Slave Away Or We All Fall

I do say what I mean and mean what I say, I'm only human tho so I probably had a bad day, I did love my mom alot, she's always in my mind soul and heart, but guess what she wasn't perfect, didn't do a good job of making me feel worth it, yet it's cool, I ain't no fool, I know my value, I keep doin art not cuz I have to, but it's my passion and purpose, I'm tired of the universe testing with what hurts us, I want positive reinforcement not negative, encouragement is crucial/imperative, I don't wanna be left insecure, considered an entitled bastard whore, cuz I refuse to be a slave, we weren't created or made to just work life away, only focused on making more money, boomers were hoardish selfish and greedy hunny, didn't pass the baton well at all, like the Roman empire it's time for their fall!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/30/24

All My Sacrificing & Suffering For Absolutely Nothing

Resilient brilliant driven and strong, but I wish my mom would've believed in me more, I hate her, so utterly and completely deeply hurt, I don't know how to live with this, y'all see privilege gifted bliss, and it isn't, insecurity is now intrinsic, I'll never get her approval, in fact I feel like a female poodle, u know a fucking bitch, who ain't rich, in fact I inherited absolutely nothing, after all the sacrificing and suffering, from dad to sister then mom, powerlessly imprisoning me with a trustee has caused irreparable harm, validating the opinion I'm financially incompetent, when I've proven extremely able patient graceful and tolerant, to a lot of negligent procrastination/bullshit, none of my uncles earned nor deserve that type of righteous pulpit, I'm smarter and wiser than all of them combined plus their current and ex wives, sorry not sorry I can't fake a lie my face will always say I'm just not fine!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/28/24

Was Enough Love

It isn't how u died but how u lived, if all u do is take and never did give, maybe they weren't the greatest or best, but I'm left in this empty nest, remembering just how lucky I was, having my family was enough love, wasn't desperate nor, looking for more, now they're my angels, and from any old angle, I'm truly grateful for being blessed, couldn't ever have guessed I past the test, only survived cuz they became a part of me, since quite honestly, there's simply no Joe without them, can't be born again until I reach my final's end!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/26/24

Fun Anyone

I don't want to be defined by grief and death, altho I am the only one left, I won't feel lonely or alone, all I want is like Tupac's rap "Happy Home", just not in the house I grew up in, sex shouldn't be in lieu of loving, I barely know people who can stand me, how will I ever find my new chosen family, is time running out, need to start upping my clout, perhaps once a source of joy's now a haunting ghost, it's not smart to be flaunting daunting braggadocious bravado, stay humble grateful and kind instead, I'm laying laid in my made bed, please don't judge me, punishingly/discouragingly, yucking my yum, but I'm done hun and then some, uve spun ur woven web, yet I ain't in debt, so I don't owe anyone, it's all about living life happy joyful and just having fun!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/25/24

God Damn Man Anthem

Gotta trust in my hope and faith, that it'll all be not ok but great, should always do ur best not just ur job, when u take no pride in ur time nor effort ur another worthless slob, haven't u any value, living only cuz u have to, makes life rather hollow and empty, the shit I've been thru u ain't exempt from b, best believe in grief, the feeling never leaves, wound up taumatically blessed, wouldn't ever forever ever have guessed, but I've got no more guilt and shame, once u realize like Pac the levels and the rules of the game, it's pretty much looking thru the rear view mirror, I quadruple dog dare ya, to bet against me, playing intro Joe entrancely, what's ur anthem, leaving em all God damn man!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/21/24

A Fun One

Never would've guessed, I'd grow up to be traumatically blessed, there is beauty in the ruins of us, gotta truly trust in ur guts, cuz only u, know what's the best thing to do, even if it's against the grain, why train the brain, when it can't feel, do we actually know what's real, happiness success peace or love, is all of the above enough, I just keep hoping I'll find that one, who makes this adventure called life finally fun!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/18/24

My Not So Brief Grief Spurt Work Hurts

Today marks the one month anniversary of my mom's passing, I'm so grateful of all the love and supportive distractions, whether food booze or company, I will persevere resiliently and triumphantly, to honor thy father sister and mother, this whole experience has made me rougher and tougher, I've gotten much thicker skin, when many people never even try to begin, until it's too late, u just can't be great, it takes consistent persistence/work that hurts, wouldn't call it a simple brief grief spurt, since it's been 6 long years, losing and unrooting those I hold most dear, of course I am deeply effected, this life isn't something I elected, I do my best, but why haven't I proven I too can pass this test yet?

