Fine Wasting Time

He's blocked for good, I tried the best I could, done being breadcrumbed, may be a bit gullible but not naive stupid nor dumb, I'm just done, I wish I could say it's been fun, but it hasn't, u never respected what I was asking, disregarded my boundaries again and again, u don't even know how to be my friend, clearly ur a user, keep choosing ur abuser, avoiding a better life, u created all this plight and strife, from running away, guys like u make me hate being gay, u waste everybody's time, and u don't care in fact u think that's totally fine!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/30/25

Voiced His Choice

U stood still while I held onto hope, couldn't even meet me a quarter of the way tho, so I had to let go, happy birthday yo, my gift is, stay out of ur business, in fact I'll remove myself from ur life completely, pretty defeatedly, learned lesson, equates blocked blessing, enjoy ur choice, miss my voice, light and love, I'm tired of not being enough, actually u aren't, u have no fucking clue what u need or want, u don't fight, only flight, no more grace, if u want space, u got it mister, bye besty now uve got just ur bf/daddy and sister!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/30/25

Find My Shine

I'll say it again, I don't fuck friends, I'm looking like Mary for that real love, a guy who likes to kiss cuddle and hug, can make me laugh, appreciative of what we genuinely have, not looking for more or better, it's instant reconnection when we're together, without interruptions, I appreciate passion guts and gumption, in fact I find going after what u want sexy, u may get the best of me, but I'm resilient as fuck, I'll Phoenixly rise up, cuz I'm ur karma/mirror, my divine protection connection's clearer, I've done the work, so I may come off as a cold jerk, but I'm finally putting myself first, and I don't care who that hurts, stayed strong and true, both gave and paid dues, now it's my time to shine, so I can be my champion's grand prize find!

Won't Stop Me & My Army

The crush is over, taking weight off my shoulders, learning to relax and chill, not let lack or venomous toxicity spew/spill, leaning into my love and light, standing up for myself to fight, realizing I have the power to vanquish, alleviate and soothe my own pain and anguish, mastering the English language, I'm trying to evolve not languish, like the stock market, may be short but not pocket, pretty submissive, mindful about the energy I elicit, not a subservient faggot, when it comes to bullying disrespect I've had it, watch as my conscious discipled army, reignite or inspire the good virtuous revolution and evil won't be able to stop me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/29/25

Behind/Out Of Sight & Mind

I'm still stuck in a negative head space, life seems like a dead race, love no longer exists, everyone takes but doesn't give, stop stealing my energy, why make me ur enemy, cuz ur afraid, relationships aren't a game, u met ur match, expect a karmic attack, u broke ur mirror, assume I'm inferior, play ok when ur not, give him all u got, even though it was supposed to be mine, I don't have to pretend I'm fine, I'm actually great, no I won't wait, in fact I'm leaving u behind, hopefully get to the point where ur out of sight and mind!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/28/25

Exhausting Talking

I've been focused on smiling, stop trying to predict divine timing, fuck fate, I'm always late, I'm sure I missed my blessings, I'm never wanted or anyone's intention, friend zoned, dead end toned, I choose wrong, no viral poem or song, a waste of life, defined by strife, I hate being resilient, bravery isn't brilliant, it's exhausting, gotta quit talking, shut my big mouth, don't defend justify or bout, what's the point, I'll smoke bowls blunts or a joint, keep to myself, never again offer to help, since no deed goes unpunished, America should never be synonymous with Trumpists, we're way better than that, I hope we get our morality back!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Go Joe

Working so hard on letting him go, get back to Joe, I miss me, living blissfully, so full of love, confident I'm enough, but losing my family, feels like nobody understands me, and the more I try to explain, I wind up being seen as insane and pained, which I am, nothing ever goes as planned, God laughs, needs a kick in the ass, to stop teasing, finally releasing, from all this suffering, actually bring someone into my life worth loving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Fine Stay Blind

The more I choose u, I lose dude, what are u afraid of, u can't have emotionless love, no matter how much u pretend, ur forcing an end, for my own protection, I have to deal with ur rejection of blessings, I'm sick of the confusion, from ur bullshit of an illusion, that's fine, stay blind, keep sleeping on me, I'm totally free, and I'll find something real, I can't wait til u realize ur responsible for how u feel, I cried, I tried, u miserably fumbled, now u can be humbled, cuz I don't like u anymore, enjoy being an empty soulless whore!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Hope For The Whole Globe

My heart has the capacity to love the whole globe, my soul provides both inspiration and hope, everybody's pretty special, evolution is inevitable, if u remain vigilant and open, continue growing and coping, cuz that's life, stay resilient thru the plight and strife, I truly believe it'll be alright, good needs to resist revolt and fight, enough with negligent complicity, evil is within intrinsically, but shouldn't let it win, don't give in, manifest a life u don't wanna escape, each and every day remain humbly grateful to reawake, and maybe I'll even get to see u, my favorite dude, it's as simple as that, be blessed just accept and focus on what we already do have!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/27/25

Farewell Curse/Spell

Don't confuse my kindness for niceness, I'm not perfect nor spiteless, I simply won't act on it, I'm super compassionate, but don't push me too far, cuz I comeback just as hard, call me ur karmic mirror, I'll drop bombs that help u see urself clearer, miss me when I'm gone, since u handled me all wrong, u lost any opportunity or real shot, I liked u a lot, so much in fact, this is tragically sad, my heart's exploded, ur rejection is duly noted, fool me once, this time I'm the dunce, won't happen again, ull always now be just a good distant friend, I wish well, if u couldn't tell I've finally broken ur curse/spell!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/26/25

Love Moving On & Leveling Up

Yup finally moving on up, finding reciprocal want lust and love, every single fucking day, making my fairy tale dude dreams come true for us hopeful romantic gays, I'm emotional af, most guys lack that capacity/depth, I'm tired of boys, no choice just noise, blocking blessings, so I'm left guessing, why am I not enough, expose my heart soul and guts, let's drain each other's nuts, it's great when we both suck, 69 style, kinky stinky itty bitty piggy and wild, I didn't do anything wrong, the lessons I learn should turn into beautiful poetry and song, our time isn’t now, someway somehow, perhaps we will come back around, our foundational friendship is already rather profound, and I'm quite ok with that, since I'm actually focusing on gratitude instead of lack, my vibrational frequency is on a whole other level, it's hard to watch the world around us all fall disheveled, wicked unprepared, solely surving out of fear they can't hear or simply don't care, especially to change and be better, u can't make a horse drink water nor make an avoidant become a go getter, so unfortunately this means, ur gonna have to be removed lose then miss me, enjoy the other grass u chose, I'm a far superior prize than most these low desperate hoes!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/26/25

More Positive Performance Informants

Call me Joe hope, cuz if it rhymes it's true dude don't u know tho yo, I love inspiring that, always know I got ur back, loyal to a fault, when problems arise I'll halt, and be there in a jiffy, I'm probably too givey, that's my love language, my over romanticizing thinking is leaving my heart in anguish, not broken or blocked just achy, wakey wakey, alone again, my beautiful soulmates are all my straight friends, I'm lucky that way, but I need it as a token toking gay, esp as I evolve older, seems socially temperature's grown colder, yet u ain't seen me scurrying worrying, in fact I be hurrying, to shut up those critics/haters and their informants, by putting on one hell of another spectacularly magical live performance!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/24/25

Crazy Insane Twin Flame

I can close my eyes, and not meet demise, I don't feel receiving, cuz seeing is believing, and I've been giving, my cup runneth over just living, so I had to stop take a moment and chill, like patience gratefulness is a pill, hard to swallow, why are men so emotionless and hollow, I'm not saying that to be mean, but it isn't weak to show vulnerability, intimacy isn't necessarily sexual, understanding isn't intellectual, u don't need any degree to get me, I'm here to set authenticity free, u light my life up and inspire my fire, who knew one day a forbidden love like u would take me higher, a twin flame, this level of magic is totally crazy insane!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/24/25

