Holy Moly Jesus Pieces

Growing up catholic in many ways, has messed me up whether gays should have faith, I'm second guessing myself, I don't need psychological help, I need love support and true friends, ya'll just keep playing pretend, only in it for the benefits, and when I call ya'll out and mention this, I get portrayed as the bad guy, so I go get high, cuz I'll never understand mob mentality, delusionally consumed in virtual reality, we're losing human interaction, might be too late to take preventative action, they kicked the can down the road, squeezed with greed every ounce of money and hope, I thought things get better, I can understand sporadic bad weather, but hard work just never seems to pay off, not only been burned but scorched, good used to always conquer evil, I'm surrounded by the walking dead zombified sheeple, I'm simply tired of the lack of common sense, accountability justice rehabilitation and penance, do u too believe in second and third chances, sex is important in love but not as much as intimacy and romance is, that's my fetish, genuineness, it's extremely rare, I'm really scared, Clinton or Trump, I'm bummed numb and stumped, how did we get here, ignorance is easily manipulated and ruled thru fear, nobody even cares anymore, we're all puppets pawns pimps and whores, robotic soulless slaves, dumber than hillbillies hicks and even cave men from back in the olden days, I don't pray but I yell at the sky a lot, cuz if God does exist I can't help at times being blasphemous calling it a mutha phucking asshole/twot, I can shred the story of Jesus to pieces, not to mention my thesis how we're either Adam and Eve's nephews and nieces, or we're all incestuously related, the immaculate conception can religiously be debated, was Mary trying to hide dirty lil secrets and lies, perhaps she found out she was impregnated by a gay or bi guy, I mean look at all those disciples, pedestaling him like they would a woman and other idols, what's with bastardizing fun, it's hard to fathom an almighty one, it's all so confusing, I swear consciousness is just an illusion!

Peace and 1,
JC
10/28/16

Another Hollow Illusion/Con

Don't be so complainy and typical, pretending not to be jelly and secretly miserable, I see it in ur comedic choice, ur insecurity and hear it in ur sarcastic voice, they say a lot of truth is said in gest, perpetuating racist homophobic mysogeny can never be for the best, I've failed every single one of life's patience tests, does being black or gay make u less less, both society and the economy are a mess, I'm legitimately scared shitless, Trump is just simply not good at politics or business, cheating the system is part of the problem wrong is wrong, ya'll don't even care about lyrics in ur songs, it all breaks my heart and crushes the soul, what is ur purpose legacy u want to leave and ultimate goal, it's happiness for me, which can't be bought with any amount of money, that's another hollow illusion, why is humanity so blind to its own consequences and fueling corruption/pollution, like catholicism I know longer believe in the institution of democracy, everybody's fallible and victims of hypocrisy, but what really bothers me, is how would our founding fathers feel, about how far we've come, we seem to forget where we're from, all of us are decedents of immigrants, ignorance isn't innocence, u should know right and good from bad or evil, I'm sick and tired of robotic sheeple, have a solid foundation and a moral leg to stand on, aren't ya'll fed up and had enough of being conned?!

Peace and 1,
JC
10/26/16

Big Bang Theory II

It must be nice, to have a husband or wife, find ur other half, I hide behind a fake smile and sarcastic laugh, what's the purpose to life, I got fucked twice, no love or success, u ever feel like uve got nothing left, like ur soul's been drained completely depleted, failed and ultimately defeated, still wondering what's the point, I'm more than frustrated and annoyed, I've kinda given up, enough is enough, there's no such thing as fair or justice, money fame and sex is all that's lusted, I mean this world's morality has gone to shit, humanity's a bunch of oxymoronic hypocrites, nobody has compassion or cares, everyone's distracted by the state of US affairs, understandably so, this election is making us look like a circus/joke, nothing anymore is sacred, the sheeple are focused on irrational hatred, based on false narratives cover ups and lies, but Bernie tho u know never wore a disguise, yet u still got dooped and fooled by deceptive tactics and corruption, when it comes to presidential candidates they're fucking disgusting quadruply sucking, ya'll dug our collective grave, and no matter to what God u pray, we're totally screwed either way, I have nothing else to say, except ya'll only have urselves to blame, ain't no sunshine after an atomic bomb meteorites or acid rain, is it too late to change, or will we be wiped out like the dinosaurs with another big bang?

