Father's Day My Way

I'm so grateful for the family I had, especially when it comes to my dad, he was just a good human, supportive of anything I was doing, as long as I was happy, he wasn't very rappy, but loved music, eventually got used to it, hip hop blaring thru the speakers, a great VP and teacher, got into landscaping and dogs too, his one rule, never live life worried about money, most people die in debt hunny, that shit doesn’t really matter, take care of ur credit score and character, fuck being employed, try to find love and joy, show tribute in my own special way, I'm wishing him another happy heavenly Father's Day!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/15/25

Love Up

Now I show up, not just out of love, but to piss u off, u can snicker and scoff, cuz I'm disgusted by u, neglect and avoidance is never cool, do u boo, keep acting a fool, u make me laugh, feel the consequence of ur own attack, I'm divinely protected, ur dark magic was intercepted, that's why I burned ur paintings, enjoy the reciprocity of deep pain staking aching, u inflicted on me, what ur depicting sickingly, I'm simply mirroring back, u can have all my lack, I'll never stop giving, and gratefully enjoy this beautifully abundant life I'm living!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/15/25

Stupid Anti Cupid

Send ur lil minions to fight ur battle, he's a wolf disguised as cattle, cuz he's stupid, quite literally the anti cupid, he instills hate, manipulates great, loves playing victim, to the devil's kingdom, he radiates darkness, super prostitutional/heartless, he may have fooled u, but I refuse to be an enabling tool too, my love is definitely intense, but it's pure and never seeks revenge, even tho he did me so wrong, I've got content for another fabulous poem and/or song!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/15/25

Free To Leap Into Legacy Energy

When it comes to love u gotta leap, or literally set it free, shouldn't match energy, authenticity is my legacy, I'm a safe space, to hate is such a waste, I'm not everyone's taste, I connect with power and haste, cuz life is short, and just always better with a cohort, solo Joe's grown old, I need reciprocity to fill my soul, funny how company, helps navigate comfortably, especially traveling, when my life seems spiraling/unraveling, I like to get lost in the woods, simply to remind and find myself retrospectively understood!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/13/25

11th Heaven

How can I raise the collective vibration, come out of hibernation and awaken, Rip Van fucking Winkle, no wonder ur still single, stay solo and alone, I blocked u on Instagram and my phone, pretend I don't exist, I give no shits if ur pissed, matched ur energy, think u got the best of me, bitch I'm legendary, can't swap with my destiny, I'm divinely protected, super talented and infectious, I'm love potion number eleven, being with me is like experiencing a lil piece of heaven!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/13/25

Jealous Of My Light/Life Right

This isn't just a new chapter it's a whole other book, look at all that the universe took, and yet I'm still standing, my smile is demanding, almost as infectious as laughter, most are too shortsighted to chess what happens after, I'm gifted that way, not sure if it correlates with being gay, we simply excel, and truth tell, cuz we are enlightened, our intuition is often heightened, navigating safety, learning to live with some people hating me, means I'm doin something right, perhaps y'all should be jealous of my beautiful light/life!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/13/25

Inspire Higher

Time to let them hit rock bottom, stop momming, or in my case daddying, I'm done caddying, put me in coach, I ain't no hoax, I'm the real deal, here to not hurt but heal, breaking generational curses, writing not competing on verses, I'm into collaboration, hip hop is notoriously known for thuggish exaggeration, that's not my style, I think spitting derogatory toxicity is vile, music is meant to inspire, wish we could raise our vibrational frequency much higher!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/12/25

Time All Y'all Fall

Ultimately gotta do, what's best for u, no apologies, so sick of misogyny, let's make it a girl's world, look at all the obstacles women hurdle, every single day, why do u think they're idolized by the gays, imitation is the highest form of flattery, tired of emotional assault and battery, takers run wild, a lack of empathy and reciprocity is putting it mild, call it what it is neglect, what happened to serve and protect, cuz that applies to us all, think it's time we just let y'all fall!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/12/25

Substanceless Judgment

Ur apology bothers me, cuz just saying the word sorry, without changed behavior, is waiting on a savior, to magically appear, does love trump fear, since it would seem, life is but a dream, accountability isn't necessary, no talent needed to be famous/legendary, hate has the power, hoardish greed's leading us to our final hour, unless the pendulum swings back, stop trying to acquire what u lack, relationships shouldn't be transactual, righteous justice must be based on a collective truth that's factual, misinformation and lies have clouded judgment, so now society's reflection in art hasn't any real inspiration nor substance, which is such a shame cuz mainstream success, doesn't automatically mean u can claim rigged game yet still be best!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/11/25

My Hype Life

Had to lose myself, to prove I didn't need help, learned how to love better, so many codependently tethered, ur ruining community, lgbtqa+ has no unity, except they're not heteronormative, I've never been conformative, I'm always the antagonistic rebel, y'all couldn't handle my tell all, u barely can tolerate my freestyled poetry, if u mean ur apology then show me, otherwise bye/thank u next, I refuse to enable and engage being hexed, I am the love and light of my own life, u can best believe all the hype!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/11/25

Fight Bright

Not a fan of vanilla give me chocolate milk, I like guys who's game is smooth like silk, don't match energy, try to steal my legacy, cuz u ain't me, my destiny wasn't free, u couldn't handle a day in my life, I bet I connect better with both ur mom and wife, they have a higher emotional quotient, I don't need to use a potion, unconditional love and light come naturally, I add thoughtful consciousness casually, our collective frequency/vibration gets raised, I was put on this earth to authentically combat divisive discrimination and hate, my shine is so bright, it inspires good people to wake up and fight!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/10/25

Human Doing

I'm simply human, ur opinion of what I'm doing, is just none of my business, my niceness deserves interest, so when I finally muster up an ask, u better accomplish the task, without any bitching or complaining, ur lack of reciprocity is not only draining, it's absolutely disrespectful, u should be regretful, like Pac "u ain't never had a friend like me", sometimes my truth is delivered bitingly, but that's cuz most avoid accountability for their part, hard to accept not everyone has my heart!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/10/25

My Profound Down

Why u gotta try to push me, don't give me a kick in the tushy, I'm already down, this level of grief is so profound, it destroyed my beautiful heart and soul, resilience and strength takes a toll, most won't check up, since they're inept at friendship and love, it wasn't luck, I finally realized I'm enough, and ur not, this one way relationship needs to stop, too much focus on my reaction, when I was mad that ur effort and passion were lacking, wanna wish u well, but deep in my gut I really hope u go to hell!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/10/25

Token In A Pond Or Ocean

Nothing like a pride performance to reinvigorate my spirit, I am done with guilt shame and fearing shit, always continue to dream, work hard and believe, u will manifest everything u wish, fuck the size of the body of water I'm not a fish, pond or ocean, I'm usually the token, on a path all alone, just recently sold my 40 year home, now that feeling is in a cemetery, weird to be cremated and buried, one day I will be too, remember more than one thing can be true, even at the same time, the way the game's changed is a crime, in backwards upside down land, moral ethical common sense and good people are very much in profound demand!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious

6/9/25

Heal Ur Lil Kid Shit A Bit

Each day I awake I try to show up, knowing deep down inside I'm more than enough, my overflow is crazy, y'all think I'm so stoned I'm foggy and hazy, it actually helps me focus, manage my own hocus pocus, without losing control, I won't ever have sold my soul, I'm much too creatively independent, a relentlessly resilient driven incessant pleasant present/blessing, I be secretly testing then watching and observing, look at all the people ur hurting, never taking accountability for ur shit, how about u take time for some retrospection with intention of healing for a lil bit kid!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/7/25

Can Y'all Understand My Helping Hand

I wanna be that ball of energy and light, with me everything will be alright, the future should be bright, I predict with clairvoyant foresight, I just believe, I'm here if u need someone else to help grieve, I know it's hard, that's simply ur cards, play ur hand, yet know and understand, the universe is working for u, u were adored too, but don't be hypocritical, love friendship and support must be reciprocal, one way streets, are a teams defeat, when we all work together, we can magically make existence so much better!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/6/25

Still Severely Grieving & Mean It

Hanging out today in Ptown, totally turned my frown upside down, I've had to cut off 2 people, not cuz I believe they're evil, but they couldn't show up, nor accept my platonic unconditional support/love, and it is really annoying, I'm sick of all this ghosting and avoiding, can u deal with real traumatic shit, we all have some unique gift, yet also have flaws, I don't want empty words or applause, especially if u don't mean it, y'all gotta give me more grace please I'm still severely grieving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/5/25

The Price Of My Sacrifice

Underneath this anger stems pain, don't wanna explain my gain, cuz it came at such a high price, y'all can't understand what I had to sacrifice, I'm tired of being used, mentally and emotionally abused, cuz I come from pure love and light, I want real peace not more fight, someone to cuddle at night, can admit I was right, and not be punished as the messenger, my trust is not just an expenditure, it's everything and so much more, it's the sum of the family I had before, so I'm wicked grateful and blessed, gotta learn to let shit go be and truly surrender I guess!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/4/25

Heal Hurt Thru Inner Work

Just went to the cemetery to visit with my family, most people won't ever understand me, to lose them all in 6 years, I don't know how I've survived thru this grief pain and fear, guys like Nick and Andrew don't make it easy, why y'all gotta be sheisty sleazy and greedy, yeah I named names, my character reputation and life are not a game, I no longer explain or try to justify, cuz they keep living as the victim/lie, eventually we see thru the illusion, they're like a fungal pollution, infecting more hurt, quite literally will never accept accountability by doing the inner work, and that's on them, I'll say it again they were never ur lover nor friend.

