Guessing Blessings Are Present

Growing up is a level of maturity, my genuine authenticity has such a purity, the frequency is hard to vibrate, I respect both my love and hate, cuz it's never intentionally malicious, definitely can be vicious, if u take my niceness for weakness, that learned lesson was tedious, I've evolved to kindness, incorporating more mindfulness, how my delivery is abrasive yet raw honesty and truthful, loud proud and unmutable, I'm omini present, so not sorry for my bounty of blessings keeping em all guessing! 

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/30/25

Existence Isn't All Money & Business

What happened to living this existence, now it's all about money and business, very sad actually, finding ur passion purpose and service should come about naturally, maybe with a lil nourishment or nudge, hate when a narcissistic dismissive avoidant refuses to budge, but oh well he's met his match, hopefully a conscious awakening can still hatch, cuz I've learned it's never too late, like Yoda would say "accountability must u take", and that's just the first step, quite frankly I question if ur totally incapable or simply inept!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/30/25

Cost Of A Boss

I'll say it again I'm not perfect, but understanding me is worth it, I'm loyal honest and compassionate, I ain't a fake don't wanna escape nor start masking shit, I am trying to be more mindful of my delivery, I'm noticing lately my hostility's hindering me, can't explain how intense this grief deeply infests my life, it's like impossibly hard to not focus on the fight plight and strife, my blessings came at such a cost, don't even see how much of a boss, I've been and actually am, most people's social media perpetuates an illusion/sham/scam, not mine tho, ull find I'm so authentically brilliant resiliently ready and willing to show accountability thru both tangibly real changed behavior and growth!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/29/25

My Rising's Not That Defyingly Surprising

He might be the most tangibly real, but he's being completely unreasonable, we all are going thru it, I make many great connections thru art and music, u still gotta make an effort, put the time and work into every endeavor, cuz what if tomorrow doesn't come, and u never embedded roots into where u were from, my family were angels, so when life happens I see from many doubled Gemini angles, with Scorpio rising, my epic legendary legacy/empire was scriptured it's not that defyingly surprising!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/28/25

Give 0 Shits About Business

U had none for me but now want empathy, bitch I'm legendary, u should be apologizing, finally bending and compromising, cuz u were in the wrong, played victim so hard it became both gross and boring, grow the fuck up buck, they're actions not words unconditional friendship and love, u earn and deserve it it's not freely given, I ain't forgetting nor forgiving, fuck off, u can cry laugh or scoff, I give 0 shits, accept the consequences of ur bad choices/opinions which are none of my damn father fucking business!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/28/25

Some Lessons Are The Blessing

Was definitely guilty of trying to help, thought perhaps could save him from himself, boy was I wrong, played me all along, and it really was my fault, but now that's come to a hault, this latest vaca, was the perfect amount of time away, got my head on gay again, he wasn't my friend, cuz he never showed up, no matter how much I had given him unconditional love, I couldn't buy, his effort nor time, and that’s my bad, it's ok to stay mad, so instead I broke thru grew and learned, I'm done getting reburned, never regret being someone's blessing, simply take em like Biggie would say "with style and grace"/as another one of life's lessons!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/27/25

My Wild Bday Style

What a great birthday weekend, so many hot kinky leathermen to befriend, everybody is so nice, the flattery def helps entice, I mean so much originality and style, it's awesome to see how free authentic beings run wild, embracing all walks of life, the moment feels so right, I needed time away, this vaca has been so fulfillingly great, and boy do I have more fantastic news, this new guy doesn't leave me confused, in fact he's the best thing that's ever happened to me, still even wicked hard to believe, I found myself both a business and loving partner, a real genuine uplifting problem solver, who discovered and rescued me in my darkest hour, at 43 after losing my whole family I've stepped into my power, but he doesn't wanna dim my light nor clip my wings, in fact I'm very excited to see what this union and our future together brings, y'all are in trouble, wait til we unveil music's next power couple!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/25/25

