Why's The Truth Aloof

Ain't gonna front, tho they gave a few months, the time is now, and I don't know how, to break the news, some are so confused, u have to spoon feed, even then they're delayed to believe, the ultimate inevitable truth, why is communicative understanding aloof, the divide is so wide, the only real place to hide, is somewhere amongst the grayish in-between, this nightmarish dream, it would seem keeps getting worse, won't dwell on the hurt, just shine my bright white light, writing poetry and more music helping to fight, for the greater good, why do I gotta be from the gutter or hood, to be a rapper taken seriously, I've been rocking mics and stages creatively for years fearlessly, sharpening my talent and skills, hopefully someday getting to a place where it'll pay all my bills!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/22/24

Sweet Sorrow Feelings' Meaning

It was like a collective acceptance with an answer, even though yes of course fuck cancer, now it's palliative care, it somehow softens the fear, let's just show up, with all the positivity musterable and love, like she gave us, I'll tell u the woman's got guts, and unbelievable strength, just when u thought she was spent, her smile radiated, we are just so ingratiated, whatever time's left, we should make it the best, enjoy each and every precious moment, I highly condone it, no regrets, add lots of hugs kisses and zest, life's a test and a hot mess for sure, but it isn't also perpetual guaranteed more, the end gives living meaning, that's that Shakespearean sweet sorrow feeling, it's just a natural part of it, so brace urselves for lots of impossibly hard shit!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/19/24

What A Big Beautiful Bright Light's Fight

Oh man, God damn, is all I can say, it had to be this way, I kind of understand, not a fan, I'd just do it differently, but then again life isn't simply, I won't make this long, maybe someday I'll write a song, this will be difficult, adding injury to insult, losing my last root, is like being kicked in the face with a stealtoed boot, ull be met with so much love, lots of familial kisses and hugs, she will finally be at peace, me too at least, it is still hard, what a hand dealt in cards, I hope she knows I'll be alright, she definitely put up a warrior style fight, thru all the pain plight and strife, she maintained being a magnificently inspiring big beautiful bright light!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
7/17/24

Lots Of Love & Positive Prayer To Show We're There & Care

Finding strength I didn't know I had, must be from sis and dad, this isn't easy whatsoever, I'm prepared as best as possible if she doesn't get better, especially this time around, the amount this woman's been thru is profound, what a warrior, I wish her nothing but peace love and euphoria, she's suffered enough, and altho she is tough, she's only human, even when she's gone life won't be ruined, she'll be with us in a different way, I've learned that's not just ok, it's actually ideal too, I empathize and feel u, simply can't help save change or really fix this shit, gotta grow thicker skin my backbone and unfortunately somehow learn to cope and deal with it, best we can, take my hand, let's be there and show her we care, thru lots of love and positive prayer!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/16/24

They Can't See This Loss Is About Me

When I look out there, think to myself I lack a pair, but I've been lucky, a family who loved me, on the precipice of being totally gone, there is no right or wrong, I'm dealing the best I can, I'm still just a young man, finally grown, yet haven't reaped all I've sown, planted alot of seeds, wholeheartedly believe, my time to shine is on its way, running low tho I'm afraid, my cup's almost empty, my mom is incredibly pretty legendary, it's completely defeatingly deeply overwhelming u see, I can't help everybody else unfortunately this loss is about me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/15/24

Her Divine Fine Is Mine Too

Thru her eyes I must look a mess, wish worry and trust weren't a wild guess, always wanted u to know, I'll be better than ok tho, cuz of u and dad, yes not having Gia here is sad and makes me mad, but she knew too, I will make it thru, ur strength is mine, I've got that divine fine, he's got me I know this, and it's not some protected bliss, I don't understand it either, I'm a love bleeder, a soul sharer, an unconditional carer, with an undimmable light, watching u throughout my life has given me my might to fight, yet another day, I don't know how when or why but I will definitely eventually find my way!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/14/24

Own Moments Cuz There's No Atonement

Sometimes filling a role, can take a toll, extending an olive branch, or a forgiving helping hand, can change the trajectory, and is absolutely necessary, since most men don't have that skill, like I can't hunt battle or kill, that's not within my nature, even if I should I couldn't hate ya, somehow can keep finding the good, empaths and healers are overlooked and often misunderstood, keep ur medal, I know I'm special, but power equates responsibility, life isn't endless continuity silly, there's a beginning and death, I do often wonder what happens next, try not to wallow tho, down that rabbit hole, rather remain present, never been socially hesitant, an introverted extrovert, both caregiving and grief hurt, can't tell u which is worse, especially when immersed, there is always a light, so we all must warrior resiliently thru and fight, now more than ever, stop pretending we have forever, own each precious moment, cuz at the end of the day there's no atonement!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/13/24

