Not To Keep Knocking But

It felt great to be recognized as a dope MC, seems more people are starting to u know...get me, I'm outspokenly weird and quirky, feel like bowing Garth and Wayne style shouting "we're not worthy", cuz I am we, only other Geminis will understand what I mean, often wonder if I'm bipolar or have a split personality, was just reading how music's being affected by AI and virtual reality, and it got me thinking, is humanity's soul sinking and shrinking, or simply becoming dark, like our cold and hollow hearts, completely lacking compassion and empathy, it's hard not to let he who shall not be named get to me, I mean does the President really effect my everyday life, he definitely adds to the collective plight and strife, I don't like him being a representative for me, he handles everything so poorly, lay off the travel ban Obamacare and celebrities on Twitter, and I'll stop comparing u to modern day Hitler, but anyway, I'm trying to write more gay, as in happy, not faggoty, so I hope ya'll are getting ready for the weekend, when u don't have to fake or play pretend, u can literally have fun and/or catch up on sleep, remember if u don't sow u won't reap, I spend a lot of free time honing my craft, performing can be such a pain in the ass, where do u even go, what if nobody consistently shows, I have a ton of supposed friends but few real fans, haven't mastered the art of supply and demand, basically I make no dough, it's much much more than just a hobby tho, my songs are a big part of who I fundamentally am, these garbage pop artists are frauds and scams, makes u debate if there is a secret society/Illuminati, hey Cali have u already forgotten about me, tho it's been 5 years and we're thousands of miles away, always and forever on my mind u stay, hoping someday to get back there, not to keep knocking work or RI but the scene is just plain whack here, my biggest fear is having to give up, cuz I can't have a quality fulfilled life without my music or unconditional gay love! 

Peace and 1,

JC 

2/16/17

Love Urself More

Don't use pot or alcohol as therapy, living sober has produced a better me, I've also learned not to overextend friends, minimize expectation again, have some crazy fun every now and then, notice I didn't say never get drunk or bent, everything in moderation is fine, the only true limitation is time, all else can be solved, why haven't human beings evolved, in fact we've regressed, when's impeachment I'm taking bets, and I'm not a gambling man, simply ain't a fan, I cringe when he speaks, I still haven't gotten over Bernie's primary defeat, imagine president Sanders, Trump is worse than cancer, definitely not the answer, has the opposite of Obama's candor, boy do I miss him, will a third party ever win, or even be an option for that matter, my hope faith and naive optimism have been completely shattered, I understand now how ignorance gives the illusion of bliss, always try to use ur words instead of fists, violence solves nothing, stop fear mongering and pushing divisive buttons, pretty soon we'll all unite to fight against u, religion isn't meant to be an oppressive tool, I know my rhymes are often all over the place, but to not express myself creatively would be such a waste, I have undeniable talent and passion, honing my craft thru repetitive action, hard work pays off eventually, shouldn't question condescendingly if I'm ok mentally, I just don't like my soul stifled, think workaholics simply let their dreams go idle, and their hearts have turned cold, professing ur truth is bold, extremely freeing but definitely not easy, virtue is sexy but our moral integrity has grown sleazy, we the people have been tempted by enticing evil, misinterpreted beauty as royal and regal, money won't make u happy or fulfilled, love can't be bought or willed, I'll take my sanity and health any day over wealth, don't normally quote Beiber but perhaps "u should go and love urself"!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/15/17

Loved Tho Single AF

Altho I may be single as fuck, don't get it twisted I don't lack love, sometimes monogamy just aint enough, but I won't lie I've never had much luck, always the best man never the groom, being alone shouldn't imply doomed, having someone to rely on would be nice, but I truly believe it'll happen when the time's right, u can't force shit, lust isn't a corset, if u squeeze tight, ull appear light, but that's just an illusion, funny how relationships can be confusing, it's all about knowing limitations and boundaries, the amount of cheaters absolutely dumbfounds me, what's the point, anybody else annoyed, at the fact I can get a guy to sneak behind his kids and wife, then find an openly available masculine gay guy who's not only sane but nice, got a solid head on his shoulders, would be nice to cuddle with especially when it gets colder, I don't dread getting older, in fact I'm more secure and bolder, I know what I want and like, at this stage in my life it shouldn't be a fight, if it doesn't happen naturally, like a fairy tale ending magically happily, then why do I feel I'm doing something wrong, I think it's just more fodder for a new song, at least I have my lyrical talent, helps me stay humble empathetic compassionate and valiant, chivalry isn't dead, it's just we have Trump as pres, he normalized bad behavior, the megalomaniac thinks he is the second coming of our Lord and savior, boy is he delusional, maybe he needs more Metamucil, a lack of fiber might make him orange, stop discriminating people based on if they look foreign, that's the very definition of racism, how could you not see all the hatred within him, from just the way he speaks, it's tough facing failure and defeat, but again like Pac said "ya got to keep ya head up", there's nothing more hopeful and inspiring than the power of love!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/14/17