Face Of Grace

At the airport now to go to IML, escape this grief stricken RI hell, I need some space, a much needed vaca/escape, to help clear my head and heart, between mother's and birthday life's been pretty hard and dark, but I am so proud of myself, despite everything I've gone thru I was able to help, even at my own detriment, now I'm 100% focused on personal betterment, let go of the obnoxious toxic, leaning into Joe Conscious, who is my saving grace, trying to share and keep that sweet smile on my face, relax and have some hot and wild fun, really stop to appreciate how much I've done and won!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/23/25

Farewell Annoying Dismissive Avoidant

Finally blocked for good, my love and friendship was being misunderstood, I'm sorry for the drama, but it was cuz u never healed ur trauma, in fact u created urs, I'm not afraid of wars, I fight for what is fair just and right, pulled u out of the darkness when u asked for help cuz I can and am light, u were nothing more than a dismissive avoidant, taking no accountability is not only silly but annoying, u keep using abusing and hurting people, I won't say ur evil, nor will I talk bad about u, but I'm simply done being ur tool/fool cuz that isn't cool, plus I deserve way better, wish u karma in all future endeavors!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/22/25

Faith In Great Fate

Silence absence and avoidance are rejection, fuck attention I want ur intention, I'm a man of words so he needs to be of action, have authenticity intelligence and passion, persistently picking and choosing me, can't be emotionless elusive and illusory, so my new motto is let them, focus not on the person but the pattern my friend, they'll show u who they truly are, I know it's incredibly hard, practice self love/grace, I know ur impatiently tired yet u still gotta hold on stay strong have hope faith and unwaveringly wait, believe in ur destinied fate, remember good things take time and ur great!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/21/25

Profound Ups & Downs

Life is a rollercoaster of ups and downs, the wisdom learned tho is profound, who knew grief, would strengthen my belief, that I'll be ok, even on a bad day, and there have been quite a few, I try to follow thru matching what I say and do, but I often make mistakes, get consumed with jealousy envy and hate, cuz I am human, navigating these ruins, making the best out of every moment, like Em says "gotta seize and own it", living is a choice, instead of raising a glass how about ur voice, stop being complicit, ur not innocent, when u know do better, the only way to get thru this existence is together!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Buffering Suffering

Trying to write my overthinking away, I hate having adhd and being gay, double cursed, I don't know which is worse, no love or success, I'm just less I guess, every day is torturous suffering, I'm done buffering, my responsibilities are over, gotta put down the weight from my shoulders, stand up straight, smile and stay great, say fuck fate, I'll free willingly go my own way, laugh as I go to the bank, even if my poetry and music tank, it gives me purpose, and really helps to heal what hurt us!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Almost Supernatural/Magical

Maybe if I could write one poem to inspire, perhaps I'll be able to retire, it ain't about the money, honestly I find consumption fickle and funny, y'all don't know what u want, most who boast and flaunt, are usually just a well crafted illusion, I know my exterior makes me confusing, but I love breaking stereotypes, I'm not validated by views very much or likes, I write cuz it's my calling, like my resiliency after falling, it's almost supernatural, some have even described me as magical!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/1

Swindling Needs Dwindling

Underneath the anger is pain, ur loss isn't my gain, wish I could save the world, was attracted to girls, cuz dudes just suck at love, I've had enough of rough and tough, life shouldn't be this damn hard, fuck God and the dealt cards, give me pocket aces please, instead of another 7 and 3, I'm stuck, without luck, and my hope is dwindling, faith seems swindling, I am fed up and tired, how can I be rewired, I think I've been living life wrong, oh well what the hell give me another rip from the bong!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Betsy & Etsy

Enough hatred, saying y'all are intimidated, too scared to make a move, just thinking I'm good looking and cool, yet u remain quiet, get used to a Joe or JC free diet, miss me when I'm gone, replay my songs, cuz that's the closest ull get, hope ur upset, u blew it Betsy, sell shit on Etsy, don't ask me for money again, no u ain't my friend, I was urs, even if u did beg on all fours, ur sorrys aren't real, changed behavior is the only way to fix how I feel, but ur incapable it seems, hope u see me in ur dreams, haunting u with regret, sorry not sorry ur nothing but a defect!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Locked Cock Blocked

