Fine Wasting Time

He's blocked for good, I tried the best I could, done being breadcrumbed, may be a bit gullible but not naive stupid nor dumb, I'm just done, I wish I could say it's been fun, but it hasn't, u never respected what I was asking, disregarded my boundaries again and again, u don't even know how to be my friend, clearly ur a user, keep choosing ur abuser, avoiding a better life, u created all this plight and strife, from running away, guys like u make me hate being gay, u waste everybody's time, and u don't care in fact u think that's totally fine!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/30/25

Voiced His Choice

U stood still while I held onto hope, couldn't even meet me a quarter of the way tho, so I had to let go, happy birthday yo, my gift is, stay out of ur business, in fact I'll remove myself from ur life completely, pretty defeatedly, learned lesson, equates blocked blessing, enjoy ur choice, miss my voice, light and love, I'm tired of not being enough, actually u aren't, u have no fucking clue what u need or want, u don't fight, only flight, no more grace, if u want space, u got it mister, bye besty now uve got just ur bf/daddy and sister!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/30/25

Find My Shine

I'll say it again, I don't fuck friends, I'm looking like Mary for that real love, a guy who likes to kiss cuddle and hug, can make me laugh, appreciative of what we genuinely have, not looking for more or better, it's instant reconnection when we're together, without interruptions, I appreciate passion guts and gumption, in fact I find going after what u want sexy, u may get the best of me, but I'm resilient as fuck, I'll Phoenixly rise up, cuz I'm ur karma/mirror, my divine protection connection's clearer, I've done the work, so I may come off as a cold jerk, but I'm finally putting myself first, and I don't care who that hurts, stayed strong and true, both gave and paid dues, now it's my time to shine, so I can be my champion's grand prize find!

Won't Stop Me & My Army

The crush is over, taking weight off my shoulders, learning to relax and chill, not let lack or venomous toxicity spew/spill, leaning into my love and light, standing up for myself to fight, realizing I have the power to vanquish, alleviate and soothe my own pain and anguish, mastering the English language, I'm trying to evolve not languish, like the stock market, may be short but not pocket, pretty submissive, mindful about the energy I elicit, not a subservient faggot, when it comes to bullying disrespect I've had it, watch as my conscious discipled army, reignite or inspire the good virtuous revolution and evil won't be able to stop me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/29/25

Behind/Out Of Sight & Mind

I'm still stuck in a negative head space, life seems like a dead race, love no longer exists, everyone takes but doesn't give, stop stealing my energy, why make me ur enemy, cuz ur afraid, relationships aren't a game, u met ur match, expect a karmic attack, u broke ur mirror, assume I'm inferior, play ok when ur not, give him all u got, even though it was supposed to be mine, I don't have to pretend I'm fine, I'm actually great, no I won't wait, in fact I'm leaving u behind, hopefully get to the point where ur out of sight and mind!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/28/25

Exhausting Talking

I've been focused on smiling, stop trying to predict divine timing, fuck fate, I'm always late, I'm sure I missed my blessings, I'm never wanted or anyone's intention, friend zoned, dead end toned, I choose wrong, no viral poem or song, a waste of life, defined by strife, I hate being resilient, bravery isn't brilliant, it's exhausting, gotta quit talking, shut my big mouth, don't defend justify or bout, what's the point, I'll smoke bowls blunts or a joint, keep to myself, never again offer to help, since no deed goes unpunished, America should never be synonymous with Trumpists, we're way better than that, I hope we get our morality back!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Go Joe

Working so hard on letting him go, get back to Joe, I miss me, living blissfully, so full of love, confident I'm enough, but losing my family, feels like nobody understands me, and the more I try to explain, I wind up being seen as insane and pained, which I am, nothing ever goes as planned, God laughs, needs a kick in the ass, to stop teasing, finally releasing, from all this suffering, actually bring someone into my life worth loving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Fine Stay Blind

The more I choose u, I lose dude, what are u afraid of, u can't have emotionless love, no matter how much u pretend, ur forcing an end, for my own protection, I have to deal with ur rejection of blessings, I'm sick of the confusion, from ur bullshit of an illusion, that's fine, stay blind, keep sleeping on me, I'm totally free, and I'll find something real, I can't wait til u realize ur responsible for how u feel, I cried, I tried, u miserably fumbled, now u can be humbled, cuz I don't like u anymore, enjoy being an empty soulless whore!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Hope For The Whole Globe