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/4/25

Lacking Action Hurts Worse Than Words

It's crazy how much stronger I've grown, independence is all I've ever known, so many people want a piece of me, but don't know how to ask or share peacefully, u can have some of my overflow, but first u still will have to show up tho, not just speak words, cuz lacking action hurts worse, broken promises and dreams, wanting one way unbalanced teams, that bs no longer effects me I actually expect it, y'all can't protect shit, bunch of users and losers, confusers and abusers, more money more problems, blocking and disengaging is the only way to solve em, let karma work its magic, learn how to just smile and laugh at it!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/3/25

Passion Purpose & Service

What if the world was gonna end, can u look back and say u were a good friend, is there any proof, or was the action aloof, perhaps u never showed up, dismissive avoidance is rejection of love, there's no way around it, I'm on some profound shit, when I speak people listen, I broke out of this matrix/prison system, in fact I'm off grid, don't cough while I spit, u might miss the point, I'm not mad I'm annoyed, so much wasting time, but I find if I rise and grind writing another rhyme, my day has both passion and purpose, and at the end of the day I also provided a service!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/2/25

Haven’t Seen Passion In Action

This month is all about Pride, my ego hasn't died, but it also doesn't drive, I'm so happy and grateful to be alive, life isn't perfect, yet living authentically is still worth it, between the blessings and lessons, hanging with me is definitely interesting, don't try to figure me out, love to verbally bout, cuz I wanna witness ur passion in action, actually growing and changing when u haven't, finally taking ur share of accountability, and since adulting surmounts stability, u become ur best highest self, realizing ur inspiring it's not ur responsibility to help!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/1/25

Guessing Blessings Are Present

Growing up is a level of maturity, my genuine authenticity has such a purity, the frequency is hard to vibrate, I respect both my love and hate, cuz it's never intentionally malicious, definitely can be vicious, if u take my niceness for weakness, that learned lesson was tedious, I've evolved to kindness, incorporating more mindfulness, how my delivery is abrasive yet raw honesty and truthful, loud proud and unmutable, I'm omini present, so not sorry for my bounty of blessings keeping em all guessing! 

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/30/25

Existence Isn't All Money & Business

What happened to living this existence, now it's all about money and business, very sad actually, finding ur passion purpose and service should come about naturally, maybe with a lil nourishment or nudge, hate when a narcissistic dismissive avoidant refuses to budge, but oh well he's met his match, hopefully a conscious awakening can still hatch, cuz I've learned it's never too late, like Yoda would say "accountability must u take", and that's just the first step, quite frankly I question if ur totally incapable or simply inept!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/30/25

Cost Of A Boss

I'll say it again I'm not perfect, but understanding me is worth it, I'm loyal honest and compassionate, I ain't a fake don't wanna escape nor start masking shit, I am trying to be more mindful of my delivery, I'm noticing lately my hostility's hindering me, can't explain how intense this grief deeply infests my life, it's like impossibly hard to not focus on the fight plight and strife, my blessings came at such a cost, don't even see how much of a boss, I've been and actually am, most people's social media perpetuates an illusion/sham/scam, not mine tho, ull find I'm so authentically brilliant resiliently ready and willing to show accountability thru both tangibly real changed behavior and growth!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/29/25

My Rising's Not That Defyingly Surprising

He might be the most tangibly real, but he's being completely unreasonable, we all are going thru it, I make many great connections thru art and music, u still gotta make an effort, put the time and work into every endeavor, cuz what if tomorrow doesn't come, and u never embedded roots into where u were from, my family were angels, so when life happens I see from many doubled Gemini angles, with Scorpio rising, my epic legendary legacy/empire was scriptured it's not that defyingly surprising!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/28/25

Give 0 Shits About Business

U had none for me but now want empathy, bitch I'm legendary, u should be apologizing, finally bending and compromising, cuz u were in the wrong, played victim so hard it became both gross and boring, grow the fuck up buck, they're actions not words unconditional friendship and love, u earn and deserve it it's not freely given, I ain't forgetting nor forgiving, fuck off, u can cry laugh or scoff, I give 0 shits, accept the consequences of ur bad choices/opinions which are none of my damn father fucking business!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/28/25

Some Lessons Are The Blessing

Was definitely guilty of trying to help, thought perhaps could save him from himself, boy was I wrong, played me all along, and it really was my fault, but now that's come to a hault, this latest vaca, was the perfect amount of time away, got my head on gay again, he wasn't my friend, cuz he never showed up, no matter how much I had given him unconditional love, I couldn't buy, his effort nor time, and that’s my bad, it's ok to stay mad, so instead I broke thru grew and learned, I'm done getting reburned, never regret being someone's blessing, simply take em like Biggie would say "with style and grace"/as another one of life's lessons!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/27/25

My Wild Bday Style

What a great birthday weekend, so many hot kinky leathermen to befriend, everybody is so nice, the flattery def helps entice, I mean so much originality and style, it's awesome to see how free authentic beings run wild, embracing all walks of life, the moment feels so right, I needed time away, this vaca has been so fulfillingly great, and boy do I have more fantastic news, this new guy doesn't leave me confused, in fact he's the best thing that's ever happened to me, still even wicked hard to believe, I found myself both a business and loving partner, a real genuine uplifting problem solver, who discovered and rescued me in my darkest hour, at 43 after losing my whole family I've stepped into my power, but he doesn't wanna dim my light nor clip my wings, in fact I'm very excited to see what this union and our future together brings, y'all are in trouble, wait til we unveil music's next power couple!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/25/25

Face Of Grace

At the airport now to go to IML, escape this grief stricken RI hell, I need some space, a much needed vaca/escape, to help clear my head and heart, between mother's and birthday life's been pretty hard and dark, but I am so proud of myself, despite everything I've gone thru I was able to help, even at my own detriment, now I'm 100% focused on personal betterment, let go of the obnoxious toxic, leaning into Joe Conscious, who is my saving grace, trying to share and keep that sweet smile on my face, relax and have some hot and wild fun, really stop to appreciate how much I've done and won!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/23/25

Farewell Annoying Dismissive Avoidant

Finally blocked for good, my love and friendship was being misunderstood, I'm sorry for the drama, but it was cuz u never healed ur trauma, in fact u created urs, I'm not afraid of wars, I fight for what is fair just and right, pulled u out of the darkness when u asked for help cuz I can and am light, u were nothing more than a dismissive avoidant, taking no accountability is not only silly but annoying, u keep using abusing and hurting people, I won't say ur evil, nor will I talk bad about u, but I'm simply done being ur tool/fool cuz that isn't cool, plus I deserve way better, wish u karma in all future endeavors!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/22/25

Faith In Great Fate

Silence absence and avoidance are rejection, fuck attention I want ur intention, I'm a man of words so he needs to be of action, have authenticity intelligence and passion, persistently picking and choosing me, can't be emotionless elusive and illusory, so my new motto is let them, focus not on the person but the pattern my friend, they'll show u who they truly are, I know it's incredibly hard, practice self love/grace, I know ur impatiently tired yet u still gotta hold on stay strong have hope faith and unwaveringly wait, believe in ur destinied fate, remember good things take time and ur great!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/21/25

Profound Ups & Downs

Life is a rollercoaster of ups and downs, the wisdom learned tho is profound, who knew grief, would strengthen my belief, that I'll be ok, even on a bad day, and there have been quite a few, I try to follow thru matching what I say and do, but I often make mistakes, get consumed with jealousy envy and hate, cuz I am human, navigating these ruins, making the best out of every moment, like Em says "gotta seize and own it", living is a choice, instead of raising a glass how about ur voice, stop being complicit, ur not innocent, when u know do better, the only way to get thru this existence is together!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Buffering Suffering

Trying to write my overthinking away, I hate having adhd and being gay, double cursed, I don't know which is worse, no love or success, I'm just less I guess, every day is torturous suffering, I'm done buffering, my responsibilities are over, gotta put down the weight from my shoulders, stand up straight, smile and stay great, say fuck fate, I'll free willingly go my own way, laugh as I go to the bank, even if my poetry and music tank, it gives me purpose, and really helps to heal what hurt us!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Almost Supernatural/Magical

Maybe if I could write one poem to inspire, perhaps I'll be able to retire, it ain't about the money, honestly I find consumption fickle and funny, y'all don't know what u want, most who boast and flaunt, are usually just a well crafted illusion, I know my exterior makes me confusing, but I love breaking stereotypes, I'm not validated by views very much or likes, I write cuz it's my calling, like my resiliency after falling, it's almost supernatural, some have even described me as magical!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/1

Swindling Needs Dwindling

Underneath the anger is pain, ur loss isn't my gain, wish I could save the world, was attracted to girls, cuz dudes just suck at love, I've had enough of rough and tough, life shouldn't be this damn hard, fuck God and the dealt cards, give me pocket aces please, instead of another 7 and 3, I'm stuck, without luck, and my hope is dwindling, faith seems swindling, I am fed up and tired, how can I be rewired, I think I've been living life wrong, oh well what the hell give me another rip from the bong!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Betsy & Etsy

Enough hatred, saying y'all are intimidated, too scared to make a move, just thinking I'm good looking and cool, yet u remain quiet, get used to a Joe or JC free diet, miss me when I'm gone, replay my songs, cuz that's the closest ull get, hope ur upset, u blew it Betsy, sell shit on Etsy, don't ask me for money again, no u ain't my friend, I was urs, even if u did beg on all fours, ur sorrys aren't real, changed behavior is the only way to fix how I feel, but ur incapable it seems, hope u see me in ur dreams, haunting u with regret, sorry not sorry ur nothing but a defect!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Locked Cock Blocked

If ur waiting on me to contact u, ur a bigger fool, I made all the effort I could, u never picked me even when u said u would, so fuck off, uve never walked ur talk, ur a bullshit artist, playing victim the hardest, leave me alone, go to ur daddy's home, play happy, don't u dare ask me, pretending to play nice, losing me bites, but now I've lost all interest, joining the ranks of the cynics, cuz gay guys suck, only want to fuck for a buck, leaving u high dry and used, sick of the neglect/abuse, u may have a big cock, but u and it should stay locked or blocked, ur simply no good, stay the hell away from me and my hood!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Made To Fade Away

