The Superficial Choice

They say u got a choice, then destroy and censor the voice, all I see is superficiality, people play fake oh so casually, and naturally being a nice guy becomes my casualty, I think you're blatantly flagrantly and unashamingly playing with me, your gracious fakeness is apparently transparent see, and I definitely don't desire another parent or marriage mentality, someone always smothering, hovering over mothering one another and, then the other disrespects refuses to protect the brother in the gutter, I'll try not to sta sta studder, detailing how too much kindness too soon is suffocating, keep those elaborate talismans and gifts patiently waiting, or they'll start staying playing and preying, it's the money they're emulating, it's so unhealthy, the sleazy greedy stealthily seek the wealthy, u can't help me, my mind's blind, and I don't know why, I feel unfazed dazed and hazed, relationships are an uncharted maze, that I can't see straight ahead or right, I'll never be loved if I can't risk being disliked, I want to gain fame and insane popularity, I ignore your flaws and your remarks made disparagingly, shit happens B, but not all things end tragically or happily, don't misdirect and snap at me, laugh at or treat me crappy, I'll slap a G, and put a cap in his knee, if I have to I'll ignore your gums flapping rapidly, you're all talk, why crawl when u can walk, it's rude to gawk, and creepy to stalk, have some guts to say what's up, and if I offend u ask what the fuck, finding love is tough luck, u stay stuck, when u in fact act like and immature shmuck, just keep it real, the true u has mass appeal, tell me what u feel, trust and honesty may help seal the deal, since my heart is nearly impossible to steal, when u hurt me I don't heal, u only get one chance there's no appeal, i'm tired of your sly lies and your confusionous useless noise, take your sentence with poise, you're only an illusion of a good choice!

Peace and 1
JC
7/30/08

Joe Vaccapella

I'll give writing another shot again, but you've got to listen to the messages I'm trying to send, mixing rap with poetry, and u know it's me, with my Joe Vaccapella, Joe Conscious has got to tell ya, the Absolut truth the real deal, expressing exactly what I feel, give emotions words, it's almost absurd, and the vocabulary is crazy, the life lessons taught aren't hazy, because I'm edgy and gripping, I take the time to memorize adlibbing, so my voice has the proper inflection, I give each piece my complete attention, and when it's being recited, it's almost like I'm in front of u writing it, so authentic totally in the zone and, entirely engrossed in the moment, there's an undeniable connection, that's contagious like an infection, but it's like I'm talking only to u, there's no one else in the room, willing to share their whole soul, avoid all paranoia and just let go, seems nobody says embarrassing personal shit openly, or shows vulnerability knowingly, men typically analytically think that makes them weak, underestimate sensitivity as easy to defeat, I personally believe, I'm just portraying me, fuck what anybody else says or thinks, even if my stuff stinks, you'll never take my passion away, or make me afraid, I learned a long time ago, for every friend there's a foe, unfortunately u can't please everyone, so i'm done, as long as I'm happy, who cares if other people hate or disrespectfully laugh at me?

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/20/10

Lord Forgive Me

I'm choking, from too much smoking, and withholding, hurtful words that deserve to heard and spoken, instead I'm left speechless, from our future's bleakness, this economic's catastrophic uniqueness, I beseech and plea please, these bailouts adding to the deficit means, more taxes and fees, geez, will it ever cease, so consumers can again be at ease, no more of a lending freeze, America's financial system being plagued by disease, we are so quick to forget, which makes me fret, how did we originally get into this mess, let me just take one wild guess, 8 years of President Bush, isn't that enough of a cue for republicans to shush, we all should give each other a kick in the tush, letting our morals turn to mush, consumed by stupidity, inequity, we've ultimately lost liberty, please Lord forgive me, for not speaking out loud, proving I'm well endowed, gay and proud, and sticking up for my community and crowd, I'm totally ashamed, I feel mutilated and maimed, how our great country's  legacy's been defamed, it's pitiful and repugnant, some are even rooting against this newly elected democratic government, hoping there's continuously higher unemployment, and more troop deployment, presidential overexposure, waiting for Barack to lose his composure, as the dollar and Dow seem to plummet, would things go well at the G-20 summit, or was a new currency created, since our stability faded, fiscal responsibility got tainted, degraded, antiquated, should money be spent or saved is constantly debated, all I know, is we still have a long ass way to go, we need to breathe hope, and elope, from the strict moral code of the Pope, things are not always black and white, perpetually instilling separatism isnt right, Christianity is way too exclusive, yet abusively intrusive, that's it, I quit being a hypocrite, and have made my final decision, I will not transform to fit your vision, practice your religion, change my sexual preference or the way that i'm living, God is much more forgiving, and i'm pretty sure He didn't create Earth to be a prison, or for me to play your prey falling victim to this crooked prejudiced system, ruled by your illusive conducive ignorance and imbecilism!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
3/31/10

