Crying Commercializing Conscious Hip Hop

I'm crying commercializing conscious hip hop, cuz I can't stop won't stop til it's pop, and on radio mainstream, cuz unafraid poc women and gays gained green, along with enough power to pusuade male white privileged straights to unify forming the ultimate dream tagteam, affecting real deal exponentially existential change, in inpirationally reparational ways, bettering ourselves for the greater good every single father fucking day by day, if good things take time it'll take a lifelong journey to be epically legendary labelled exceptionally great, some of y'all keep consuming disengenous talentless fakes, please don't portray or just say ur eyes wide awake, open up ur hearts minds souls and ears,  stop living instilling unfulfilling competition weaponizing divisive fears, dare to take care empathetically learning to share, especially the wealth, it's not weak to be vulnerable enough to shed a tear or ask for help, show the example of thug love, as Gangster's putting down guns given a brother rocking another color a hug, we all fam and need to understand it takes a village, no one should ever feel it's ok to rob cheat kill or pillage, prospering locking doors once they thru and get ahead, I'd rather build bridges that'll last long after I'm dead, realizing I'm a one of a kind original magical unicorn, but in an unsteriotypical nonconformist masculine acting hidden f*ggot form, using that rap platform as a voice for a new generational high vibrational norm, forcing people to see beyond the superficial illusionary surface, no human is less than or worthless, let's make nature more equal, I truly have hope and faith it's never too late nor unbelievable, to conceive reasonable and achievable, eradicating hate hunger poverty discrimination and other forces of evil!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
7/22/21

The Future's Balance Still Hangs

What if this is really as good as it gets, yes I should stay humble grateful and blessed, but I feel like everything I am was all inherited, being masculine white I've already doubly benefited, I don't face much outward hate or oppression, my sexuality is not my identity so that facts irrelevant, I'm not too proud to admit I'm insecure as fuck, i chalk any success up to cconsistent talent passion and drive over luck, yet I still haven't made a dent in this hip hip industry, I guess nobody wants to make a financial commitment with me, that's ok tho yo cuz I believe in myself, I've been brave enough to ask for help, faced endless rejection, relying heavily on familial protection, probably too much, but I still got the guts, to pack up my car with all my stuff, to go after and discover my one true unconditional love, music, my life's infused with it, it's my purpose, just cuz labels don't see I'm marketable or profitable doesn't mean I'm worthless, me myself and I along with my rhymes have value, I rap and sing everyday since my soul simply has to, the one thing I ask of u, take off the mask dude, show the world who u r, bare ur broken heart, spit more bars, but of substance not superfluous superficial surface stranger shit like sports weather women or cars, y'all can't stand me, if u can't understand deep, it's inherent in the name, spreading consciousness ain't no fame game, I'm looking to make some real genuine change, am I the only one concerned the future's balance still hangs?!?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/21

Blame Consumerism

At what point do we blame consumerism and take accountability, its ironically silly how y'all keep repeatedly demeaning queens dismissing/diminishing personal responsibility, do we lack the ability to not live vengeful rich bitch narcissistic/vindictively, like most of these whack commercial ass illegitimately milli vanilli, wanna be gangster rappers who simply lack tact ingenuity and integrity genuinely willy nilly, why can't we all act ethically empathetically both socially and civically/civilly b...it's fucking obnoxious...time for y'all to get conscious!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/20/2021

A Poem For Gia

"It's fitting the world weeps tears of parting's sweet sorrow, and such a loss is a reminder we aren't promised tomorrow, without ur smile's presence life seems dull and hollow, it's important to grieve but not to wallow, after the gray skies clear a rainbow will surely follow" 

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
12/2/2020 

That Gay Giggly Laugh

I'll bring wraps, when I come back with raps, to put some cum on ur back, it dont matter I'm not black, racisms straight whack, and while we're at it enough of this anti gay crap, I'm gonna lyrically bitch slap that ass, too pacifist to pack a gat, and not gangsta enough to bust a cap, and I'm bringing that conscious hip hop we lack, in fact, put my music on blast, while u take a cab, or a blunted hotbox high ride lap, which happens to be my ghetto studio lab, and then not give me mad props love respect daps and dabs, while I simply smile and give y'all a lil giggly laugh!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
8/26/20