Help Grapple Another Battle

I got my clarity, don't care about the disparity, from a fellow artist to another, I don't want a fuck brother, I want comfort and support, a cohort, to play Mario Kart with, be each other's gift, I'm super simple, don't mind being single, just prefer not to be lonely, shouldn't be phony, it's ok to change ur mind, a ton of truth rhymes, acknowledgment is a form of accountability, it may sound silly, but isn't knowing half the battle, sometimes mere presence makes things easier to handle/grapple!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/23/25

Will I Ever Get Back The Love I Lack

I am not acting happy nor grateful, in fact I'm rather angry jealous and hateful, I've lost all hope and faith, during the wait, where's my will to live, compassion/ability to forgive, especially myself, I want help, it's not a need, I truly believe, I'm resilient and strong, got the gift of poetry and song, why isn't that enough, the answer is simple what matters most is love, which I lack, and since my family died I'm afraid I'll never get it back!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Itch Bitch

Third times a charm, who knew love could do this much harm, wish I never said hi, or that I could mean goodbye this time, I need him out of sight and mind, altho a rare find, he's not my guy, all I do is wonder why, and I hate that, feels like a personal attack, communication he lacks, his words don't match acts, punishingly silent, the detachment is violent, rather selfish and shitty, yet can't seem to get rid of me, cuz I'm karma bitch, and ur unfortunately unable to scratch that itch!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Unforgiving Living

Won't be stuck in an emotional prison, now that I got some shit out of my system, let me get back to living, life is definitely unforgiving, not fair or right, everything's a fight, yet a losing battle, this level of grief is hard to grapple, especially alone, just sold my childhood home, onto the next chapter, with my luck it'll be the rapture, I'm done being a warrior, I wanna be whorier, learn how to escape, so my heart and soul aren't continuously raped, I don't believe in good or evil, we're both and that's why I prefer dogs over cats and people!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Please Stop The Pain In My Heart God

Today I feel defeated, drained and depleted, by an avoidant attachment, this silent separation is harassment, to my mind body and soul, I'm already fucking whole, but I want and choose him, I can't keep excusing, his toxic behavior, he's not my savior, he's my soulmate, and fuck fate, if it says otherwise, done with divine timing lies, I deserve this, love success happiness and bliss, please give it to me now God, cuz this punishing pain in my heart needs to stop!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/24

Sniff The Gift

Let's go, level up yo, this new Joe, is his own hero, strong and resilient, talented good looking and brilliant, seems to have it all, like a Phoenix rising after every fall, consistent persistence and perseverance, don't like this 3rd party interference, y'all are toxic noise, many think I have a soothing calming voice, wait til u feel my grounding energy, if u say ur something u better be, I hate posers and liars, come on baby light my fire, I'm an air sign, weird and divine, rather mysterious, takes things super serious, cuz life is a precious gift, don't step on a rose from the concrete give it a lil sniff!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/25

Goodbye...Don't Waste My Time

Maybe someday, ull be brave, come out from behind that screen, so u can be truly seen, and even felt, stop throwing away the cards ur delt, avoidance isn't the answer, it'll cause cancer, pushing people away, just creates hate, like a sorry without change, ur behavior is strange, like u never knew love, behind that stubborn behavior u don't think ur worthy enough, stop punishing me, how bout a real apology, pick up the damn phone, or better yet come to my home, stand face to face looking me in the eye, say u don't want me then give me one last hug and kiss goodbye, if ur gonna play games with both my heart and mind, fuck off don't waste my time!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/25

Standing With U Tonight To Fight

Time to rise high like the tides, be grateful and happy to be alive, I'll see 43 when Gia didn't, can't always manifest what isn't, but u can have faith, take action tho don't just pray, remember deeds not words, silence hurts, speak ur mind, search and ull find, stay hopeful and open, no one's all knowing, remain patient and kind, the moment's now without rewind, life is precious like love, helps make losing balance not so rough and tough, mirror my flame, hold my heart throughout this crazy game, find me standing with u tonight, cuz ur totally worth all my might to fight!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/20/25

Wait For Epically Legendarily Great

Keep my eyes, on the prize, stay happy and single, let's go mingle, shine away, embrace my gay, accept love in, take this time to rebegin, way better than ever before, I want more, a real partner, who understands the privilege/honor, it is to be with me, I manifest by believing it to be, I'm an attractive magnet, ur favorite bad habit, but actually divinely good, humbly misunderstood, combative and antagonistic, that has a rather holistic, approach to questioning, gotta stop blocking blessings, authenticity's the highest vibration, expect a major migration, to finally take place, shit's starting to resonate, got the patience of a Saint, cuz I know my legacy is at stake, if good things come to those who wait, this is gonna be epically legendarily great!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/20/25

Ok Away I'll Stay Great

Gotta break the spell of love's hocus pocus, and really get back into focus, cut myself some slack, be grateful what I have, give less attention to that lack, remember I'm a daddy Mac, even without the beard, fuck fear, too healed to let anger express my pain, I can handle the rain, hoody no umbrella, I'll have a Bulleit Captain and Coke or Stella, then let's smoke a bunch of pot, used to give all I got, now I simply share my overflow, learning to just shut up and say let's go, stop talking so damn much, embrace my resilient confidence/balls/guts, see where the attraction leads, have no expectation of how the connection should be, I need to ride the wave, let people leave or push me away, know I'll still be ok, in fact no worries I'm gonna stay great!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/19/25

Share With Care

I can't help but I can share, my love isn't sex it's care, never found the one, this ended before it even begun, since he's his own independent person, gotta deal with all this hurting, cuz karma gonna get u, I'm upset too, timing is so fucked up, tired of having sucky luck, I've been yelling at God enough, life shouldn't be this punishingly tough, my light's so bright, even in the darkest night, I always have to fight, when wrong finally managed to bastardize right!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/18/25

Turtle Shelled From The Hell

I don't fuck friends cuz most of mine are straight, I won't chase someone that doesn't want me sexually or even to date, so if u like me shoot ur shot, say hello and tell me u think I'm hot, then watch how I react, fyi it's random hook up skills I lack, I fall in love with personality, always working casually, cuz I'm an artist, when it comes to flirting I'm not the smartest, pretty oblivious and gullible, easily can get into trouble, cuz of my big truthful mouth, I don't physically bout, but I am rather verbal, I think my heart used to be like a turtle, with a hard outer shell, but that's cuz the past 6 years I've literally gone thru hell!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/18/25

Life's Choice & Consequence

Gonna envelope the philosophy of let's go, u know...ho, I need to let loose, call a truce, with myself, I wanna better my level of intimacy/sexual health, gotta get outta my head, and in bed, in whatever capacity, that makes us both happy, but me first, cuz I've been in this super slump spurt, and that's totally on me, trying to find my boundaries, guess I have trust issues, done tho with all these tissues, crying over a guy, who can't bother to make time, fails to communicate, just consistently avoids and escapes, so now the relationship is awkward and intense, life ain't right when he makes the choice yet I experience and bare consequence, how's that fair, then I'll take the next sign of reciprocal interest as a dare, actually accept the challenge, of developing my hook up talents, instead of jealously waiting complaining, start participating in this type of game playing!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/17/25

Wants & Needs Desires/Dreams

I can handle embarrassment just don't be a liar, there's plenty of electricity but don't ignite my fire, I've worked so hard to heal, communicated how I feel, which seems to have inspired change, I find ghosting silence strange, giving self sabotaging energy, don't make me the enemy, simply cuz I show unconditional love,  we both are enough, I've been alone so long, it's helped make me stubbornly strong, distinguished between my wants and needs, finding a true gay besty has become one of my biggest desires/dreams!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/17/25