So many tears cried, tired of his disappointment and lies, don't even talk to me, keep gawking for free, while u can, cuz soon I'll be in demand, and u missed ur shot, glad u think I'm hot, too bad u couldn't say it to my face, I think avoidance is a disgusting disgrace, maybe ur ok with wasting time, just don't with mine, consider me gone, fuck our song, u never stood with me tonight, one way relationships ain't right, enjoy ur choices u made, get out of my sight and mind so u can finally fade away!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Damn This Lack Of Companionship Shit

Yet another bad day, I hate waking up this way, and have nobody there, old alone is my biggest fear, I just want to be chosen, our lives interwoven, not codependent, I know the sentiment, perhaps u don't self love enough, life is just tough, why doesn't anyone care for me, they make effort so sparingly, it's slower and worse than snail like breadcrumbing, feel like I'm dead/crumbling, can't handle this anymore, gay equals whore, I'll be damned with this shit, why is it so hard to find real genuine companionship?!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

My Mission Intuition

The sun will set again and rise, while the stars shine bright thru darkest of nights, sometimes I get tired of the endless fight, it doesn't seem fair or right, but ain't that life, plight suffering and strife, but someway somehow I just know we're gonna be alright, cuz that's light, like fungus among us it seeps in, I'll keep unconditionally believing, endless hope and faith, each and every single day I awake, it's more than just an intuition, passion purpose and service is my mission!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/19/25

Eyes On The Prize

Tired of the daily pain tears and fight, I'm trying to live my best life, but I feel the universe is against me, like love happiness and success wasn't meant to be, simply suffering, it's rather troubling, what am I doing wrong, writing poems and songs, filled with lived experience and truth, why's collective wisdom aloof, can't be the only one tapped in, what if fame was in fact entrapment, another distraction from the real issue, imagine if u could feel what I wish for u, see u thru my eyes, told I'm a Queen so wouldn't that mean I'm the prize, and if so, stop treating me like a disposable hoe!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/19/25

Demanding Understanding

Ok now that's out of my system, sometimes I express myself just to read or listen, helps me get an understanding, of what my body mind or soul's demanding, perhaps my cup is empty, I need y'all to replenish me, validate and encourage more, not only appreciate what I'm good for, but be truly happy to see me succeed, I swear it's entertaining to watch someone suffer or bleed, I ain't like that, won't seize a weakness to attack, I'm not even competing, please don't fake an agreement, hate the same, both the players and the rigged game!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/19/25

Get Upset

Today is just shitty, I can't even be sarcastic or witty, I'm simply upset, what doesn't the world get, I lost my whole family, u can't understand me, and everyone wants money, the incompetence isn't funny, y'all need to get publically ridiculed and fired, boomers need to be retired, stop the fear, create universal health care, it should be a right, not a political nor profitized fight, it's lucrative to keep people sick, not every gay asshole wants a dick, I'm so sick and tired of people, I blame God for even allowing all this evil, fuck the devil too, u both suck and don't deserve to be worshipped or rule!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/19/25

Authentically Be Just Me

Loving this weather, makes life better, when the sun is shining, I'm wining and dining, with great friends, hopefully the fun never ends, used to take shit so serious, it was making me delirious, when it wasn't personal, don't know how to keep things internal, I speak my mind and feelings, like to remind everybody we are all fallable human beings, fuck the idea of perfect, enjoying the journey is worth it, pay attention to who u meet, don't be afraid to greet, strangers have no agenda, live like there isn't tomorrow and go on a bender, spread kindness with a smile, find joy and happiness even if it is only for a lil while, cuz the time is always now, wicked proud that I no longer care to ask why when or how, I just be, authentically me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/18/25

Bet Yet

Have no fear, I'm here, despite time and distance, in any instance, u can find me, all blindly smiley, yet not a funny guy, hunny I'm high, that's how I get thru life, dealt with the serious strife, got a very dry sense of humor, believe the kinky rumors, that's my meditation, don't like western medication, the cure is actually living, instead of taking try giving, reciprocity generosity, u gotta be pretty fucking special to use this booty as a depository, the ultimate glory hole, mine is the most epically legendary gay story told, best thing since sliced bread, a thick short bald older wiser white version of Lil Nas X, it's a sure bet, just haven't been discovered yet!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/15/25

Soul Windows

Finally finding my stride, after my whole family died, found my light, that resilient fight, I got from my folks, my authenticity isn't a hoax, this is genuinely who I am, a gay gentlemany man's man, yet super emotional and empathic, having a high I/E Q doesn't make me ecstatic, I'm hard to love, often described as too much, feeling not enough at the same time, hide behind I'm fine, when inside I'm dying, don't mind publically crying, it cleanses the soul, since eyes are the windows u know, vulnerability isn't weak, in fact a wise warrior is impossible to beat or defeat, when one masters self, it's everybody else who's gonna need help!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/14/25

My Smile Style

Cop a listen, to some optimism, it's pretty easy, to be corrupt and sleazy, til karma comes back around, and the effects are wicked profound, u get what u give, manifest how u live, embrace ur power, we never know our last day nor hour, have another adventure, smack them dentures, eating Dorritos and ice cream, stop being so damn mean, it's not funny hunny, u can't buy happiness or respect with money dummy, and u can't take it to the grave either, u need a tremendous amount of hope and faith to maintain being a believer, but I'll do it with grace and style, cuz remember no matter what we're gonna smile!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/14/25

Hope's So Dope

Integrating inspiration love light and hope, into poetry and music that's so super thought provokingly dope, it's broadening collective scopes and horizons, help transcendent elevation thru massive mind unbindings/unblindings, can't rewind time, but we can mindfully change and grind, towards a much better brighter future, I'm not trying to spook ya, but why haven't u recognized ur mistakes, let alone do what it takes, to in small tiny ways, manifest the best life everyday, be truly grateful and happy, learn to laugh and smile along with not at me, cuz baby ain't nobody perfect, but we're all beautifully special and worth it, willingly give and spread hugs, know deep in ur whole heart and soul we are enough!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/13/25

It's Genuine Authenticity Silly

Wanna grow bigger, not so easily triggered, cuz I'm better than that, and talking smack's whack, but I am only human, focus on what I'm doing, I apologize with changed behavior not empty words, ur sorrys hurt me worse, but I've worked hard to move on and heal, my glow up is real, super grateful and appreciative for ur support and love, artists can never be validated enough, we're all pretty insecure, and totally want more of course, found better boundaries and limits, shed all the illusionary gimmicks and tricks, it sounds simplistically silly, what people really value most seems to be genuine authenticity!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/12/25

True Happiness & Success No BS

Ur too old to be hobosexual, ur relationship with a daddy u know is incestual, it's gross, u can't host, that's why u like to nest, doin meth isn't the best, but hey ur an adult, keep adding injury to insult, ur hurting urself, avoiding love and help, ur bad, I ain't mad, in fact I'm so happy without u, I'm finally seeing exactly what I bouted and grew thru, we are not the same, I don't play the victim game, I've been dealing with real trauma, u created ur own drama, and refuse to take accountability, I now get giggly cuz I think ur simply silly, so over ur bs, my revenge is living in my true happiness and success!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/12/25

Happy Heavenly Mother's Day Mom

Today is not about grief sadness nor sorrow, mom would never want me to wallow, life is totally worth living, none of us are perfect so start forgiving, bad choices and decisions, don't have to make us cold and distant in emotionless prison, I'm on a conscious mission, to get people to wake up and listen, we need to appreciate women, they are not just their father or husband's minion, in fact they're rather existential/incredible, wicked special and can cook dishes definitely delectable, it's probably her love language, cuz they empathethize with all the pain and anguish, would do anything for kids to avoid having to struggle or suffer, nothing quite like once having the world's best mother, no other could compare, but now haven't any fear cuz she travels with me in my heart as my guide everywhere!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/11/25

Hunger For Adventure & Wonder

Now that I'm closing that chapter, focused on laughter instead of what happens after, or even next, done with feeling cursed/hexed, I'm the best, and if ur reply is I guess, then u don't know me at all, I resiliently rise after each fall, I'm like a Phoenix personified, here's kleenex for the tears cried, it's understandable, wish God was commandable, so I can believe in free will, let me see the bill, too many hidden taxes and fees, I think the whole globe would agree, enough with poverty and hunger, life is beautiful filled with existential adventure and wonder, embrace grace again and forgiving, let's collectively start blissfully living!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/10/25

Riches Or Glitches

Guys night was a blast, real unconditional love and friendship isn't something I lack, my cup runneth over, let go of all that weight on my shoulders, now is my time to shine, don't have to hustle and grind, but I do, I'm a creator dude, I'm leaning in, fiending a win, cuz I'm done being the sum of my losses, wanting fame but do u know what the cost is, are u willing to sell ur soul, what's the end goal, power and riches, or the ability to see the matrix glitches, be that spiritual being, manifest ur best life and start healing, get back control, slow ur roll, life takes a toll, so come chill out with ur bros and let's smoke a blunt bong or bowl!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/10/25

Ever Better

I'm overzealous at times not greedy, very choosy but not needy, if u don't want the honor, of having me as ur primary partner, let them, u ain't my friend, I'm urs there's a difference, in every single instance, got used and then discarded, no longer broken hearted, stronger than ever, my life without u keeps getting better, smiling more, less of a lustful whore, content being single, love to socialize and mingle, make out with a hotty, smoke a fat ass Goddy, anytime I want, stay humbly cocky and flaunt, shaking what my mama and papa gave me, and y'all can watch my glow up majorly jealously/hatefully!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/9/25

Talents & Skills That Kill

Guess y'all don't like political, those numbers were pitiful, so I'll write another, heart strings tugger, that perhaps speaks to our soul/essence, every moment's a gift that's why it's called present, just remember, we're all better together, in this overpopulated world, let's not compare obstacles hurdled, instead let's unite and fight, to make things fair again just and right, come on sheeple walk with me thru the darkness and into light, can't always trust sight, the spiritual realm is real, ull never get anything u want in life unless u communicate how u feel and heal, don't cheat lie steal or kill, make ur own money hunny using ur natural talents and sharpening ur skills!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/8/25