Eternally Waiting For Nothing Of Substance

Eternally working while waiting for nothing, when will I receive the reward of progress with substance, right now I hate life god and the universe, cuz all I know is pain neglect tragedy and hurt, this world and it's people, are sadistic superficial shallow and evil, cuz we are reflections of the powers that be, never there for us in our hour of need, another horizon line illusion, perpetuating insanity and delusion, there's no inclusion in wealthy collusion, my rhyming can be super confusing, but they need to be dissected to be digested, we need to be more invested in who's nominated not just elected, and btw fuck the electoral college, it needs to be abolished, the fact that it's institutional racism isn't common knowledge, seems we rather worship the almighty dollar, broadening slavery and oppression, stop assuming being born privileged is a blessing, cuz it's not, why can't business be personal or have heart, I never ever ever get what I want, I try not to gloat or flaunt, I'm just genuine, a real nice guy/gentlemen, so I'm sure ull search and find, usually I'm at the back of the line, if not dead last, fuck making short fast cash, y'all live like ur on unlimited time, letting so many amazing opportunities pass on by!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
7/24/20

Excuse Abuse

Y'all dudes always too busy for intimacy...covids just another excuse for ur negligent abuse...there's never any follow thru with u...so phuck it I'll stay single but won't mingle...til u show some substance in abundance...and even then I'll pretend to be friends again...cuz u kept doing me wrong so I put it in a poem or song...commemorating my discrimination...u choose freely it's just simply not me!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
7/2/20

A Shitstorm We Didn't Wish For

What if normal never exists again, how come I'm not chosen by my family or friends, give so much I don't know how to take, why even make plans if y'all just gonna flake, am I mister invisible, does being privileged make my problems insignificantly minimal, perhaps my struggle isn't relatable, why does my ambition make me undateable, they say sexuality shouldn't matter, is a lack of oppression a contributing factor, empathy keeps me humble and grounded, I also try to stay well rounded, hang with all walks of life, attract that lost soul strife, like white on rice, what's right is nice, shine ur lights bright, the American pie's sliced twice, only rich or poor, no middle class core anymore, yet there's still a war on drugs, covids killing hugs, exacerbating discrimination, fear mongering intimidation, corporate profiteering and privatization, tyranny's violated this great nation, democracy's turned hypocrisy, we need more Platos Pacs Aristotles and Socrates, be kind rewind to inherently genuinely good, can u play masc gay/effeminately hood, roll with ur real style, stay kinky guys gone wild, I love me a leather man, what if left is the better hand, and we're shaking wrong, let's collaborate making song, hip hop r&b or soul, gospel country folk or rock n roll, whatever's clever, pick ur poisonous pleasure, but be careful what u wish for, cuz it might bring u a shitstorm!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/1/20

That Realist Idealist Rap

I give u that realist idealist rap, u feel this genuine gentleman with some swagger sass, that's tasteful with conscious class, yeah I'm a masc bi guy who's always high, like I'm privileged I've never lived this oppressed life, only started experiencing it pursuing hip hop music being openly gay and white, so it's all fight the strife, sheeple people, being lead by evil, after having that black president we went medieval, where the truth is aloof and illegal, they've bastardized righteousness, freedom and enlightenment bliss, oh wait do y'all even know what a thesaurus is, how bout a dictionary or encyclopedia, don't just learn or get ur news from YouTube or social media, I'd rather be miseducated by NWAs Fuck Tha Police, that's raw existential honesty systemic racism's legacy leaves, even the prison system is consumed by capitalistic greed, stop privatizing education, start eradicating racial discrimination, gender bias and sexual orientation hating!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/23/2020