Smile Turned Frown Letdown

Yet another letdown, smile turned frown, can't catch a break, when these gays be fake, run away when things get hard, no wonder y'all won't get far, thing is the shoe will change feet, and at the moment ur most weak, karma will show u what u gave, companionship is what I crave, but it'll only work with genuine authenticity, u don't need to be gorgeous or even pretty, be urself, show up for people when they need and u can help, cuz just a basic simple warning, compassion forgiveness and grace are super duper uber important!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/12/24

My 3 Favorite Things

Gotta give it to God and trust I won't get fucked, if I really stop and think about it I have the best luck, I had the greatest family ever, time doesn't heal grief but there spirit with me helps to feel better, in fact now they're with me everywhere, thru joy sorrow and fear, I carry my sister's smile, channel dad every once in while, mostly when it comes to the dogs, but ultimately it's my mom who's embedded in me more, her strength and resilience is unparalleled, they're like chocolate peanut butter and caramel, my 3 favorite things, and as cliché as it sounds like Bette sings they're "the wind beneath my wings"!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/11/24

Won't Break And'll Be Ok

Most don't have a clue what I'm goin thru, u don't have to be an asshole to prove ur an alpha dude, what's worse than needy is wanty, if I wasn't there for my mom it would haunt me, even tho she's so frail and looks uncomfortable, she resiliently warriors thru the painful struggle, she's my spirit animal/inspiration, and sometimes that's rather kinda intimidating, cuz my whole family was amazing, but what a huge transformation, over the last 6 years I've made, never ever thought to quit nor cave, I stayed strong, kept holding on like the lyrics of my song, I always knew Jackie, when push came to shove had me, just like Trev Ryan Eric Mari & Cait, with great unconditional friendship and love I know in my head heart and soul I'll be ok and promise I won't break!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

7/8/24

Why God Why

I wish I could find a way, to get thru another day, cuz honestly I'm trapped, in the darkest black, it's creeped and seeped deep inside, how do I escape and hide, even for just a lil while, I don't wanna feel like I'm faking a smile, to protect everybody else, most don't know how to help, I've never been one to pressure, perhaps I am lesser, neglected attention, incessantly mentioned, I've been begging for company, I dream of celebrating triumphantly, a bit of success, I know I am but don't feel blessed, in fact I seem cursed, everything inevitably gets worse, can't stop empathizing mom, this pain and suffering is causing such irreparable harm, I can't imagine goin on, starting to believe hope and faith is one giant con, but like Pac "still I rise", while drowning in the tears I cry, I don't want her to die, why God why?

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
7/7/24

So Sick Of Stupidly Douchey Jerks & The Exploitive Evil That Lurks

I'm so sick and tired of bullshitting fakes and flakes, looking forward to more digidates, I had pretty much given up, on ever finding a best friend I could also love, most alphas are literally dicks, treating overtrusting betas like shit, and they think that's ok, like we're lesser than cuz we're gay, no u can't spit or piss on me or call me fag, I'm always down for a good laugh, but hateful mean abuse isn't funny, ur not automatically worthy of a sub's money, go get a fucking job, stop exploiting us u spoiled entitled slob, karma and the universe will eventually get u, there's nothing more frustratingly infuriating than a lack of follow thru, a man is only as good as his word, no wonder why ur overvalued u barely have worth, at the end of the day evil lurks, and most of these supposed Master's are lying stupidly douchey jerks!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
7/5/24

Gotta Believe We Can Manifest Our Dreams

The most powerful statement is I am, and u should follow it up with the best u can, cuz that's how manifestation happens, I bet many of u are laughing, but it's the gods honest truth, so many people are aloof, especially to the fact, that they too can conjure a similar magical act, but dream big, change the way u think and live, instead of a 9 to 5, I wanted to write and perform music til the day I die, every day I awake, I listen to songs and get baked, which is far from perfect, being sad and miserable all the time ain't worth it, takes so much negative energy, no wonder trust can't be built if everybody's ur enemy, sounds like ur the problem, stop just wanting superstardom, u need a hard work ethic, persistent consistency is the metric, sounds like y'all want fortune and fame, u see to me life isn't some game, it may be delirious, I take each day very serious, trying to make a conscious effort, never to be hopelessly desperate, instead have faith and believe, there'll come a point where ull eventually be validatingly heard felt and seen!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
7/2/24