The Gift To Bridge & Uplift

There's nothing worse, than watching someone u love hurt, we all gotta do the work, can't just observe and lurk, the word is more often a verb, please don't put me on do not disturb, stay silent and ghost, I'm a person that cares the most, won't worry about myself, but I must be mindful I shouldn't help, even if I can, I am that man, magical almost royal, appear spoiled, when in fact I'm simply blessed, not able to be truly grateful yet, cuz this tremendous amount of grief, keeps falling like a leaf, easily blown in the wind, my saving grace is writing poetry or when I rap and sing, religiously choose the muse of music, to alchemize the heartache and pain using it, as quite a huge advantageous gift, building a bridge that will classically continue to both inspire and uplift!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/16/25

Bitch I'm The Prize/Gift

Going into self preservation mode, not gonna be distant and cold, but just done being anyone's optional choice, listen to the sincerity in my voice, I choose me and that's all that matters, now y'all can view from the rafters, simply won't have access, ignore the love bombing mass texts, perhaps we're all a lil bit delulu, sorry not sorry this time we're really thru boo, have fun dealing with karma cuz she's a bitch, I refuse to chase or even try when I finally realized I'm the real prize/gift!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/15/25

Handling Tantrums

What would u say, if I said I was ok, but u know I'm not, I'm definitely alot, yet never enough at the same time, my smile's lying, call me Robin, ain't no stopping, my love and light, puts up a powerful fight, both night and day, I haven't always been this way, I used to dim and hide, let ego and pride, cloud my judgment, I refuse to become numb and begrudging, my resilience is astounding, wicked profound I'm confounding, rather quite impressive, emotionally expressive it's electric, super eclectic and random, can be impossibly hard to find others in tandem, stop with the tantrums, we're all defined by how we're handling things!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/14/25

Not Much Luck

Another week gone by, wonder if he will make a call text or time, probably not, cuz all he does is break my heart, I'm sure it's my bad, think it's rather sad, who knew love would hurt this much, should've known better I ain't got that kind of luck, no one chooses me, miss how it used to be, just magic in ur company, could've lived this life triumphantly, unfortunately I gotta continue riding solo, and he will have to karmically deal with hiding his fomo, since he can't get out of his own way, I really hate the dating game being gay!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/14/25

A Legacy Of Empathy

Thank u, and I'm proud too, sorry goes a long way, esp face to face, I needed that, I always got ur back, I just see u at ur best, next to me is comfortableness, it's so magnetic, overwhelmingly infectious, like the thought that magic could be real, it is even if that's not the way anyone else feels, I came from angels, my light strangles, eradicates and vanquishes darkness, how can a president be this heartless, where's the humanity/empathy, all karmic justice is served when it comes to ur ultimate legacy, does the good outweigh the bad, when u die does anyone care even there or sad, cuz that's really what matters most, did u passionately chase ur dreams of love success and happiness or simply complicitly coast?!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/12/25

We All Fall

U have to ask for and accept the help, which is hard for people who are used to doing everything themselves, why would I risk it all, to save others from a fall, they're inevitably gonna have to face someday, guess we can't escape fate, is free will even real, nobody gives 2 fucks about how we feel, especially when u don't communicate, that's what makes and creates hate, leaving me alone with my thoughts, forgetting who I am what I've learned and everything I was taught, always show up with love here there and everywhere, cuz the best advice my dear is lean into shit now that's conquering fear!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/10/25

Just Simply Better Together

Gotta give space and grace, most may not have the taste for my pace, slow and steady wins the race, haste face to face, fuck digital, the connection is pitiful, so utterly superficial, when communication is deeply critical, in all relationships, I love creativeness, it's super sexy, want my gay besty, to walk with me thru life, neither one of us should be the "wife", let's be equals, this torrid affair might have some sequels, never count anything out, who knew with u I'd like to fight/bout, cuz if we get to spend time together, everything just simply seems better!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

Holding On Powerful Resilient & Strong

The rain was really messing with me, hard-core emotionally especially, plus I've been overthinking matters of the heart, like love is a la carte, gotta pay for extras, u better be ambidextrous, jerk off stranger style, it's more expensive for kinky and wild, when did sex become transactional, my light shines so bright I'm attackable, I let myself be attachable, and now the disappointment is impossible to grapple, I too am barely holding on, but the one thing I know from experience is I am super fucking powerful resilient and strong!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/9/25

Upset With Hate & Regret

Now all I feel is hate and regret, of course ur ghosting and silence made me upset, I'm a communicator, and ur a hater, especially urself, u need professional help, ull never win, rejecting love is ur sin, won't find anyone else on my level, karma will leave u disheveled, and I don't feel bad or pity, u continuously treated me shitty, ur actually rather cruel, too chicken shit to duel, so u run away, but u think me blocking u is gay, u chose wrong, maybe I'll be like Taylor and use u to write an epic revenge song!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/8/25

Voice Ur Choice

He don't need a drink he want me, but I'm healed and free, and ain't gonna settle for ur last option, boundary up so u stealing stopping, they taking ur energy, we aren't friends or enemies just strangers now with a memory, of a beautiful divine connection, I've never been chosen in any election, so I'm my own choice, trying to use my voice, to talk myself up, I'm enough and deserve to be truly loved!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/8/25

U Disrespectful Rude Dude

All I wanted was ur time love and affection, now I need protection, from u dude, u were disrespectful and rude, couldn't appreciate my value, I helped and cared but didn't have to, and probably shouldn't have, yes I'm mad, but at my damn self, our relationship got shelved, and it's ur fault, my heart's locked back in the vault, I'll stay single, not promiscuous yet still mingle, just trying to live, hoping to finally receive more than I give, I'm reciprocal, stay away cuz I hate hypocritical, actively work to be better and heal, only accepting authentic genuine real people who can honestly and effectively communicate how they feel and deal!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/6/25

Manifesting Healing Thru Communicating Feelings

Pushing me away, and playing the silent game, isn't showing tough love, it's fucking me up, now I don't know how to act around u, I feel like both an emotional crazy person and a fool, I get it u don't like me, I don't take words lightly, but deeds matter more, lately I've been asking what all this suffering is for, I need a partner, it's the only real way I can envision living any farther, I don't have nothing to lose, I've got everything and u could too if u choose, manifesting thru healing, but most importantly by communicating feelings!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/5/25

I Am A Ham

Boy do I keep misfocusing, should perhaps stop drinking poppering and toking, at least for a lil while, it's ok to have been a bit wild, after the past 6 years, these rage induced tears and fears, all stem from loss, instead of recognizing how much of a bad ass boss, I actually really am, I'm such a stubborn ham, so fucking hard on myself, quick to offer others help, but don't give that same level of love and grace to me, I have wicked trouble letting shit go and just be, but thank God for my chosen family and friends, who keep mirroring/reminding me of how inspiringly strong I've been over and over again!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/4/25

I'm So Sorry

I hate all this anger, turned a gay besty to a stranger, cuz I couldn't keep my big mouth shut, made him into a slut, when he didn't give me love, or choose to show up, when he said he would, but did if he could, I'm just so hurt from grief, I pushed him away before he'd leave me, I liked him too much, I was holding onto this grudge, that my family sometimes made me feel not good enough, and the universe never ever ever gave me good timing/luck, and an apology just doesn't seem to do, wish we were more than just 2 trauma bonded dudes!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/4/25

Prize Eyes

My heart literally hurts, walking away from someone u care deeply for is the worst, I just wanted to love u, now ur trauma I have to heal thru, on top of all this grief, no wonder there’s only doubt no hope or belief, I'm broken, no words left to be spoken, just tears cried, was it all lies, I really wanna be chosen, appreciated like that golden ticket/token, the ultimate prize, instead I try to hide the pain written on my eyes, so I smile big and bright, u probably mad right, cuz I no longer share or dim my light, and simply left ur life without a fight!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/3/25

Go Whore Some More

He was a user and a slut, pretty fucked up, pretended to love, til he ran out of luck, evicted from his home, now alone, except for his 2 cats, and bf/dad, never had the time, always claimed to be fine, til he started crying help, no amount of money or wealth, can fix sabotage to self, he used to make my heart melt, I want nothing to do with him anymore, I'm not a friendship whore, I value the people in my life, and that guy never treated me right! 