Can't Stop Won't Stop

How do I begin to apologize for my behavior, no matter what I can't be humanity's savior, but i can be a positive role model instead, just got discharged from the prison inside my head, like Pink I'm Not Dead yet, i easily lose patience and get irately upset, when prejudice  and discrimination are running rampant, peeps be all up in arms cuz I'm being too overtly critical and candid, on point for sure but too much to take, i promise to never again flake, especially on my big brother, just cuz I'm gay doesn't mean we are secret lovers, i need more positivity laughter and silliness, life isn't simple or about willy nilly bliss, it's about having a good support system, openly love more and listen, i must again say sorry tho to my RI family and friends, i hope u know I'm a ride or die guy here with yall til the end, let's find peace and those Better Dayz like Pac, don't u know by now that Joe Conscious can't stop won't stop!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
3/12/15

Phoenix Rise

OMG baby, where have u been lately, I've been patiently waiting anxiously, check mate b, hope u don't hate me, I've got too much passion drive courage and bravery, tho I try to better myself, every now and then we all need a lil help, helping others can help us help ourselves, now I  know I'm not an ornamental trophy laid displayed on a shelf, my lyrical beauty makes any soulful heart simply melt, I'm great at playing the hand I'm dealt, what if the only way to heaven is hell, I'll keep my change and throw myself into the well, since some of yall think I stink/smell, i will survive tho cuz the anti gravity  law always applies, i shall like a Phoenix be reborn from the ashes and rise!

Peace and 1,
JC
3/11/5

The Truth's Moot

Become numb dumb scum immune to the truth, imagine all liars were put on mute, the beaut is a disguised goof, who's mysterious and aloof, why do we hurd into groups of troops or mules, fuck flat chips I like scoops, dig-ability makes my point moot, show some loyalty by kissing my boot, do u like man smells and toots, standard absolutes include no blood scars fists or poop, no matter if u poo poo the whole way thru, hopefully we both spew, but ull probably be the one screwed dude, i feel like an ostracized outsider never in the loop, let me hear u sing shoop, shoop bae doop, am I in the headless chicken coupe, how low can u go or stoop, how do we believe with no proof, listening to distracting subliminal nonsensical gobbly goo or goop, it's like what to use whom or who, sheeple hear my real last name and go moo, I'd like Pink to ask Dear Mr President Bush Who Knew, are the conspiracy theories of JFK the Fed Reserve illuminati Jesus and 9/11 all true, cuz if so I think we should sue, switch congress' with Brian Williams' shoes and say shoo, and while ur at it take O'Reilly from Fox news with u too!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/26/15

Everything's Taxing

Some days I'm just not inspired to write, why does everything have to be a fight, just cuz uve lived a longer life, doesn't mean u know how to live right, please refrain from judgmental criticism when giving advice, I hate making mistakes twice or even thrice, quality and value are irrelevant in determining price, competition breeds jealousy envy hatred and spite, i find u get further tho by being nice, ull inevitably finish last, and probably never have an abundance of cash stashed, credit cards maxed, in fact that's before being taxed, oh shit, maybe I can't handle this, seems like I'm only a glimmer of light in an abyss, wonder will i be missed, wish I cld have just one last kiss, an orgasmic moment of bliss, is this really it, all I have to offer, or is the angel of death another annoying gawker/stalker, Jesus the Devil's already been harassingly hounding me, breathing down my neck heavily and loudly, like a pulse my heart's pounding beats, conjuring up magical music channeling a divine entity who profoundly speaks, I'm an existential revolutionary warrior fighting for freedom equality truth justice unconditional love and peace!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
2/24/15

Baby Got Class

Lord give me strength and faith, to be more patient with people and wait, I guess it's not my turn yet, how quick u all are to forget, I've already scratched ur back a couple times, what u think I'm deaf dumb and blind, i can only ask nicely for so long, calm myself down with blunts bowls and bongs, writing new songs from my angry poetry, when will somebody in a position of power notice me, will i ever get a shot or just shot at, i ain't no wanna be Nicki Minaj sellout remixing baby got back, i don't need to show sex appeal I've got intelligence and class, and for the ignorant racist haters saying hip hop and rap is only for blacks, come lick ur cum up off my feet then kiss my ass, and just maybe I'll let u suck my dick at last, while I count my cash and laugh at the fact I turned u into the fag!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/20/15