Talent Light Life

What does the early guy get since I don't eat worms, why are we not entitled to see Trump's tax returns so we know what he really earns, and all of his conflicts of interests, all right wingers are ridiculous hypocrites, claiming Bernie as a communist, but at least he genuinely cares and is honest, so what if he has idealistic ideas, he often has solutions too and doesn't prey on people's fears, what is so wrong with socialism instead of capitalism where people are valued more than money, seriously this survival of the fittest economy isn't funny, it's eradicating the middle class, Congress is a "yuge" pain in the ass, progression doesn't involve going backwards in time, I'm not sorry if ur tired of my political rhymes, aren't ya'll disgusted, can u admit u were duped again misguided and mistrusted, government and religion need to be separate, rioting happens more when the sheeple get angry and desperate, giving rich people more breaks isn't the answer, for fuck sake marijuana could be the cure for more than just cancer, I'm so sick and tired, of fake news and delusional liars, like Kelly Ann Conway, I wouldn't be surprised if Pence was moderately gay, otherwise why does he hate us so much, conservatives should show more guts, stop riding the majority party coattails, otherwise ride the rise but also the downfall when he inevitably fails, he is a dictator/tyrant, just wait til things get super violent, there are more poor than wealthy, stop being all southern and rust belty, use some common sense and morality, otherwise ur soul will be another casualty, since art reflects life, even the Grammys were talent light, I mean it's become so superficial and theatrical, when performers used to be awe inspiring and divinely magical, I wanna feel something and be spiritually moved, it's not all about the the bass and thumping aggressive grooves, don't we have multidimensional moods, don't underestimate the strength of bad ratings low sales and boos, show a lot more backbone and attitude, the true power to change things ultimately lies in me and all of u too!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/13/17

Colossal Calamity & Insanity

Having opinionated feelings, is not the same as justifiable reasons, people aren't like seasons, most lack purpose and meaning, impervious to change, fearful of the different and strange, play happy like house or God, don't act all surprised and shocked, I warned ya'll this would happen, us Bernie bros aren't laughing, or saying I told u so, congratulations America ur soul's been bought and sold, Trump has broke the mold, turned our democracy into a tyranny/reality tv show, I'm just devastated and disappointed, electoral college elected isn't anointed, u are no Jesus, more orange than Reese's Pieces, does he own stock in Rogaine, ur image like ur talk is plain profane, alt facts are disguised lies, how dare u question the authenticity of Senator Schumer's Holocaust tears cried, ur a despicable human being, proclaim the same voter fraud and cheating, that put u in the oval office as president, is clear cut and evident, not realizing we the people didn't vote for u, ur a fool without a clue, disconnected and detached, with an audacity that's unmatched, who really even gives a fuck about the facts, this is not how the leader of the great free world superpower acts, look at all the civil unrest, for 98% of the population this is a revelationary test, hold on to ur hearts and sanity, we haven't yet seen the extent to this colossal calamity, don't be a sucker/sheep, make more noise than a simple pimple or peep, riot and march towards chaos and anarchy, I won't apologize for my remarks that are sarcastic and snarky, according to the Constitution I have a right to free speech, seriously I can't wait til this clown gets impeached, the only bigger concern is his VP, who's a religious extremist and totally against the lgbt community, but enough with all the cynical doom and gloom, since I'm off the pot I may as well indulge in some antidepressant shrooms!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/8/17

  