All People Should Be Equal

Let's outdo yesterday's views and get in the millions, Congress must be treated like civilians, yes all people, should be equal, and the rules apply to everyone, being president isn't supposed to be fun, it's great responsibility and power, how did democracy become devoured, must be from the valueless capital, earth's gonna grow uninhabitable, just like in The Lorax, corporations need to pay more tax, eradicate crypto, protect urself from subliminal hypno, where's there a solution, to this toxic noise light food man made drugs disease and pollution, how about some accountability, to an avoidant that idea seems silly, since simply no more moral respectful decorum, the world wide web's become a numb dumb sesspool/forum, reality bastardized virtual, any resolutionary attacks should be strategically surgical, let's not make things worse, cuz life lately's insufferably soul suckingly cursed and it really fucking hurts!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/8/25

Divine Drive To Try Time After Time

What should I say or do, to get thousands of views, how can I inspire u, while continueing to still speak the truth too, conscious not conscience, judging what's right or wrong is nonsense, just sharing a lil bit different perspective, hope y'all are happy with what u elected, hate to say I told u so, but u know tho, it sucks experiencing the consequences of other people's choices, I've been told I have one of those unique special voices, my iconic top 3, are Tupac Lauryn Hill and Mariah Carey, they are legengary original songwriters/live performing artists, and traveling that rare revolutionary path's the hardest, cuz u need divine resiliency talent and drive, which only develops having the consistency like Cyndi sings to try "Time After Time"!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/7/25

An Alchemist Of Happiness/Bliss

Guess I'm an alchemist, can transform this pain from grief into happiness/bliss, art is a gift, meant to inspire and uplift, helping others helps ourselves, I'm not sharing it for the wealth, I've got more than I need, money doesn't grow on it is the tree, got nothing to back it up, last time I checked what conquers all is love, so I'll keep the faith, yes even despite being gay, my existence isn't sin, hope good finally wins, way too many are hurting, wasting their life away working, lost or ignore their passion and purpose, we all should collectively be of service, neglect selfish ego and pride, held accountable for mistakes and lies, why can't we go back to at least semi normal, where we remember respect civility and to be more friendly or cordial!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/7/25

Treasure The Unmeasured Pleasure Of Pure Love

Gemini move naturally unbothered, fuck the re I'm just an evolver, push people past their self made walls boundaries and limits, and can see and read thru their shticks tricks and gimmicks, I'm underestimated yet use it, to make very epically legendary poetry infused music, speaking transcendant truth love and consciousness, cuz I'm simply tired of all this twilight zone corrupt obnoxiousness, shine a light on all this darkness, my level of empathy trumps Trump's business-like heartlessness, it's not funny, nor any way to run a country, but I'm just wicked fucking blessed to not forget there's still our pure collective soul, I don't choose want or need anything or body else to be completely whole, I won't ever be complicitly exploited devoiced nor ai duplicated, I can transmute my own extreme grief and pain plus ur judgmentally discriminating hatred, into something golden yet rainbowy like a treasure, my mindfully higher vibration of authenticity brings nothing but infinitely global even universal pleasure that's unmeasurably better experienced together, so now's the time to unmatrix/actually tap in, and successfully let's be the last one's sassfully blasphemously laughing!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/7/25

Cordial Normal

Going back to normal, distant and cordial, ur avoidance, is an annoyance, harming urself, running from help, seeking comfort, yet won't work, u want everything handed/given, can't have emotionless love or living, this act, is rather whack, and quite foolish, pretty petty and toolish, has no effect on me, cuz I'm legendary, in the making, I ain't faking, authenticity is my vibration, enjoy watching gawking and hating, happy and unbothered is my revenge, when we see each other it's tense, u can play defense, I'll just simply ignore u and get bent!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/7/25

U.N.I.T.Y. Between Y'all & I

When I'm content single and happy, I'm not as biting snappy nor sassy, which is what people have been naggingly asking of me, I don't like being sarcastically nasty, but I show both my light and dark, speak truth from my soul and heart, it's naturally genuine, I'm a masculine divine feminine, an anomaly, being different doesn't bother me, it's the shame game, we only have ourselves to blame, yet don't take accountability, more about transactional profitability, over fulfillingness' bliss, they'd prefer comfortableness, focused on escapism, fuck hate sex and racism, to be like the Queen we gotta U.N.I.T.Y., which starts by stopping the divisiveness between y'all and I!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/5/25

Deeply Feely

My words leave an impact often, laying issues to bed or in a coffin, I don't hold shit in, only so many times we can forgive and rebegin, I never left, ur just inept, not trying to put u down, the rejection was so profound, it effected me deeply, guess I'm too touchy feely, it scares dudes away, healthy relationships seem impossible with gays, they don't know real love, mistaking my need for cuddles or a big bear hug, which is intimacy not wanting to get fucked, the change I want is my luck, we all are feeling stuck, at the point we're well past enough being enough!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/5/25

Reawakened Conscious To What's Toxic

Focusing on something else helps, but not good if it negatively effects my mental or heart health, I'm really struggling, there's nowhere to put all my loving, my childhood home, is about to get sold, that chapter's almost totally closed, so much has been shown/exposed, like pent up jealousy envy anger and pain, the extreme grief is obviously how it's explained, but it takes every ounce of energy, to swallow my ego and pride going to therapy, feel wicked abandoned, no love even when asked begged and demanded, sorry I'm such too much, I thought u were way more than just a lil crush, a possible twin flame, got me caught up in this crazy chasing game, however now I've reawakened conscious, realizing that relationship was dangerously enabling draining one way and plain toxic!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/4/25

Feel It Don't Shield Shit

I'm not a judgmental hater, I'm a truth sayer, simple as that, I speak on experience/wisdom/fact, and I can still show kindness and love, ull always be enough, for me, it's all about authenticity, don't match my energy, kept close like an enemy, cuz u only seem to know how to use, can't even imagine the abuse uve been thru, but I feel it, u shield shit, or simply avoid altogether, when u take accountability ull grow better, I'm not perfect nor healed, just genuine and keep it 100% real, good or bad, happy and sad, shouldn't be mad, I'm more grateful and glad, thats why I'm free, smile so bright with glee, it radiates joy, and I absolutely give 0 fucks who that annoys!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/4/25

Don't Mess With The Blessed

Just cuz 2 users choose each other, and call one another their lover, doesn't make it true, we all see thru u, and we think it's rather pathetic, who knew I was so prophetic, thank God I dodged that bullet, he was so full of it, I'm calling my power back, actually have very lil lack, I was simply misfocused, forgot about the locust, beautiful yet deadly, that's why I don't let strangers bed me, my peace and happiness are unmeasured, no I won't blow it on instant gratification/pleasure, over time, is how u find, a person's character, that's how I can write this with laughter, I'm chosen, ur broken, yes ur a hot mess, so I'll sit still chill stay protected and I guess blessed!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/4/25

Stay Solo & Get Bent Again

Gonna keep it pushing, enjoy the cushion, I've sacrificed and saved, I refuse to be caged, a codependent slave, y'all don't know what dues I've already paid, focus on ur journey, shouldn't try to learn me, just to manipulate, let's actually date, I won't pay to play, nor have a sexual exchange, especially with practically a stranger, I avoid and wary of danger, ur waving red flags, I don't fuck with fags, I like real men, I won't be screwed over and taken advantage of again, I've got enough love and friends, I'd rather stay solo peaceful and get bent!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/3/25

Smile With Style

Don't wish days away, choose fight over flight and stay, work it out, without the need to scream and shout, that's called maturity, trust my purity, I'm a real genuine good dude, it's not my character to be disrespectful nor rude, my catch phrase is smile, I'm ok with others biting my style, but y'all could never be me, even if u can match my energy, I ain't worried, nobody will flock or scurry, to watch u perform magic live, my light's too bright to hide, its simply nataural, my talent is divine/factual, got nothing to prove, actually that guy who speaks truth and follows thru with what they do!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/2/25

Destiny Me

Trying to smile thru the pain, dance umbrellaless in the rain, I've met a ton of rejection, apparently that's a blessing/protection, still gotta keep the faith, especially during this wait, remember that he's on his way, and won't be late, just know the time will come, when loneliness will be done, I deserve to be happy again, that's nothing against family and friends, I'm grateful for all the love I have, tho jealousy and anger rage when I focus on my lack, I'm working on being better, way less tethered and fettered, to materialistic past expectations of the old me, finally taking that faithful leap into my new incredibly bold destiny!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/1/25

Fine Wasting Time

He's blocked for good, I tried the best I could, done being breadcrumbed, may be a bit gullible but not naive stupid nor dumb, I'm just done, I wish I could say it's been fun, but it hasn't, u never respected what I was asking, disregarded my boundaries again and again, u don't even know how to be my friend, clearly ur a user, keep choosing ur abuser, avoiding a better life, u created all this plight and strife, from running away, guys like u make me hate being gay, u waste everybody's time, and u don't care in fact u think that's totally fine!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/30/25

Voiced His Choice

U stood still while I held onto hope, couldn't even meet me a quarter of the way tho, so I had to let go, happy birthday yo, my gift is, stay out of ur business, in fact I'll remove myself from ur life completely, pretty defeatedly, learned lesson, equates blocked blessing, enjoy ur choice, miss my voice, light and love, I'm tired of not being enough, actually u aren't, u have no fucking clue what u need or want, u don't fight, only flight, no more grace, if u want space, u got it mister, bye besty now uve got just ur bf/daddy and sister!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/30/25

Find My Shine

I'll say it again, I don't fuck friends, I'm looking like Mary for that real love, a guy who likes to kiss cuddle and hug, can make me laugh, appreciative of what we genuinely have, not looking for more or better, it's instant reconnection when we're together, without interruptions, I appreciate passion guts and gumption, in fact I find going after what u want sexy, u may get the best of me, but I'm resilient as fuck, I'll Phoenixly rise up, cuz I'm ur karma/mirror, my divine protection connection's clearer, I've done the work, so I may come off as a cold jerk, but I'm finally putting myself first, and I don't care who that hurts, stayed strong and true, both gave and paid dues, now it's my time to shine, so I can be my champion's grand prize find!