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/2/25

Please God Stop

Wish I could help my friend, not say again that this might be the end, I know life can seem impossibly hard, but we aren't here to just get this far, why can't I help with love, and that could be good enough, to awake another day, found a besty that's gay, and I don't want to lose him, when will this universal truce begin, way too much suffering, it's wicked fucking discouraging, we're losing people left and right, nobody wants or knows how to fight, please God, make all this sadness and pain stop!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/1/25

Hurdled My World

It can be rather profound, when somebody u wanna love let's u down, again and again and again and again, I'm such an unconditional friend, but is that healthy, there's a difference between rich bitch and generationally wealthy, some would say I've had tough luck, fucked and it sucks, but I did have it great for a while, giving up isn't really the Vacca style, resilient af, politically left, they'd be sad at the state of the world, proud of what I've overcome and hurdled, I am rather triumphant/inspiring, when it's authentically genuine tho there ain't no conspiring nor trying!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/31/25

The New Norm Storm

I love myself more, make a terrible whore, cuz I'm picky, pretty thiccy, like sticky icky, both whitty and spitty, it's art, all heart, mixed with soul personified, refuse to compromise, esp my humanity, can't stand nor understand this insanity, good just gave up, y'all are so fucked when it comes to knowing unconditional love, I guess I'm blessed, but this country is a hot mess, gone straight cray cray, I pray day to day, that life gets better, cuz I can't even imagine success unless it's all of us uniting together, to weather this storm, since we shouldn't allow this shit to be the new norm!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
3/31/25

Did Grief Drama Queen Me

All this grief, is bringing out the drama queen in me, perhaps it was there all along, just suppressed it with bowls blunts and bongs, like Whitney I get so emotional, sorry and atonable, take accountability for my mistakes, try never to let love turn to hate, should stop taking shit personal, maybe even keep more thoughts internal, I do have a tendency to overshare/care, prefer truth instead of dare, unless it's to kiss this one special dude, it would be rude not to admit I want u, just while I'm awake, since he brightens and enlightens my day, and also smoke too much pot to dream, believe me my life isn't as great as my smile makes it seem!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/28/25

Not Enough Love

I need the gym and therapy, to become a better me, jealousy has taken over, u can see it in my shoulders, u know the weight of the world, I never bench pressed or curled, instead I focused on cardio, I ain't no hotty tho, I'm just kind, with an overactive mind, so I'm alot, too smart, yet oblivious, to recognizing hideousness, cuz I don't see sex, just the best, in everyone I meet, resilient after defeat, except when it comes to love, why isn't having good friends enough?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/28/25

Healing This Grieving Feeling

Very much healing, from this overwhelming grieving feeling, everyday is a challenge, leaning into my artistic talents, but I do still spill my shit onto others, no need to get under the covers, cuddle up with me, snuggle lovingly, I'll keep u warm, won't swoon or fawn, cuz it's not lust, or just another crush, this is what true connection is, I should become a protection wiz, absorbing it all without pause, chaotically intertwines what's mine vs urs, so we are both hot messes, trauma bonding actually tethers, but imagine we both are healthy, having those types of real relationships make us truly rich/wealthy!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/27/25

Fight Light

My mind's been kicking my ass, getting up every day is the hardest task, I'm simply tired, not robotically wired, can't fake shit, til I make it, I'm just truth, don't need a booth, I live music, take what I get and use this gift, to spread love and consciousness, fuck toxic bliss, I want art to heal the world again, the globe keeps turning friend, ride the waves, til ur cremated or graved, enjoy the roller coastering, why is evil so engrossing, too much light, might mean be prepared to fight, the time is always now, we gotta find our strength somehow!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/27/25

Casualty To Homosexuality

Trump is a chump, changing America's legacy to dump, history will spit this, cuz a country is not a business, tyranny and ownership aren't love, perhaps government doesn't reciprocate enough, they're so consumed with hoarding, many lives are just uninteresting and boring, and that's ok, not being gay, we're simply less than, I guess man, casually a casualty, did the devil create homosexuality, perhaps we were born wrong, scorned so long, that I'm thinking existence is hell on earth, and ultimately I have 0 value or worth!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/27/25

Divine/Sublime Time

I understand now, both the why and how, it's only a matter of time, when life becomes rather divine/sublime, I've reached a pinnacle, living pretty minimal, focused on bettering myself daily, my friends and chosen family have been super clutch with help lately, I'm extremely grateful, my appetite for adventure and connection is insatiable, I just love traveling and meeting new people, spreading conscious kindness eradicating hating discrimination and other forces of evil!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/24/25

Let Live & Give

Never wanna linger too long, hold on to the blunt or bong, there's so much fear here, surrounded by people getting the wrong idea, we are just bestys, he gets me, inspires a higher being, he's comfortable safe and gives a freeing feeling, no I haven't slept with him, perhaps ur inept from the beginning, to understand there's levels, y'all get ur panties in a bunch all disheveled, cuz u have a low emotional intelligence boo, u do u, please don't yuck my yum, simply move along son, ain't no time love or energy to give, but let's remember the golden lgbtq rule...live and let live!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/24/25

Rhyme Time

The more space he gave, my feelings faded away, thought absence made the heart grow fonder, instead I'm left to ponder, if he even likes me, I don't take friendship or love lightly, but he is kinda toxic, and when drunk rather obnoxious, yet I find it funny, helping him with a lil money, didn't buy any time, he's been the topic of many a rhyme, don't know tho if he reads it, can't stomach meek or weak shit, tell me what u really want, cuz life is way too short and regrets haunt!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/23/25

A Kind Mind

So traumatized by grief, I have this irrational belief, that this may be the day, he decides to go away, I'm sorry I'm needy, much too overthinky/feely, just alot, with the biggest heart, I can love the whole world, look at all the obstacles hurdled, yet still somehow insecure, my intentions are always pure, tho I'm single childless and alone, my warm glow illuminates home, my soul is love, high five myself every morning cuz I'm enough, trying to reprogram my mind, living proof it pays to be authentically kind, hold on stay strong, write a poem or song, finally surrender to what will be, let go of control and simply live out my destiny!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
3/21/25

Lead With Love & Authenticity

Gotta get on top of shit, focus more on the positive, just live and enjoy, fuck being employed, be an entrepreneur/artist, keep working the hardest, always give ur best and all, resiliently rise after every fall, heed ur calling, stop procrastinating and stalling, we don't get endless chances, take the risk when given second glances, seize that opportunity, show up for the lgbtq community, better yet take the lead, help peeps remember to believe in the power of love and authenticity!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/19/25

Fucked Up Love

I felt foolish and faggoty, but was glad he gave clarity, my heart and head, are a hot mess, but I hope and guess, he won't think me less, cuz I'm emotionally crazy, whoops a daisy, I almost blocked my blessing, it was never my intention, to manipulate my love, that was pretty fucked up, I don't know what to do with this, ignorance was such bliss, I just thought he was a crush, but it's turned to lust, and I know, cuz jealousy is a side of Joe, I'm not used to, a screws loose, so I got awkward and panicky, wondering if anyone can understandably stand by and will still Stan me?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/19/25

Time To Lime With Me

My story's called Sexy Gentleman, I'm masculine kind and intelligent, a gay prostitute of sorts, all above board, follow the law, always on tour, as a poet/musician, I follow my spiritual gut and intuition, baring my heart and soul, it takes a serious toll, when there's lil appreciation for art, consumers aren't smart, apparently talent doesn't matter, artists need to be like the mad hatter, able to juggle and muddle, huddled in the hustle, which is home base, gays inherently have great taste, this next phase I'll dominate in leather, wild crazy and kinky is way better, indulge in some me time, cuz I'm sure ull find my grind divine and'll wanna lime!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/18/25