If ur waiting on me to contact u, ur a bigger fool, I made all the effort I could, u never picked me even when u said u would, so fuck off, uve never walked ur talk, ur a bullshit artist, playing victim the hardest, leave me alone, go to ur daddy's home, play happy, don't u dare ask me, pretending to play nice, losing me bites, but now I've lost all interest, joining the ranks of the cynics, cuz gay guys suck, only want to fuck for a buck, leaving u high dry and used, sick of the neglect/abuse, u may have a big cock, but u and it should stay locked or blocked, ur simply no good, stay the hell away from me and my hood!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Made To Fade Away

So many tears cried, tired of his disappointment and lies, don't even talk to me, keep gawking for free, while u can, cuz soon I'll be in demand, and u missed ur shot, glad u think I'm hot, too bad u couldn't say it to my face, I think avoidance is a disgusting disgrace, maybe ur ok with wasting time, just don't with mine, consider me gone, fuck our song, u never stood with me tonight, one way relationships ain't right, enjoy ur choices u made, get out of my sight and mind so u can finally fade away!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

Damn This Lack Of Companionship Shit

Yet another bad day, I hate waking up this way, and have nobody there, old alone is my biggest fear, I just want to be chosen, our lives interwoven, not codependent, I know the sentiment, perhaps u don't self love enough, life is just tough, why doesn't anyone care for me, they make effort so sparingly, it's slower and worse than snail like breadcrumbing, feel like I'm dead/crumbling, can't handle this anymore, gay equals whore, I'll be damned with this shit, why is it so hard to find real genuine companionship?!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/20/25

My Mission Intuition

The sun will set again and rise, while the stars shine bright thru darkest of nights, sometimes I get tired of the endless fight, it doesn't seem fair or right, but ain't that life, plight suffering and strife, but someway somehow I just know we're gonna be alright, cuz that's light, like fungus among us it seeps in, I'll keep unconditionally believing, endless hope and faith, each and every single day I awake, it's more than just an intuition, passion purpose and service is my mission!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/19/25

Eyes On The Prize

Tired of the daily pain tears and fight, I'm trying to live my best life, but I feel the universe is against me, like love happiness and success wasn't meant to be, simply suffering, it's rather troubling, what am I doing wrong, writing poems and songs, filled with lived experience and truth, why's collective wisdom aloof, can't be the only one tapped in, what if fame was in fact entrapment, another distraction from the real issue, imagine if u could feel what I wish for u, see u thru my eyes, told I'm a Queen so wouldn't that mean I'm the prize, and if so, stop treating me like a disposable hoe!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/19/25

Demanding Understanding

Ok now that's out of my system, sometimes I express myself just to read or listen, helps me get an understanding, of what my body mind or soul's demanding, perhaps my cup is empty, I need y'all to replenish me, validate and encourage more, not only appreciate what I'm good for, but be truly happy to see me succeed, I swear it's entertaining to watch someone suffer or bleed, I ain't like that, won't seize a weakness to attack, I'm not even competing, please don't fake an agreement, hate the same, both the players and the rigged game!

Peace and 1,
Joe Conscious 
5/19/25

Get Upset

Today is just shitty, I can't even be sarcastic or witty, I'm simply upset, what doesn't the world get, I lost my whole family, u can't understand me, and everyone wants money, the incompetence isn't funny, y'all need to get publically ridiculed and fired, boomers need to be retired, stop the fear, create universal health care, it should be a right, not a political nor profitized fight, it's lucrative to keep people sick, not every gay asshole wants a dick, I'm so sick and tired of people, I blame God for even allowing all this evil, fuck the devil too, u both suck and don't deserve to be worshipped or rule!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/19/25