Peace...The Good Fight

The traffic every morning really fucking kills me, ya'll need to pay attention and drive purposefully, I often wanna ram u in the behind, letting assholes cut u in line, when I've been waiting patiently, road rage makes me anxiously angry, I see what they're all doing wrong, now that cd players are obsolete I can't even jam out to my favorite songs, and we all know radio sucks, if u play chess like u drive ur a putz shmuck, do us all a favor and get off the road, pretend u have to drop a hell of a deuce/huge load, maybe then ull be normal, I'm so tired of being respectful and cordial, when nobody listens to mister nice guy, another reason why I was always high, driving creates stress, I don't claim to be perfect or the best, but god damn it, I can't handle shit, I'm at my wits end, if I had the money to spend, I'd hire my own personal driver, with marijuana priors, so we can take high rides together, I'm sure my life would be way better, but I don't want an electrical auto pilot, imagine robots picketing at riots, that'd be the day, didn't watch the Patriots play, nor had any desire to attend the parade, do u ever feel like it's all one big charade, a complete farce, seems we lack souls and hearts, no compassion nor empathy, miss hearing inspiring music like "Hallelujah" "Man In the Mirror" and "Let It Be", even Mariah has fallen off, poor thing sounds broken and distraught, she can't sing like she used to, look what constant neglect and abuse can do to u, poor thing is just looking for love, I wanna give her a hug, and remind us both that Bob Marley said "everything is gonna be alright",  unfortunately to achieve peace even the good must fight!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/8/17

Awake An Addiction

Connecting with even one person is rewarding, I'm ok riding solo not focused on courting, love will come in time, still struggling with no rewind, wouldn't that be a magical fix, sorry but I don't turn tricks, I'm very genuine and honest, extremely humble and modest, a simple guy, trying to cope without getting high, it's not really a challenge, I submerse myself in my musical talents, cuz that's where I find passion and purpose, finally breaking the cycle of negativity and being attracted to what hurts us, don't forget I'm a twin, a thick Italian not twinky or too thin, learning to be more comfortable in my own skin, success isn't a place u begin, repetition and practice, makes me better at this, dropping rhymes on a dime, pretty soon I'm not even trying, it just happens naturally, my Trump supporting friends are apparently mad at me, it's hypocritical to allow him to tweet anything on his mind, but then demonize expressing the opinions and feelings that are mine, stop bastardizing true righteousness, I share my journey to help others turn their plights to bliss, it's human friction, finding inspiring soulful songs is my addiction, that's why I love Alessia Cara and James Bay, I adjust the lyrics sometimes to be more gay, since that's my perspective/point of view, call me out on the things I say but don't do, I'm open to constructive debate and criticism, it's important to actively listen, with the intention to understand, after all fallibility applies to every man, a fundamental law, once the dust settles and ur cold heart thaws, I wonder if u can admit ur short comings and mistakes, in order to make ur dreams come true u first have to awake!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/7/17

No Regret Or Remorse

Didn't watch the Superbowl, or the Lady Gaga half time show, just not my cup of tea, altho the Pats are my favorite football team, I can't support those who don't support me, just like Christianity, if ur friends or fans of Trump, sorry not sorry but ur getting dumped, I'm done searching for answers, love the phrase #FuckCancer, it's the cause of so many deaths, I wonder how much debt is from bad bets, no hate, I'd just rather play or be at the game, I'm not into television these days, I occupy my time in other productive ways, like karaoke and performing original hip hop music, I find the news to be extremely abusive, to both my mind and my soul, my spirituality is replaced by a big black hole, me and God aren't on good terms, I just don't understand what it is I'm supposed to learn, from all this atrocity and pain, the world's materialistic superficial greedy and vain, I pursue art out of love not what I can gain, fortune would be nice but I don't want the fame, most of it's negative or sheer shock value, I want ya'll to listen not cuz u have to, but cuz u actually like what my lyrics say, sick of the same pop garbage repetitively overplayed, I miss songs with substance, I tend to look at life's circumference, I'm like a chess player very long sighted, this is my destiny and I need to stop fighting it, a revolutionary poetic wordsmith, calling ya'll out on ur hypocrisy bullshit and hurtful absurdness, if I have to choose a side, I will always fight for what's right and never compromise, u should really know by now, it's not about why or when but how, and I'm not too proud, to say I too am still trying to figure it all out, I know I'm far from perfect, but failure is totally worth it, as long as u get back on the proverbial horse, I refuse to live my life with regret or remorse, perhaps that makes me crazy, but I'd rather try than give up and be labeled lazy, I'll try and try and try again, and if u can't handle that then we can't be friends, I will continue to speak up, weathering the calm before the storm is tough, cuz patience is not my strong suit, yes I'm a faggot/fairy/fruit, but watch me puke cry and bleed, keep coming back for more until I finally succeed!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/6/17

