Fine Wasting Time

He's blocked for good, I tried the best I could, done being breadcrumbed, may be a bit gullible but not naive stupid nor dumb, I'm just done, I wish I could say it's been fun, but it hasn't, u never respected what I was asking, disregarded my boundaries again and again, u don't even know how to be my friend, clearly ur a user, keep choosing ur abuser, avoiding a better life, u created all this plight and strife, from running away, guys like u make me hate being gay, u waste everybody's time, and u don't care in fact u think that's totally fine!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/30/25

Voiced His Choice

U stood still while I held onto hope, couldn't even meet me a quarter of the way tho, so I had to let go, happy birthday yo, my gift is, stay out of ur business, in fact I'll remove myself from ur life completely, pretty defeatedly, learned lesson, equates blocked blessing, enjoy ur choice, miss my voice, light and love, I'm tired of not being enough, actually u aren't, u have no fucking clue what u need or want, u don't fight, only flight, no more grace, if u want space, u got it mister, bye besty now uve got just ur bf/daddy and sister!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/30/25

Find My Shine

I'll say it again, I don't fuck friends, I'm looking like Mary for that real love, a guy who likes to kiss cuddle and hug, can make me laugh, appreciative of what we genuinely have, not looking for more or better, it's instant reconnection when we're together, without interruptions, I appreciate passion guts and gumption, in fact I find going after what u want sexy, u may get the best of me, but I'm resilient as fuck, I'll Phoenixly rise up, cuz I'm ur karma/mirror, my divine protection connection's clearer, I've done the work, so I may come off as a cold jerk, but I'm finally putting myself first, and I don't care who that hurts, stayed strong and true, both gave and paid dues, now it's my time to shine, so I can be my champion's grand prize find!

Won't Stop Me & My Army

The crush is over, taking weight off my shoulders, learning to relax and chill, not let lack or venomous toxicity spew/spill, leaning into my love and light, standing up for myself to fight, realizing I have the power to vanquish, alleviate and soothe my own pain and anguish, mastering the English language, I'm trying to evolve not languish, like the stock market, may be short but not pocket, pretty submissive, mindful about the energy I elicit, not a subservient faggot, when it comes to bullying disrespect I've had it, watch as my conscious discipled army, reignite or inspire the good virtuous revolution and evil won't be able to stop me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/29/25

Behind/Out Of Sight & Mind

I'm still stuck in a negative head space, life seems like a dead race, love no longer exists, everyone takes but doesn't give, stop stealing my energy, why make me ur enemy, cuz ur afraid, relationships aren't a game, u met ur match, expect a karmic attack, u broke ur mirror, assume I'm inferior, play ok when ur not, give him all u got, even though it was supposed to be mine, I don't have to pretend I'm fine, I'm actually great, no I won't wait, in fact I'm leaving u behind, hopefully get to the point where ur out of sight and mind!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/28/25

Exhausting Talking

I've been focused on smiling, stop trying to predict divine timing, fuck fate, I'm always late, I'm sure I missed my blessings, I'm never wanted or anyone's intention, friend zoned, dead end toned, I choose wrong, no viral poem or song, a waste of life, defined by strife, I hate being resilient, bravery isn't brilliant, it's exhausting, gotta quit talking, shut my big mouth, don't defend justify or bout, what's the point, I'll smoke bowls blunts or a joint, keep to myself, never again offer to help, since no deed goes unpunished, America should never be synonymous with Trumpists, we're way better than that, I hope we get our morality back!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Go Joe

Working so hard on letting him go, get back to Joe, I miss me, living blissfully, so full of love, confident I'm enough, but losing my family, feels like nobody understands me, and the more I try to explain, I wind up being seen as insane and pained, which I am, nothing ever goes as planned, God laughs, needs a kick in the ass, to stop teasing, finally releasing, from all this suffering, actually bring someone into my life worth loving!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Fine Stay Blind