A Side Kick To Spit It On Thick With

So lucky and blessed to know, that I have a soul bro, like we've known each other in multiple lives, fuck coincidences when there's too much that coincides, growing up and into who we are, no matter the different traveled paths we're never too far, that we can't find an intersection, catching up thru blunt confessions, maybe a few new beautiful introductions, cuz when life's just shit and sucking, ain't nothing better than a night out in the city, wiling wicked all loosy goosy intrusively trippy with me, I'm never too busy, it ain't easy getting rid of me silly, cuz "I'd find u", like that Wedding Crasher chick said to the dude, we Gemini peeps be legit crazy, just don't make me, there's always a reason, behind the people pleasing, lies a revolutionary reactionist, recreating this poetic musical magicness/bliss, leaving everybody in awe of it, wanting more of my shit, but with a ride or die, right by my side, we're powerful enough to make a real change, but y'all keep thinking we're simply land of the misfit toys strange, the pariah messiah and his philosophical side kick, both eloquently equipped with deep creative quick wit to spit on thick!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/29/24

New Low For Old Joe

Hope isn't all lost, imagine how much faith cost, yet churches don't pay taxes, the matter of fact is, I'm tired of never catching a break, this optimism seems forced and fake, give it to me straight, is there an end date, or does this linger perpetually, I can't process these emotions intellectually, and my heart's shattered numb, like I've gone dumb, no longer know how to react, it's too hard to smile or laugh, how do I deal, doesn't feel real, but yet this is the reality, we all eventually become a casualty, there's no exception exemption or protection, if we only get to ask God one question, why all the suffering, I get that it's toughening, I can't handle anymore tho, the past 6 years I'd like to forego, I've hit a new low, and I don't know if I'll ever again be like the old Joe!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/26/24

Remembering The Blessing Of Being Present With Intention

Lately occasionally I emotionally freak out, I don't normally speak on how much I really bout, with the amount of concentrated grief, once mom has deceased, I become a siblingless orphan, and won't know the length of mourning, it'll take to get back to my true self, not even an inheritance can help, I feel like I simply blinked, and everything changed including the way I think, it's hard to keep giving gratitude and grace, my feelings are written all over my face, I'm over life, with all its plight and strife, I need a knife to cut the tension, hope I'll at least get an honorable mention, for my incredible level of resiliency, I've gotten so used to living with a contingency, but now I'm going on offense with intention, remembering just being present is a gifted blessing, never ever give up, cuz next after authenticity the highest vibration is love!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/25/24

Can Man Understand God's Plan

As life goes on another day, I try to find my way, thru all the chaos and grief, I have this unwavering faith/belief, it's all going according to plan, maybe humans aren't meant to understand, u know the bigger picture, just when u think certain people are staples or fixtures, God calls upon them, causing shock and astonishment, even if ur prepared for the worst, there's no way to determine how ull feel when ur bubble's burst, and everything immediately changes, may seem weird but I connect better with strangers, they see me without the baggage, and I'm not judged for my bad habits, like I'm a brand new clean blank slate, still torn between free will or fate, am I the passenger or the driver, does true power come from within or someplace higher?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/24/24

Believe In The Resilency Of Humanity

Don't miss out on blessings, protecting a lesson, accountability is the answer, I wonder if neglect or internalizing causes cancer, show urself the love, ur so easily giving up, yes we all make choices, most won't listen to voices, even their own, u can usually get a hint of context by the tone, that's why communicating via text, is probably not the best, cut off contact to the toxicity, life is beautiful and full of possibilities, remain open, faithful always hoping, things will work out, even when we don't know how, just gotta believe, in the resiliency of humanity, right when they seem down for the count, something happens to turn shit right around, never achieving perfection, instead of diversity find and focus on intersection, we are more alike than not, should've learned from T2 not to trust AI and robots!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/23/24

Delving Deep Into The Overwhelming

Life's been delving, deep into the overwhelming, and I ain't helming the ship, sometimes all this pain and grief doesn't feel like a gift, losing the strength to uplift and give grace, especially to both my remaining old family and the gays, nobody's showing up for me, the way I want or need, but I'm desperately longing, to feel seen and belonging, I'm so unimportant I'm practically a ghost, mostly cuz I don't brag nor boast, but unlike a narcissist instead, I toast everyone's success, I'd rather collab than compete, competitive yet can graciously accept defeat, now I know tho it's pretty rigged, this elaborate illusion has got me pissed, my rose colored glasses are gone, and the twilight zone is the new norm, my grounding roots have died, I guess I'm supposed to be happy to finally fly, however no matter how hard I try, I can't lie I'm not actually glad to be alive!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/22/24