Peace and 1,
JC
10/15/16

My Last Call To Action

How does one change their mind frame or state, especially in the midst of the chaos or a heated debate, I don't want to argue no more or fight, shouldn't matter if ur gay straight trans man woman black or white, we are all the same, religion is also abstained, stop focusing on all the wrong things, be better quality human beings, I mean really, this election is silly, it's like a circus, which globally hurts us, completely destroys our reputation, what's with the hating we're cyclically facing, reliving the 50s again, either president will lead us back into a major depression, the children ultimately lose, I can't handle false narratives and subliminal mentally bullying and abuse, will we ever recover from incessant political greed and corruption, cuz our display of leadership is fucking disgusting, for me it's still Bernie or bust, I hope ya'll have the guts, aren't u tired of being the victim, enslaved by a fake system, designed to benefit only a select few, the world's waiting on what we will do, who will we choose, let common sense and love shine thru and be our muse, there's more indy than establishment, I'm amazed by the number of ignorant family members and friends, nows not the time to ghost bench or pretend, let ur minds bend, don't listen to liars and panderers, if Mickey Mouse can almost win from a write in please elect Sanders, this is my last call to action, I ask beg and plea for ur compassion, ya'll believe I'm delusional but I'm allowed to dream and imagine, wish we would listen to Mariah and just "Make It Happen"!

Peace and 1,
JC
10/15/16

U Immune To The Doom

Why can't I do nothing, and still get something, just like everyone else, except u don't help, be more positive, less cognitive, and just simply live, stop taking it all and give, moochers are losers, the abused become abusers, I hate this existence, what doesn't pay is hard work nor persistence, humanity is synonymous with cancer, we make up our own rules truths and answers, playing pretend like house doctor or god, life is expensive and hard, even the air we breathe, ain't free to me, with allergies and asthma, pretty soon inhalers will be like epipens and cost more than a plasma, but where's the real value, ya'll slave away cuz u have to, everybody is in debt, not living within our means and now there's no cushiony safety net, younger generations are totally screwed, why didn't we nominate the democratic socialist jew, wtf are we gonna do when Trump's elected, we're so politically correct spoiled entitled and over protected, our government military and police will be our undoing and demise, hope ya'll are ready to face the consequences of our leader's malicious manipulation mind control and lies, it's the apocalyptic end of days coming soon, seems only evil is immune to the doom!

Peace and 1,
JC
10/8/16

Where Are The Disciples

Going thru some rough dark times, just when I'm courageous enough to draw hard lines, the takers push them again, I'm longing for unconditional love and friends, I have no adult family, seems most can't tolerate or stand me, I've been waking up lately crying, pretty much prefer dying, life is so expensive intense illusion and lies, no matter how hard one tries, getting out of debt or the red, is as impossible as losing or forgetting ur head, ur mind is a whole other story, seems making millions is the only way to achieve glory, I write music and poetry to help deal, with the overwhelming stress anxiety and rejection I feel, with neverending incessant bullies and haters, god nor the universe does me any favors, in fact the opposite occurs, the atrocities bad luck and cursed timing hurts, working like crazy but basically standing still, won't endorse marijuana as a remedy only a prescribed pill, I've never been ok with artificial man made shit, I really really really despise and hate it, completely defeated fearful and broken, unmoved and demotivated by the criticism ya'll repeatedly have spoken, hence religiously toking, the gays only care about poking, fuck trust intimacy and romance, instead of insightful intelligence ya'll want the mindless distraction of Gaga's "Just Dance", I've decided the disciples are what I'll call my avid diehard fans, what's important is how long my legacy spans, not the size of my wallet or pants, I refuse to believe I can't, when it's rough and tough and uve had too much/more than enough, come get a hug cuz I just want ya'll to feel my love!

