It's Me Or The Afterparty

Will he choose me, or the afterparty, I got my answer, escapism is a form of cancer, accountability is sobering, wish I was holding him, instead of crying alone, scared of dying at home, and nobody discovers my corpse, would anybody even feel remorse, prob busy with life or having fun, I realized the lust for my crush was done, no hard feelings, we are all just fallible human beings, who am I to judge, shouldn't hold a grudge, for my own irrational expectations when, he told and showed me who he was time and again, I fucked up and failed to set better boundary lines, ignored the warning signs, he's not the one hun, won't block him but it was a good run!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

3/12/25