Authentically Be Just Me

Loving this weather, makes life better, when the sun is shining, I'm wining and dining, with great friends, hopefully the fun never ends, used to take shit so serious, it was making me delirious, when it wasn't personal, don't know how to keep things internal, I speak my mind and feelings, like to remind everybody we are all fallable human beings, fuck the idea of perfect, enjoying the journey is worth it, pay attention to who u meet, don't be afraid to greet, strangers have no agenda, live like there isn't tomorrow and go on a bender, spread kindness with a smile, find joy and happiness even if it is only for a lil while, cuz the time is always now, wicked proud that I no longer care to ask why when or how, I just be, authentically me!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/18/25

Bet Yet

Have no fear, I'm here, despite time and distance, in any instance, u can find me, all blindly smiley, yet not a funny guy, hunny I'm high, that's how I get thru life, dealt with the serious strife, got a very dry sense of humor, believe the kinky rumors, that's my meditation, don't like western medication, the cure is actually living, instead of taking try giving, reciprocity generosity, u gotta be pretty fucking special to use this booty as a depository, the ultimate glory hole, mine is the most epically legendary gay story told, best thing since sliced bread, a thick short bald older wiser white version of Lil Nas X, it's a sure bet, just haven't been discovered yet!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/15/25

Soul Windows

Finally finding my stride, after my whole family died, found my light, that resilient fight, I got from my folks, my authenticity isn't a hoax, this is genuinely who I am, a gay gentlemany man's man, yet super emotional and empathic, having a high I/E Q doesn't make me ecstatic, I'm hard to love, often described as too much, feeling not enough at the same time, hide behind I'm fine, when inside I'm dying, don't mind publically crying, it cleanses the soul, since eyes are the windows u know, vulnerability isn't weak, in fact a wise warrior is impossible to beat or defeat, when one masters self, it's everybody else who's gonna need help!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/14/25

My Smile Style

Cop a listen, to some optimism, it's pretty easy, to be corrupt and sleazy, til karma comes back around, and the effects are wicked profound, u get what u give, manifest how u live, embrace ur power, we never know our last day nor hour, have another adventure, smack them dentures, eating Dorritos and ice cream, stop being so damn mean, it's not funny hunny, u can't buy happiness or respect with money dummy, and u can't take it to the grave either, u need a tremendous amount of hope and faith to maintain being a believer, but I'll do it with grace and style, cuz remember no matter what we're gonna smile!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/14/25

Hope's So Dope

Integrating inspiration love light and hope, into poetry and music that's so super thought provokingly dope, it's broadening collective scopes and horizons, help transcendent elevation thru massive mind unbindings/unblindings, can't rewind time, but we can mindfully change and grind, towards a much better brighter future, I'm not trying to spook ya, but why haven't u recognized ur mistakes, let alone do what it takes, to in small tiny ways, manifest the best life everyday, be truly grateful and happy, learn to laugh and smile along with not at me, cuz baby ain't nobody perfect, but we're all beautifully special and worth it, willingly give and spread hugs, know deep in ur whole heart and soul we are enough!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/13/25

It's Genuine Authenticity Silly

Wanna grow bigger, not so easily triggered, cuz I'm better than that, and talking smack's whack, but I am only human, focus on what I'm doing, I apologize with changed behavior not empty words, ur sorrys hurt me worse, but I've worked hard to move on and heal, my glow up is real, super grateful and appreciative for ur support and love, artists can never be validated enough, we're all pretty insecure, and totally want more of course, found better boundaries and limits, shed all the illusionary gimmicks and tricks, it sounds simplistically silly, what people really value most seems to be genuine authenticity!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/12/25

True Happiness & Success No BS

Ur too old to be hobosexual, ur relationship with a daddy u know is incestual, it's gross, u can't host, that's why u like to nest, doin meth isn't the best, but hey ur an adult, keep adding injury to insult, ur hurting urself, avoiding love and help, ur bad, I ain't mad, in fact I'm so happy without u, I'm finally seeing exactly what I bouted and grew thru, we are not the same, I don't play the victim game, I've been dealing with real trauma, u created ur own drama, and refuse to take accountability, I now get giggly cuz I think ur simply silly, so over ur bs, my revenge is living in my true happiness and success!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/12/25