Peace and 1,
JC
10/2/16

Just Remember...Inspire

I want to write something that inspires, lifts the collective higher, move and woo u, soothe too, cuz life gets lonely, so many fake and phony, while I'm genuine and real, how can we stop this zombie apocalypse of stepford robotic sheeple, stand up for love, spread hugs even to thugs, enough is enough, what's rough and tough, is seeing the hardworking struggling, why all the juggling, multiple jobs, when was ur bubble burst or popped, this corporate culture, breeds greed and cheap capitalistic vultures, who take and take but refuse to give, no one needs billions to live, share the wealth, being poor affects ur health, help thy neighbor, let ur hope and faith never waiver, we just want to appropriately be paid a fair wage for our time and labor, I still say Bernie would've been a political presidential savior, both Hillary and Trump are trators, especially to the constitution and the American dream, we need to get back to the way we used to be, make peace legalize weed, tho the road is steep, be brave and remember this is the land of the free!

Peace and 1,
JC
9/20/16

Lacking Empathy & Compassion

What if today was my last, would I be forgotten fast, could u just go on unaffected, I don't care who gets elected, evil will never get my vote, so many haters from the poems I wrote, the truth is supposed to set us free, liars put the blame on me, I use vague broad strokes to paint pictures, are family or ur friends more permanent fixtures, cuz I found in gay culture, I'm surrounded by sex vultures, I want real unconditional love and intimacy, be careful not to take lust literally, nobody likes one way streets, what's ur fetish bdsm or feet, or are u plain old vanilla and boring, hope u can handle snoring, I don't sleep with others often, since it's the cousin of death my bed is a metaphorical coffin, I feel like a vampire or zombie, think the government's working with God to rob me, of money love happiness and success, becoming bitterly jaded projecting sarcastic gest, why does the universe fuck with us, most don't have half my talent drive or guts, and yet I'm stuck among the bottom rung, how many songs have u written and sung, I've sold 7000 albums all around the country and world, I didn't even have to lie pretend or dress up as a girl, there's nothing wrong with me I don't need fixing, focus more on urself what ur doin and how ur living, I know my purpose and found my passion, all I'm asking is what's ur next plan of action, I may annoyingly complain, but at least I try to change, either my environment or how I react, sorry but ur wants and opinions are not facts, we need way more empathy and compassion, isn't it obvious it's heart and soul that humanity's lacking!

Peace and 1,
JC
9/15/16

Passed Our Past

Totally stressing remembering 9/11, do u believe in heaven, or is it all just a myth, faith is a gift, like love, sometimes it just ain't enough, could really use some cuddling or a hug, I feel my soul's been mugged, drugged and sucked dry, don't think I can live not high, I'd be anxious and overwhelmed, the wealthy rich corporate establishment is at the helm, and we're just sheeple, slaves to evil, u know money, life isn't always sunny, it's a combination of positive and negative, confronting fear is imperative, avoidance destroys the chance to heal for real, own who u are and how u feel, fuck the haters, I'm one of those original hit makers, with genuine talent, weird like Woody Allen, not incestuous but kinky, have more empathy and compassion in my damn pinky, miss art in the 90s like Biggie Pac Thundercats and Ren & Stimpy, this heat and humidity got me all stinky, I'm pretty hippy dippy, to learn to live with me, u gotta accept the scent of pot and sweat, which don't forget makes me wet, and drives some other guys wild, literally causes pig piles, oink oink baby, we're all a lil crazy, most tho hide it well, u can confide in me I won't tell, teach me how to ring ur bell, since gays inherently go to hell, be happy fulfilled and have fun, cuz it won't be long now before this moment is over and done, let's move passed our past, time is short and flies by fast!

Peace and 1,
JC
9/11/16

Let's Smoke Weed & L.I.P.