Won't Stop Me & My Army

The crush is over, taking weight off my shoulders, learning to relax and chill, not let lack or venomous toxicity spew/spill, leaning into my love and light, standing up for myself to fight, realizing I have the power to vanquish, alleviate and soothe my own pain and anguish, mastering the English language, I'm trying to evolve not languish, like the stock market, may be short but not pocket, pretty submissive, mindful about the energy I elicit, not a subservient faggot, when it comes to bullying disrespect I've had it, watch as my conscious discipled army, reignite or inspire the good virtuous revolution and evil won't be able to stop me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/29/25

Behind/Out Of Sight & Mind

I'm still stuck in a negative head space, life seems like a dead race, love no longer exists, everyone takes but doesn't give, stop stealing my energy, why make me ur enemy, cuz ur afraid, relationships aren't a game, u met ur match, expect a karmic attack, u broke ur mirror, assume I'm inferior, play ok when ur not, give him all u got, even though it was supposed to be mine, I don't have to pretend I'm fine, I'm actually great, no I won't wait, in fact I'm leaving u behind, hopefully get to the point where ur out of sight and mind!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/28/25

Exhausting Talking

I've been focused on smiling, stop trying to predict divine timing, fuck fate, I'm always late, I'm sure I missed my blessings, I'm never wanted or anyone's intention, friend zoned, dead end toned, I choose wrong, no viral poem or song, a waste of life, defined by strife, I hate being resilient, bravery isn't brilliant, it's exhausting, gotta quit talking, shut my big mouth, don't defend justify or bout, what's the point, I'll smoke bowls blunts or a joint, keep to myself, never again offer to help, since no deed goes unpunished, America should never be synonymous with Trumpists, we're way better than that, I hope we get our morality back!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Go Joe

Working so hard on letting him go, get back to Joe, I miss me, living blissfully, so full of love, confident I'm enough, but losing my family, feels like nobody understands me, and the more I try to explain, I wind up being seen as insane and pained, which I am, nothing ever goes as planned, God laughs, needs a kick in the ass, to stop teasing, finally releasing, from all this suffering, actually bring someone into my life worth loving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Fine Stay Blind

The more I choose u, I lose dude, what are u afraid of, u can't have emotionless love, no matter how much u pretend, ur forcing an end, for my own protection, I have to deal with ur rejection of blessings, I'm sick of the confusion, from ur bullshit of an illusion, that's fine, stay blind, keep sleeping on me, I'm totally free, and I'll find something real, I can't wait til u realize ur responsible for how u feel, I cried, I tried, u miserably fumbled, now u can be humbled, cuz I don't like u anymore, enjoy being an empty soulless whore!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Hope For The Whole Globe

My heart has the capacity to love the whole globe, my soul provides both inspiration and hope, everybody's pretty special, evolution is inevitable, if u remain vigilant and open, continue growing and coping, cuz that's life, stay resilient thru the plight and strife, I truly believe it'll be alright, good needs to resist revolt and fight, enough with negligent complicity, evil is within intrinsically, but shouldn't let it win, don't give in, manifest a life u don't wanna escape, each and every day remain humbly grateful to reawake, and maybe I'll even get to see u, my favorite dude, it's as simple as that, be blessed just accept and focus on what we already do have!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/27/25

Farewell Curse/Spell

Don't confuse my kindness for niceness, I'm not perfect nor spiteless, I simply won't act on it, I'm super compassionate, but don't push me too far, cuz I comeback just as hard, call me ur karmic mirror, I'll drop bombs that help u see urself clearer, miss me when I'm gone, since u handled me all wrong, u lost any opportunity or real shot, I liked u a lot, so much in fact, this is tragically sad, my heart's exploded, ur rejection is duly noted, fool me once, this time I'm the dunce, won't happen again, ull always now be just a good distant friend, I wish well, if u couldn't tell I've finally broken ur curse/spell!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/26/25

Love Moving On & Leveling Up

Yup finally moving on up, finding reciprocal want lust and love, every single fucking day, making my fairy tale dude dreams come true for us hopeful romantic gays, I'm emotional af, most guys lack that capacity/depth, I'm tired of boys, no choice just noise, blocking blessings, so I'm left guessing, why am I not enough, expose my heart soul and guts, let's drain each other's nuts, it's great when we both suck, 69 style, kinky stinky itty bitty piggy and wild, I didn't do anything wrong, the lessons I learn should turn into beautiful poetry and song, our time isn’t now, someway somehow, perhaps we will come back around, our foundational friendship is already rather profound, and I'm quite ok with that, since I'm actually focusing on gratitude instead of lack, my vibrational frequency is on a whole other level, it's hard to watch the world around us all fall disheveled, wicked unprepared, solely surving out of fear they can't hear or simply don't care, especially to change and be better, u can't make a horse drink water nor make an avoidant become a go getter, so unfortunately this means, ur gonna have to be removed lose then miss me, enjoy the other grass u chose, I'm a far superior prize than most these low desperate hoes!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/26/25

More Positive Performance Informants

Call me Joe hope, cuz if it rhymes it's true dude don't u know tho yo, I love inspiring that, always know I got ur back, loyal to a fault, when problems arise I'll halt, and be there in a jiffy, I'm probably too givey, that's my love language, my over romanticizing thinking is leaving my heart in anguish, not broken or blocked just achy, wakey wakey, alone again, my beautiful soulmates are all my straight friends, I'm lucky that way, but I need it as a token toking gay, esp as I evolve older, seems socially temperature's grown colder, yet u ain't seen me scurrying worrying, in fact I be hurrying, to shut up those critics/haters and their informants, by putting on one hell of another spectacularly magical live performance!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/24/25

Crazy Insane Twin Flame

I can close my eyes, and not meet demise, I don't feel receiving, cuz seeing is believing, and I've been giving, my cup runneth over just living, so I had to stop take a moment and chill, like patience gratefulness is a pill, hard to swallow, why are men so emotionless and hollow, I'm not saying that to be mean, but it isn't weak to show vulnerability, intimacy isn't necessarily sexual, understanding isn't intellectual, u don't need any degree to get me, I'm here to set authenticity free, u light my life up and inspire my fire, who knew one day a forbidden love like u would take me higher, a twin flame, this level of magic is totally crazy insane!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/24/25

Help Grapple Another Battle

I got my clarity, don't care about the disparity, from a fellow artist to another, I don't want a fuck brother, I want comfort and support, a cohort, to play Mario Kart with, be each other's gift, I'm super simple, don't mind being single, just prefer not to be lonely, shouldn't be phony, it's ok to change ur mind, a ton of truth rhymes, acknowledgment is a form of accountability, it may sound silly, but isn't knowing half the battle, sometimes mere presence makes things easier to handle/grapple!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/23/25

Will I Ever Get Back The Love I Lack

I am not acting happy nor grateful, in fact I'm rather angry jealous and hateful, I've lost all hope and faith, during the wait, where's my will to live, compassion/ability to forgive, especially myself, I want help, it's not a need, I truly believe, I'm resilient and strong, got the gift of poetry and song, why isn't that enough, the answer is simple what matters most is love, which I lack, and since my family died I'm afraid I'll never get it back!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Itch Bitch

Third times a charm, who knew love could do this much harm, wish I never said hi, or that I could mean goodbye this time, I need him out of sight and mind, altho a rare find, he's not my guy, all I do is wonder why, and I hate that, feels like a personal attack, communication he lacks, his words don't match acts, punishingly silent, the detachment is violent, rather selfish and shitty, yet can't seem to get rid of me, cuz I'm karma bitch, and ur unfortunately unable to scratch that itch!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Unforgiving Living

Won't be stuck in an emotional prison, now that I got some shit out of my system, let me get back to living, life is definitely unforgiving, not fair or right, everything's a fight, yet a losing battle, this level of grief is hard to grapple, especially alone, just sold my childhood home, onto the next chapter, with my luck it'll be the rapture, I'm done being a warrior, I wanna be whorier, learn how to escape, so my heart and soul aren't continuously raped, I don't believe in good or evil, we're both and that's why I prefer dogs over cats and people!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Please Stop The Pain In My Heart God

Today I feel defeated, drained and depleted, by an avoidant attachment, this silent separation is harassment, to my mind body and soul, I'm already fucking whole, but I want and choose him, I can't keep excusing, his toxic behavior, he's not my savior, he's my soulmate, and fuck fate, if it says otherwise, done with divine timing lies, I deserve this, love success happiness and bliss, please give it to me now God, cuz this punishing pain in my heart needs to stop!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/24

Sniff The Gift

Let's go, level up yo, this new Joe, is his own hero, strong and resilient, talented good looking and brilliant, seems to have it all, like a Phoenix rising after every fall, consistent persistence and perseverance, don't like this 3rd party interference, y'all are toxic noise, many think I have a soothing calming voice, wait til u feel my grounding energy, if u say ur something u better be, I hate posers and liars, come on baby light my fire, I'm an air sign, weird and divine, rather mysterious, takes things super serious, cuz life is a precious gift, don't step on a rose from the concrete give it a lil sniff!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/25

Goodbye...Don't Waste My Time

Maybe someday, ull be brave, come out from behind that screen, so u can be truly seen, and even felt, stop throwing away the cards ur delt, avoidance isn't the answer, it'll cause cancer, pushing people away, just creates hate, like a sorry without change, ur behavior is strange, like u never knew love, behind that stubborn behavior u don't think ur worthy enough, stop punishing me, how bout a real apology, pick up the damn phone, or better yet come to my home, stand face to face looking me in the eye, say u don't want me then give me one last hug and kiss goodbye, if ur gonna play games with both my heart and mind, fuck off don't waste my time!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/25