My heart has the capacity to love the whole globe, my soul provides both inspiration and hope, everybody's pretty special, evolution is inevitable, if u remain vigilant and open, continue growing and coping, cuz that's life, stay resilient thru the plight and strife, I truly believe it'll be alright, good needs to resist revolt and fight, enough with negligent complicity, evil is within intrinsically, but shouldn't let it win, don't give in, manifest a life u don't wanna escape, each and every day remain humbly grateful to reawake, and maybe I'll even get to see u, my favorite dude, it's as simple as that, be blessed just accept and focus on what we already do have!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/27/25

Farewell Curse/Spell

Don't confuse my kindness for niceness, I'm not perfect nor spiteless, I simply won't act on it, I'm super compassionate, but don't push me too far, cuz I comeback just as hard, call me ur karmic mirror, I'll drop bombs that help u see urself clearer, miss me when I'm gone, since u handled me all wrong, u lost any opportunity or real shot, I liked u a lot, so much in fact, this is tragically sad, my heart's exploded, ur rejection is duly noted, fool me once, this time I'm the dunce, won't happen again, ull always now be just a good distant friend, I wish well, if u couldn't tell I've finally broken ur curse/spell!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/26/25

Love Moving On & Leveling Up

Yup finally moving on up, finding reciprocal want lust and love, every single fucking day, making my fairy tale dude dreams come true for us hopeful romantic gays, I'm emotional af, most guys lack that capacity/depth, I'm tired of boys, no choice just noise, blocking blessings, so I'm left guessing, why am I not enough, expose my heart soul and guts, let's drain each other's nuts, it's great when we both suck, 69 style, kinky stinky itty bitty piggy and wild, I didn't do anything wrong, the lessons I learn should turn into beautiful poetry and song, our time isn’t now, someway somehow, perhaps we will come back around, our foundational friendship is already rather profound, and I'm quite ok with that, since I'm actually focusing on gratitude instead of lack, my vibrational frequency is on a whole other level, it's hard to watch the world around us all fall disheveled, wicked unprepared, solely surving out of fear they can't hear or simply don't care, especially to change and be better, u can't make a horse drink water nor make an avoidant become a go getter, so unfortunately this means, ur gonna have to be removed lose then miss me, enjoy the other grass u chose, I'm a far superior prize than most these low desperate hoes!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/26/25

More Positive Performance Informants

Call me Joe hope, cuz if it rhymes it's true dude don't u know tho yo, I love inspiring that, always know I got ur back, loyal to a fault, when problems arise I'll halt, and be there in a jiffy, I'm probably too givey, that's my love language, my over romanticizing thinking is leaving my heart in anguish, not broken or blocked just achy, wakey wakey, alone again, my beautiful soulmates are all my straight friends, I'm lucky that way, but I need it as a token toking gay, esp as I evolve older, seems socially temperature's grown colder, yet u ain't seen me scurrying worrying, in fact I be hurrying, to shut up those critics/haters and their informants, by putting on one hell of another spectacularly magical live performance!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/24/25

Crazy Insane Twin Flame

I can close my eyes, and not meet demise, I don't feel receiving, cuz seeing is believing, and I've been giving, my cup runneth over just living, so I had to stop take a moment and chill, like patience gratefulness is a pill, hard to swallow, why are men so emotionless and hollow, I'm not saying that to be mean, but it isn't weak to show vulnerability, intimacy isn't necessarily sexual, understanding isn't intellectual, u don't need any degree to get me, I'm here to set authenticity free, u light my life up and inspire my fire, who knew one day a forbidden love like u would take me higher, a twin flame, this level of magic is totally crazy insane!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/24/25

Help Grapple Another Battle

I got my clarity, don't care about the disparity, from a fellow artist to another, I don't want a fuck brother, I want comfort and support, a cohort, to play Mario Kart with, be each other's gift, I'm super simple, don't mind being single, just prefer not to be lonely, shouldn't be phony, it's ok to change ur mind, a ton of truth rhymes, acknowledgment is a form of accountability, it may sound silly, but isn't knowing half the battle, sometimes mere presence makes things easier to handle/grapple!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/23/25

Will I Ever Get Back The Love I Lack

I am not acting happy nor grateful, in fact I'm rather angry jealous and hateful, I've lost all hope and faith, during the wait, where's my will to live, compassion/ability to forgive, especially myself, I want help, it's not a need, I truly believe, I'm resilient and strong, got the gift of poetry and song, why isn't that enough, the answer is simple what matters most is love, which I lack, and since my family died I'm afraid I'll never get it back!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Itch Bitch

Third times a charm, who knew love could do this much harm, wish I never said hi, or that I could mean goodbye this time, I need him out of sight and mind, altho a rare find, he's not my guy, all I do is wonder why, and I hate that, feels like a personal attack, communication he lacks, his words don't match acts, punishingly silent, the detachment is violent, rather selfish and shitty, yet can't seem to get rid of me, cuz I'm karma bitch, and ur unfortunately unable to scratch that itch!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Unforgiving Living