Happy Heavenly Mother's Day Mom

Today is not about grief sadness nor sorrow, mom would never want me to wallow, life is totally worth living, none of us are perfect so start forgiving, bad choices and decisions, don't have to make us cold and distant in emotionless prison, I'm on a conscious mission, to get people to wake up and listen, we need to appreciate women, they are not just their father or husband's minion, in fact they're rather existential/incredible, wicked special and can cook dishes definitely delectable, it's probably her love language, cuz they empathethize with all the pain and anguish, would do anything for kids to avoid having to struggle or suffer, nothing quite like once having the world's best mother, no other could compare, but now haven't any fear cuz she travels with me in my heart as my guide everywhere!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/11/25

Hunger For Adventure & Wonder

Now that I'm closing that chapter, focused on laughter instead of what happens after, or even next, done with feeling cursed/hexed, I'm the best, and if ur reply is I guess, then u don't know me at all, I resiliently rise after each fall, I'm like a Phoenix personified, here's kleenex for the tears cried, it's understandable, wish God was commandable, so I can believe in free will, let me see the bill, too many hidden taxes and fees, I think the whole globe would agree, enough with poverty and hunger, life is beautiful filled with existential adventure and wonder, embrace grace again and forgiving, let's collectively start blissfully living!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/10/25

Riches Or Glitches

Guys night was a blast, real unconditional love and friendship isn't something I lack, my cup runneth over, let go of all that weight on my shoulders, now is my time to shine, don't have to hustle and grind, but I do, I'm a creator dude, I'm leaning in, fiending a win, cuz I'm done being the sum of my losses, wanting fame but do u know what the cost is, are u willing to sell ur soul, what's the end goal, power and riches, or the ability to see the matrix glitches, be that spiritual being, manifest ur best life and start healing, get back control, slow ur roll, life takes a toll, so come chill out with ur bros and let's smoke a blunt bong or bowl!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/10/25

Ever Better

I'm overzealous at times not greedy, very choosy but not needy, if u don't want the honor, of having me as ur primary partner, let them, u ain't my friend, I'm urs there's a difference, in every single instance, got used and then discarded, no longer broken hearted, stronger than ever, my life without u keeps getting better, smiling more, less of a lustful whore, content being single, love to socialize and mingle, make out with a hotty, smoke a fat ass Goddy, anytime I want, stay humbly cocky and flaunt, shaking what my mama and papa gave me, and y'all can watch my glow up majorly jealously/hatefully!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/9/25

Talents & Skills That Kill

Guess y'all don't like political, those numbers were pitiful, so I'll write another, heart strings tugger, that perhaps speaks to our soul/essence, every moment's a gift that's why it's called present, just remember, we're all better together, in this overpopulated world, let's not compare obstacles hurdled, instead let's unite and fight, to make things fair again just and right, come on sheeple walk with me thru the darkness and into light, can't always trust sight, the spiritual realm is real, ull never get anything u want in life unless u communicate how u feel and heal, don't cheat lie steal or kill, make ur own money hunny using ur natural talents and sharpening ur skills!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/8/25

All People Should Be Equal

Let's outdo yesterday's views and get in the millions, Congress must be treated like civilians, yes all people, should be equal, and the rules apply to everyone, being president isn't supposed to be fun, it's great responsibility and power, how did democracy become devoured, must be from the valueless capital, earth's gonna grow uninhabitable, just like in The Lorax, corporations need to pay more tax, eradicate crypto, protect urself from subliminal hypno, where's there a solution, to this toxic noise light food man made drugs disease and pollution, how about some accountability, to an avoidant that idea seems silly, since simply no more moral respectful decorum, the world wide web's become a numb dumb sesspool/forum, reality bastardized virtual, any resolutionary attacks should be strategically surgical, let's not make things worse, cuz life lately's insufferably soul suckingly cursed and it really fucking hurts!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/8/25