What Are We Gonna Do

Boy am I disheveled looking and out of shape, I am so not ur stereotypical gay, I'm definitely a chameleon, very expressive about how I am feeling, I love to share my stories, totally not looking for fame or glory, however I would like to be a success, don't believe in perfection or being the best, financially I've got a lot to learn, I'm not defined tho by how much I earn, especially when talking about music, the institution is quite racist discriminatory and abusive, like only blacks can rap, only skinny bitches allowed or men with 6 pack abs, when did we become so numb and superficial, I'd prefer substance and soul over hypocritical, all just illusion and fake imagery, I mean simply look at 50, the industry is super ageist too, like being a 34 year old short bald gay white Italian rapper/singer/songwriter can't be cool, defying the very definition, I hate labeling and society's stigmatism, focusing on all the wrong things, look at the inspiration love and joy my songs bring, with quality poetic lyrics, baffling and flouting theorists, I don't come from the ghetto and not a gangster or thug, more of a cute adorable smiley middle class college educated cub who loves to hug, breaking down past boundaries and limitations, the USA has always been a melting pot for immigrant assimilation, but now we're being ruled by Twitler Trump, versus having the perfect candidate in Bernie which left me dumbfounded and stumped, how could we let an opportunity like that pass us by, I can't help but incessantly wonder why, Hillary should've been the first female VP, what's so bad about that is beyond me, still would've shattered the glass ceiling, that ticket I'm sure would've been way more appealing, this current circus can't hold a candle, republicans have systematically dismantled, the entire election process thru voter suppression, I don't think God or Jesus would bestow their blessing, perhaps we got what we deserved, it's only been 2 weeks and the whole world's unnerved, one can only have hope he somehow gets impeached, Pence is even more of a religious extremist/freak, seems no matter what we are screwed, sorry but for the first time I have no empathic insight or clue what we're gonna do!

Peace and 1,
JC
2/2/17

Moving Right Ain't Necessarily Correct

Moving to the right direction doesn't mean correct, the President Congress and Supreme Court are meant to serve and protect, for almost a decade now we've been moving progressively left, cutting Social Security and Medicare/Medicaid is grande larceny/theft, I've had it up to here, stop ruling by fear, we the people have had enough, it's simple we come from love, not selfishness or greed, u won't even hear our pleas, pretty soon we will be the refugees, women blacks and lgbts, what's with the blatant discrimination, flagrant hating, it's like ur trying to be the worst ever, nobody hurts Trevor, or his family, Clinton won the popular vote handedly, yet we're stuck with this clown, getting used to mass high anxiety and permanent frowns, becoming numb and hopeless, he's such a megalomaniac bigoted chauvinist, and he's extremely proud, obviously we need to resist and remain loud, altho I don't know how, it's like our souls have been gouged, gotta keep the faith, good always finds a way, to triumph over evil, stop being ignorant sheeple, we all have a choice, make more noise using ur voice, to drown out his distractions, now is not the time to give up but to take action, get up off ur asses, he can't fight the masses, giving him free reign is disastrous, even the Pope thinks he's blasphemous, not a true Christian, I'm making music activism my mission, listen to the words in my songs, "Keep Holding On" and stay strong, memorize my lyrics and sing along, take another rip from the bong, if that's what u need to help u get by, incessantly pondering and questioning why, will only drive us crazy, I've never been passive or lazy, so I won't start now, watch me draw a crowd, and lead the revolution, I follow the laws of our great constitution, fuck the chaos and confusion, haven't u learned yet that it's all just an illusion?!  