Always find and be urself, others can do only so much to help, I attract lost souls rejects and misfits, I too am used to living on the fringes, an outsider longing to fit in, wanna change so bad but where do I begin, how does an artist get discovered, ur love is expressed thru worry mother, my father and sister as well, I take life like my music way too serious, we're all really not that mysterious, using masks and distracting projection, or sarcasm and lies as a natural defense mechanism, ya'll send ur representatives, I'm adventurous idealistic genuinely care and share without hidden agendas or incentives, cuz today could be my last, people are lazy or move too fast, I'm hypocritically overzealous, not immune to envy spite or getting jealous, afterall like Brandy I'm only human, before u give advice or criticize prove what u urself are doing, to be a better person and contribute to the collective, u can't complain about the lesser of two evils uve repetitively elected, I'm done hating the players it's the game and who makes the rules, they're playing us like ignorant tools and gullible fools, a fleet of robotic slave like sheep and an army of oil dependant mules, capitalistic by nature when socialism's the only answer, I believe money's the root of all evil and the need for greed's causing cancer, why can't we go back to a simpler time, reignite our souls by connecting our hearts with our minds, find ur purpose, stop perpetuating what hurts us, turn hate into love, pay it forward with a wink and a smile or better yet a healing hug, let's smoke weed, fuck R.I.P. and live in peace!

Peace and 1,
JC
9/7/16

How Much Longer

Approaching the beginning, like Lauryn I'm both rapping and singing, with only a few collaborations, what's with all this hip hop hating, as soon as I declare my genre, it's almost as if I've dishonored, music altogether, perhaps I'm a trend setter/resurrecter, sometimes I find I communicate better thru a poem song text email or letter, there's less pressure, expectation is hard to measure, judgment is inevitable, I hope my rhymes aren't just fine but juicy moist and delectable, clear classy nasty and intelligible, will settle for a Grammy since there's no Olympic gold medal, imagine that, being the world's best at rap, more of a songwriter tho than a freestyler, not a ghetto gangster from the trailer but I'm definitely a weed buyer, it's an occupational hazard/necessity of life, with so much shit conflict atrocity pain plight and strife, like money it should be free, I know it seems impossible to believe, but it's medicine, we can't bring back the dead again, so let's move on from the same issues, stop being wasteful especially with tissues, fuck this abuse, luck is like a game of duck duck goose, and the 99% lose, while I'm left confused and unamused, that a congress of fools can skew absolute truths, love is the universal language, how much longer will we must endure and languish in all this anguish?!?

Peace and 1,
JC
9/6/16

The Secret

How do I get viewer/prescriber numbers up, or get fans fam and friends to financially show me love, because my music is just that good, feel extremely underestimated and misunderstood, could polish a whole half gallon of hood, on the shitter waiting for my subsiding morning wood, why not if u can eat breakfast for dinner, and I'm still way thinner, so I'm basically confused, we've been psychologically abused, we're humans not robots slaves or tools, stop assuming us all dumb ignorant gullible naive fools, like Meth don't always manage to keep my cool, sometimes I get so infuriated I studder or drool, ya'll make me that mad, I ain't lesser than or damned just cuz I'm a fag, u lack and lag, I'd rather stay stag, than compromise my individuality, self love didn't happen magically, in fact I found my truths in the rejection and tragedy,  my flaws scars and mistakes, prove I'm great and brave, it's not about win or lose failing or falling, no more senseless needless violence and brawling, let's have grown conversation and compassion, u can complain only after exhausting all avenues and taking action, enough with living off entitlement programs, there's too many greedy schemy meany peeps be really skeevy scams, the poor can't be ravaged anymore to fulfill ur outlandish demands, a crumbling infrastructure and foundation is where our future lies/stands, we're too oblivious easily manipulated and distracted, perhaps utopia equalibrium perfection and bliss can't be mastered, but still we should strive to be better or the best we can be, if letting go of everything will lead to truly flying free, climb that ladder with ease, show u know the secret of how to defy gravity, one step at a time, rise and shine!