Is Destiny Meant To Be

Is it all meant to be, do y'all actually believe in destiny, is he mine, I miss my parents reinforcing it will work out fine, just do ur best, never think urself less, cuz ur faith, guides this game, u can't lose, when u know ur truth, ur passion and purpose, even what hurts us, won't stop the ambitious drive, no longer ok with surviving it's my time to thrive, hoping he's by my side, but a word to the wise, if not, gotta still give it everything uve got!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/18/25

Goodbye...I Tried

U say one thing but do another, keep choosing the wrong lover, take what I give, helping him live, instead of showing up for me, people need acts of kindness esp during grief, not more pain, my heart isn't a game, and still u take me for granted, which is extremely underhanded, cuz it's simply ignorant, I was the innocent, who should've saved myself, for the sake of my own health, it's time for me to say goodbye, I already gave u too many tries!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/17/25

Begin With Him

I just wanna be loved, made to feel enough, wake up and go to bed, til one of us are dead, with u by my side, like Sam sings "take ur time", no one else can meet my mother, never had a brother, I do have some pretty great friends, who have been there again and again, I'm so lucky and blessed, yet it can seem impossibly hard to accept, but I still want him, will a life together ever even have a chance to begin, perhaps it isn’t in the cards, how do u heal a broken soul/heart?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/14/25

Liked But Might Bite

What I say in my art, may not be how I feel in my heart, many times it's my head venting, my rhymes can be mind bending, but I hope not hurtful or damaging, wish my pain from grief was vanishing, or at least waning, I don't find being a hot mess entertaining, I genuinely wanna help, but can't change the cards dealt, I need to retrain my focus, gotta give up my belief in fairytale love/hocus pocus, that's child's play, it sucks being gay, cuz it seems we are exempt, from being happy successful and content, which I know takes hard work, but getting nowhere convinces me I'm inherently cursed, all bark or might bite, it's unhealthy how much I need to be liked, can't buy love or luck, so I guess I'm probably just fucked and that sucks!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/13/25

Stomach Me Grumpy

Woke up grumpy, I can't even stomach me, I'm fed up, with a lack of love, the way I want it, I never try to flaunt shit, super blessed, yet can't be guessed, not really understood, being a force for good, when the government's gone evil, Americans are a bunch of sheeple, stepford zombies and robots, with no hearts or smarts, like a bunch of chickens with heads cut off, all they do is legit bitch and scoff, I forget y'all are perfect, I'm just not worth it, constantly left behind, told to give it time, when it's always the same, I simply suck at playing this life game!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/13/25

It's Me Or The Afterparty

Will he choose me, or the afterparty, I got my answer, escapism is a form of cancer, accountability is sobering, wish I was holding him, instead of crying alone, scared of dying at home, and nobody discovers my corpse, would anybody even feel remorse, prob busy with life or having fun, I realized the lust for my crush was done, no hard feelings, we are all just fallible human beings, who am I to judge, shouldn't hold a grudge, for my own irrational expectations when, he told and showed me who he was time and again, I fucked up and failed to set better boundary lines, ignored the warning signs, he's not the one hun, won't block him but it was a good run!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/12/25

People Aren't Evil

Giving endless chances to others is disrespecting myself, we all need help, struggling day to day, it sucks being straight or gay, life can just be hard no matter what it seems, I won't ever give up on me or my dreams, sometimes people just aren't capable, it took decades to get this stable, I don't know how I did it, cuz I suck at business, why do I keep pouring in and giving to those unreciprocative people, they're not necessarily inherently evil, they simply lack awareness emotional intelligence or intent, the universe's hurt works as if hell bent, on incessant cyclical suffering and pain, and the one thing that remains the same is that we can't control/change when it rains!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/11/25

Move On From Another Con

Wish u fucked me not my heart and head, cuz now love is dead, I want nothing to do with u, uve made me a fool, we can't be friends, any type of relationship has come to an end, and it's ur fault, I'm locked again in a vault, afraid of being hurt, I'm definitely cursed, my eyes deceive, ears don't believe, trust is earned, lust burns, what I've ultimately learned, it'll never be my turn, cuz I walk alone, already known home, and it's gone, there's no deadline how long to mourn, but it is simply time to move on, hopefully avoiding another con!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/11/25

Can't Help Myself

It hurts to have to say goodbye, especially if they didn't die, they just used and abused u, til all that I was able to do, was walk away, completely disengage, as if they didn't exist, live with it, my absence, and no matter what happens, I hold no regret or shame, my love isn't a game, I gave cuz that's who I am, never did I try to lie deceive or scam, I even felt bad, when I got mad, cuz u couldn't show up how I expected, perhaps I'm wicked overprotective, but my heart and soul, have already taken a beating/toll, plus I've spent so much time, trying to heal what's mine, establishing new boundary lines, red flags are warning signs, blaming a crush or lust made me blind, to the fact I'm too bloody gullibly trusting forgiving and kind, yet not to myself, and in the end tho no one else can help!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/11/25

Fired The Liar

My new gay besty is no more, the consecutive weeks I was ghosted on days off was 4, u can't be in my life, how u treated me wasn't right, still wish u well, but u can go to hell, I deserved better, we could've been together forever, now u can ride solo, u should have fomo, cuz I'm an adventure and a half, all I wanted was to see u smile and laugh, and u just took me for granted, I'll never understand it, I'm so deeply hurt, but what's worse, is I don't think u ever even cared, wish my heart was spared, didn't believe u were really a liar, I told u ud get burned playing with my fire, and I'm an air sign, in the end this double Gemini Sag will be just fine, especially without u fool, cuz uve lost a great ride or die soulmate dude we're thru!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
3/11/25

Got Guts Enough

I try to seem coy about being annoyed, at the fact I feel my poetry gets lost in the noise/void, is the internet a giant abyss, I suck at turning my art into a business, barely anyone comments or shares, are my fans consumed by their fears, thought I'm super open and approachable, wish when it came to finding real love I was coachable, why am I never chosen, perhaps in the hip hop world I'm the token, so outspoken I'm tmi, can't be taken seriously always high, like that diminishes my talent, people want the bad boy thug not a gentleman who's clean-cut and valiant, while I'm begging for y'all to see and feel me, continuously overlooked cuz I'm not cocky or greedy, but believe me I'm deeply hurting, at the end of the day it appears I'm simply another boring "normal" person, not that special enough, but brilliantly resiliently tough with just passionately driven balls and guts!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/10/25

Grown Old Soul

U can't love me like I do u, that expectation makes me a fool, what a fucking burden, what about when I'm hurting, I'm so sick and tired, people living zombified wired, just empty and hollow, evil winning and thriving is hard to swallow, I may be light but I'm no longer a son, wait til it happens to u hun, cuz usually the baby's the last one left standing, perhaps I am too intense and demanding, but no longer will I dim, go way deeper than skin, reach to meet me in the depths of my soul, and remember how much of a privilege it is to grow old!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/7/25

Ordained With The Reigns

Art feeds life and vice versa, wish my double Gemini sides would have a merger, it's like 6 different people, causing a tremendous amount of upheaval, all in one body, I need to smoke a goddy, to help get my adhd under control, being dominated is cool but no one will own my soul, I'm wicked independent riding solo, slowly but surely letting go of fomo, cuz there's not much happening, nobody's laughing, everyone's stressed and burnt the fuck out, showing divisive hatred loud and proud, we're just tired, of nothing but clowns and liars, taking the reigns, like they're not elected but ordained, forgetting we have the power, better fight back before the final hour!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/5/25

My Care Bear Stare

Ok now it's my time, to flourish and shine, if u can't respect my boundaries, ur no longer allowed around me, nor in my orbit, ur attempts will be ghosted or thwarted, I won't even engage, I'm trying to get past my growing pain phase, embracing being healed, while hurt people are for real, toxic like rot/fungus, in humongous abundance among us, spreading like yet another wild fire, does anybody make art to inspire, I'll always fight for truth love and consciousness, help eradicate exploitive greedy obnoxiousness, good needs to revolt back, instead of being passive attack, stand up for what's right, and vanquish this evil darkness with my care bear stare of bright white light!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/4/25