Peace and 1,
JC
2/1/17

Listen To Lady Liberty

Learning what not to talk about is harder, cuz I like to share my setbacks and how I've come even farther, then I could have ever dreamed, it's not all as bad as it seems, u are effected by what u let in, u should give freely independent of what ur getting, it shouldn't be about returns, looks like we're all gonna get burned, now it's too late, up to destiny/fate, one man won't destroy this once great nation, or at least I'm praying, my experience tells me otherwise, I sure hope WWIII won't be humanity's demise, the future appears bleak, but we mustn't willingly accept defeat, now more than ever we need revolutionary artists, not narcissistic demagogues terrorist extremists and martyrs, keep resisting and speaking ur truth, don't fall victim to verbal and mental abuse, fuck Trump and the Stockholm Syndrome, intolerance and discrimination will not be condoned, we are a country of immigrants and welcome all, he forgets the laws of gravity that states what rises must fall, just wish he didn't bring us all down, one tiny light can be profound, so please use my love, believe in a higher power above, everything has purpose and a reason, change comes like the seasons, it's simply a fact of life, there will be more atrocity plight and strife, but it's how u react that defines us, show him we have the honor bravery and guts, u should know by now what's fair just and right, even peaceful people face evil and fight, don't sit idly by while u use social media to gripe, think about the decisions and what they mean for ur kids and wife, separate fact from fiction, church from state as well as science from religion, enough with political correctness, my best guess is, it's getting closer to the end of days, just like the book of revelations states, Jesus doesn't hate women Muslims or gays, we don't need a wall even if Mexico pays, our borders are open according to lady liberty, "give us ur tired ur poor ur huddled masses yearning to breathe free"!    

Peace and 1,
JC
1/31/17

Peace & Harmony Please

Tho originally from the east, I like it the least, the west is the best, like with Mariah I'm obsessed, there I swear I better mesh, much more progressive thinking, with Trump at the helm we're sinking, I want to secede too, I'm tired of middle America ignorant fools, if Cali does this, yet another opportunity I missed, always seem to leave at bad timing, and it's hard to see the silver lining, but that's my selfish ego talking, tired of pussies silently gawking, if u like someone let them know, I'm just like ya'll an average Joe, different doesn't mean better or worse, excessive bad things happening doesn't make u cursed, everybody has unique circumstances and stories, I do believe we all will rise to glory, as long as u have passion and practice, I'm more talented at this, cuz I work hard and rehearse incessantly, hoping one day the right person will mention me, or my song will be played on the radio, then I'll have made it yo, I'll take Ellen Oprah or the Today Show, on the totem pole I'm way low, but that means there's only up, not preaching gangster thug stuff more truth consciousness and love, inspiring minds of all age, hope I have the support of both straights and gays, since ur all my people, we need to unite and fight the forces of evil, only one world and one life, I don't give a fuck if ur black brown tan yellow green or white, don't be silly, we all have the responsibility, to apply the golden rule, striving for the greater good is cool, imagine a utopian society, where no one's a minority, money won't make u regal, and all God's creations are treated equal, there's harmony and peace, can we change and evolve please?!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/30/17

Mightier With Words Than Fists

Trying to make positive changes, force myself amongst strangers, since I haven't met the one, gotta have more fun, I'm so unhappy always being under stimulated and bored, can't seem to cut the umbilical chord, but I'm really blessed and lucky, some think 35 still at home is sucky, yet I got a great roof, and amazing italian food, it's helping me, get back on my feet, afterall life is hard, tho I feel like I'm from mars, we have more in common, 98% of us are stuck at the bottom, broke and poor, awaiting the opportunity to soar, don't understand the lazy, ignorance drives me crazy, cuz there's so much of it, fuck this shit, Trump is a chump, that we can't seem to dump, and have to live with, no sense in getting pissed, perhaps this is a gift, let's unite to fight protest march and resist, just cuz we're gay we don't have to act like a victim/panzy/bitch, but I like to show my might with words instead of fists!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/29/17

Fuck I'm Stuck & It Just Sucks

No longer believe good trumps evil, nor do I have faith in people, been suckered and screwed more than just a few times, can't respond I'm fine, cuz I'm really not, I'm not a slave or robot, despite what u or the government thinks, I wanna eternally freeze my next blink, not dead but forever asleep, I don't wanna think a peep, nothing but silence, our president's enciting violence, just end it all already, I can't stay focused or steady, from extremely high anxiety, I don't want to even get high with me, cuz it accentuates the pain, why can't I be stereotypically homo/superficial/vain, I hate my existence and this life, nothing but atrocity plight and strife, enough is enough, no money success or love, I have no value or worth, I regret my birth, and every step along the way, it is a choice to be gay, since everybody's faking shit, what's the definition of making it, I simply give up, I'm cursed with nothing but bad luck, my dick is broke so I can't fuck, I'm stuck in hell on earth and it just sucks!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/27/17