The more I choose u, I lose dude, what are u afraid of, u can't have emotionless love, no matter how much u pretend, ur forcing an end, for my own protection, I have to deal with ur rejection of blessings, I'm sick of the confusion, from ur bullshit of an illusion, that's fine, stay blind, keep sleeping on me, I'm totally free, and I'll find something real, I can't wait til u realize ur responsible for how u feel, I cried, I tried, u miserably fumbled, now u can be humbled, cuz I don't like u anymore, enjoy being an empty soulless whore!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/28/25

Hope For The Whole Globe

My heart has the capacity to love the whole globe, my soul provides both inspiration and hope, everybody's pretty special, evolution is inevitable, if u remain vigilant and open, continue growing and coping, cuz that's life, stay resilient thru the plight and strife, I truly believe it'll be alright, good needs to resist revolt and fight, enough with negligent complicity, evil is within intrinsically, but shouldn't let it win, don't give in, manifest a life u don't wanna escape, each and every day remain humbly grateful to reawake, and maybe I'll even get to see u, my favorite dude, it's as simple as that, be blessed just accept and focus on what we already do have!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/27/25

Farewell Curse/Spell

Don't confuse my kindness for niceness, I'm not perfect nor spiteless, I simply won't act on it, I'm super compassionate, but don't push me too far, cuz I comeback just as hard, call me ur karmic mirror, I'll drop bombs that help u see urself clearer, miss me when I'm gone, since u handled me all wrong, u lost any opportunity or real shot, I liked u a lot, so much in fact, this is tragically sad, my heart's exploded, ur rejection is duly noted, fool me once, this time I'm the dunce, won't happen again, ull always now be just a good distant friend, I wish well, if u couldn't tell I've finally broken ur curse/spell!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/26/25

Love Moving On & Leveling Up

Yup finally moving on up, finding reciprocal want lust and love, every single fucking day, making my fairy tale dude dreams come true for us hopeful romantic gays, I'm emotional af, most guys lack that capacity/depth, I'm tired of boys, no choice just noise, blocking blessings, so I'm left guessing, why am I not enough, expose my heart soul and guts, let's drain each other's nuts, it's great when we both suck, 69 style, kinky stinky itty bitty piggy and wild, I didn't do anything wrong, the lessons I learn should turn into beautiful poetry and song, our time isn’t now, someway somehow, perhaps we will come back around, our foundational friendship is already rather profound, and I'm quite ok with that, since I'm actually focusing on gratitude instead of lack, my vibrational frequency is on a whole other level, it's hard to watch the world around us all fall disheveled, wicked unprepared, solely surving out of fear they can't hear or simply don't care, especially to change and be better, u can't make a horse drink water nor make an avoidant become a go getter, so unfortunately this means, ur gonna have to be removed lose then miss me, enjoy the other grass u chose, I'm a far superior prize than most these low desperate hoes!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/26/25

More Positive Performance Informants

Call me Joe hope, cuz if it rhymes it's true dude don't u know tho yo, I love inspiring that, always know I got ur back, loyal to a fault, when problems arise I'll halt, and be there in a jiffy, I'm probably too givey, that's my love language, my over romanticizing thinking is leaving my heart in anguish, not broken or blocked just achy, wakey wakey, alone again, my beautiful soulmates are all my straight friends, I'm lucky that way, but I need it as a token toking gay, esp as I evolve older, seems socially temperature's grown colder, yet u ain't seen me scurrying worrying, in fact I be hurrying, to shut up those critics/haters and their informants, by putting on one hell of another spectacularly magical live performance!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/24/25

Crazy Insane Twin Flame

I can close my eyes, and not meet demise, I don't feel receiving, cuz seeing is believing, and I've been giving, my cup runneth over just living, so I had to stop take a moment and chill, like patience gratefulness is a pill, hard to swallow, why are men so emotionless and hollow, I'm not saying that to be mean, but it isn't weak to show vulnerability, intimacy isn't necessarily sexual, understanding isn't intellectual, u don't need any degree to get me, I'm here to set authenticity free, u light my life up and inspire my fire, who knew one day a forbidden love like u would take me higher, a twin flame, this level of magic is totally crazy insane!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/24/25