Standing With U Tonight To Fight

Time to rise high like the tides, be grateful and happy to be alive, I'll see 43 when Gia didn't, can't always manifest what isn't, but u can have faith, take action tho don't just pray, remember deeds not words, silence hurts, speak ur mind, search and ull find, stay hopeful and open, no one's all knowing, remain patient and kind, the moment's now without rewind, life is precious like love, helps make losing balance not so rough and tough, mirror my flame, hold my heart throughout this crazy game, find me standing with u tonight, cuz ur totally worth all my might to fight!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/20/25

Wait For Epically Legendarily Great

Keep my eyes, on the prize, stay happy and single, let's go mingle, shine away, embrace my gay, accept love in, take this time to rebegin, way better than ever before, I want more, a real partner, who understands the privilege/honor, it is to be with me, I manifest by believing it to be, I'm an attractive magnet, ur favorite bad habit, but actually divinely good, humbly misunderstood, combative and antagonistic, that has a rather holistic, approach to questioning, gotta stop blocking blessings, authenticity's the highest vibration, expect a major migration, to finally take place, shit's starting to resonate, got the patience of a Saint, cuz I know my legacy is at stake, if good things come to those who wait, this is gonna be epically legendarily great!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/20/25

Ok Away I'll Stay Great

Gotta break the spell of love's hocus pocus, and really get back into focus, cut myself some slack, be grateful what I have, give less attention to that lack, remember I'm a daddy Mac, even without the beard, fuck fear, too healed to let anger express my pain, I can handle the rain, hoody no umbrella, I'll have a Bulleit Captain and Coke or Stella, then let's smoke a bunch of pot, used to give all I got, now I simply share my overflow, learning to just shut up and say let's go, stop talking so damn much, embrace my resilient confidence/balls/guts, see where the attraction leads, have no expectation of how the connection should be, I need to ride the wave, let people leave or push me away, know I'll still be ok, in fact no worries I'm gonna stay great!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/19/25

Share With Care

I can't help but I can share, my love isn't sex it's care, never found the one, this ended before it even begun, since he's his own independent person, gotta deal with all this hurting, cuz karma gonna get u, I'm upset too, timing is so fucked up, tired of having sucky luck, I've been yelling at God enough, life shouldn't be this punishingly tough, my light's so bright, even in the darkest night, I always have to fight, when wrong finally managed to bastardize right!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/18/25

Turtle Shelled From The Hell

I don't fuck friends cuz most of mine are straight, I won't chase someone that doesn't want me sexually or even to date, so if u like me shoot ur shot, say hello and tell me u think I'm hot, then watch how I react, fyi it's random hook up skills I lack, I fall in love with personality, always working casually, cuz I'm an artist, when it comes to flirting I'm not the smartest, pretty oblivious and gullible, easily can get into trouble, cuz of my big truthful mouth, I don't physically bout, but I am rather verbal, I think my heart used to be like a turtle, with a hard outer shell, but that's cuz the past 6 years I've literally gone thru hell!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/18/25

Life's Choice & Consequence

Gonna envelope the philosophy of let's go, u know...ho, I need to let loose, call a truce, with myself, I wanna better my level of intimacy/sexual health, gotta get outta my head, and in bed, in whatever capacity, that makes us both happy, but me first, cuz I've been in this super slump spurt, and that's totally on me, trying to find my boundaries, guess I have trust issues, done tho with all these tissues, crying over a guy, who can't bother to make time, fails to communicate, just consistently avoids and escapes, so now the relationship is awkward and intense, life ain't right when he makes the choice yet I experience and bare consequence, how's that fair, then I'll take the next sign of reciprocal interest as a dare, actually accept the challenge, of developing my hook up talents, instead of jealously waiting complaining, start participating in this type of game playing!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/17/25

Wants & Needs Desires/Dreams

I can handle embarrassment just don't be a liar, there's plenty of electricity but don't ignite my fire, I've worked so hard to heal, communicated how I feel, which seems to have inspired change, I find ghosting silence strange, giving self sabotaging energy, don't make me the enemy, simply cuz I show unconditional love,  we both are enough, I've been alone so long, it's helped make me stubbornly strong, distinguished between my wants and needs, finding a true gay besty has become one of my biggest desires/dreams!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/17/25

The Gift To Bridge & Uplift

There's nothing worse, than watching someone u love hurt, we all gotta do the work, can't just observe and lurk, the word is more often a verb, please don't put me on do not disturb, stay silent and ghost, I'm a person that cares the most, won't worry about myself, but I must be mindful I shouldn't help, even if I can, I am that man, magical almost royal, appear spoiled, when in fact I'm simply blessed, not able to be truly grateful yet, cuz this tremendous amount of grief, keeps falling like a leaf, easily blown in the wind, my saving grace is writing poetry or when I rap and sing, religiously choose the muse of music, to alchemize the heartache and pain using it, as quite a huge advantageous gift, building a bridge that will classically continue to both inspire and uplift!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/16/25

Bitch I'm The Prize/Gift

Going into self preservation mode, not gonna be distant and cold, but just done being anyone's optional choice, listen to the sincerity in my voice, I choose me and that's all that matters, now y'all can view from the rafters, simply won't have access, ignore the love bombing mass texts, perhaps we're all a lil bit delulu, sorry not sorry this time we're really thru boo, have fun dealing with karma cuz she's a bitch, I refuse to chase or even try when I finally realized I'm the real prize/gift!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/15/25

Handling Tantrums

What would u say, if I said I was ok, but u know I'm not, I'm definitely alot, yet never enough at the same time, my smile's lying, call me Robin, ain't no stopping, my love and light, puts up a powerful fight, both night and day, I haven't always been this way, I used to dim and hide, let ego and pride, cloud my judgment, I refuse to become numb and begrudging, my resilience is astounding, wicked profound I'm confounding, rather quite impressive, emotionally expressive it's electric, super eclectic and random, can be impossibly hard to find others in tandem, stop with the tantrums, we're all defined by how we're handling things!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/14/25

Not Much Luck

Another week gone by, wonder if he will make a call text or time, probably not, cuz all he does is break my heart, I'm sure it's my bad, think it's rather sad, who knew love would hurt this much, should've known better I ain't got that kind of luck, no one chooses me, miss how it used to be, just magic in ur company, could've lived this life triumphantly, unfortunately I gotta continue riding solo, and he will have to karmically deal with hiding his fomo, since he can't get out of his own way, I really hate the dating game being gay!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/14/25

A Legacy Of Empathy

Thank u, and I'm proud too, sorry goes a long way, esp face to face, I needed that, I always got ur back, I just see u at ur best, next to me is comfortableness, it's so magnetic, overwhelmingly infectious, like the thought that magic could be real, it is even if that's not the way anyone else feels, I came from angels, my light strangles, eradicates and vanquishes darkness, how can a president be this heartless, where's the humanity/empathy, all karmic justice is served when it comes to ur ultimate legacy, does the good outweigh the bad, when u die does anyone care even there or sad, cuz that's really what matters most, did u passionately chase ur dreams of love success and happiness or simply complicitly coast?!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/12/25

We All Fall

U have to ask for and accept the help, which is hard for people who are used to doing everything themselves, why would I risk it all, to save others from a fall, they're inevitably gonna have to face someday, guess we can't escape fate, is free will even real, nobody gives 2 fucks about how we feel, especially when u don't communicate, that's what makes and creates hate, leaving me alone with my thoughts, forgetting who I am what I've learned and everything I was taught, always show up with love here there and everywhere, cuz the best advice my dear is lean into shit now that's conquering fear!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/10/25

Just Simply Better Together

Gotta give space and grace, most may not have the taste for my pace, slow and steady wins the race, haste face to face, fuck digital, the connection is pitiful, so utterly superficial, when communication is deeply critical, in all relationships, I love creativeness, it's super sexy, want my gay besty, to walk with me thru life, neither one of us should be the "wife", let's be equals, this torrid affair might have some sequels, never count anything out, who knew with u I'd like to fight/bout, cuz if we get to spend time together, everything just simply seems better!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

Holding On Powerful Resilient & Strong

The rain was really messing with me, hard-core emotionally especially, plus I've been overthinking matters of the heart, like love is a la carte, gotta pay for extras, u better be ambidextrous, jerk off stranger style, it's more expensive for kinky and wild, when did sex become transactional, my light shines so bright I'm attackable, I let myself be attachable, and now the disappointment is impossible to grapple, I too am barely holding on, but the one thing I know from experience is I am super fucking powerful resilient and strong!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/9/25

Upset With Hate & Regret

Now all I feel is hate and regret, of course ur ghosting and silence made me upset, I'm a communicator, and ur a hater, especially urself, u need professional help, ull never win, rejecting love is ur sin, won't find anyone else on my level, karma will leave u disheveled, and I don't feel bad or pity, u continuously treated me shitty, ur actually rather cruel, too chicken shit to duel, so u run away, but u think me blocking u is gay, u chose wrong, maybe I'll be like Taylor and use u to write an epic revenge song!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/8/25

Voice Ur Choice

He don't need a drink he want me, but I'm healed and free, and ain't gonna settle for ur last option, boundary up so u stealing stopping, they taking ur energy, we aren't friends or enemies just strangers now with a memory, of a beautiful divine connection, I've never been chosen in any election, so I'm my own choice, trying to use my voice, to talk myself up, I'm enough and deserve to be truly loved!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/8/25