Instinctual Miracle

The miracle of birth is amazing, can't help but stare somewhat disgusted yet curiously gazing, but she naturally knows exactly what to do, often empathize with what other people go thru, it's gotta be close to kidney stones or fisting, why are men terrible with vulnerability intimacy and listening,  being an anomaly really bothers me, what happened to chivalry truth and honesty, just simply not capable of acting disengenuous, wish the wealthy would be much more generous, the village needs to focus on giving and sharing, it shows that not only are u aware but ur caring, not some narcisistic prick, the prettiest people are the biggest dicks, doesn't necessarily mean they have one tho, what makes anyone beautiful has nothing to do with their dough, love transcends all things materialistic and tangible,  i truly believe we're not given what we can't handle, stay strong with hope and faith, ull eventually find a way to pave ur own destined fate!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
2/17/15

What's Ur Legacy

The human mind's confined in time's binds, the eyes can only visualize tangible signs, it's never my intention to circumvent blessings try settling and nestling in compromise, shouldn't be a surprise that a smidgen of omission or lil white lies just isn't wise, there's a fine line between ego and pride, tears cried when a loved one dies, are like rainy days instead of rays of sunshine, they'll find peace amongst the heavenly divine, if I'm remembered as genuinely talented and kind, i believe seems to be the dream legacy to leave behind!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/15/15

Gemini Valentine

This year I'm my own valentine, not trying to be cheesy or sarcastic this time, for real people it's how I truly feel, coupling up never had much appeal, except maybe to cuddle with in bed, perhaps I'll get a pet dog instead, I treated myself to some chocolate candy, I'm ok now with haters who simply can't tolerate nor stand me, I'm part of a bigger picture involving a profound brotherhood, fighting for truth love justice equality and other forces of good, many artists are dissed and dismissed for being misunderstood, always do what u know u should, accept ur destiny and calling, I've come to appreciate more since falling, showed me strength I never knew I had, learning to have a ton of fun and just laugh, that jealous ass i bet is sitting sad, pouting all regretfully mad, and in fact I'm actually much more than a tad glad, cuz u treated me bad, if I ever see u again I wanna knee u in the nads, that's how much I love me, happy valentine's day hunny!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/14/15

Better Valentines Dayz

Friday the 13th is a day about luck, for some superstitious folk it's all bad karma coming back to phuck, funny how this year it's right before the day of love, which can be equally just as tough, hope ur florists Hallmark and Hershey, understand how much commercial consumerism hurts "we", makes me feel ugly lonely and unworthy, like Jason is cupid trying to murder me, he does have a bow and arrow tho, sex is so shallow u know, instant gratification is false pleasure, true love is deep limitless and can't be measured, it can save lives, resonate even after one dies, it's phenomenal magic really, men look at romance as silly cheesy and frilly, otherwise they're probably gay, my Mariah Carey obsession apparently gave me away, yesterday marked my eighth year out and proud, there's still lots of places in the Midwest and South I'm not allowed, which makes my blood boil enraged, so I go smoke a bowl in the car and listen to 2Pac's "Better Dayz"!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
2/13/15

Prodigal Sun's Light

All the times I've fallen or stumbled, have kept me grounded level headed and humble, but people often get me aggravated and frustratingly hot headed, it's crazy how much fear is inherently imbedded, into both our hearts and our souls, regrets and failed dreams seem to eventually take a toll, i just can't bite my tongue and cheek anymore, ur all a bunch of selfish greedy ignorant whores, and I simply wonder what for, in death money doesn't matter so in life don't keep score, if u have more...give more, most of us r a paycheck or two away from being homeless and poor, thank god for my fans friends and family, i really don't know how they put up with and handle me, I'm impossible cuz i have high expectations for myself, quality hip hop music is my contribution and I know it positively helps, im the next generation's chosen one, some say the prodical gay son, I've touched the lives of people worldwide, i have a boat load of compassion empathy and human pride, I absolutely refuse to pick a clique or sides, I'm a chameleon in that I blurr boundaries and lines, like Houdini love breaking out of confines, my light is eternal and will glow as long as the sun still shines!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/9/15