Help Grapple Another Battle

I got my clarity, don't care about the disparity, from a fellow artist to another, I don't want a fuck brother, I want comfort and support, a cohort, to play Mario Kart with, be each other's gift, I'm super simple, don't mind being single, just prefer not to be lonely, shouldn't be phony, it's ok to change ur mind, a ton of truth rhymes, acknowledgment is a form of accountability, it may sound silly, but isn't knowing half the battle, sometimes mere presence makes things easier to handle/grapple!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/23/25

Will I Ever Get Back The Love I Lack

I am not acting happy nor grateful, in fact I'm rather angry jealous and hateful, I've lost all hope and faith, during the wait, where's my will to live, compassion/ability to forgive, especially myself, I want help, it's not a need, I truly believe, I'm resilient and strong, got the gift of poetry and song, why isn't that enough, the answer is simple what matters most is love, which I lack, and since my family died I'm afraid I'll never get it back!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Itch Bitch

Third times a charm, who knew love could do this much harm, wish I never said hi, or that I could mean goodbye this time, I need him out of sight and mind, altho a rare find, he's not my guy, all I do is wonder why, and I hate that, feels like a personal attack, communication he lacks, his words don't match acts, punishingly silent, the detachment is violent, rather selfish and shitty, yet can't seem to get rid of me, cuz I'm karma bitch, and ur unfortunately unable to scratch that itch!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Unforgiving Living

Won't be stuck in an emotional prison, now that I got some shit out of my system, let me get back to living, life is definitely unforgiving, not fair or right, everything's a fight, yet a losing battle, this level of grief is hard to grapple, especially alone, just sold my childhood home, onto the next chapter, with my luck it'll be the rapture, I'm done being a warrior, I wanna be whorier, learn how to escape, so my heart and soul aren't continuously raped, I don't believe in good or evil, we're both and that's why I prefer dogs over cats and people!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/25

Please Stop The Pain In My Heart God

Today I feel defeated, drained and depleted, by an avoidant attachment, this silent separation is harassment, to my mind body and soul, I'm already fucking whole, but I want and choose him, I can't keep excusing, his toxic behavior, he's not my savior, he's my soulmate, and fuck fate, if it says otherwise, done with divine timing lies, I deserve this, love success happiness and bliss, please give it to me now God, cuz this punishing pain in my heart needs to stop!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/22/24

Sniff The Gift

Let's go, level up yo, this new Joe, is his own hero, strong and resilient, talented good looking and brilliant, seems to have it all, like a Phoenix rising after every fall, consistent persistence and perseverance, don't like this 3rd party interference, y'all are toxic noise, many think I have a soothing calming voice, wait til u feel my grounding energy, if u say ur something u better be, I hate posers and liars, come on baby light my fire, I'm an air sign, weird and divine, rather mysterious, takes things super serious, cuz life is a precious gift, don't step on a rose from the concrete give it a lil sniff!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/25

Goodbye...Don't Waste My Time

Maybe someday, ull be brave, come out from behind that screen, so u can be truly seen, and even felt, stop throwing away the cards ur delt, avoidance isn't the answer, it'll cause cancer, pushing people away, just creates hate, like a sorry without change, ur behavior is strange, like u never knew love, behind that stubborn behavior u don't think ur worthy enough, stop punishing me, how bout a real apology, pick up the damn phone, or better yet come to my home, stand face to face looking me in the eye, say u don't want me then give me one last hug and kiss goodbye, if ur gonna play games with both my heart and mind, fuck off don't waste my time!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/21/25

Standing With U Tonight To Fight

Time to rise high like the tides, be grateful and happy to be alive, I'll see 43 when Gia didn't, can't always manifest what isn't, but u can have faith, take action tho don't just pray, remember deeds not words, silence hurts, speak ur mind, search and ull find, stay hopeful and open, no one's all knowing, remain patient and kind, the moment's now without rewind, life is precious like love, helps make losing balance not so rough and tough, mirror my flame, hold my heart throughout this crazy game, find me standing with u tonight, cuz ur totally worth all my might to fight!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/20/25