Peace and 1,
JC
9/5/16

Live Simple

Learning I'm a sucker, life is a mother fucker, give and give, without the resources to live, barely getting by, wishing I cld get ahead a lil and thrive, been in the red so long, just need that 1 hit song, u know that goes viral, torn describing RI as quicksand or a downward spiral, most don't peak my interest, same old boring drones with no happiness or zest, stepford robotic slaves, over working til the grave, where's our value and worth, assigned roles at birth hurts, people change over time, I wonder what place I'm in in love's line, or how about hip hop success, I'm not perfect or the best, but I'm damn good, talented yet totally misunderstood, why do I have to be a gangster from the hood, the important question to ask is did u do all u could, u have to ask, nothing forever lasts, but no matter what u must try, cry or lie, drink or get high, one day we all die, so focus on leaving a quality epic legacy, companionship is a necessity, I'm addicted to great connection, what's the spell for protection, magic surrounds us, trust ur heart and guts, have hope and faith don't wait, live in the moment...live for today!

Peace and 1,
JC
9/2/16

Confusing Amusement

What to say today, I'm still lost and afraid, in this world it's all about money, but I find it rather funny, that no one seems to have any, impossible to distinguish friendly from enemy, these days they're all the same, yes life is a boardgame, but so is sorry and dominoes, and u can't eat those everyone knows, double entendres can get confusing, violence and other's suffering shldnt be enjoyed as amusement, people are evil and wicked fucked up, suck at identifying lust from love, pretend to be friends, please stop the excessive compliments then, I'm staying focused, codependency is my locust, beautiful but deadly, perhaps ya'll just ain't ready, hip hop ain't dead, leave it to JC to resurrect!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/30/16

Ring My Bell

Gotta stay humble but don't lose my spirit, don't get in ur own way worry and fear shit, this industry is hard, talent and passion only get u so far, sometime u have to compromise morals and play the game, I hate jealousy spite envy and shame, sex sells, distract with whistles and bells, it's not about hard work, but can u flirt, lose the shirt, pretend u don't know ur value and worth, the truth hurts too much, I don't believe in friendship or love, people are unreliable and can't be trusted, it's the fame and fortune they lusted, bunch of copy cat thieves, entitled to endless reprieves, ain't no responsibility when u got money honey, blunt me or front me a twenty, since life's super stressful and way better blitzed, not a cure or remedy for all my problems but a pretty good quick fix, music makes me tick, right up there with mastering the art of sucking dick!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/21/16

Just Leave

I think he's finally out of my life, lied thrice, u were such a big lesson, ur ugly game playing was a blessing, wow I have never met someone so broken, it's been what a month since we've actually spoken, when u asked me out, now all we do is bout, cuz ur insecure and don't know what u want or how to express it, don't try to guess shit, I unlike u, am all about communication commitment and follow thru, ur a fucking disgrace, u better not show ur face, when u see me coming walk the other way fast, cuz I'm 100% sure I wanna kick ur ass, u can't hide behind a screen or mask, if u wanna know how I feel just ask, but to bench and ghost, I'd prefer an all out roast, verbal carnage and warfare, I hate that I was born here, where it's so catholic and pc, don't make like a tree and plant roots...just leave!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/15/16

U Ying Or Yang

Starting to save, just waiting for the day, I can run away, to a progressive state, find success and a soul mate, I hate this plate, fuck fate, I have no more patience to wait, I need a break, time distance and space, am I a waste, where's god's grace, cuz I'm not amazed, actually I'm afraid, experienced too much pain, it's driving me insane, how life's lame, and it's a damn shame, not a game, sorry not sorry but ur the only one to blame, don't need to name names, use ur brains, blood stains, going against the grain, will get u maimed, or maybe even hanged, people are plain strange and deranged, which are u the ying or the yang?