Won't be stuck in an emotional prison, now that I got some shit out of my system, let me get back to living, life is definitely unforgiving, not fair or right, everything's a fight, yet a losing battle, this level of grief is hard to grapple, especially alone, just sold my childhood home, onto the next chapter, with my luck it'll be the rapture, I'm done being a warrior, I wanna be whorier, learn how to escape, so my heart and soul aren't continuously raped, I don't believe in good or evil, we're both and that's why I prefer dogs over cats and people!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Please Stop The Pain In My Heart God

Today I feel defeated, drained and depleted, by an avoidant attachment, this silent separation is harassment, to my mind body and soul, I'm already fucking whole, but I want and choose him, I can't keep excusing, his toxic behavior, he's not my savior, he's my soulmate, and fuck fate, if it says otherwise, done with divine timing lies, I deserve this, love success happiness and bliss, please give it to me now God, cuz this punishing pain in my heart needs to stop!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/24

Sniff The Gift

Let's go, level up yo, this new Joe, is his own hero, strong and resilient, talented good looking and brilliant, seems to have it all, like a Phoenix rising after every fall, consistent persistence and perseverance, don't like this 3rd party interference, y'all are toxic noise, many think I have a soothing calming voice, wait til u feel my grounding energy, if u say ur something u better be, I hate posers and liars, come on baby light my fire, I'm an air sign, weird and divine, rather mysterious, takes things super serious, cuz life is a precious gift, don't step on a rose from the concrete give it a lil sniff!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/25

Goodbye...Don't Waste My Time

Maybe someday, ull be brave, come out from behind that screen, so u can be truly seen, and even felt, stop throwing away the cards ur delt, avoidance isn't the answer, it'll cause cancer, pushing people away, just creates hate, like a sorry without change, ur behavior is strange, like u never knew love, behind that stubborn behavior u don't think ur worthy enough, stop punishing me, how bout a real apology, pick up the damn phone, or better yet come to my home, stand face to face looking me in the eye, say u don't want me then give me one last hug and kiss goodbye, if ur gonna play games with both my heart and mind, fuck off don't waste my time!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/25

Standing With U Tonight To Fight

Time to rise high like the tides, be grateful and happy to be alive, I'll see 43 when Gia didn't, can't always manifest what isn't, but u can have faith, take action tho don't just pray, remember deeds not words, silence hurts, speak ur mind, search and ull find, stay hopeful and open, no one's all knowing, remain patient and kind, the moment's now without rewind, life is precious like love, helps make losing balance not so rough and tough, mirror my flame, hold my heart throughout this crazy game, find me standing with u tonight, cuz ur totally worth all my might to fight!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/20/25

Wait For Epically Legendarily Great

Keep my eyes, on the prize, stay happy and single, let's go mingle, shine away, embrace my gay, accept love in, take this time to rebegin, way better than ever before, I want more, a real partner, who understands the privilege/honor, it is to be with me, I manifest by believing it to be, I'm an attractive magnet, ur favorite bad habit, but actually divinely good, humbly misunderstood, combative and antagonistic, that has a rather holistic, approach to questioning, gotta stop blocking blessings, authenticity's the highest vibration, expect a major migration, to finally take place, shit's starting to resonate, got the patience of a Saint, cuz I know my legacy is at stake, if good things come to those who wait, this is gonna be epically legendarily great!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/20/25

Ok Away I'll Stay Great

Gotta break the spell of love's hocus pocus, and really get back into focus, cut myself some slack, be grateful what I have, give less attention to that lack, remember I'm a daddy Mac, even without the beard, fuck fear, too healed to let anger express my pain, I can handle the rain, hoody no umbrella, I'll have a Bulleit Captain and Coke or Stella, then let's smoke a bunch of pot, used to give all I got, now I simply share my overflow, learning to just shut up and say let's go, stop talking so damn much, embrace my resilient confidence/balls/guts, see where the attraction leads, have no expectation of how the connection should be, I need to ride the wave, let people leave or push me away, know I'll still be ok, in fact no worries I'm gonna stay great!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/19/25

Share With Care

I can't help but I can share, my love isn't sex it's care, never found the one, this ended before it even begun, since he's his own independent person, gotta deal with all this hurting, cuz karma gonna get u, I'm upset too, timing is so fucked up, tired of having sucky luck, I've been yelling at God enough, life shouldn't be this punishingly tough, my light's so bright, even in the darkest night, I always have to fight, when wrong finally managed to bastardize right!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/18/25