Can't Kill Consciousness Nor Virtue

I really want to inspire and put out more good vibes, spread consciousness not lies, but it ain't easy, seems the world's gone sleazy, but u don't have to let it effect ur personal being, those once blinded I hope start seeing, Trump's decisions impact us all, like dominoes we will fall, he is our global representative and voice, apparently the majority doesn't get their choice, we need to look into congress the fed and electoral college, they should have applicable experience and professional knowledge, not just being rich, his cabinet is filled with dicks exentuating he's an illusionist/hypocrite, I mean enough already with these petty executive orders, and greedy corporate money hungry horders, share the wealth, promote nationwide health, it's getting far too out of hand, he's not listening to the public's demands, he recklessly and carelessly speaks, muting and censoring how the rest of us speak, yet continuously violating our first ammendment rights, I hope my fellow lgbtqs are prepared to fight, esp with his VP, who absolutely baffles me, Christians not acting christ like, I'm sick of whites, and their superiority complex, kids today don't converse except thru text, so they're socially awkward, sometimes silence is better than more words, I'm slowly learning that, and not everyone has ur back, many fake happy, quick to Ceasar and stab thee, but u can't kill virtue, I'm not preaching the truth to hurt u, simply to enlighten, the future is frightening, but stay strong and have faith, seems right now all we can do is sit back be patient and wait!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/26/17

Unbelievable Evil People

I may be selfish but do what's best for the greater good, I'm often very misunderstood, u don't have to be black to live in the hood or ghetto, pot lately has made me more anxious than mellow, very overwhelmed by all the evil, can't seem to understand people, even some I've known for years, perhaps we don't have the same fears, but what happened to empathy and compassion, ya'll are taking all the wrong initiatives and actions, especially when it comes to governing, Trump is really something, behaving like a vindictive child, throwing temper tantrums and tweeting wild, he's so unpredictable and volatile, versus Obama who was much more even keeled and mild, I'm trying to find common ground, but the detrimental effects are quite profound, claiming he knows more intel then the CIA director, the president is our commander in chief and supposed to be our protector, but he's the laughing stock/a huge embarassment, we won't tolerate his bigoted harassment, why is he wicked vindictive, his choices are rather indicative, that he believes he's above us mere mortals, can he even pretend to be gracious respectful and/or cordial, I think not, in case u forgot, the Bush years were sheer hell, I'm not buying republican brand bullshit they repeatedly try to sell, we finally rose up after falling so far, now things are derailing fast and hard, coming apart at the seems, anyone else having awful dreams, losing hope and faith by the day, a repeal and replace is being delayed til it's way too late, dear god is this really our fate, shit like this is why I find it useless to pray!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/25/17

Revolutionary Revelations Of Judgment Day

I always preached that evolution, could occur without a revolution, but Trump's proving me wrong, singing that repeal and replace song, but there is nothing but lies and illusion, I've got so much anxiety and confusion, why are we going backwards in time, there's no real reason or rhyme, other than we simply never learn, been begging for a true progressive's turn, all the other wealthy societies are socialistic, fuck pharmaceuticals let's go holistic, make all forms of energy green, I'm still waiting for the same MLK dream, for blacks women and gays, we need to pave new ways, instead of the same old pc status quo, I mean our first lady is a hoe, of course the Republicans are the biggest hypocrites, masogynistic racist biggots and idiots, who apparently don't care about fiscal responsibility, dismantling the ACA/Obamacare is just plain silly, adding trillions to the deficit, we'd be better off with Maleficent, what happened to good triumphing over evil, all I keep repeating is what the hell is wrong with u people, where's rationality and common sense, no wonder I'm so tense, these are dark days like foretold in revelations, with these health issues I can't resort to my exercising and meditation, so I stay in shape focusing on my diet and medication, my advice is to proceed with caution and hesitation, cuz judgment day will soon come, and it won't matter if u own a gun!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/24/17

The Best Revenge

Sleep is vital, I miss American idol, but there's always AGT or the voice, hip hop doesn't seem to be a valid choice, since life's only about making money to pay bills, fuck existentially being happy/fulfilled, most people don't give a damn, unless ur in their inner circle/fam, and even then, gays are more reliant on their friends, especially as we get older, the world's gotten so much colder, despite global warming, why don't republicans heed scientists warnings, like it's all just made up, do u also fake love, cuz ya'll lie up the ying yang, if ur finished playing, how bout u get down to business congress and govern, we mustn't have learned, we keep electing garbage, like we don't appreciate past presidents and veterans nor pay homage, guess we forgot our history, repetition takes away the mystery, I don't wanna be all doom and gloom, maybe instead of pot I need shrooms, to help with this depression, how can failure be a blessing, I simply feel like shit, god I can't handle this, which goes against that infamous saying, fuck hoping and wishing and praying, it never makes any difference, Trump's cabinet picks provide inference, when push comes to shove, Muslims lgbtq and women are out of luck, but still I refuse to give in, the best revenge is continue to keep on keeping on and better living!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/24/17