Double Dare

Is it foolish to think I'll eventually be blessed, with fulfillment love happiness and success,  cuz it sure feels that way, maybe being gay is living the wrong way, I don't understand why, I can't find my soulmate in a guy, Coronavirus making things worse, all this boredom and loneliness really hurts, somehow tho I still have hope and faith, I find it much harder to hate, besides love conquers all, I know I can catch and pick myself up when I fall, I've made it this far, with minimal visible scars, but my wounds cut deep, while others stay I chose to leap, I see He met my needs but what about my wants, I've learned to be quiet and humble rather than openly gloat or flaunt, try to remain giving and kind, I'd be more apt to press fast forward than rewind, I don't believe in fear and regrets, I never wanna be the best, where there's nowhere to grow, I'm always working on both my writing and flow, but that financial compensation/validation must be nice, a god complex is when y'all judge what's wrong and the rights, point that hypocritical finger back at urself, not acknowledging ur part of the problem doesn't help, ur more self righteously absorbed than just empathetically unaware, like Kelly sings in multiple languages "I Dare U To Love" but I double dare!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
5/11/20

Dag Nabbit Bad Habbits

Today I woke up with a different point of view, trying to be conscious of the negativity I think of and spew, it's become a very bad habbit, dag nabbit, how I get caught up in anxiety, cuz of what this world seems to require of me, yet not to everybody else, don't believe everything you read including yelps, unfortunately there are some evil people, same goes for the feeble regal, the whole idea of kings and queens just seems outdated, the argument of socialism equaling communism's been over debated, it simply isn't, whoever said life ain't easy wasn't kidding, time reflects tense, fuck Trump I'm more concerned about Pence, but let's not get political, altho during an election year it's almost instinctual, it's important to unplug, screw you Coronavirus I wanna be able to touch and hug, esp my dad, too bad he passed, hence my newfound obsession, with 11:11, it comes twice a day, I see it not even planning it that way, which is kinda freaky deaky, I consider the greedy needy, when's enough money, I find the idea of billionaires funny, is there such a thing as too much, why on the dollar bill does it say "In God We Trust", what happened to separation of church and state, there's not much commonality between lesbians trans and gays, yet we get lumped together, wish we could all get along better, everyone's so divisive, instead of using empathy ya'll self righteous, #BlackLivesMatter and #MeToo, but what about us gay white dudes, we're all original sinners and victims, wanting to beat and cheat the rigged system, aren't u so special, success is never guaranteed nor inevitable, no matter ur last name, life ain't a silly game, some say I take it way too serious, it's driving me delirious, I'm turning bat shit crazy, weird how I'm a stoner pothead but def not lazy, wicked motivated passionate and driven, an optimistic idealist, genuinely the realest, that faggot cracker rapper, sporting a fedora all suave devenere and dapper, but I'm also approachable friendly and engaging, my intent is never harming or endangering, I completely and deeply understand, the responsibility and power my words can have on my fellow man, more importantly younger generations up and coming, it'll be interesting to see what businesses in this crisis will remain profitably running, I can't believe this poem took me 3 days to write, guess I'm learning how to balance surrendering vs knowing when to fight!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
3/12/20 

A Massive Poopshoot

I've been slacking hardcore on writing new stuff, that apartment scam really punched me in the gut, I feel like I did back when I was 25, barely holding my head above water let alone thrive, it's time for a major change, starting over yet again seems strange even deranged, it gets harder as we get older, so much more responsibilities weighing on my shoulders, my postures all fucked up, and for sure my luck just sucks, can't catch a break, I'm having trouble surrendering to fate, cuz I am no good at accepting robotic routine, what about my rap superstar dream, should I throw in the towel, do I need to be down on my knees to beg and grovel, is God listening, or sadistically grimacing, as I plan he laughs, negative reinforcement messes with my ability to act, it's reaction that comes easy, does success equate sleazy and greedy, I agree that billionaires fundamentally shouldn't exist, it ruins the work ethic of ur grandkids' kids, no one person deserves all that money, the internet's got us behaving funny, socially incompatible, Earth is becoming uninhabitable, our government's ineffective, our President wasn't even really elected, at least not by the popular vote, does anyone care all the poetry and hip hop lyrics I wrote, or have I gotten lost in a sea of noise, been receiving lots of compliments about my voice, but still haven't made a profit, commercial consumerism defies all reason and logic, people are simply fickle, love seems to be an unsolvable riddle, especially as a gay man, inherently they can't, lacking vulnerability and empathy, this patriarchy is legendary, I say let women take the lead, Hilary and Pete both planted a seed, however that glass ceiling's still in tact, if we're not careful we'll lose all sense of truth and fact, proclaiming fake news, is a tyrannical ruse, that gave rise to Hitler, I'd rather be a nomadic drifter, than a comfortable sustainable zombie, I must be an anomaly, cuz I don't believe in retirement, humans have an obligation to protect the environment, what happened to fighting for the betterment of the greater good, most minorities are misunderstood, thanks to ignorance, homophobes are often hypocrites, are we even capable of evolving, is life really cyclically revolving, no matter what, there's purpose beyond busting a nut, or making babies, are there endless possibilities and maybes, I'm only asking cuz I don't know the answer, perhaps we are actually a cancer, and naivety might be a saving grace, once we're gone is there any trace, what is the legacy u want to leave, a lack of fulfillment is my biggest pet peeve, I see so many going thru the motions, never crossing borders or oceans, stagnant yet standing still, ud be amazed at the power u can wield and will, esp together united as a group, right now tho it seems the world's become a massive poopshoot!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
3/4/20   