Can I Get A Gaymen

It's actually difficult to accept praise and compliments, i think people pretend to portray no weaknesses and flawless self confidence, could u stand on stage rap and sing ur original hip hop songs, when all seems hopelessly lost and impossible will u stand strong, look hate straight in the face and say no being gay isn't a choice nor wrong, neither is smoking medicinal marijuana using cigars papers bowls or bongs, what ever floats ur boat, different strokes for different folks, I ain't no fake facade or disengenuous hoax, I may bite those disrespectful boundary breaking nosy blokes, reporters are supposed to be non biased and non judgmental, tell the facts jack but don't lack tact and always be critically gentle, afterall u never truly know the road one has to walk, haven't seen much action yet I hear lots of gossiping sassing talk, don't wallflowers stand quietly patient and just gawk, ur cries are worse than the roosters squawks, the bald eagle is endangered due to an over abundance of vultures and hawks, why don't we idealize more important things than war showbiz and/or sports, I've given up on politicians police and the courts, the reason why our priorities can't change, is cuz we aren't working for the greater good or making the world a better place!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/8/15

#byefelicia & JC's Evolution

It is what it is, so I'm gonna handle my business, i may forgive but I don't forget, I do occasionally lose my cool and level head, i am afterall only human, i take responsibility for my wrong doing, I will always be a man and apologize, I won't tho perpetuate ur delusional lies, there's equal or greater reactions to every action, we both played a part in what happened, the one thing I can't understand, is how u can just cut someone out of ur life u called friend (pronounced frand), love isn't a light switch u turn off and on, it baffles me u can pretend I simply vanished forever gone, u must be one of those politicians, i actually paid attention and listened, i didn't appreciate the way u strung me along for so long, the best thing to come from u and ur bullshit was an incredibly self empowering song, turns out I don't need ya, so #byefelicia!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(2/2/15)


Does knowing u can always count on me keep u smiling and shining, i wish u were here to help heal my crying and dying, my heart and soul have lost their purpose, rendering me robotic so hollow and worthless, love and compassion are the building blocks of life, we are defined by how we conquer our pain and stife, i know yall must be sick of hearing me bitch and gripe, is it a gift or a curse to have empathy and foresight, all I can think of is that jingle do u believe in magic, when it comes to greed corruption and injustice I've simply haddit, can't understand why we haven't evolved to our full potential tho, JC resurrected to take this world from Higher Consciousness to Existential: A Revelationary Road!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(2/2/15)

Encouraging My Music

I'm learning to accept where I am, proud I've done all I can, to fight the strife in life, it definitely isn't fair or right, it just is what it is, I feel bad for the kids, I really wasn't well equipped, to handle this thick shit, how do u perservere in a world consumed with competitive capitalistic business, I don't empathize believing in utopian retirement bliss, its unrealistic and very selfish, creates an overeducated self entitled debt enslaved population that's making existence hellish, add the fact inflation's in full force, we're expected to be an imaginary super invincible work horse, but only paid beans, unable to be sustainable or live within a reasonable means, u must distinguish wants from needs, forget about fairy tales and dreams, by the way ull be paired up in one man and one woman teams, forever linked together for all eternity, seems silly personally, but that's what breeders believe virtually, or more like virtuously, parents always keep trying to protect and save, is it wrong to love and worry too much about the child I made, I mean really...fuck god...he's mine, somehow someway in time I'll find power so divine, he will never have to experience hurt or pain, it'll never rain, ull stay the same precious lil boy, so even at 31 ur still single living at home broke and unemployed, but I should be happy and grateful for my bestowed blessings, unfortunately in my confession my upbringing has become a source of resentment, I didn't have to struggle that hard, therefore how can u be a succesful hip hop star, its underestimatingly condescending to ask, but ur gay white educated and come from upper middle class, u earn respect its not given, I'm stuck in childhood prison, controled free will with limited choice, relate most to Ariel from The Little Mermaid without a voice, sheltered and ill prepared for survival, cuz as an adult everyones ur rival, comparison is primal, living an extravagant lavish lifestyle is vile, what I'm looking for and asking, is where the fuck is my compassion, I don't want pity or to make u feel bad, making music just happens to be what I'm talented and good at, so why can't y'all encourage and help me do that?!?!?!?