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/17/24

Congratulations Ryan & Nancy

Been going thru way too much grief, but u both give me such hope relief and belief, in divine timing finding love, neither of u two late bloomers ever ever ever gave up, so there's no tears here today, I'm glad u finally found ur way, right into the arms heart and soul of each other, nothing's more inspirational than watching two beautiful lovers, making that solemn vow, someway somehow, thru sickness and in health, whether poor or accrued wealth, walking this life together, for worse or better, just journeying and enjoying this cazy rollercoaster ride, side by side, with ur fur babies Duke and Winston, even we can't help but smile within an instant, they're there living their very own progressive definition of family, while some say marriage is straight insanity, I think it's the quintessential epitome of amazing grace, a magical transcendent bond beyond time and space, that can never break or be erased, all I can say is congratulations Ryan and Nacy on this ur fabulous wedding day!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/14/24

Can't Math My Path

Perhaps we're a habit of creatures, stay tuned cuz we're finally getting to the feature, time to build my epically legendary legacy, becoming a much better me, with each day, embracing the gay, it's strange but ok, I think I've found my way, off the beaten path, fuck new math, I can actually see, how one plus one equals three, gotta bend the mind's eye, maybe like me that means get high, mother plus father makes a child, ponder that for a lil while, that's a straight perspective, mine gets lost in the collective, and I am not loud, proud that I won't shout, simply adding to the noise, some say I have a soothing voice, so stop read and/or listen, we all have the power to manifest the life we envision!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
9/12/24

No U.N.I.T.Y. Without U & I

It's noticeably changing season, understanding things happen for a reason, grown up alot lately, can tell from being cracky and achy, I feel different, didn't happen in an instant, it was gradually consistent, but I inherited so much resilience, I keep getting up again, like Pink sings "not broken just bent", usually with Mary Jane, numbing the pain, fogging my brain, helps me stay sane, in a chaotic world, dodging what the universe hurled, constantly testing, almost as if it's vetting, who's the chosen one, and when the voting's done, did we pick the right candidate, that is anti hate, a true representation of u and I, let's bring back that classic Queen Latifah track "U.N.I.T.Y.", bridge the divide, ride the tide, no matter how high or low, ull find that goal of a gold road by following ur own soul, cuz behind the veiled curtain lies the truth told/exposed, unfortunately death's just the way life goes and how it all unfolds!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/9/24

U Don't Need To Agree With Me

Took some time away from creating art, while I tried to heal my heart, grief is a beast, but at least, I had tons of love and support, friends don't usually get divorced, perhaps cut off, reverse flame to a moth, that's what I am, fall for gullible on the ceiling scam, dupible, incomputable, tho when it comes to raw talent, super genuinely humble and valient, all about authenticity, sick of hypocritically consistent complicity, especially politically, which simply sickens me, deep to the core of my soul, capitalistic fortune and fame isn't my ultimate goal, I'd rather relate touch inspire connect and help elevate, settle for nothing less than spectacular/great, it's within me, even if u don't agree!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

9/7/24

Simply The Best & Blessed

Been plotting planning listing and vision boarding, dealing with alot of procrastination/hoarding, weeding thru so many memories, what tremendous legacies, all my immediate family members had, how are my heart and soul still intact, even astounds me, I'm resilient profoundly, I am my mother and father's son, if ranked they'd be number 1 so I won, either way u say it, double entendred greatness, extremely lucky and blessed, quite simply they were the best! 

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/25/24

At Peace Eternally

Today my mom was laid to rest, and she really was just the best, I was so blessed, now I'm left with an empty nest, but I can't be sad or mad, I'm so unbelievably humbly grateful for the wonderful family I had, for 42 years, there is no fear, I know my life will be great, my futures bright it's fate, I've got another guardian angel on my side, she is now my spiritual guide, traveling with me everywhere. I've received an abundance of love support and care, I'm simply touched, her light and presence will surely be missed so much, God speed, I'm truly relieved ur with dad and G, at peace eternally, please give em a huge hug for me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/24/24

Appreciative To Fly Free Be Happy & Live

Goin to see Pink again, with a couple of friends, this time she's with Sheryl Crow tho, hopefully they'll do a collabo, it's a beautiful day too, music concerts are just so cool, beautifully engulfed in refreshing healing energy, and I'm sure it'll be epically legendary, I need some relief, a major distraction from all this grief, these guys are the best, the abundance of love and support reminds me how much I'm blessed, overwhelmingly grateful and appreciative, this unrooted bird can finally fly free be happy and live!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/21/24

Enough Rough & Tough...I Need Love

Putting on a brave face, trying to make it thru the days, if only there was more time, maybe I could say I'm fine, and actually mean it too, altho my emotional capacity grew, we all have our limits, perhaps we need a refresher in civics, lost our ethics and morals, y'all can't even muster cordial, it's pretty sad, I lost my sister mom and dad, what an exclusive club, I've had enough rough and tough, yes this situation absolutely sucks, but I'm embracing the tremendous abundance of unconditional love!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/20/24

Never Ever Forget I'm Beautifully Blessed

It's been a couple days, and I'm still in a haze, just feels weird, not having my mom dad or sis here, only me now, I don't know how, or better yet where to go next, really thinking back west, but it's all a matter of timing, this journey of life is hilly and winding, with my guardian angels, I finally feel like success and happiness are being dangled, actually in grasp/reach, but since I can't teach grief, I love how my poetry and music, is turning out to be pretty therapeutic, helps others and myself get thru, cuz when push comes to shove there's only what u do or don't do, won't wallow nor crumble, remain kind and humble, the future's bright and the best is yet to come, I'll never ever forget the beautifully blessed family I'm from!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/19/24

Mom's Poetic Prayer

Mom's finally at peace, she reunites and remeets so many peeps, such a sad natural part of life, but she no longer has to suffer nor fight, what a warrior woman she was, yes I'll take all actual and virtual condolences kisses and hugs, I feel the love in abundance, I was wicked blessed with familial substance, inherited so much understanding wisdom, incredibly glad dad sis and ur own folks are there to welcome u into his eternal kingdom, til we see each other again, R.I.P./amen!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/17/24

Life Right?!