Love

It's everything

Including why I rap and sing
Lifts and picks me up
Expressed with kisses and hugs
My mom and sister
Pops in heaven how we miss u mister
Seeing my reflection
Reminds me of all the many blessings
But especially friends and fans
Always accepting of who I truly am
Not just February 14th
But every single day inbetween
Reds scaled in a range of shades
So special the heart has it's own shape
Every revolutionary who fought for our rights
Average Joe heroes who make a difference in life
Spread it around cuz there's never enough
Humanity's passion and purpose should souly be love

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
2/14/20

Believe In Magic

"Magic just doesn't happen u have to will it...lifes about self discovery purpose and fulfillment...even practice won't create perfection...but ur natural talents and skills are blessings...u can never go wrong if it comes from love...the most important thing to remember is never ever ever give up!"

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
2/11/20

Rap Pacifist

"I'm a pacifist surrounded by a sea of violence...u enable evil by sitting compliant in silence...I can't see hope or truth thru the fear and the darkness...why y'all so cold tho soul and heartless...being gay I find it hard to pray...especially at those low moments that shake my faith...what seems more impossible to stay then leave...how can I expect u to, when I don't know if I even believe in me justice or equality"

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
2/11/20

When's Enough

I am my words written and spoken, sometimes while performing I feel like I'm floating, an outta body experience looking down at myself, I'm amazed how much music really does help, it saves my life everyday, may ur holiday season be merry and gay, cherish those beautiful moments and memories, they're classic epic magic and legendary, hold on to them, but don't try to recreate again, the time is now, some way some how, us together forever, a life filled with unconditional love's just better, we must remember to have hope and faith, good triumphs over evil so believe it'll be ok, be that guiding light, no need to bleed from fighting an existential fight, violence is never the solution/answer, I don't want our legacy to synonymously be a viral plague/cancer, is that all we are, u can't stretch the truth too far, we have a fundamental responsibility to declare what's fact from fiction, as well as the difference between proven science and ur opinion, ya'll simply recite knowledge unlike my lyrical learned wisdom, this country's a democratic republic not some tyrant dictator's kingdom, we gotta wake the phuck up, cuz isn't enough enough, he won't pass the buck, and there's no such thing as fairy tale luck, we 99% lose are screwed and doomed, if we don't unite in harmony to the same tune, in the spirit of Jesus/Santa, I say I'd take Buttigieg or Warren over Sanders, but any of the 3 for me will do, the question remains for u and the time to decide is coming soon!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/7/19

Not Just Once A Year

I really missed this bliss...that special feeling of Christmas...that recaptures the magic of our very first kiss...memories we've shared from way back when as kids...meet me again underneath the mistletoe...let's hold each other close when its bitter cold...all I've got left's my sister and mother...but I try to remind others to take the time and remember be kind to one another...we're all we've got...like me or not...I'm still here...so raise ur glass to toast happy holidays new years and cheers!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
12/6/19