Peace and 1,
JC
(2/13/14)

Awakened Changed

Its hard to explain, but I've awakened changed, all my insecurities melted away, I'm less afraid, cuz he rekindled my faith, gave me the strength to be patient and wait, he does care, made the time to be there, which is what I needed, someone followed thru I can't believe it, its a fucking miracle, I can't help but get a lil hysterical, the way the universe constantly teases me, seems impossible to recover from thievery, but when its all my fears and worries, I'm not so overzealous and in such a hurry, I finally can catch my breath, relax have some fun and get out of my own head, overanalyzing makes me depressed, its hard to even motivate myself to get up out of bed, I've got to remember not to live life like I'm already defeated and dead, a more positive optimistic perspective would be that my caccoon has simply been shed, and I emerged totally transformed, 200% better than I've ever felt before!

Peace and 1,
JC
(8/21/14)

Won't Find Love Looking Up

Am I invisible or can u see me, what if music can't heal me, for some reason its no longer enough, this overanalyzing and thinking is too much, obsessing over a crush, longing and aching for that sensual touch, my fetish is intimacy, is 7 years deep still infancy, I can't stand being such a late bloomer, my soul is hardening into a black tumor, while my heart has been so broken and torn, my mind needed time to unwind and mourn, from even more disappointment and let downs, people are simply politicians and clowns, I know how I sound, being seeing and feeling bitter jealous and spiteful is so profound, I can't seem to let the hurt go, I'm very needy and demanding but not afraid of hard work tho, all those high expectations for myself, I guess are spilling onto everyone else, over extending relationships never helps, I always go above and beyond, so if u screw me over I won't just remain calm, im an empath so basically I'm a mirror, im learning to keep mine and ur shit separated clearer, but that is definitely hard, why do I try to manipulate using the pity card, saying condescending things like I'm disappointed, but who made me the annointed, I should shut my mouth, and let them learn how to bout, afterall its not my battle to fight, my experience and life lessons dont make my advice any better or more right, but I will always help guide u to the light, and motivate u to reach inside and find that strength/might, remind u that u have the power, never fear or cower, u won't find any answers looking up, the only thing that makes life worth living is love!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(9/2/14)

Follow The Gold Brick Road

Man I can't kick this depression, in this shitty life it's hard to see the blessings, there's war famine and poverty, casino games and the lottery are legalized highway robbery, there's no such thing as a sure bet, most musicians are only appreciated after they're dead, it's impossible to get ahead, a forty hour minimum wage job can't pay the rent and buy bread, I'm about to flip the fuck out, start a huge riot or bout, I'm a good moraled person who will resort to stealing, if u keep repeatedly ignoring my necessities and feelings, dangling that teasing bait, right in front of my face, and then quickly retract it with haste, the energy I put into our friendship looks to have been a total waste, now I'm left jealous angry and spiteful, while u elude ur more than fine and dandy ur delightful, well ur in some deep trouble, cuz I'm that asshole who loves to burst bubbles, and I won't dare stop, til I make sure urs is popped, I say revenge is like the sweetest joy next to sucking dick, I will follow my own gold road even if I have to lay it brick by brick!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
(9/17/14)

Life's Like A Poker Game

I challenge myself to approach life like a poker game, not let my emotions control my face, too much love is such a waste, seems to be baby boomers legacy along with debt, there's simply no such thing as absolute sure bets, so what's the point in investing in insurance safety precautions or nets, education doesn't guarantee sustainability fortune or a career, both the justice system and government corrupt thru the use of abusive punishment persecution and fear, we all need to stop and ask ourselves the existential why am I here, what is my gift and purpose, being overwhelmed by too much"it comes from love" help actually deeply hurts us, remember in dark times yes u do have value and are never worthless, i gotta be more appreciative and graciously greatful, not so bitter jaded cynical jealous spiteful and hateful, nobody likes being around a negative vibe, but what if this awesome asshole facade/disguise, is my uncontrolable reactionary defensive mechanism produced lie, underneath it all I'm really a sensitive soulfully sarcastic too smart and self aware to be bashful guy, an artistic philosophical gemini thats always high, not totally wholesome tho addictively good fun to be around, and if u pay attention and listen u might learn something relatably wise and profound!