Divine Drive To Try Time After Time

What should I say or do, to get thousands of views, how can I inspire u, while continueing to still speak the truth too, conscious not conscience, judging what's right or wrong is nonsense, just sharing a lil bit different perspective, hope y'all are happy with what u elected, hate to say I told u so, but u know tho, it sucks experiencing the consequences of other people's choices, I've been told I have one of those unique special voices, my iconic top 3, are Tupac Lauryn Hill and Mariah Carey, they are legengary original songwriters/live performing artists, and traveling that rare revolutionary path's the hardest, cuz u need divine resiliency talent and drive, which only develops having the consistency like Cyndi sings to try "Time After Time"!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/7/25

An Alchemist Of Happiness/Bliss

Guess I'm an alchemist, can transform this pain from grief into happiness/bliss, art is a gift, meant to inspire and uplift, helping others helps ourselves, I'm not sharing it for the wealth, I've got more than I need, money doesn't grow on it is the tree, got nothing to back it up, last time I checked what conquers all is love, so I'll keep the faith, yes even despite being gay, my existence isn't sin, hope good finally wins, way too many are hurting, wasting their life away working, lost or ignore their passion and purpose, we all should collectively be of service, neglect selfish ego and pride, held accountable for mistakes and lies, why can't we go back to at least semi normal, where we remember respect civility and to be more friendly or cordial!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/7/25

Treasure The Unmeasured Pleasure Of Pure Love

Gemini move naturally unbothered, fuck the re I'm just an evolver, push people past their self made walls boundaries and limits, and can see and read thru their shticks tricks and gimmicks, I'm underestimated yet use it, to make very epically legendary poetry infused music, speaking transcendant truth love and consciousness, cuz I'm simply tired of all this twilight zone corrupt obnoxiousness, shine a light on all this darkness, my level of empathy trumps Trump's business-like heartlessness, it's not funny, nor any way to run a country, but I'm just wicked fucking blessed to not forget there's still our pure collective soul, I don't choose want or need anything or body else to be completely whole, I won't ever be complicitly exploited devoiced nor ai duplicated, I can transmute my own extreme grief and pain plus ur judgmentally discriminating hatred, into something golden yet rainbowy like a treasure, my mindfully higher vibration of authenticity brings nothing but infinitely global even universal pleasure that's unmeasurably better experienced together, so now's the time to unmatrix/actually tap in, and successfully let's be the last one's sassfully blasphemously laughing!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/7/25

Cordial Normal

Going back to normal, distant and cordial, ur avoidance, is an annoyance, harming urself, running from help, seeking comfort, yet won't work, u want everything handed/given, can't have emotionless love or living, this act, is rather whack, and quite foolish, pretty petty and toolish, has no effect on me, cuz I'm legendary, in the making, I ain't faking, authenticity is my vibration, enjoy watching gawking and hating, happy and unbothered is my revenge, when we see each other it's tense, u can play defense, I'll just simply ignore u and get bent!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/7/25

U.N.I.T.Y. Between Y'all & I

When I'm content single and happy, I'm not as biting snappy nor sassy, which is what people have been naggingly asking of me, I don't like being sarcastically nasty, but I show both my light and dark, speak truth from my soul and heart, it's naturally genuine, I'm a masculine divine feminine, an anomaly, being different doesn't bother me, it's the shame game, we only have ourselves to blame, yet don't take accountability, more about transactional profitability, over fulfillingness' bliss, they'd prefer comfortableness, focused on escapism, fuck hate sex and racism, to be like the Queen we gotta U.N.I.T.Y., which starts by stopping the divisiveness between y'all and I!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/5/25

Deeply Feely

My words leave an impact often, laying issues to bed or in a coffin, I don't hold shit in, only so many times we can forgive and rebegin, I never left, ur just inept, not trying to put u down, the rejection was so profound, it effected me deeply, guess I'm too touchy feely, it scares dudes away, healthy relationships seem impossible with gays, they don't know real love, mistaking my need for cuddles or a big bear hug, which is intimacy not wanting to get fucked, the change I want is my luck, we all are feeling stuck, at the point we're well past enough being enough!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/5/25