Wait For Epically Legendarily Great

Keep my eyes, on the prize, stay happy and single, let's go mingle, shine away, embrace my gay, accept love in, take this time to rebegin, way better than ever before, I want more, a real partner, who understands the privilege/honor, it is to be with me, I manifest by believing it to be, I'm an attractive magnet, ur favorite bad habit, but actually divinely good, humbly misunderstood, combative and antagonistic, that has a rather holistic, approach to questioning, gotta stop blocking blessings, authenticity's the highest vibration, expect a major migration, to finally take place, shit's starting to resonate, got the patience of a Saint, cuz I know my legacy is at stake, if good things come to those who wait, this is gonna be epically legendarily great!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/20/25

Ok Away I'll Stay Great

Gotta break the spell of love's hocus pocus, and really get back into focus, cut myself some slack, be grateful what I have, give less attention to that lack, remember I'm a daddy Mac, even without the beard, fuck fear, too healed to let anger express my pain, I can handle the rain, hoody no umbrella, I'll have a Bulleit Captain and Coke or Stella, then let's smoke a bunch of pot, used to give all I got, now I simply share my overflow, learning to just shut up and say let's go, stop talking so damn much, embrace my resilient confidence/balls/guts, see where the attraction leads, have no expectation of how the connection should be, I need to ride the wave, let people leave or push me away, know I'll still be ok, in fact no worries I'm gonna stay great!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/19/25

Share With Care

I can't help but I can share, my love isn't sex it's care, never found the one, this ended before it even begun, since he's his own independent person, gotta deal with all this hurting, cuz karma gonna get u, I'm upset too, timing is so fucked up, tired of having sucky luck, I've been yelling at God enough, life shouldn't be this punishingly tough, my light's so bright, even in the darkest night, I always have to fight, when wrong finally managed to bastardize right!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/18/25

Turtle Shelled From The Hell

I don't fuck friends cuz most of mine are straight, I won't chase someone that doesn't want me sexually or even to date, so if u like me shoot ur shot, say hello and tell me u think I'm hot, then watch how I react, fyi it's random hook up skills I lack, I fall in love with personality, always working casually, cuz I'm an artist, when it comes to flirting I'm not the smartest, pretty oblivious and gullible, easily can get into trouble, cuz of my big truthful mouth, I don't physically bout, but I am rather verbal, I think my heart used to be like a turtle, with a hard outer shell, but that's cuz the past 6 years I've literally gone thru hell!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/18/25

Life's Choice & Consequence

Gonna envelope the philosophy of let's go, u know...ho, I need to let loose, call a truce, with myself, I wanna better my level of intimacy/sexual health, gotta get outta my head, and in bed, in whatever capacity, that makes us both happy, but me first, cuz I've been in this super slump spurt, and that's totally on me, trying to find my boundaries, guess I have trust issues, done tho with all these tissues, crying over a guy, who can't bother to make time, fails to communicate, just consistently avoids and escapes, so now the relationship is awkward and intense, life ain't right when he makes the choice yet I experience and bare consequence, how's that fair, then I'll take the next sign of reciprocal interest as a dare, actually accept the challenge, of developing my hook up talents, instead of jealously waiting complaining, start participating in this type of game playing!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/17/25

Wants & Needs Desires/Dreams

I can handle embarrassment just don't be a liar, there's plenty of electricity but don't ignite my fire, I've worked so hard to heal, communicated how I feel, which seems to have inspired change, I find ghosting silence strange, giving self sabotaging energy, don't make me the enemy, simply cuz I show unconditional love,  we both are enough, I've been alone so long, it's helped make me stubbornly strong, distinguished between my wants and needs, finding a true gay besty has become one of my biggest desires/dreams!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/17/25

The Gift To Bridge & Uplift

There's nothing worse, than watching someone u love hurt, we all gotta do the work, can't just observe and lurk, the word is more often a verb, please don't put me on do not disturb, stay silent and ghost, I'm a person that cares the most, won't worry about myself, but I must be mindful I shouldn't help, even if I can, I am that man, magical almost royal, appear spoiled, when in fact I'm simply blessed, not able to be truly grateful yet, cuz this tremendous amount of grief, keeps falling like a leaf, easily blown in the wind, my saving grace is writing poetry or when I rap and sing, religiously choose the muse of music, to alchemize the heartache and pain using it, as quite a huge advantageous gift, building a bridge that will classically continue to both inspire and uplift!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/16/25