Peace and 1,
JC
(9/26/14)

Metaphorical BDSM Session

I'm so used to doing everything alone, never feel like I'm supposed to when home, I just wanna run away, I'm pretty damn afraid, no one around here really knows me, takes time to find their own wants and needs, misunderstand reciprocity and intimacy, I'm seriously questioning intelligence and literacy, how else can I say or spell it out, I'm about to say fuck polite political correctness explode throw down and bout, god gave us two eyes ears and a mouth, learn to use them please, instead of being an unavailable tease, holding that retractable bait, u ignorant selfish narcisistic ingrate, ur rejected love turns to spite and hate, bravo's next reality tv show stars JC in an entertaining rap gladiator game, problem is tho this joe doesnt want fortune or fame, people enjoy watching others squirm and suffer in pain, everybodys superficial and vein, full of catholic guilt and ridiculously judgmental, play god like house pirched high on their self righteously entitled pedastal, I'm starting to get the impression, being human is a blessing, experiencing constant conflict and testing, a mix of discipline pleasure tickling and caressing, my fetishes are like chastity and the lack of release is perpetuating a depression, the universe's harsh lessons, are causing insecurity and resentment, got me wondering pondering and questioning, maybe this is all just one big metaphorical bdsm session!

Peace and 1,
Joe Consious
(9/28/14)

Inside RI & Reading's Freeing & Sunday Funday

I feel RI forces me inside, to hide til I die, no matter how hard I try, I can't care less or stop questioning why, it sucks being a straight acting gay guy, I'm not gonna lie, I should just say I'm bi, cuz I'm totally ostracized, by both sides, i don't want u all to see me cry, I think I've finally realized, I can't be hypnotized, to become corporatized, work an unfulfilling 9-5, wearing a shirt and tie, im so frustrated all i can do is sigh, my music dream has been shattered to its demise, failure and bad timing shouldn't be a surprise, I surmise there is no real deep meaningful reason or purpose for our lives, I'm starting now to say my goodbyes, watch me vanish permanently from both ur mind and eyes!

Peace and 1,
JC
(9/29/14)

Is anybody listening or reading, do u care I'm bleeding, having trouble breathing, I'm the victim of endless teasing, everything unavailable is appealing, i can't control these lustful feelings, I'm a regular human being, who is a hopeless optimist and won't stop believing or achieving, when u finally stop dreaming, letting go of expectation is wonderfully freeing!

Peace and 1,
JC
(9/29/14)

What a great Sunday fun day, and today is monday, I'm feeling very relaxed somber and calm, woke up refreshed nice and early without an alarm, i got some music shit to do, and a whole lot still yet to prove, mostly to myself, I just realize and can admit I need help, life's a balancing act, the internet has diluted the truth turning opinion to fact, I simply can't get over the consciousness people lack, i wanna shake and wake them up, bug them with an overwhelming amount of love, but I've been rejected so many times now I just don't give a fuck!

Peace and 1,
JC
(9/29/14)

Lose Ur True Character

I'm so overwhelmed by utter lonliness, ri is filled with so much phoniness, I've even lost myself, stressed out how I'm gonna accrue wealth, I'm so jealous of everyone else, I don't think faking it til u make it helps, I can't be anything other than genuine, I'm a gay gentleman who's not very feminine, but no one takes me seriously, I can see my destiny clearly, due to other's failed dreams, I changed my page from original insightful retrospective uncensored rhymes to positive inspirational memes, my passion for music is slowly dying, and both my heart and soul keep crying, and with every streaming tear, it makes room for more insecurities and fear, i don't know how much longer I can stay here, my friends and family say they love and care, preach security sustainability and saftey nets, seems I'm hard to remember but easy to forget, people sure move on quick, are oh so stubborn and thick, trying to control and save me, I'm a fabulous independent antagonist thats adventurous faithful and filled with bravery, everyday i practice patience and empathy, life's balancing between achieving our wants and settling for what's meant to be, which will u choose, it's fun to win but a true depiction of character's when u lose!

Peace and 1,
Joe Consious
(9/30/14)

Enabling The Vision Of Freedom

I hope the light of my smile returns some of the love I've been given, like receiving mail in jail/prison, something short and simple can be so sweet, u must always have hope faith and believe, we all have meaning and purpose, even for the awful atrocities that hurt us, nobody's worthless or without value, don't just do things cuz u have to, I'm such an antagonist I question why not, trial and error provides answers to the soul mind and heart, do u actually make the time to stop and think, isn't it all about balancing, experiencing extremes, helps distinguish between ur wants and needs, don't let the past jade u or or make u too guarded, marriage is a contract where love is bartered, but isnt the idea outdated and discriminatory, enough with these prince charming happily ever after bullshit stories, parents have got to stop overprotecting, even stupid lil white lies like Santa Jesus and immaculate conception, are more harmful than good, it is almost impossible for the truth to be clearly seen or understood, i wish u all would stop enabling me, wake up and see, u can never be free, if u live ur life dependant on money!

Peace and 1,
JC
(10/2/14)