Reawakened Conscious To What's Toxic

Focusing on something else helps, but not good if it negatively effects my mental or heart health, I'm really struggling, there's nowhere to put all my loving, my childhood home, is about to get sold, that chapter's almost totally closed, so much has been shown/exposed, like pent up jealousy envy anger and pain, the extreme grief is obviously how it's explained, but it takes every ounce of energy, to swallow my ego and pride going to therapy, feel wicked abandoned, no love even when asked begged and demanded, sorry I'm such too much, I thought u were way more than just a lil crush, a possible twin flame, got me caught up in this crazy chasing game, however now I've reawakened conscious, realizing that relationship was dangerously enabling draining one way and plain toxic!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/4/25

Feel It Don't Shield Shit

I'm not a judgmental hater, I'm a truth sayer, simple as that, I speak on experience/wisdom/fact, and I can still show kindness and love, ull always be enough, for me, it's all about authenticity, don't match my energy, kept close like an enemy, cuz u only seem to know how to use, can't even imagine the abuse uve been thru, but I feel it, u shield shit, or simply avoid altogether, when u take accountability ull grow better, I'm not perfect nor healed, just genuine and keep it 100% real, good or bad, happy and sad, shouldn't be mad, I'm more grateful and glad, thats why I'm free, smile so bright with glee, it radiates joy, and I absolutely give 0 fucks who that annoys!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/4/25

Don't Mess With The Blessed

Just cuz 2 users choose each other, and call one another their lover, doesn't make it true, we all see thru u, and we think it's rather pathetic, who knew I was so prophetic, thank God I dodged that bullet, he was so full of it, I'm calling my power back, actually have very lil lack, I was simply misfocused, forgot about the locust, beautiful yet deadly, that's why I don't let strangers bed me, my peace and happiness are unmeasured, no I won't blow it on instant gratification/pleasure, over time, is how u find, a person's character, that's how I can write this with laughter, I'm chosen, ur broken, yes ur a hot mess, so I'll sit still chill stay protected and I guess blessed!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/4/25

Stay Solo & Get Bent Again

Gonna keep it pushing, enjoy the cushion, I've sacrificed and saved, I refuse to be caged, a codependent slave, y'all don't know what dues I've already paid, focus on ur journey, shouldn't try to learn me, just to manipulate, let's actually date, I won't pay to play, nor have a sexual exchange, especially with practically a stranger, I avoid and wary of danger, ur waving red flags, I don't fuck with fags, I like real men, I won't be screwed over and taken advantage of again, I've got enough love and friends, I'd rather stay solo peaceful and get bent!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/3/25

Smile With Style

Don't wish days away, choose fight over flight and stay, work it out, without the need to scream and shout, that's called maturity, trust my purity, I'm a real genuine good dude, it's not my character to be disrespectful nor rude, my catch phrase is smile, I'm ok with others biting my style, but y'all could never be me, even if u can match my energy, I ain't worried, nobody will flock or scurry, to watch u perform magic live, my light's too bright to hide, its simply nataural, my talent is divine/factual, got nothing to prove, actually that guy who speaks truth and follows thru with what they do!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/2/25

Destiny Me

Trying to smile thru the pain, dance umbrellaless in the rain, I've met a ton of rejection, apparently that's a blessing/protection, still gotta keep the faith, especially during this wait, remember that he's on his way, and won't be late, just know the time will come, when loneliness will be done, I deserve to be happy again, that's nothing against family and friends, I'm grateful for all the love I have, tho jealousy and anger rage when I focus on my lack, I'm working on being better, way less tethered and fettered, to materialistic past expectations of the old me, finally taking that faithful leap into my new incredibly bold destiny!

Peace and 1,

Joe Conscious 

5/1/25