How do u define a life, I feel like words can't do it right, ur light could never be out of sight or mind, a better family is impossible to find, is that why I chose blood, most guys are duds, not even on my level, if I'm pot ur kettle, far from perfect, but definitely worth it, genuinely loving caring and loyal, treat all peeps like they're authentically royal, with kindness and respect, this pig actually tries to serve and protect, pleasing and saving the world, yes gay but still love girls, cuz they have high E.Q.s, I've never been a teacher tho I just do, and that's not to be arrogant or cocky, I'm about to top the hip hop charts with my poetry and nobody's gonna stop me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/16/24

Legendary Memories

Crying is cleansing, instead of puking cry and rally's worth mentioning, let it rain, don't hold onto the pain, vulnerability isn't weak, be resilient to defeat, show up for urself, since ur the only one who u can truly help, choose ur family wisely, grief is always untimely, we shouldn't fear death, it's ok to express ur bereft, remember the beautiful memories, my mom dad and sis were all legendary, forever and eternally a part of my legacy too, I couldn't even be me without u!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/14/24

U Can Only Help Urself

Don't fear death it's a part of life, ur defined by how u react to the pain plight and strife, we hurdle cyclically, can u view the world and people not so cynically, don't be judgmental jealous or bitter, u can get wiser without having to be bigger, sometimes yes the truth is hard, but it's worse trying to maintain a webbed farce, keeping ur lies straight, we can't fight fate, so embrace it, communicate shit, instead of avoiding and escaping complacent procrastination, pacing is a totally acceptable and healthy form of meditation, find moderation and balance, bet on ur own talents, cuz fuck help, u can only urself, and then cherish chosen family and friends, who are ride or die to the very end!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
8/14/24

God's Stupidly Foolishly Beauty

Got to spend yesterday at the beach, I didn't inherit the ability to teach, I just do, like mom taught me to u get thru, no matter how hard it is, handle ur business, everything will be ok, tho it isn't easy being gay, it's not my identity, I'd never mean to harm or offend intentionally, that's simply not my nature, I ain't no judgmental hater nor an alienator debater, let people be, everyone goes thru shit we don't know about nor see, mind ur own beeswax, there are such things as truth free and facts, why should we pay to be born and exist, what the actual fuck is this, where's utopia's socialistic peace with universal bliss, but not for only a select few, capitalism's unsustainably cruel, money's an illusion when we define our own trade and success, humanity has createdly made one giant hot miseducated mess, but then again perhaps that's actually God's beauty, and man can't or too stupidly tries to understand foolishly!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/11/24

Evolution Revolution

What's the harm in, labeling myself RI's leather daddy/rap King Charming, let me be ur ruler, cuz I'm just simply cooler, spitting wisdom in rhyme, this is my shine time, quintessential beacon of light, using music and poetry to fight for what's right, wearing a harness and a crown, having representation is profound, I've never felt welcomed nor included, may not break that glass ceiling but moved it, tired of the same old monotony, gonna inspire change in the world so don't try to stop me, simultaneously leading both a Renaissance revolution, and a transcendent conscious evolution, more towards enlightenment, creatively writing enticing and inviting righteously delighting excitement!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/8/24

Mom's Are Never Too Far

In this moment it's imperative, not to dwell on grief focusing on the negative, experiencing similar loss yet still unprepared, my mom is the person I hold most dear, I wish her eternal peace, I'm sorry if I didn't fulfill her wants and needs, but hope I made her proud, I won't let the dark clouds shroud, ull be the brightest star in my sky, the wind beneath my wings helping me fly high, u are an incredible warrior for love and light, I will never understand ur endless relentless fight, altho I know u passed it on within me, I'm only beginning to see, how beautiful life and the future are, and I know in my heart u will never be too far!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/7/24

The Unkempt Me Almost Empty

Gotta respect her wishes, never been the type to vicariously live thru pictures, I hold the memories in my heart and head, can't imagine too much time left, these two weeks will be the hardest, feeling cardless, like I'm waiting on my next hand, does God listen to our willfull commands on demand, I'm struggling so deep, there are points I wail and weep, almost uncontrollably, my spirit doesn't seem holy, kinda ironic death's an angel, life is being slowly strangled, watching this all unfold, is making me bitter resentful and cold, so I try to shut up and isolate, I don't wanna spread hate, yet I have no control, this unrooting is drastically effecting my essence and soul, how can I fill this hole that's almost empty, y'all about to meet and see the real unkempt me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

8/7/24