Peace and 1,
JC
8/14/16

Speak Ur Honest Conscious Truth Too

Forgiveness is healing, I can't forget rejection's feeling, at the end of the day, I made a mistake, trusting u, a lustful fool, ur dreamy eyes, distracted from and disguised ur lies, by putting up a front, I'm an onion while ur a hollowed out blunt, ready to be stuffed, think I was just another failed fuck, but u pretended and proclaimed it could be love, I'd settle for companionship and a hug, in the end, we can't be friends, u ignore avoid and ghost, never offer to host, are u even divorced, ur unavailable of course, with one guy while looking for somebody else, open genuine honest communication helps, otherwise we're wasting time, I can't read minds, mean and do what u say, stop playing childish games, I'm not drama I speak the conscious truth, sorry but the only one getting in ur way is u, no more patience for lack of follow thru, pushing everyone away just leaves u alone screwed!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/10/16

Never Ever Give Up

Letting go is far from easy, having money doesn't make u greedy, too much of a good thing is bad, need to acknowledge more of what I have, instead of comparing myself to others, I'm inspired by single fathers and mothers, I can barely take care of just me, I'm a late bloomer and never lucky, life can really be sucky, even when the weather is lovely, hot or cold, feed ur soul, learn to mingle and adapt, nothing falls into ur lap, at ur worst is when u find out who's got ur back, wish I was bribed with Scooby snacks, or at least encourage instead of criticizing, I'm too genuine for lying, but a lil exaggeration is innocent, the beauty of this world is magnificent, it's people I don't appreciate or trust, man it's hard to distinguish love from lust, I've got cohonez and guts, but open and honest communication is a must, I can't read minds, how do I remember all my lines, practice practice practice makes perfect, in the end I know it'll be worth it, all the time hard work dedication blood sweat and tears, never ever give up on ur dreams because of fear!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/9/16

Long Gone Wrong Song

Been kinda spewing venom lately, will u forgive me baby maybe, hope I got it out of my system, I rush to react instead of staying calm to listen, my heart and gut got my back, they are like spidey senses we humans lack, but my brain always gets in the way, I still struggle fitting in and accepting I'm gay, I know that's weird, but I'm scared and have fear, esp when it comes to love, sometimes I just need to be told it's ok with a hug, please don't take my tears as weakness, just when I thought I hit rock bottom and shit was at it's bleakest, there's a slight shimmer/glimmer of light, I really am not trying to fight, life is way too short, to have holding a grudge be a sport, let it go and move the fuck on, squash beef cuz tomorrow isn't promised and he could be long gone, I don't wanna be right or wrong, I'm sorry but I'm an artistic old bold soul who loves to share my poetry and songs, sure I'm clearvoyant and it can get annoying, my messages are deep insightful prolific philosophical conscious relevant and poignant, wish we could learn to existentially elevate, otherwise the book of revelations could realistically be our fate!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/8/16

Where's Our Moral Consciousness

U made my smile brighter when u hurt me, u don't even think ur worthy, how am I supposed to, I think love is a hoax boo, an illusion like Trump, I'm plain stumped, where is our moral consciousness, ur level of small minded ignorance is frustratingly obnoxious, we need to collectively stop this, having fortune and fame is not bliss, all that matters is how u feel, I'm questioning if true happiness is fo' real, maybe when I'm 40, ya'll will catch up more to me, I'm done waiting patiently, overzealously jelly while my brain goes insane overanalyzing ur lies anxiously, why couldn't I see sooner and saved myself, ur gorgeous eyes and lustful reciprocation didn't help, even now I just wanna forgive and forget, but I think this is for the best, I need a man with a strong spine thick skin and some big balls, conversation isn't confrontation unless u block texts and avoid my phone calls, u live in a different state, what are u gonna forever stay away, I am so not drama, but I have to learn to control my defense mechanism better and to take rejection calmer, I'm like a volcano bubbling and boiling underground, anger and spite are actually quite profound, u see the ugly side to ur reflection, can we have a do over election, my soul needs protection, hearts and minds are plagued with evil's infection, ya'll acting all ethically willy nilly, like personal responsibility and accountability are simply silly, I worry for Gunner Mikey Nate and Lilly, their folks need almost a milly, to provide a decent life, hope and faith are the only tools to help make it thru the strife, trust is extremely fragile, perfection balance and equality are impossible never-ending battles, we all win and lose some, don't take shit so seriously and have some fucking fun!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/8/16

