant to be, y'all are always my family, in or out of our bodies, and truly deeply hope u eternally rest in peace!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/18/24

A Promiscuousness Bender Agenda

With all the phoniness, no wonder I'm consumed with deep loneliness, I know I'm not the only one authentic, but the level of fakeness is demented, add some makeup and a wig, and u can get anyone or thing, that's not a diss on drag, my identity isn't being a fag, yet I embrace that side of myself, wish when I was younger I had help, if I'm being honest I suck at sex, I think I've just been doin it incorrect, didn't know better, that's not how I spent time together, u don't need to fuck to be intimate, hookups are legitimate, maybe I won't want to, because it's u, stranger danger, working on my resentment mistrust and anger, which all stems from pain, I never thought or looked at relationships as a game, I promise I have no agenda, perhaps it's time I go on a promiscuousness bender!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/16/24

U Cool?

My intention of healing and cleansing, has been such a blessing, just getting away helps, happiness doesn't come from wealth, don't tell us to forget the past, u can't get over grief like that fast, until it happens to u, maybe it isn't cool, to even speak on it, peace is iconic, but finding joy and light, employs the fight in life, believe me, it ain't easy, yet there are precious moments, smoking weed eating donuts, have a cheat week or 2, it's called vacation dude, do absolutely nothing, shouldn't throw urself into drinking drugging and fucking, but hey, if that's how u escape, who am I to say that's wrong, I'd prefer to write poetry or a song, there's no one size fits all, please don't expect me to reach out and call, that's ur job fam and friends, my strength is spent!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/13/24

Conned On & On By Don

There are sometimes words get in the way, certain occasions don't need u to say, anything in fact, shouldn't talk back, miss me in silence, no man is an island, especially in an over populated world, sure they can own cars and stuff but never girls, her body her choice, I'll whoop u with my voice, enough with this nonsense already, we must remain steadfast and steady, prepared for the fight of our lives, I love the Tupac quote "real eyes realize real lies", so much truth and it's clever, I took off the rose colored glasses to see better, but now I can't put em back on, how does a majority of America not know they've been conned by Don?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/10/24

Creativity & Its Unrelatability

Turns out I'm a liar, constantly dimmed my fire, to people please, I guess I'm weak, since I can't be honest, and be modest, it just doesn't work that way, I don't wanna know ur vote like u don't want my gay in ur face, move in silence, rhetoric can produce violence, songs are spells, we are collectively making earth a level of hell, only after money, hoarding it all abundantly, time's taking energy, disregarding legacy, will corrupt honor, sick of false prophets and martyrs, modern celebrities and fame, have eradicated talent from the game, too many plants, my pockets full of other people's hands, exploiting my creativity, simply because of its unrelatability, I've absolutely finally had enough, will only speak truth cuz it always comes from love!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

11/9/24