U Disrespectful Rude Dude

All I wanted was ur time love and affection, now I need protection, from u dude, u were disrespectful and rude, couldn't appreciate my value, I helped and cared but didn't have to, and probably shouldn't have, yes I'm mad, but at my damn self, our relationship got shelved, and it's ur fault, my heart's locked back in the vault, I'll stay single, not promiscuous yet still mingle, just trying to live, hoping to finally receive more than I give, I'm reciprocal, stay away cuz I hate hypocritical, actively work to be better and heal, only accepting authentic genuine real people who can honestly and effectively communicate how they feel and deal!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/6/25

Manifesting Healing Thru Communicating Feelings

Pushing me away, and playing the silent game, isn't showing tough love, it's fucking me up, now I don't know how to act around u, I feel like both an emotional crazy person and a fool, I get it u don't like me, I don't take words lightly, but deeds matter more, lately I've been asking what all this suffering is for, I need a partner, it's the only real way I can envision living any farther, I don't have nothing to lose, I've got everything and u could too if u choose, manifesting thru healing, but most importantly by communicating feelings!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/5/25

I Am A Ham

Boy do I keep misfocusing, should perhaps stop drinking poppering and toking, at least for a lil while, it's ok to have been a bit wild, after the past 6 years, these rage induced tears and fears, all stem from loss, instead of recognizing how much of a bad ass boss, I actually really am, I'm such a stubborn ham, so fucking hard on myself, quick to offer others help, but don't give that same level of love and grace to me, I have wicked trouble letting shit go and just be, but thank God for my chosen family and friends, who keep mirroring/reminding me of how inspiringly strong I've been over and over again!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/4/25

I'm So Sorry

I hate all this anger, turned a gay besty to a stranger, cuz I couldn't keep my big mouth shut, made him into a slut, when he didn't give me love, or choose to show up, when he said he would, but did if he could, I'm just so hurt from grief, I pushed him away before he'd leave me, I liked him too much, I was holding onto this grudge, that my family sometimes made me feel not good enough, and the universe never ever ever gave me good timing/luck, and an apology just doesn't seem to do, wish we were more than just 2 trauma bonded dudes!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/4/25

Prize Eyes

My heart literally hurts, walking away from someone u care deeply for is the worst, I just wanted to love u, now ur trauma I have to heal thru, on top of all this grief, no wonder there’s only doubt no hope or belief, I'm broken, no words left to be spoken, just tears cried, was it all lies, I really wanna be chosen, appreciated like that golden ticket/token, the ultimate prize, instead I try to hide the pain written on my eyes, so I smile big and bright, u probably mad right, cuz I no longer share or dim my light, and simply left ur life without a fight!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/3/25

Go Whore Some More

He was a user and a slut, pretty fucked up, pretended to love, til he ran out of luck, evicted from his home, now alone, except for his 2 cats, and bf/dad, never had the time, always claimed to be fine, til he started crying help, no amount of money or wealth, can fix sabotage to self, he used to make my heart melt, I want nothing to do with him anymore, I'm not a friendship whore, I value the people in my life, and that guy never treated me right! 

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/2/25

Please God Stop

Wish I could help my friend, not say again that this might be the end, I know life can seem impossibly hard, but we aren't here to just get this far, why can't I help with love, and that could be good enough, to awake another day, found a besty that's gay, and I don't want to lose him, when will this universal truce begin, way too much suffering, it's wicked fucking discouraging, we're losing people left and right, nobody wants or knows how to fight, please God, make all this sadness and pain stop!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/1/25

Hurdled My World

It can be rather profound, when somebody u wanna love let's u down, again and again and again and again, I'm such an unconditional friend, but is that healthy, there's a difference between rich bitch and generationally wealthy, some would say I've had tough luck, fucked and it sucks, but I did have it great for a while, giving up isn't really the Vacca style, resilient af, politically left, they'd be sad at the state of the world, proud of what I've overcome and hurdled, I am rather triumphant/inspiring, when it's authentically genuine tho there ain't no conspiring nor trying!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/31/25

The New Norm Storm

I love myself more, make a terrible whore, cuz I'm picky, pretty thiccy, like sticky icky, both whitty and spitty, it's art, all heart, mixed with soul personified, refuse to compromise, esp my humanity, can't stand nor understand this insanity, good just gave up, y'all are so fucked when it comes to knowing unconditional love, I guess I'm blessed, but this country is a hot mess, gone straight cray cray, I pray day to day, that life gets better, cuz I can't even imagine success unless it's all of us uniting together, to weather this storm, since we shouldn't allow this shit to be the new norm!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
3/31/25

Did Grief Drama Queen Me

All this grief, is bringing out the drama queen in me, perhaps it was there all along, just suppressed it with bowls blunts and bongs, like Whitney I get so emotional, sorry and atonable, take accountability for my mistakes, try never to let love turn to hate, should stop taking shit personal, maybe even keep more thoughts internal, I do have a tendency to overshare/care, prefer truth instead of dare, unless it's to kiss this one special dude, it would be rude not to admit I want u, just while I'm awake, since he brightens and enlightens my day, and also smoke too much pot to dream, believe me my life isn't as great as my smile makes it seem!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/28/25

Not Enough Love

I need the gym and therapy, to become a better me, jealousy has taken over, u can see it in my shoulders, u know the weight of the world, I never bench pressed or curled, instead I focused on cardio, I ain't no hotty tho, I'm just kind, with an overactive mind, so I'm alot, too smart, yet oblivious, to recognizing hideousness, cuz I don't see sex, just the best, in everyone I meet, resilient after defeat, except when it comes to love, why isn't having good friends enough?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/28/25

Healing This Grieving Feeling

Very much healing, from this overwhelming grieving feeling, everyday is a challenge, leaning into my artistic talents, but I do still spill my shit onto others, no need to get under the covers, cuddle up with me, snuggle lovingly, I'll keep u warm, won't swoon or fawn, cuz it's not lust, or just another crush, this is what true connection is, I should become a protection wiz, absorbing it all without pause, chaotically intertwines what's mine vs urs, so we are both hot messes, trauma bonding actually tethers, but imagine we both are healthy, having those types of real relationships make us truly rich/wealthy!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/27/25

Fight Light

My mind's been kicking my ass, getting up every day is the hardest task, I'm simply tired, not robotically wired, can't fake shit, til I make it, I'm just truth, don't need a booth, I live music, take what I get and use this gift, to spread love and consciousness, fuck toxic bliss, I want art to heal the world again, the globe keeps turning friend, ride the waves, til ur cremated or graved, enjoy the roller coastering, why is evil so engrossing, too much light, might mean be prepared to fight, the time is always now, we gotta find our strength somehow!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/27/25

Casualty To Homosexuality

Trump is a chump, changing America's legacy to dump, history will spit this, cuz a country is not a business, tyranny and ownership aren't love, perhaps government doesn't reciprocate enough, they're so consumed with hoarding, many lives are just uninteresting and boring, and that's ok, not being gay, we're simply less than, I guess man, casually a casualty, did the devil create homosexuality, perhaps we were born wrong, scorned so long, that I'm thinking existence is hell on earth, and ultimately I have 0 value or worth!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/27/25

Divine/Sublime Time

I understand now, both the why and how, it's only a matter of time, when life becomes rather divine/sublime, I've reached a pinnacle, living pretty minimal, focused on bettering myself daily, my friends and chosen family have been super clutch with help lately, I'm extremely grateful, my appetite for adventure and connection is insatiable, I just love traveling and meeting new people, spreading conscious kindness eradicating hating discrimination and other forces of evil!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/24/25

Let Live & Give

Never wanna linger too long, hold on to the blunt or bong, there's so much fear here, surrounded by people getting the wrong idea, we are just bestys, he gets me, inspires a higher being, he's comfortable safe and gives a freeing feeling, no I haven't slept with him, perhaps ur inept from the beginning, to understand there's levels, y'all get ur panties in a bunch all disheveled, cuz u have a low emotional intelligence boo, u do u, please don't yuck my yum, simply move along son, ain't no time love or energy to give, but let's remember the golden lgbtq rule...live and let live!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/24/25

Rhyme Time

The more space he gave, my feelings faded away, thought absence made the heart grow fonder, instead I'm left to ponder, if he even likes me, I don't take friendship or love lightly, but he is kinda toxic, and when drunk rather obnoxious, yet I find it funny, helping him with a lil money, didn't buy any time, he's been the topic of many a rhyme, don't know tho if he reads it, can't stomach meek or weak shit, tell me what u really want, cuz life is way too short and regrets haunt!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/23/25

A Kind Mind

So traumatized by grief, I have this irrational belief, that this may be the day, he decides to go away, I'm sorry I'm needy, much too overthinky/feely, just alot, with the biggest heart, I can love the whole world, look at all the obstacles hurdled, yet still somehow insecure, my intentions are always pure, tho I'm single childless and alone, my warm glow illuminates home, my soul is love, high five myself every morning cuz I'm enough, trying to reprogram my mind, living proof it pays to be authentically kind, hold on stay strong, write a poem or song, finally surrender to what will be, let go of control and simply live out my destiny!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
3/21/25

Lead With Love & Authenticity

Gotta get on top of shit, focus more on the positive, just live and enjoy, fuck being employed, be an entrepreneur/artist, keep working the hardest, always give ur best and all, resiliently rise after every fall, heed ur calling, stop procrastinating and stalling, we don't get endless chances, take the risk when given second glances, seize that opportunity, show up for the lgbtq community, better yet take the lead, help peeps remember to believe in the power of love and authenticity!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/19/25

Fucked Up Love

I felt foolish and faggoty, but was glad he gave clarity, my heart and head, are a hot mess, but I hope and guess, he won't think me less, cuz I'm emotionally crazy, whoops a daisy, I almost blocked my blessing, it was never my intention, to manipulate my love, that was pretty fucked up, I don't know what to do with this, ignorance was such bliss, I just thought he was a crush, but it's turned to lust, and I know, cuz jealousy is a side of Joe, I'm not used to, a screws loose, so I got awkward and panicky, wondering if anyone can understandably stand by and will still Stan me?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/19/25