Rap's Actually An Acronym

Poetry is my favorite form of expression, my gift at rhyming is such a blessing, I try to keep it real, and say what I feel, without any censorship, I wanna go to a music school that teaches thru apprenticeship, I like learning hands on, wish I could wake up from this damn con, Biggie said "it was all a dream", totally ok with not belonging to a team, I'm more than just half of a whole, y'all cannot stifle my soul. nor depower my voice, failure is a choice, and I'm too much of a competitor to give up, isn't the point to live love, help inspire and spread joy, remember our body is not a toy, some say it's a temple, it doesn't pay to be kind and gentle, even tho we should be, and do good deeds, helping others helps ourselves, u don't have to have all the wealth, it took me a long time, to properly read the signs, figure out what's urs vs mine, I'm such an empathic Gemini, balancing between extremes, learning to stay within my means, no more nets to save me, stop rushing to make plans so hastily, it's hard for me to just go with the flow, even more so to let go, I'm determined and stubborn, don't wanna be an angry bitter curmudgeon, cuz I'm lost and forgotten, I believe we're all born for something, our skillsets are different and unique, I've barely scratched surface let alone piqued, shouldn't willingly accept defeat, history cyclically repeats for sheep, while the shepherds lead, let's have a gay meet and greet, maybe schedule an annual picnic or parade, but with no ignorant dipshit brigade, killing the collective homojo, I'm not afraid to go toe to foe toe, even when I'm my own worst enemy, not gonna lie I have a pretty decent memory, have y'all ever read my intense dense lyrics, or u one of those conspiracy theorists, who automatically assumes, the Illuminati rules and chooses the who's whos, I'm utterly confused, felt racism's abuse, promoting my hip hop tunes, Trump's the only one who spews fake news, I'm waiting on the camera crews, to jump out and tell me this is all a simple ruse, Tupac is 100% alive, and in the real world conscious poetic rap thrives!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/25/19

A Sign It's Time

Don't know how much more I can take,
Cuz life sure ain't cake
I'm getting so worried and afraid,

I can't fake the patience to wait,

But they say we can all be great,

And create our own fate,

Isn't destiny what u make,

Perhaps I'm just too late,

Do u believe we'll be ok,

Or ruled by fear or hate,

Even tho my heart breaks and aches,

It's probably a sign it's time for a leap of faith

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

10/21/19

Rambling Blabber That Matters To Me

Tho I havent been retrospectively writing, it doesn't mean I'm not still fighting, the internal struggle is real, I can't always express how I feel, silence makes me nervous, the gays are such perverts, always got sex on the brain, so come on ride the train, choo-choo mutha fuckas, we need more brotha lovers, like me, mic please, it's time to drop a rhyme, can u find my dime, is it heads or tails, everyone inevitably fails, but what u do after, is the important part history captures, what's ur legacy, do u live regrettably, or have u learned to let go, especially what's beyond our control, that's a virtue greater than patience, are we really just slaves and agents, I can't seem to free will my destiny, do u believe in a godlike entity, a higher power, who could make even the presidential liar cower, to stew in his own fake news, cuz when he wins we lose, but whose abuse hurts worse, we don't bleed from curse words, yet they do cause pain, perhaps we see tears thru rain, so much never gets explained, what's the simple equation to gain fame, fortune's sure to follow, structured religion is pretty hollow, relies solely on faith, perpetuates war division and hate, I think the ying yang bled gray, which some say is a sign of the apocalypse/dooms day, while every end is a new beginning, the world needs a human cleansing or thinning, evil for some time now has been winning, without penance for sinning, there can be no reformation, the vow of chastity causes hesitation, therefore less priests, maybe the whole idea of church is deceased, totally outdated and primitive, belief isn't meant to be limited, to any specific day or place, isn't it called amazing grace, how great thou art, did the chicken or egg start, does it really matter, perhaps this is just one long tangent/rambling blabber!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
10/15/19