Positive's What The Problem Is

I write to express the negativity in my head, holding onto stress is the quickest way to get dead, trying to keep thoughts positive, the problem is, I'm a double Gemini, and my spirits shift from low to high, pretty quickly triggered, of course it figures, I care way too much, while everybody else gives 0 fucks, why can't I be more like that, easily just turn my back, ghost others the way they do me, cuz I'm over life truly, what's even the point, I'm wicked annoyed, all tribulations and trials, capitalism's made humanity vile, consumed by greed, love kindness and vulnerability make me weak, will I be mourned when I'm gone, afterall doesn't impossible to forget mean a star was born?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/3/25

No Hope When U Ghost To Cope

My heart's become numb and frozen, yet again I wasn't chosen, left alone inside my head, worried if u or him were dead, silence is the real killer, sad when drunkenness is the filler, they don't know how to just be, wish y'all could lime with me, I don't need much, some quality time and love, like sharing a meal, along with how we feel, u know a 2 way street, fuck online let's meet and greet, guess I'm not easy to handle, wish my absence leaves ur world dismantled, cuz I truly deserved, not to be neglectfully hurt, but then u came along, probably will be memorialized in a poem or song, since u destroyed all my hope, when it seems u only ghost to cope!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/3/25

How Wow

I say things all the time, try and make them rhyme, not cuz they're true, it's just how I feel in the moment dude, spit venom when I'm mad, but hurtful words when I'm sad, I wanna smash and cut hearts, when they bullseye mine with darts, and I'm a peaceful pacifist, don't forget I'm a powerful revolutionary activist, I fight for and with love, even tho I may say I give up, I don't even know how, my level of resilience and forgiveness is just wow, all ud have to do is apologize, then let's get back to quality fun and good times!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/3/25

And Another One Done

I'm not a good sport, at being ghosted/ignored, why can't u text or call me back, what's up with that, shitty friend, not giving in again, bye, u were a great moment in time, but miss me with ur bs, I no longer want u to be my guest, rot behind bars, fuck ur art, u broke my caring spirit, can no longer gracefully grin and bare it, u win, my patience is so thin, I'm actually strangely angry at u, feel like I got played for a fool, ur a hustler player and chameleon all rolled into one, we had some fun but the way u treated me and my boundaries we're done!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/3/25

Never Forget We Met

I'll always be grateful u helped reignite, my passion fire and light in life, when my mom was about to die, ud flash me a smile, and say cheer up, that was showing love, I needed that, and wish I could give it back, cuz ur struggling now, yet manage somehow, still ur on my mind, I just wanna take ur time, even tho we're simply bestys, without u my world is empty, I care so deeply for u, but there's nothing I can do, can't drag anyone into the sun, when it's all said and done, I'm glad we met, ur wicked beautiful talented and impossible to forget!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/2/25

Ride My Creation Vibration

U can call me JC the MC, he's all daddy/leathery, now releasing and unleashing my bearish Gemini side with pride, teach never to hide let ur authenticity aggressively ride, it's the highest vibration, especially if u have the power of artistic creation, in whatever form, u dictate what's norm, ain't that the trick, we manifest this shit, which is hard to swallow, how evil and greed's made life seem so soulless and hollow, just a bunch of  robotic sheep and zombie workaholic slaves, wasting time and energy away depraved to their early graves, give thanks to us real talented men women and gays, still fighting for true revolutionary love thru poetry and music to help save the day!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
2/27/25

Beyond Bearable My Hero

I'm worried about my friend, who's loved one could be near the end, it breaks my heart, being there for others can be hard, especially caretaking, winds up self sacrificing and draining, but it's the right thing to do, what if it was u, at the hospital alone, no wonder he doesn't answer the phone, really hope both are alright, and he lives to fight, for at least a lil while longer, adversity helps us grow stronger, but this level of suffering is beyond bearable, in my opinion my buddy is a real live hero!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/26/25

The Universe Is The Worst

Isn't bad timing just the worst, get so upset at the universe, let me jog the anxiety away, perhaps ejaculate, to take my mind off this desire, can't control how I'm simply wired, what should I do, mom would say push thru, but it's never-ending, becoming unbefriending, totally minimizing and downsizing, experiencing a profound enwisening, breaking generational toxic traits, no longer compartmentalizing lying and hiding for the sake of the straights, nor setting myself on fire to keep others warm, u can miss me when u don't know what u got and now it's gone, ghosted too much so tough luck, cuz now I'm all out of love!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/25/25

I'm Why

Is it time to move on, am I being conned, I don't think so, but u know Joe, u overthink and feel way too much, blindly give trust and love, like it's automatic, that's a wicked bad habit, sublimely kind and giving, use people pleasing to try and make a living, cuz being an artist's the father fucking hardest, esp naturally humble honest and modest, for many it's a miserable existence, life takes consistent persistence and resilience, just to barely stay alive, drinking nothing but tears cried, keep repeatedly questioning who's to blame and why, when the answer to the problem is me myself I!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/25/25

Why My Leather Love

Yes I'm into leather, sorry for never telling ya, didn't know how to bring it up, I want kinky love, as a beta it's hard, to have sex without involving ur heart, but the sub has all the power, having boundaries doesn't make me a coward, trust takes time, tell me ur fantasies and I'll share mine, I'm pretty open, love bonding over smoking and toking, I'm chill as fuck, rugged and tough, most have no luck, trying to size me up, never judge a book by its cover, I'm a pretty great friend and lover, in my 40s I'm finally adulting, so no need for u to hate or say something insulting, shouldn't yuck someone's yum, it's totally cool if u we don't have the same type of sexual fun hun!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/25/25

Kinky Piggy

When locked in chastity, I have this animalistic audacity, to pig tf out, I can't believe I'm saying this loud and proud, may as well pay homage, to my love for squirming in bondage, don't be afraid to taunt tease and tickle, my wicked hardwired nipples, have a huge foot fetish, clean but with a sweaty sock and sneak embellish, doms can call me Sniff, a master can be alpha yet not a narcissistic prick/dick, plus I give a great bomb ass massage, genuinely authentic not a fantasy nor mirage, I'm the real deal, a versatile submissive top who communicates how he feels, who also walks his talk, instead of passively hawk and gawk, extremely private and discrete, always safe and respectful when we meet, open to poppers and butt plugs, possibly even getting fucked, sorry tho cuz I'm not into vanilla hook ups, at this point in life I'd like to find myself kinky love!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
2/25/25

Doubly Privileged & Gifted

U can be friends but don't just expect it back, that might be an ability they lack, not a personal attack, that's facts, I'm lucky to know love friendship and family, many can't understand me, I'm doubly privileged, extremely smart and gifted, but genuinely authentic and humble, I hate when the sound's distorted and mumbled, my words matter, and put on a live performance rather spectacular, not to toot my own horn, I feel reborn, or like an unrooted bird, finally being acknowledged seen and heard for all my dedication perseverance and hard work!