Time To Lime With Me

My story's called Sexy Gentleman, I'm masculine kind and intelligent, a gay prostitute of sorts, all above board, follow the law, always on tour, as a poet/musician, I follow my spiritual gut and intuition, baring my heart and soul, it takes a serious toll, when there's lil appreciation for art, consumers aren't smart, apparently talent doesn't matter, artists need to be like the mad hatter, able to juggle and muddle, huddled in the hustle, which is home base, gays inherently have great taste, this next phase I'll dominate in leather, wild crazy and kinky is way better, indulge in some me time, cuz I'm sure ull find my grind divine and'll wanna lime!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/18/25

Is Destiny Meant To Be

Is it all meant to be, do y'all actually believe in destiny, is he mine, I miss my parents reinforcing it will work out fine, just do ur best, never think urself less, cuz ur faith, guides this game, u can't lose, when u know ur truth, ur passion and purpose, even what hurts us, won't stop the ambitious drive, no longer ok with surviving it's my time to thrive, hoping he's by my side, but a word to the wise, if not, gotta still give it everything uve got!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/18/25

Goodbye...I Tried

U say one thing but do another, keep choosing the wrong lover, take what I give, helping him live, instead of showing up for me, people need acts of kindness esp during grief, not more pain, my heart isn't a game, and still u take me for granted, which is extremely underhanded, cuz it's simply ignorant, I was the innocent, who should've saved myself, for the sake of my own health, it's time for me to say goodbye, I already gave u too many tries!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/17/25

Begin With Him

I just wanna be loved, made to feel enough, wake up and go to bed, til one of us are dead, with u by my side, like Sam sings "take ur time", no one else can meet my mother, never had a brother, I do have some pretty great friends, who have been there again and again, I'm so lucky and blessed, yet it can seem impossibly hard to accept, but I still want him, will a life together ever even have a chance to begin, perhaps it isn’t in the cards, how do u heal a broken soul/heart?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/14/25

Liked But Might Bite

What I say in my art, may not be how I feel in my heart, many times it's my head venting, my rhymes can be mind bending, but I hope not hurtful or damaging, wish my pain from grief was vanishing, or at least waning, I don't find being a hot mess entertaining, I genuinely wanna help, but can't change the cards dealt, I need to retrain my focus, gotta give up my belief in fairytale love/hocus pocus, that's child's play, it sucks being gay, cuz it seems we are exempt, from being happy successful and content, which I know takes hard work, but getting nowhere convinces me I'm inherently cursed, all bark or might bite, it's unhealthy how much I need to be liked, can't buy love or luck, so I guess I'm probably just fucked and that sucks!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/13/25

Stomach Me Grumpy

Woke up grumpy, I can't even stomach me, I'm fed up, with a lack of love, the way I want it, I never try to flaunt shit, super blessed, yet can't be guessed, not really understood, being a force for good, when the government's gone evil, Americans are a bunch of sheeple, stepford zombies and robots, with no hearts or smarts, like a bunch of chickens with heads cut off, all they do is legit bitch and scoff, I forget y'all are perfect, I'm just not worth it, constantly left behind, told to give it time, when it's always the same, I simply suck at playing this life game!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/13/25

It's Me Or The Afterparty

Will he choose me, or the afterparty, I got my answer, escapism is a form of cancer, accountability is sobering, wish I was holding him, instead of crying alone, scared of dying at home, and nobody discovers my corpse, would anybody even feel remorse, prob busy with life or having fun, I realized the lust for my crush was done, no hard feelings, we are all just fallible human beings, who am I to judge, shouldn't hold a grudge, for my own irrational expectations when, he told and showed me who he was time and again, I fucked up and failed to set better boundary lines, ignored the warning signs, he's not the one hun, won't block him but it was a good run!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/12/25

People Aren't Evil

Giving endless chances to others is disrespecting myself, we all need help, struggling day to day, it sucks being straight or gay, life can just be hard no matter what it seems, I won't ever give up on me or my dreams, sometimes people just aren't capable, it took decades to get this stable, I don't know how I did it, cuz I suck at business, why do I keep pouring in and giving to those unreciprocative people, they're not necessarily inherently evil, they simply lack awareness emotional intelligence or intent, the universe's hurt works as if hell bent, on incessant cyclical suffering and pain, and the one thing that remains the same is that we can't control/change when it rains!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/11/25

Move On From Another Con

Wish u fucked me not my heart and head, cuz now love is dead, I want nothing to do with u, uve made me a fool, we can't be friends, any type of relationship has come to an end, and it's ur fault, I'm locked again in a vault, afraid of being hurt, I'm definitely cursed, my eyes deceive, ears don't believe, trust is earned, lust burns, what I've ultimately learned, it'll never be my turn, cuz I walk alone, already known home, and it's gone, there's no deadline how long to mourn, but it is simply time to move on, hopefully avoiding another con!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/11/25

Can't Help Myself

It hurts to have to say goodbye, especially if they didn't die, they just used and abused u, til all that I was able to do, was walk away, completely disengage, as if they didn't exist, live with it, my absence, and no matter what happens, I hold no regret or shame, my love isn't a game, I gave cuz that's who I am, never did I try to lie deceive or scam, I even felt bad, when I got mad, cuz u couldn't show up how I expected, perhaps I'm wicked overprotective, but my heart and soul, have already taken a beating/toll, plus I've spent so much time, trying to heal what's mine, establishing new boundary lines, red flags are warning signs, blaming a crush or lust made me blind, to the fact I'm too bloody gullibly trusting forgiving and kind, yet not to myself, and in the end tho no one else can help!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/11/25

Fired The Liar

My new gay besty is no more, the consecutive weeks I was ghosted on days off was 4, u can't be in my life, how u treated me wasn't right, still wish u well, but u can go to hell, I deserved better, we could've been together forever, now u can ride solo, u should have fomo, cuz I'm an adventure and a half, all I wanted was to see u smile and laugh, and u just took me for granted, I'll never understand it, I'm so deeply hurt, but what's worse, is I don't think u ever even cared, wish my heart was spared, didn't believe u were really a liar, I told u ud get burned playing with my fire, and I'm an air sign, in the end this double Gemini Sag will be just fine, especially without u fool, cuz uve lost a great ride or die soulmate dude we're thru!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
3/11/25

Got Guts Enough

I try to seem coy about being annoyed, at the fact I feel my poetry gets lost in the noise/void, is the internet a giant abyss, I suck at turning my art into a business, barely anyone comments or shares, are my fans consumed by their fears, thought I'm super open and approachable, wish when it came to finding real love I was coachable, why am I never chosen, perhaps in the hip hop world I'm the token, so outspoken I'm tmi, can't be taken seriously always high, like that diminishes my talent, people want the bad boy thug not a gentleman who's clean-cut and valiant, while I'm begging for y'all to see and feel me, continuously overlooked cuz I'm not cocky or greedy, but believe me I'm deeply hurting, at the end of the day it appears I'm simply another boring "normal" person, not that special enough, but brilliantly resiliently tough with just passionately driven balls and guts!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/10/25

Grown Old Soul

U can't love me like I do u, that expectation makes me a fool, what a fucking burden, what about when I'm hurting, I'm so sick and tired, people living zombified wired, just empty and hollow, evil winning and thriving is hard to swallow, I may be light but I'm no longer a son, wait til it happens to u hun, cuz usually the baby's the last one left standing, perhaps I am too intense and demanding, but no longer will I dim, go way deeper than skin, reach to meet me in the depths of my soul, and remember how much of a privilege it is to grow old!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/7/25

Ordained With The Reigns

Art feeds life and vice versa, wish my double Gemini sides would have a merger, it's like 6 different people, causing a tremendous amount of upheaval, all in one body, I need to smoke a goddy, to help get my adhd under control, being dominated is cool but no one will own my soul, I'm wicked independent riding solo, slowly but surely letting go of fomo, cuz there's not much happening, nobody's laughing, everyone's stressed and burnt the fuck out, showing divisive hatred loud and proud, we're just tired, of nothing but clowns and liars, taking the reigns, like they're not elected but ordained, forgetting we have the power, better fight back before the final hour!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/5/25

My Care Bear Stare

Ok now it's my time, to flourish and shine, if u can't respect my boundaries, ur no longer allowed around me, nor in my orbit, ur attempts will be ghosted or thwarted, I won't even engage, I'm trying to get past my growing pain phase, embracing being healed, while hurt people are for real, toxic like rot/fungus, in humongous abundance among us, spreading like yet another wild fire, does anybody make art to inspire, I'll always fight for truth love and consciousness, help eradicate exploitive greedy obnoxiousness, good needs to revolt back, instead of being passive attack, stand up for what's right, and vanquish this evil darkness with my care bear stare of bright white light!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/4/25

Positive's What The Problem Is

I write to express the negativity in my head, holding onto stress is the quickest way to get dead, trying to keep thoughts positive, the problem is, I'm a double Gemini, and my spirits shift from low to high, pretty quickly triggered, of course it figures, I care way too much, while everybody else gives 0 fucks, why can't I be more like that, easily just turn my back, ghost others the way they do me, cuz I'm over life truly, what's even the point, I'm wicked annoyed, all tribulations and trials, capitalism's made humanity vile, consumed by greed, love kindness and vulnerability make me weak, will I be mourned when I'm gone, afterall doesn't impossible to forget mean a star was born?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/3/25

No Hope When U Ghost To Cope

My heart's become numb and frozen, yet again I wasn't chosen, left alone inside my head, worried if u or him were dead, silence is the real killer, sad when drunkenness is the filler, they don't know how to just be, wish y'all could lime with me, I don't need much, some quality time and love, like sharing a meal, along with how we feel, u know a 2 way street, fuck online let's meet and greet, guess I'm not easy to handle, wish my absence leaves ur world dismantled, cuz I truly deserved, not to be neglectfully hurt, but then u came along, probably will be memorialized in a poem or song, since u destroyed all my hope, when it seems u only ghost to cope!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/3/25