Totally Self Unaware Ruled By Abuse & Fear

How do I get y'all to notice me, and don't say pray on rosary beads, I'm being genuine, I wanna be sexy instead of a handsome gentleman, haven't been flattered or wooed in a long while, been told I've got a great smile, when I'm trying to share my talent, showing the world I'm chivalrous and valiant, which everyone assumed like hip hop was dead, when will I ever get ahead, perhaps it's not my time, maybe 40s will be my prime, piquing in my late 50s, watching y'all try to JLo striptease as I sip teas, keeping my big mouth shut, gotta be gracious and grateful for what I've got, and not compare myself to others, don't be jealous or envious of lovers, always been a late bloomer, once day hopefully I'll own a schooner, but until then, I'll stay bent and zen, dreaming in my mind, remaining nice and kind, even if that means I finish last, I didn't set out wanting to make fast cash, it's what happens when u become famous, the level of wealth accrued can be outrageous, look at Facebook owner and Amazon's, ever notice how celebrities are glamazons, except Ed Sheeran who's not one of "The Beautiful People", why are immigrants and gays labeled evil, it just doesn't make sense, impeachment means President Pence, which is even scarier, blacks and women are naturally considered inferior, who makes up these cockamamie rules, greedy rotten crazy fools, who don't have empathy and can't share, use tools of abuse and fear, totally self unaware, replacing fun with despair, cuz if ur isolated an alone, it's easier to conquer competition and advocate the thrown, I need u to wake up, please don't fake love, cuz ull grow to regret life, did y'all forget what's right, or choose to ignore, who's in charge of the ripcord, we need to slow this motherfucker down, before we plummet straight into the ground, change must be profound, come quickly and astound, cuz we're approaching the point of no return, perhaps being complicit has earned us collectively being burned, I'd prefer not to go with the ship, I'm so over dealing with the consequences of everybody else's shit!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/30/19     

Help Ourselves

At the end of the day I'm just a person, deep inside hiding behind a smile hurting, getting anything close to what I want isn't working, no matter the amount of good deeds or flirting, I'm probably worse off then ever before, is it wrong to keep wanting more, I need both love and success, why do I feel this less, so I stay quiet, all I wanna do is revolt and riot, too much evil is winning, maybe the end will bring a new beginning, I'm desperately seeking change, getting older is plain strange, seems like a game, but how come fame is impossibly hard to obtain, what I really mean is I want to be respected by the whole globe, welcome to the Joe Conscious Show, I'm terrified of living the rest of my existence alone, especially after my childhood home's been sold, seriously lacking dependable connections, am I not worthy enough of protection, cuz y'all make me feel that way, ostracized cuz I smoke dope and a privileged white gay, whatever that means, skipped past innocent expected guilty pleas, if it weren't for bad luck I'd have none at all, when dad died everything stalled, every so often I breakdown and ball, wish I would dream small, and learn how to settle, why am I always anxious ungrateful and regretful, perhaps I am the duped fool, never felt popular or cool, yet I wouldn't categorize myself as doubtful, my lyrics are often a mouthful, try memorizing and performing them, music helps me get zen, it's saved my life time and again, tired of living in the remember when, I'm so much better now, I don't know why or where or how, but I hope to one day be vindicated and validated, is there such a thing as valid hatred, just wondering, cuz of the Trump king, wishing he was true royalty, unfortunately he receives loyalty, on a level I will never understand, where's my legions of fans, both woman and man, raise ur voices and hands, let's unite and fight together, this is my love letter, to all of humanity, stop the insanity, if we don't correct course ourselves, who else is gonna help?

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/26/19 

What Is It...Me

Is it give what u get or get what u give
Live to work or work to better live
Get ur priorities gay
Do u like my word play
I blur lines
Even defy time
Making magic happen
Or am I just a con man acting
Is this really the land of the free
Can anyone truly know their real me

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
9/14/19

What We Need

What happened to social grace 

Wanting to make the world a better place
Let love replace hate
When we can't understand or relate
We've lost our way
Ying yang stays unblended gray
Ain't no shadows in the shade
Both rejection and redemption shape
My memory may fade
But not the music made
In order to succeed and be great
Gotta believe it's ok to make mistakes
Since the heart bleeds it doesn't break
We need to be brave...keep our hope and faith

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious
8/15/19