Peace and 1

Joe Conscious 

2/23/25

Flare For Dramatics & Sarcasticness

My head def has a flare for emotional dramatics, plus my super dry sarcasticness, is often way too intense for most, I feel like I vibe better with the west coast, but I'm not ready to make that move again, right now I needed the love of extended family and friends, life is hard wherever u go, having a support system is important tho, esp in the gay community, where there doesn't seem to be much unity, I'm not able to brave the forest quite yet, but I'd be willing to confidently take a bet, I'm on the path where I need to be, finding footing when I get to fly free, and gotta eventually land, somethings man just isn't meant to understand!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/23/25

Super Strong Too Stupid Long

That's it, our friendship's finished, it was a one way street, I gotta retreat and focus on me, surrender and let go, ur the bestest sexy besty I've ever met tho, so that seems impossibly hard, breaks my heart, that's life right, consistent existence of plight and strife, my resilience game's super strong, minutes hours and days without him feel stupid long, I crave his presence, enamored by his essence, addicted to his scent, said shit that wasn't meant, worry and fear took over, tired of having the world on my shoulders, I should put u down, which takes strength so profound, I truly believe I'm too weak, bad timing isn't failure nor defeat, perhaps there's someone else who's better, but I'll forever remember how special our moment was together!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/23/25

The Talent Of Balance Challenge

Perhaps I can't see the light cuz I am it, can't understand shit, only human I guess, hide truth behind jest, life's a test, u don't have to be the best, just show up and live, be willing to give grace and forgive, both others and urself, we all need hugs kisses cuddles and help, why is that so hard for me, way too guarded maybe, I know I'm lusted and wanted, if u got it flaunt it, but I find I'm giving off the wrong idea, I'm really wicked lost in insecurity and fear, no one dates, or even tries to spit game, unless they're online, which is another very illusionary waste of time, much better to meet in person, I think I wind up hurting, cuz our culture's alcohol and quick sex, where I'd rather stay home smoke weed and veg, can't seem to strike balance, being socially openly sexual is quite the challenge and I lack that talent!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/22/25

Gay Growing Pain

I suck at being gay, almost 43 and still experiencing growing pain, need love but they only want sex, everybody's looking for what's next, unappreciative of the one they have already, this level of unhappiness and unfulfillment is making me unsteady, can't find my footing/grounding, my fantasies keep on hounding, so my attention is misfocused, wish there was real hocus pocus, cuz I don't wanna hurt, feel so God damn cursed, I'm tired of alone and lonely, my radiant smile is actually phony, masking my sadness, caught up in this world of madness, worried about tomorrow, seems like life's just nothing but sorrow, cold dark empty and hollow, with no more guiding light to follow!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/22/25

An Honest Artist

If I'm being honest, the hardest life is being an artist, impossible to keep up with, having talent is a perceived gift, it's the fame that's a curse, believing illusions hurts, get to know the real me, let's get intimate and kinky, felt nice to crush, not usually susceptible to lust, but he's the exception, I thought friendship was my intention, until jealousy crept in, and now I'm worried about deception, am I allowed to change my mind, can't press rewind, and undo what's already been done, perhaps it's too late and should settle for sexy besty platonic fun!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/21/25

Crappy & Unhappy

I just want him so bad, it's driving me mad, thought we could be friends, but after thinking it over again, I like him more, my problem is I'm not a whore, I have to get to know someone, before I have sexual fun, I need connection, and also protection, this world is a dangerous place, the most fucked up people are the gays, they're so damaged and broken, can only be around them drinking and smoking, I'm so unhappy, gotta get used to life being lonely and crappy!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/20/25

Dead Head

I was his friend he wasn't mine, wish I could press rewind, and let him pass me by, instead of saying hi, developed a major crush, but got flushed, cuz he couldn't show up, liars don't know love, trust is key, I no longer believe, gay romance doesn't exist, lost the will to live, now that my family's all dead, I'm fucked in the heart and head, probably be alone forever, nobody wants to spend sexual time together, and it's my fault, kept my kinks locked in a vault, now that my walls came tumbling down, I wanna be bound, and given pleasure, wish someone would see me like treasure!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/20/25

Solo With Fomo

He broke my heart, ripped my soul apart, I hate gay men, only get sex with payment, how fucking sad am I, that's why I stay high, it's how I get thru this shitty life, stabbed in the back with a knife, then he twisted, I swear I'm gifted, at being alone, many claim but have never shown, perhaps I'm incapable of being loved, I'm just not good enough, I long for and ache, a partner or a mate, tired of solo, consumed by fomo, cuz all my friends are straight and married with kids, I'm lost more than ever and simply don't know how to live!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/20/25

Lonely For Homey

This one really hurt, can't say they're jerks, just let me down again, man I need reciprocal friends, perhaps it's not love that's the problem it's sex, gay men are always looking for better or next, but I'm used to roots, didn't have familial rejection or abuse, so I can't relate, I don't feel oppression or hate, but I'm wicked lonely, miss that feeling of homey, will I ever get that back, I guess I'm a bad fag, can't be promiscuous, everyone's anonymous/ambiguous, and I'm absolutely hating, only online dating, I'm giving up, don't think I'll ever have luck with love!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/20/25

Gotta Task To Ask

Moving downtown, is a change rather profound, a whole new chapter, bubbled from the rapture, engulfing humanity, the profanity of it all is insanity, please don't leave me, I guess when it comes to u I'm greedy, but not in a jealous way, for him I pray, he could see himself and the world thru my eyes, maybe he can't realize, how can anyone, when it's all said and done, we only know what we see and feel, what's rare is genuine authenticity and finding a guy who keeps shit real, I need a gay Christian Grey, unfortunately I'm afraid, that's an unrealistic ask, yet I remain hopefully open there's an alpha Dom daddy somewhere who's up for mastering that task!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
2/17/25

How To Get With This

Can't believe how much progress I've made, this next chapter of my life will be great, I just know it, tho I can't control shit, and there will be some bumps along the way, tomorrow is a brand new day, living downtown should be fun, once this move is done, I can begin again, thank God for extended family and friends, along with weed, music too and of course poetry, what would existence be without art, like trying to love but have no heart, even being single, I'm out and about ready to mingle, ull find me most likely at the eagle, definitely not dressed all regal, showing up as my authentic self, making these other Leatherman melt, radiating pure joy, but ain't no boy toy, I'm rather scruffy and built thick, u gotta be something special to get with this dick!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/14/25

Bubba/Boo Or A Few

Always dream big and lately they include u, but with each passing day I feel more like a fool, what must I do, to make u see me as cool, someone u could be attracted to, maybe even call me bubba/boo, cuz it takes 2 dude, it's so true, there's no one else who, is capable of a coup, please don't poo poo, or threaten to sue, even relationships have hue, if only he knew, my new home is equivalent to goo, perhaps we don't have 1 love but a few!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
2/5/25

No Close Hope

Can u see me, or am I ghostly, I'm hurting, why's he gotta be a cat person, this loneliness is deadly, thought we were bestys, but he's barely friendly, rejection is gonna be the end of me, out of sight and mind, I truly believe I'm a catch/find, but never the lover, I'm a big hugger, perhaps I'm too desperate, there's only been one Everett, no one else has come close, someone I'm interested in likes me back is the hope, keep dreaming I guess, fairytales are just jest, there's no gay prince charming, how we treat each other is alarming, taken so much for granted, I don't think I will ever understand it!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/5/25

Light Bright

Gonna start selling my art directly, to help protect me, from having too many hands in my pockets, looks like we can't stop it, ai nor exploitation, I swear y'all enjoy hating, especially on creatives, I'm sure ur elated, making something from nothing, all peaceful and loving, u wish u could shine bright, like my light, despite all the heartache and pain, I never became bitter or vain, my brilliance, is the consistency of my resilience, poetry and music are my heart and soul, but not being properly supported and valued is taking a serious toll, provide hope and faith, by sending some opportunity or fan mail my way!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/4/25

Can't Get Enough Of Love

Can u be too tired, to get inspired, just when I thought I was down and out, boy did I come back and bout, book of poetry and a new EP, this chapter is all about Joe Conscious/MCJC, 2 birds of a feather, like sides of a coin stuck together, can't have one without the other, so many angels including dad G and my mother, earth seems kinda lonely, I may be a sub but nobody will ever own me, I hope and pray to never give up on love, cuz in this materialistic world it's the only thing we can't get enough of!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