Bitch I'm The Prize/Gift

Going into self preservation mode, not gonna be distant and cold, but just done being anyone's optional choice, listen to the sincerity in my voice, I choose me and that's all that matters, now y'all can view from the rafters, simply won't have access, ignore the love bombing mass texts, perhaps we're all a lil bit delulu, sorry not sorry this time we're really thru boo, have fun dealing with karma cuz she's a bitch, I refuse to chase or even try when I finally realized I'm the real prize/gift!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/15/25

Handling Tantrums

What would u say, if I said I was ok, but u know I'm not, I'm definitely alot, yet never enough at the same time, my smile's lying, call me Robin, ain't no stopping, my love and light, puts up a powerful fight, both night and day, I haven't always been this way, I used to dim and hide, let ego and pride, cloud my judgment, I refuse to become numb and begrudging, my resilience is astounding, wicked profound I'm confounding, rather quite impressive, emotionally expressive it's electric, super eclectic and random, can be impossibly hard to find others in tandem, stop with the tantrums, we're all defined by how we're handling things!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/14/25

Not Much Luck

Another week gone by, wonder if he will make a call text or time, probably not, cuz all he does is break my heart, I'm sure it's my bad, think it's rather sad, who knew love would hurt this much, should've known better I ain't got that kind of luck, no one chooses me, miss how it used to be, just magic in ur company, could've lived this life triumphantly, unfortunately I gotta continue riding solo, and he will have to karmically deal with hiding his fomo, since he can't get out of his own way, I really hate the dating game being gay!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/14/25

A Legacy Of Empathy

Thank u, and I'm proud too, sorry goes a long way, esp face to face, I needed that, I always got ur back, I just see u at ur best, next to me is comfortableness, it's so magnetic, overwhelmingly infectious, like the thought that magic could be real, it is even if that's not the way anyone else feels, I came from angels, my light strangles, eradicates and vanquishes darkness, how can a president be this heartless, where's the humanity/empathy, all karmic justice is served when it comes to ur ultimate legacy, does the good outweigh the bad, when u die does anyone care even there or sad, cuz that's really what matters most, did u passionately chase ur dreams of love success and happiness or simply complicitly coast?!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
4/12/25

We All Fall

U have to ask for and accept the help, which is hard for people who are used to doing everything themselves, why would I risk it all, to save others from a fall, they're inevitably gonna have to face someday, guess we can't escape fate, is free will even real, nobody gives 2 fucks about how we feel, especially when u don't communicate, that's what makes and creates hate, leaving me alone with my thoughts, forgetting who I am what I've learned and everything I was taught, always show up with love here there and everywhere, cuz the best advice my dear is lean into shit now that's conquering fear!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/10/25

Just Simply Better Together

Gotta give space and grace, most may not have the taste for my pace, slow and steady wins the race, haste face to face, fuck digital, the connection is pitiful, so utterly superficial, when communication is deeply critical, in all relationships, I love creativeness, it's super sexy, want my gay besty, to walk with me thru life, neither one of us should be the "wife", let's be equals, this torrid affair might have some sequels, never count anything out, who knew with u I'd like to fight/bout, cuz if we get to spend time together, everything just simply seems better!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

Holding On Powerful Resilient & Strong

The rain was really messing with me, hard-core emotionally especially, plus I've been overthinking matters of the heart, like love is a la carte, gotta pay for extras, u better be ambidextrous, jerk off stranger style, it's more expensive for kinky and wild, when did sex become transactional, my light shines so bright I'm attackable, I let myself be attachable, and now the disappointment is impossible to grapple, I too am barely holding on, but the one thing I know from experience is I am super fucking powerful resilient and strong!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/9/25

Upset With Hate & Regret

Now all I feel is hate and regret, of course ur ghosting and silence made me upset, I'm a communicator, and ur a hater, especially urself, u need professional help, ull never win, rejecting love is ur sin, won't find anyone else on my level, karma will leave u disheveled, and I don't feel bad or pity, u continuously treated me shitty, ur actually rather cruel, too chicken shit to duel, so u run away, but u think me blocking u is gay, u chose wrong, maybe I'll be like Taylor and use u to write an epic revenge song!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/8/25