What The World Hurled

So much pain and sadness in the world, sometimes I'm dumbfounded by all the shit the universe hurled, it's kinda crazy, why do y'all think I stay hazy, life's easier to take, quite simply baked, like almost always, don't blend in well with the gays, but that's alright, like Tina sang "I Don't Wanna Fight", trying to use my magic and light to heal, teach others to use art to share how they feel, it's my literal saving grace, everything's pretty much preference and taste, shouldn't take that personal, u perform like in rehearsal, it took me at least 10000 hours, to explore learn and embrace my best potential/power, since good things take time, to be epic I'm refining rhymes since 2009, which is when I wrote my first rap song, now I'm about to take Audible by storm, plus podcasting and more live performing/touring, exploring nonconforming the boring mentality of mourning mornings, groundhog day style, it's so wild I just nod with a chucklish giggily smile for a lil while, try to be grateful, instead of bitter and hateful, move on by keep living, and remembering to make sure ur not taking more than giving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

6/19/24

Scratch That Comeback

I hate being othered, but I shudder to utter, how does gay marriage and trans rights relate, except make straights mistake correlate or conflate a drag act as a gateway, to play God, most kids get indoctrinatedly gendered into who they are, is it immoral ignorant or simply wrong, breaking with sexual societal norms, esp when there's already a glitch in the matrix, ai is faceless, and can't actually create from scratch, authenticity and live performance should have a reroaring Renaissance-like comeback, let originality and raw talent thrive, since artists have always been the revolutionaries throughout time dedicating their lives, inspiring and spreading truth giving power to the people, fighting for the greater good instead of evil, but what if love doesn't in fact conquer all, do y'all think civilization as we know it could actually finally fatally fall?

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/17/24

No PC Speak Freak

Stay strong and positive, don't compete for who the calmest is, I'm not afraid to freak, no politically correct speak, just raw directness, I hate overprotectiveness, but I'm the baby, was always told no more than maybe, made me resilient, sometimes I feel creatively brilliant, yet remain humble and kind, try to pay no mind, instead give gratitude and grace, love can never be a waste, where does it go tho, I'm such a bromo, socially asexual very demi, we can totally disagree and not be ur enemy, watch out for ur energy, and most importantly mindfully focus on ur life's legacy, cuz that u can control, with everything that has happened I'm back to being an old soul, fighting for the greater good, becoming better ok with being grown much wiser and still misunderstood!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/10/24

How To Bout Burnt Out

Burnt out, cuz I never learned how to bout, didn't think I'd be begging for unity, from my supposed community, it's enormous, the amount of neglect towards original live performers, we deserve to be paid, not fundraise our talent away, stop exploiting us, disappoint much, I don't compete with drag, instead of the n word I say fag, and fatherfucker, I'm a great friend and lover, y'all are lucky to have me, wish we could actually grasp peace, with better communication and understanding, ur short attention spanned fans are too demanding, quick to criticize and judge, thinking it's either illuminati or nepoed luck, underestimating my hard work, saying I'm a lazy spoiled stoner jerk, constantly claiming, I'm hating and defaming, when I'm sticking up for myself, y'all need professional help, expect me to accept u where ur at, I don't pretend to have ur back, that is who I am, not a scam, still never fully seen, often laughed at sharing my dream, yet u don't even have one, I take life and art very seriously not just for fun hun!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/5/24

Thrive This Pride

This year's theme for Pride is "Thrive", often wonder if I feel lucky to be alive, since outside our comfortable bubbles, it's the same old troubles scuffles and struggles, and I'm not trying to be pessimistic or negative, speaking truth is imperative, but how do u cut through all the noise, remain stoically strong and poised, when we forget and neglect empathy and compassion, it's time for the truly talented to take action, every queen needs a leather daddy/rap king, the greater good needs to prevail again and win, my sexuality is not my identity, being an original artist is not something I only pretend to be, I'm the genuinely authentic real deal, in a community full of hurt people I'm here to heal, using my art to welcome whoever u are, reflecting both my raw hip hop soul/blackheart, how do I make everyone feel their safest, in any and all places and spaces, breaking boundaries by building bridges, let's be consciously aware that homosexuality has always existed and isn't a choice nor illness, we've come a long long way tho so let's appreciate where we're at too, no more settling for tolerance cuz anything less than acceptance is disrespectfully uncool, let's at least mindfully try to better strive, in letting go of ego I hope we learn how to finally thrive this pride!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
6/4/24