2/2/25

Lesson's I'm The Blessing

Felt I was due for a poem, altho I'm reminded alot I'm alone, I'm not lonely, nor am I phony, but I will say I want to be loved, losing my whole immediate family's been tough, like I've lost my super power, I wouldn't say I hide away or cower, but I don't put myself out there as much, I long for an affectionate touch and such, need more cuddles and snuggles, if I'm honest I'm rather befuddled, what's wrong with me, now that I'm finally free, why am I still here, does he return the level of care, or perhaps I'm minimal, maybe plain invisible, pretty toolish, feeling foolish, fated single forever, wishing we could be together, when the ultimate lesson, is self loving's my life long blessing!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/31/25

Bent Prophetic Transcendant Intelligent

I wanna be iconic, but isn't it ironic, the tonic called liquid luck doesn't exist, could any of us really resist if it did, misusing it of course, absolute rowdiness ensuing with mass discourse, only met with brute Marshall law force, while the virtuously riteous are supposed to be good subservient sports, bastardized like warts, I thought humans were fallen angels, the truth's moot/mangled, completely leveled disheveled, yet so many complicitly consistently insist to assist uncompelled this mentality just told to tell, ain't no don't ask in that equation, afterall aids in gays leaves an abrasion, welcome to the invasion of the complacent, or the adjacent frustration of illusionary imitation, lacking creativity with any substance, sick of interrupting instructions from a circumference of curmudgeon, no more drudging in the sludge and nudging for nothing, when they'll never wake up and pay attention, simply incapable of any form of resurrection insurrection or my brand of demanded transcendant ascension, mostly cuz my vocabulary is beyond their retention's comprehension, it's a blessing I only mention with intention when questioning if I'm bent or deeply prophetic intelligent!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/21/25

Rebegin & Win

Is art and creativity exhaustable, or simply transformable, takes on different shapes and contexts, it's pretty complex, definitely takes practice, ask me how long I've been at this, and I'll say what do u mean, writing performing hip hop or my poetry, I'm a madhatter/juggler, I'm not instinctually a battle rapper/attacking that jugular, a wordsmith and grammar nazi of some sorts, looking for those chosen one cohorts, who can sit with me and shoot the shit, have a conscious conversation with, mix information sarcasm and wit, listen to the messages when I speak or spit, cuz u never know what secrets lie within, perhaps certain versions of ourselves need to die for us to rebegin yet again but this time win!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/18/25

We're Tight...Aight

I'm a hairy fairy, used to be allergic to dairy, but now it's shellfish, but u can't tell bitch, that I'm gay, I guess I don't portray or act that way, except I love Mariah Carey, I don't think she could've had me, I guess I'm kinky, I'd just want her and Lauryn to make music with me, same with the fellas that are straight, besides my guy won't be afraid to ask me out on a date, fight for prince charming and who's king, I don't care about the size of ur thing, never assume, I'm bride he groom, tho won't be in a dress, y'all know u wanna be a guest, any partner of mine will be blessed too, life will test us dude, hold my hand tight, u no longer have to fright or fight flight cuz it'll all be alright...aight!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious

1/16/25

Taste The Fate

Wanna be an inspirer, instead of a crier be a trier, stay motivated, those who chose hatred, over empathy and compassion, will see their lasting actions, as climate change hastens, being a disrupter is blatant, is there any purpose tho, he may be a worthless ho, capitalistic by nature, hyprocrit/danger, how aren't we afraid, if the US received a grade, I'd say D+, cuz we've traded our soul and guts, for inflation and greed, fuck hope and faith they don't even believe, humanity's insanity, intangibly profanity, seems absurd but preferred, over the concurred, despite it's for the democratic better, who's to blame for the dramatic weather, like it's man made, damned if they cave, bite noses off to spite their face, such a disgrace with haste, leaving not only a bad taste, but almost passed the point of too late it's fate!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/16/25

Gemini Mindfulness

Pardon my Gemini mindfulness, in other words I'm like a bridge, between extremes, we see both sides it seems, I bet we'd make the best judges, many begrudge us, perhaps cuz we could go either way, artistically revolutionary or notoriously serial killery craycray, I'm the former, I'll always be a force for good in ur corner, as long as u shine ur love and light, stand up and fight for what's right, not to be teaching hatefully preaching, perhaps a lil overzealous motivationally speaking, helping sheeple to awaken again becoming conscious, eradicate and vanquish evil cuz it's reign's been frustratingly obnoxious, they say it's darkest and hardest before the dawn, it's a brand new year that I hope we hear fear has finally finished and gone cuz it's timely morn!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
1/13/25

Nothing But Intuition Grit & Gut

I'm hungry to hustle, ready to flex my chops/muscle, splurge on this growth spirt, I can forgive and still be hurt, a likeable jerk, who loves to work, just in another way, wish there was a gay spray, I need a masculine acting homo bro like no joke, I'm not trying to hate discriminate or poke, but I'm constantly having that coming out bout, not trying to be loud about or shout, never intend it to be my identity, guess I hide behind sarcasm and jest intentionally, blend in, befriending, people pleasing, agreeing and fleeing, before get too deep in, yet craving substance, like size over circumference, they don't know the difference, my life changed in an instant, now what, nothing but intuition grit and gut!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/10/25

Experience Life's Interference

I'm making him my new year's resolution, he's just something so simply special of a human, totally orgasmic/outergalactic, fuck pragmatic, I wanna attack that bad ass bastard, not gonna even bother to ask her, I'm a father fucker, kinda undercover, homobro Joe 420, ain't that a shame/funny hunny, like Pink sings "keep ur drinks just give me the money", quickest way to my heart's thru my tummy, best side kick ever, y'all don't wanna compete with Trevor. I'm lucky af, miss both Adam & Jeff, those good Ole dayz in the cul-de-sac, our childhoods were ultra rad in fact I'm mad that, every single person can't share my experience, life's interference, strife and plight right, go fly a trite kite at midnight, who cares what u like tyke, still at 42 dude take a contrite fight hike to gain some better perspective and insight aight?!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/10/25

Legendary/Iconic Like Vodka & Tonic

How do I rise above, needing affection and love, sometimes the best medicine is a hug, if it weren't for bad I'd have no luck, my timing is horrendous, the level of resilience is tremendous, but I'm tired of being strong, why can't y'all accept accountability for being wrong, even if u think ur right, maybe u try not starting the fight, perhaps u disengage, especially when ur enraged, u know what would make a better me, if my family had to undergo therapy, I'm the sucker, waiting for my guy to pucker, awaken me from this magicless nightmare, with no happily ever after nor care bear stare, successful alone, about to sell my childhood home, never again looking back, whoever says hookering's whack, is probably ugly, wish I could be recognized publically, while y'all sip whatever vodka with tonic, I'll be busy winning Grammys and becoming legendary/iconic!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

1/9/25

Great Grief

I wrote "Great Grief", dedicated to my family, which I lost completely in 6 short years, so many manifested fears and tears, shed in and out of bed, wishing I was the one dead, on some real shit, can y'all even feel this, maybe on some distant level, u can empathize with disheveled, still I must persist and push thru, occasionally abrasively need a lil kick in the tush too boo, say I love u esp man to man, remember altho no one could truly understand, they want to, it's honestly true, let authenticity rule finally shining bright, spread more truth consciousness love & light, cuz like Grandpa Meth would say "keep it tight...aight", battle rapping ain't actually a fight, this definitely isn't goodnight or goodbye, let's all just shut the fuck up and get good hood high, feel free to listen or read along, wait and see til they maybe transform into song, hopefully use the arts, as a muse to help heal my own soul and broken heart!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
1/5/25

Club Med

Y'all must've thought I was dead

When in reality I was at Club Med

Having a spiritual breakthrough 

Realizing it's both what u say and do

Ain't no hotel/motel

Like my sexuality don't ask won't tell

None of ur business 

Can I get a witness

Feeling so much better

Whether whatever weather

Comes our way

Seems to me it's another beautiful day

This present moment's a gift

We should all try to smile and uplift

Cuz why not give it what we got

Nobody's perfect but everyone's worth it

Say hi and introduce urself

Never be ashamed asking for or receiving help

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

12/27/24