Voice Ur Choice

He don't need a drink he want me, but I'm healed and free, and ain't gonna settle for ur last option, boundary up so u stealing stopping, they taking ur energy, we aren't friends or enemies just strangers now with a memory, of a beautiful divine connection, I've never been chosen in any election, so I'm my own choice, trying to use my voice, to talk myself up, I'm enough and deserve to be truly loved!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/8/25

U Disrespectful Rude Dude

All I wanted was ur time love and affection, now I need protection, from u dude, u were disrespectful and rude, couldn't appreciate my value, I helped and cared but didn't have to, and probably shouldn't have, yes I'm mad, but at my damn self, our relationship got shelved, and it's ur fault, my heart's locked back in the vault, I'll stay single, not promiscuous yet still mingle, just trying to live, hoping to finally receive more than I give, I'm reciprocal, stay away cuz I hate hypocritical, actively work to be better and heal, only accepting authentic genuine real people who can honestly and effectively communicate how they feel and deal!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/6/25

Manifesting Healing Thru Communicating Feelings

Pushing me away, and playing the silent game, isn't showing tough love, it's fucking me up, now I don't know how to act around u, I feel like both an emotional crazy person and a fool, I get it u don't like me, I don't take words lightly, but deeds matter more, lately I've been asking what all this suffering is for, I need a partner, it's the only real way I can envision living any farther, I don't have nothing to lose, I've got everything and u could too if u choose, manifesting thru healing, but most importantly by communicating feelings!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/5/25

I Am A Ham

Boy do I keep misfocusing, should perhaps stop drinking poppering and toking, at least for a lil while, it's ok to have been a bit wild, after the past 6 years, these rage induced tears and fears, all stem from loss, instead of recognizing how much of a bad ass boss, I actually really am, I'm such a stubborn ham, so fucking hard on myself, quick to offer others help, but don't give that same level of love and grace to me, I have wicked trouble letting shit go and just be, but thank God for my chosen family and friends, who keep mirroring/reminding me of how inspiringly strong I've been over and over again!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/4/25

I'm So Sorry

I hate all this anger, turned a gay besty to a stranger, cuz I couldn't keep my big mouth shut, made him into a slut, when he didn't give me love, or choose to show up, when he said he would, but did if he could, I'm just so hurt from grief, I pushed him away before he'd leave me, I liked him too much, I was holding onto this grudge, that my family sometimes made me feel not good enough, and the universe never ever ever gave me good timing/luck, and an apology just doesn't seem to do, wish we were more than just 2 trauma bonded dudes!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/4/25

Prize Eyes

My heart literally hurts, walking away from someone u care deeply for is the worst, I just wanted to love u, now ur trauma I have to heal thru, on top of all this grief, no wonder there’s only doubt no hope or belief, I'm broken, no words left to be spoken, just tears cried, was it all lies, I really wanna be chosen, appreciated like that golden ticket/token, the ultimate prize, instead I try to hide the pain written on my eyes, so I smile big and bright, u probably mad right, cuz I no longer share or dim my light, and simply left ur life without a fight!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/3/25

Go Whore Some More

He was a user and a slut, pretty fucked up, pretended to love, til he ran out of luck, evicted from his home, now alone, except for his 2 cats, and bf/dad, never had the time, always claimed to be fine, til he started crying help, no amount of money or wealth, can fix sabotage to self, he used to make my heart melt, I want nothing to do with him anymore, I'm not a friendship whore, I value the people in my life, and that guy never treated me right! 

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/2/25

Please God Stop

Wish I could help my friend, not say again that this might be the end, I know life can seem impossibly hard, but we aren't here to just get this far, why can't I help with love, and that could be good enough, to awake another day, found a besty that's gay, and I don't want to lose him, when will this universal truce begin, way too much suffering, it's wicked fucking discouraging, we're losing people left and right, nobody wants or knows how to fight, please God, make all this sadness and pain stop!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

4/1/25