Lonely For Life

I can't stop thinking of u and how u just left things, did red bull give u wings, u flew right out my life, broke my heart twice, now u already flirting with guys down south, next time I see u I'll have to do everything in my power not to punch u in the dick or mouth, wtf are u even about, I understand why u have a bad reputation and slutty clout, u led me on from the start, played the strings to my heart, then cut the chord, karma seeks revenge on behalf of the universe/lord, ur not a horrible person at all, u keep doubting and second guessing urself til u fall, and ur very lazy when it comes to getting up, I always will remember it was u who first said this might be love, as the reason u walked away if I recall correctly, someone so horribly ugly and broken on the inside could never be my besty, I wish I can wake up and u were just a bad dream, we would've made a good team, instead ud rather keep playing the field, because of ur continued childish behavior my fate is sealed, lonely for life, fuck finding a wife!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/8/16

Happily Never Ever

Don't criticize always encourage, I try not to judge others cuz I too got luggage, just like everyone else, we all need love money and a lil help, live more genuine and passionate, I'm usually sassy and a sarcastic prick, not afraid to stand up and be a loud mouth dick, I've got real talent no shticks or tricks, some songs are hit or miss, can ya'll handle this, intense truth and consciousness, we gotta start seeking utopian bliss, and become a socialistic democracy, instead of a corporate capitalistic hypocrisy, where only a few have it all, and the rest of us are left to battle and brawl, hunger games style survival of the fittest, but the greatest gift is, hope and faith, tomorrow is another day, and even tho it's not guaranteed, we still are in the land of the free, where it's legal to be gay, I'm allowed to pray, if I choose to, I will not apologize for the fact that I simply outgrew u, I'm fucking existential, most don't know who they are or what they want let alone come close to their full potential, everybody is unique and special, unfortunately in life like the Olympics there's no participation medal, the experience is the prize, ya'll need to recognize, I'm epically legendary, why has art become secondary, where is our collective soul, what is the ultimate goal, when so many suffer and go without, how can u stare in the mirror and not doubt, even just one person homeless or starving, is disgustingly frustrating sickening and alarming, no one individual needs more than a million dollars, I'm broke tho I'm a double majored bachelor degreed scholar, and I've been raped by uncle Sam for years, politicians prey on fear and tears, and think we the people are stupid and weak, I will happily never ever accept defeat, so who's with me, are u a rebelious revolutionary?!?

Peace and 1,
JC
8/6/16

Letting Go Of Ghosters

Apparently ur a worse friend then a bf, memories of abandonment and a broken heart are all I got left, the silence is killing me, I hate god for letting it be, what is the fucking purpose or lesson, how can a failed relationship be a blessing, I did nothing wrong, trying to get lost in a song, take another rip or 3 from the grav bong, perhaps I'll sell my soul like my body in just a jockstrap/thong, bare it all, I hope this is the last time I fall, cuz I don't think I have the strength to get up again, does rejection ever mend, I simply don't know how to let u go, it's not in my nature to bench or ghost, there's too many zombies already, a lack of intamacy and empathy can be deadly, we need to care more about each other and the greater good, only when we uncomfortably communicate genuinely and honestly can we be understood, problems don't just vanish or disappear, if u run away or move they'll follow u there, we cyclically perpetuate our mistakes, bad habbits are almost impossible to break, please don't fake and flake, cuz one day ull awake, and I'll be long gone, be careful what u wish for cuz now I've moved on!

Peace and 1,
JC
8/4/16