I Am Always Changing

It's time to really make even more positive changes, I gotta let go of all that built up resentment that angers, cuz I don't like who I've become, forgot the blessed place I am from, see when ur not feeling well, life can turn to hell, I've lost my spiritual connection, probably around the beginning of this election, got caught up in things beyond my control, and now I feel like there's a huge hole in both my heart and soul, god I'm so selfish, thought I couldn't help it, I really wanna find reciprocal love, someone who cares deeply enough, maybe if I break down some walls, take the initiative and make more calls, perhaps he was right there all along, I miss being inspired and writing songs, I need some new instrumental beats, get over this negativity and defeat, I still have my whole life ahead of me, depression can be deadly, there's always a choice and chance, I want more than sex I want romance, not just lust at first glance, maybe I'll even go out and dance, tho that's not my style, I can't keep portraying wild child, I'll be 35 this year, aging isn't something I fear, I'm like a fine wine, no scars to my beautiful I'm a star that shines, gotta keep pressing on and thru, since we're defined not by what we say but do, watch me fall harder yet get up again, time to make some new friends, live sober and learn to better cope, surround myself with people who give me hope!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/22/17

Pleading The Fifth

Being employed makes me more productive and useful, but this groin problem has me feeling less than youthful, I just wanna be normal again, not looking for love but friends, the gay community is too promiscuous, their boundary lines are super ambiguous, open relationships and polyamory galore, is there such thing as monogamy anymore, everybody is sleeping with each other, I look at my straight buddies as brothers, I'm such a fluke, an uptight prude, haven't had sex in years, don't cum as much as I cry tears, overwhelmed by fears, while Trump fans cheer, white supremacy is running rampant, where's my happily ever after and enchantment, no partner or financial success, I'm a great rapper/songwriter but my singing isn't the best, that's why I practice and do karaoke, I don't want to marry show boaty, I'd probably elope or have a small intimate ceremony, not really good at being disengenuous or phony, my facial expressions can't hide my truth, no more legal profession abuse, I'm still pursuing music, but I need to make money and use it, since I don't have a wealthy manager or sponsors, I despise hip hop monsters, promoting money drugs bitches and hoes, hope someday I'll have fewer enemies resentment and woes, lord knows I think he's sadistic, I wish life was more simplistic, perhaps I was just born in the wrong era, tho I'm not religious my spirituality gives me faith things will eventually get better, like Pac said we've got to keep our heads up, learn to not give a fuck about shmucks, cuz afterall karma is a bitch, instead of incriminating ourselves simply plead the fifth!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/20/17

Nothing We Can Do We're Screwed

I'm starting to see more of my negativity, I'm not ungrateful for what’s been given to me, I just want different things, I'm someone who writes raps and sings, but it's more than just a hobby, saying I'm spoiled and lazy really bothers me, cuz I work extremely hard, always trying to play my best hand of cards, we all get dealt winners and losers, I feel bad tho for the good troopers, the unglorified teachers, the broke revolutionary leaders, who give way more than receive, the idea of God can be impossible to believe, with all the atrocities and evil, what happened to planet earth and its people, I mean where's the virtuosity and righteousness, life's an extreme battle between plight and bliss, all I really want is to be happy, not to be sappy, but love is way more important than money, I don't find politics funny, there are real humans behind policies, perhaps congress should share their benefits and be paid more modestly, they should be held to the same standards as us, I'm sick of corporate greedy bullies and thugs lacking the guts, to do what is right for the collective, represent those who got u elected, but as for Trump, I'm sorry but according to we the people Hillary won, fuck the electoral college, not only does he lack credibility compassion empathy experience but also common sense and knowledge, just try to comprehend a speech, I can't wait til he's empeached, Obama was always eloquent classy and dignified, while this guy slung insults demeaned women and Muslims constantly spitting false promises and lies, flip flopping more than flip flops, will this nightmare ever stop, Pence isn't any better tho, he's a homophobe cuz he's probably an undercover mo, in my experience that's how it is, filing bankruptcy 5 times doesn't make u brilliant at business, ur just cheating and exploiting the system, this country is turning to shit hell or a prison, seems there's nothing we can do we're screwed, I still say and wish we were inaugurating the first democratic socialist jew!

Peace and 1,
JC
1/19/17

Trapped On Planet Purgatory

Been a while since I've written, and now it's time for hats scarves and mittens, cold outside like in my heart, I used to think I was smart, but talent doesn't equate success, going to college made me less, trapped in debt a slave, not working is brave, ya'll succumbed to failed dreams, already paired up into teams, so I lose in both finances and love, making music isn't earning me enough, no one even gives me a chance, let alone lend one of their hands, rich folk no longer invest, earth is planet purgatory an illusion of a fair free willed test, that's why dying makes most blessed, seems existence like perception is just guess, there ain't no right or wrong, who decides what's a good song, u either don't or do, watch out cuz ull get sued, business has no empathy nor compassion, how can 1% flourish while the rest are seriously lacking, what about a maximum wealth or wage, why in 2016 do we still discriminate against women blacks and gays, Trump spreads hate not consciousness, now the alt right control with deplorable indignation and obnoxiousness, people forget quick, repeating history again and again makes me sick, we're supposed to move forward not back, ya'll care about stupid fake bullshit instead of policy positions common sense and facts, but we all suffer the majority's unmoraled miseducation non intelligence without integrity, if u think u can rap sing or songwrite better than me, put ur money where ur mouth is, ull soon find out u don't have the ability to bout this, my skills are a divine gift, hip hop used to inspire and uplift, now it's a bunch of garbage/trash, shocking sex appeal showing off tits dicks and ass, is not the way to make a long lasting successful career, I'm utterly consumed by fear, the entertainment industry has lost its substance and soul, I ultimately don't have a similar agenda or goals, and refuse to play the stereotypical political greedy games, only after the same fortune and fame, I wanna make a real difference and help others, brothers sisters fathers and mothers, cuz we're stronger together, let's unite to fight for the greater good and make the quality of all life better!

Peace and 1,
JC
12/11/16

Rebelieve In Love & Peace

Ya'll really don't think I love myself, I just don't care about ur opinion fame or wealth, like Cartman "I do what I want", I try not to boast or flaunt, cuz nobody likes an arrogant bastard besides the beer, straight folks will never understand the struggle to be openly queer, especially being masculine and not fitting the stereotype, please don't feed into the oversexualized hype of gay life, I'm starting to think men are incapable of love, humiliated and desensitized into being tough enough, afterall showing emotion makes u weak, facing complete defeat whenever we compete, crying is a release and relief, to help overcome grief, I won't filter or censor when I speak, I refuse to take responsibility for when ur wrong, no sorry u can't bogart my song, I meant collab in terms of ur voice, guess once again I made a bad choice, apparently I'm stupid, either immune or allergic to cupid, cursed when it comes to timing relationships and luck, think I'm asexual cuz I don't wanna fuck, I'm not interested in most guys around here, too consumed by ignorance and fear, they haven't a single clue, who they are or what they're meant to do, coasting thru, on what somone told them to, never questioning or rebelling, ur presidential pick is telling, is that doomsday I'm smelling, I miss Aaron Spelling, he had great taste in tv, like Gary Marshall did but also with movies, we need better original scripts and programming, what's with all the fraud and scamming, taking pride in cheating the system, wish like in Iceland corrupt bankers and politicians went to prison, legalize natural drugs like mushrooms and weed, I hate that humans are controlled by greed, I hope to plant a seed to help us rebelieve, in the land of the free home of the brave and world peace!

Peace and 1,
JC
11/2/16

All The Questions

Keep being told to be a producer, perhaps if I was a lil bit smoother, ya'll could overlook that I'm short bald and white, why does hip hop wanna fight, I'm gay not a pussy, ur not gangsta wearing a do-rag or hoodie, sorry I'm not a ghostwriter, a Pac Biggie Nas Meth or Mos biter, I'm raw and all original baby, the lack of lyrical content is crazy, appealing to the comprehension of second and third graders, I'm not one of those haters, but come on now, who what when where why and how, I mean humanity lacks common sense, compassion empathy and apparently intelligence, it's like we're cancer, still waiting on God's response or answer, please stop the atrocity, hunger aids and poverty, time to wake the fuck up, cuz life is about making money or love!

Peace and 1,
JC
10/30/16